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This play list is top tier in Shadow work I know one day Leo will make the shadow work video. The prophecy will be fulfilled

This is the whole point of the post! Thanks for making it explicit

It has come a time where I must face this truth: Spirituality makes me unproductive. I need to make things work out in my life and I am in a phase where that's what I must do and what reality demands of me, yet all I truly want is God-Realization, Mysticism and Philosophy. That has been my eternal struggle in my life, again and again I want to pursue Truth and transhuman consciousness but my regular human life doesn't allow me to. And I get into these cycles of extreme productivity and extreme transcendentalism and I'm never able to actually make peace with any of these and once for all live in a mature way; so I end up not doing any as I would like to. Because I just don't really enjoy the whole human survival game, it's not for me, I want the most profound peaks of consciousness and that's what I have loved doing since I was a child, that's what makes me thrive, what makes me wanna live and what wakes me up every morning. But that's unrealistic and I know it, reality reminds me again and again, and it crushes my soul again and again, having to do shit I hate to survive, I feel alienated and still don't see a way to bridge and unite. I strongly desire integration. I want to be a mature human being with a strong work ethic that is realistic and executes what needs to be done. Because my human happiness depends on that. The point is both options make me unhappy but one is the pain that grows me and the other is the pain of my own immaturity. In fact, If I'm truly honest with myself I know that I should forget spirituality for some good years, because I'm way too advanced in it, and focus on bulding a solid personal life, but does that fulfill me in the same way? hell no. I just find myself year after year forced to build structure for some hypothetical day where I can finally live the life I want, but meanwhile my soul is raped and this intern schism inside me continues... This shit is really killing me... I see no way out It's not that my life is falling apart, it's that I honestly struggle with the human condition despite doing fairly good in life. I know I just have to swallow the pill but I don't know why I can't. I really don't know why I can't integrate myself and wise up, yet it's all I want; peace in myself.

Oh man, thank you, that shit really arrived to my heart. I wanna make something amazing out of my life, I wanna live my best life and I love my life. I just have to pay the cost for it and I'm being a bitch about it. I'll toughen up and excuses and limitations will be overcomed little by little. I know where my genius is, I'm just figuring out how to live out of it. Thank you @enchanted I would give you a hug if you were in front of me. Hoping you a great day ★

I get also that but it's only a state change. It doesn't stick because everyday actions are not aligned with myself. Bite the bullet again and again without needless drama.

It does for me also but I want to be proactive instead of reality forcing me to do things, which I find it to be a very immature behaviour.

As she was moving from ward to ward of a hospital, she remarked: "this also is a temple with God's images. It is God who manifests in the shape of disease as well. In every one of these temples the gods and goddesses are giving darshan. The sense of want, of emptiness and one's true being are in exactly the same place - in fact, they are That and That alone. What is this sense of want and what is "true being"? God and nothing but God. For the simple reason that there is one single seed (singularity), which is the tree as well as the seeds as well as all its various processes of transformation - truly the One Alone. You attempt to appease want with want; hence want does not disappear, nor does the sense of want. When man awakens to the acute Consciousness of this sense of want, only then does spiritual inquiry become genuine. You must bear in mind that only when the sense of want becomes the sense of the want of Self-knowledge, does the real Quest begin. Whether you call it the One, the Two, God or the Infinite, whatever anyone may say, all is well. ~ MA Anandamayi.

At peace. Death is peace. I would struggle a bit in the moment of intensity pre-death-breakthrough but the tight "I" is forced to dissolve so that would be it.

ahahahhahah, that caught me so unprepared be careful about raping God, you may end up fucking yourself in the ass for infinity! That's the ultimate mind fuck

Becoming as Conscious and as Godly as I can. The art of doing what you hate to do but need to do, as if you loved it.

