Meeksauce

My health issues are finally clearing up after a few months of constant suffering. I had a stomach infection, and nerve damage in multiple places as well as several other conditions. In light of this, I have decided I want to try 5meo at least a month or two after I'm completely symptom and pain free. I can already drink alcohol and smoke weed again as well as eat whatever I want so my body's already recovered a lot. My question is - what should I expect for a low dose of 5meo for my first time? Is it possible to struggle to breathe after one hit, say 5-10mgs, and how should you counteract this? Is a trip sitter absolutely necessary if I've tripped hundreds of times on other psychs like dmt, shrooms, acid, etc? How overwhelming is it to become absolutely everything? I know this probably wouldn't happen off one hit, but if I took a breakthrough dose, is this terrifying, peaceful, or ineffable to become infinity? I like having mystical experiences and a good mind fuck, but even for me this sounds like a lot. To me it sounds like it would be pretty indescribable as your self is merged into the infinite but idk you guys tell me.

Should I meditate the days prior? And what is a scary 5meo trip like? I've had scary lsd trips where my thought loops were uncomfortable but I realized the only thing I had to fear was fear itself. Is it like that?

I take melatonin to trip as I'm falling asleep more so than just taking it as a sleeping aid. I get very vivid visuals as I'm falling asleep and then my dreams on it are very vivid and trippy. I've done dmt countless times and melatonin is honestly like taking one or two rips of it for me. I remember one dream I had on it, I was being subjected to "higher dimensional torture" where I was descending down a ladder in empty space and on each rung I was like attacked by higher dimensional forces in increasing intensity and inconceivability as I got lower on the ladder. The first time I broke through to infinity was in this dream, I just fell through a hole and went to this enormous empty space. It was comparable to a very high dose psychedelic trip. Maybe it's notable that this was my first time taking melatonin in a while and I had also been on a month long t break from weed (first time to stop smoking in years). Let me know if this happens to anyone else because I'm curious. I also have a crazy high psychedelic tolerance, I took a huge dose of amanita gummies and they didn't do anything to me but meanwhile melatonin makes me trip dick.

It's not that you have an experience of other beings not having an experience. It's that you can become so conscious that you're aware of how your mind is creating reality.

When you talk about solipsism with someone else, you're basically saying this WOULD be true for them if they were conscious, which they're not. It's just to help them understand the concept so they can have an awakening for themselves, even though it's not really happening. Alas, the ego still wants to tell "others" about this once it realizes it. But you're helping imaginary beings. Yes it is possible to have a direct experience awakening to solipsism where it is proven to be absolutely impossible not to be true.

I just took 4 tabs of lsd and grabbed some amazing insights for you all. Yes, Solipsism is true and everything Leo says is correct. I verified this to be absolutely impossible for it to not be true through direct experience. I made a forum a while ago attempting to debunk solipsism, and I acknowledge I was wrong. You guys should listen to Leo more instead of trying to refute him all day like me. Anyways, the bulk of what I wanted to get at with this is that God is a GENIUS. GENIUS is baked into the way reality is designed, and God has an intellect and even sense of humor not so different to us humans. He is constantly showering us in love using the most subtle yet effective means possible, and everything in your life happens so you can awaken deeper and deeper to God. God fragmented itself off to forget what it was like to be God, and is slowly feeding itself reminders until it remembers. I know it sounds like I'm just re-hashing everything Leo says but MAN it feels good to finally gain these realizations for myself. It's really all true and it's the most amazing thing! Because solipsism is true, your thoughts are directly intertwined with reality and how it interacts and responds to you. God is CONSTANTLY communicating to you, it's just a matter of whether you're able to hear it/listen to it. There is so much staggering genius put into every minute nook and cranny of reality, that it defies all possibility. Anyways that's my two cents on how everything works. I hope all of you will be able to realize these things for yourself because man it feels great when you do.

Experience is an illusion, but it's still there. I would have to be a dumbass to deny my own consciousness. You can't seriously expect me to sit here and go "yeah my visual field that is clearly here is actually not here."