Once you get transcendent enough, the transcendence ends up kissing itself in the ass and totally merging back again with the now experience, in the most strange loop way you can't imagine I see beauty and divinity everywhere that's precisely why I want to exalt it and make it my life's meaning. Surviving is often an obstacle for this maximization of consciousness and meaning that I feel spontaneously motivated to flow in. It is precisely because I love my mundane life that I can't stand the way I'm living to make ends meet, not because it's bad, but because how good I know it can be. I can't express in words how much I enjoyed listening to this masterpiece. You gifted me a precious moment, I'll check more songs of this kind. Thanks

@Clarence I see the beauty in human life, the problem is that I'm stuck in a very demanding scenario which asks me to do daily things which I'm not interested in at all. I have at least 1 year more to go about this and have been 4 years in this situation. I'm simulatenously studying two engineering degrees which I thought I would like but I don't, and I thought it would get better with time but it just got worse and I now must finish. I really do think that when I'm able to complete my university studies next year I'll have some hope to make peace in myself. However till that happens, I think I'll just have to suffer through it, i've tried everything for these years and still haven't been able to reconcile it. My only hope is to find a job that is aligned with my values and that I enjoy doing, have the classical job experience for some good years, make a financial cushion for my girlfriend and me to then start my own bussiness. So yeah if this a lesson, make sure you pick properly your major and don't hesitate to change if you are not feeling good, it won't go any better with the years.

@TrevorEmdon Hi my friend, welcome to the forum. I don't say they are mutually exclusive for everybody but I still haven't figured out how to balance them in my life. I guess this will be a pretty common problem for other people too. why? because its' very difficult to experience transhuman levels of consciousness and then take seriously the human game, no, the spell has been broken but you still have to play the game. No, not at all. The way I pursue spirituality cannot fit into that paradigm. You cannot live in the states of consciousness I'm talking about, you can't move or talk, you can barely sit straight and even taking the next breath is an adventure, a conscious decision that rests on your will.

@LambdaDelta I can relate brother. Thanks for sharing, it makes me feel better knowing that is a common struggle.

@Fountainbleu how was that transition? What made you take such decision?

@Javfly33 I'll make a shift to a more horizontal spirituality because I cannot keep my approach and handle a regular life. For me spirituality is all about blowing the limits of my consciousness into higher consciousness. Doesn't matter the practice, I do it with a lot of intensity till the breakthrough. A more stable horizontal path would allow me to be more grounded and mindful. While being fairly satisfied. Thanks for the advice, those are good ways for integration.

Don't ground your present experience on science or matter or brains or humans or in anything, as much as you can: be groundless. Be in direct experience, you are in the right direction towards Truth but you still haven't grasped that this is a dream for real and not a material universe. That's still in the back of your mind and worldview and is limiting your sense making. You can use science as useful lens but you cannot have it all the time on while being unaware of it, particularly on existential truthful inquiry. Human self is a contraction of energy and feelings, like a tight fist. A beautiful structure, like soap bubbles. Location arises from consciousness not the other way around. Consciousness is everpresent and absolute, all encompassing and Infinite. Being and consciousness are identical. in the initial phases it is perceived as being or what is. When realization matures and deepens, being is seen as pure consciousness. Tricky questions I'm still contemplating myself. I have a little pet theory of consciousness vs awareness. While everything is consciousness you may not be aware of it. So All is consciousness but you may not be conscious of all what consciousness is, that property of consciousness I call awareness. Right now you may be unaware of your nose in your visual field, nevertheless it is being held in consciousness. Well in truth it is consciousness itself. Consciousness and Awareness (conscious of consciousness) may provide an useful lens for your inquiry.

It's good to get the masculine femenine psychology.

@Yimpa You are a necessary balancing tool for the forum

@BlurryBoi Only when it is manifested as all loss is there hope for It to manifest as all gain

chop wood, carry water

@Leo Gura choose your venom as they say

I am enlightened and parecetamol stopped making effect on me... I think it's a reasonable skepticism, don't you think? Maybe psychedelics don't affect them in the same, well ok. And so? what is the point after all this conversation @bambi?

Yes, I did notice. To me is not a problem, it's the perfect design of life. Why is it for you a problem?

True, then why enlightenment? why meditation?