I am perfectly calm. I'm just trying to tell people what enlightenment is and they're not listening.

I have some serious health issues so yes I have a lot of pain and I still suffer. If I didn't have health issues I wouldn't be suffering.

You're the one with a superiority complex by having to have the male feel "inferior and insecure". This is just your egoic reaction to me telling you and everyone else here the truth. You just want power by saying this.

I'm curious, where are the holes?

Ok lol stay mad

Go watch/rewatch Leo's video titled An Advanced Explanation of God Realization. I think that's the one where he talks about awakening being on a scale of 0 being deep sleep and infinity being the opposite of that.

I mostly agree with you. I wasn't saying God is like a biological entity with a brain, I'm just saying intellect is a facet baked into reality. We agree on that. You are just too caught up in concepts like nothing being everything to actualize and experience of awakening. And there is experience. If you have consciousness, you can't deny it. Or if consciousness is present. Don't get caught up in the wording with that. And I can assure you I have no concepts or beliefs about reality other than solipsism and reality being God which I have directly confirmed for myself. I have also recognized no self like you say. It's just an illusion. Reality is just existing, and the mind projects a self and meaning on top of that. I get that.

I see what you're saying, and no, I might not realize that I stumbled across the truth if I hadn't learned about awakening. It's a very tricky thing and requires a lot of intelligence to grasp. But that doesn't mean it's not a real thing. It's like I'm mining for gold and someone tells me where to look to find it. I could've found it on my own, but it's a lot easier when someone tells you where it is. And you know it when you find it.

Ok, reality is absolute, might as well call it the external world. It makes no difference. I think we actually agree on this.

I don't disagree with you on this. I know I was never born. But there was a time when this lifetime started. That's an important distinction for you. And I never said I think I was born, so I don't know where you're getting that from. Deep sleep is not awakening. Absolute infinity is awakening. Deep sleep is just one state within absolute infinity. There are an infinite number of different states.

You're not awake. Your mistake is thinking God is dumb and cannot be understood by humans. But God has an intellect. Intelligence and meaning are baked into the structure of reality. Reality is smart, and it is there, and it can be understood. It's not all a great big nothing for no reason with no purpose. It's the greatest thing imaginable. Total perfection. You have God on too low of a pedestal. If you were awake you would understand this.

Thanks for the reminder God. And idk, I guess I was expecting the people here to be at a much higher level than they are and actually get some useful feedback/additional insights. I got a pretty decent chunk of the awakening mountain range with this recent awakening, but obviously not the whole thing and I was hoping "others" could help fill in the gaps. But obviously that is not the case. You're right, it's pretty pointless to be on here after awakening to solipsism. I guess I get a kick out of destroying people who are clueless lol.

Yes, we speak English. What's your point. What do you mean my nonsense? I'm not the one talking nonsense.

Yes, humans learn. What's your point. You're saying awakening can't be learned about. If that were the case we would all be born enlightened. Everything you say is a word salad with no substance. And don't come back saying "oh but reality itself makes no sense and has no substance". That's just you trying to backwards rationalize your worldview to support your nonsense logic.

Direct experience is not a concept. It's a pointer towards awareness and the present moment. The word to describe it does not mean it's a philosophy. It's the opposite of philosophy and conceptualizing. When I was a baby all I had was direct experience. My brain just wasn't intelligent enough to have the language to call it something. This is very obvious stuff.

Psychedelics reveal the truth. It doesn't take a genius to distinguish content vs context on a trip. And no, awakening is not a competition for me because there's nobody I'm competing against. And yes once you awaken it's easy to see when people are bullshitting.

You treat it as though the fact you don't make sense is profound. It's not. You're rambling nonsense. It's like I said - "It's really sunny outside so pandas are green but not turtles". Then you say - "Wait that sentence has no logical coherence" to which I say "No, it's just too profound for your feeble brain to comprehend". You have to be open to the possibility that someone is smarter than you and can actually see through your logic and bullshit. I know you're attached to your worldviews and think they're right, but they're not.