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So this is my third trip with a friend, summary of the most amazing things during the trip. - I made a specific playlist for the trip for me and my friend. (one of the sounds in the playlist is ohm sound) - I let everything go, and i imagined that i was selfless and that i was being in some kind of an arena as GOD where i could tap into any information i wanted. - Started feeling intense love, wasnt my ego body anymore. Felt heat on my head like i was tapping into source. - Was selfless in some kind of an arena, and i could tap to any information that i wanted and it would get channeled from source. - Realized that even the channeled information is just an illusion on top of illusion even if it had truth in it. - When the songs switched to meditative "oooohmmmmm" sound, i saw a flash how i dreamed up everything until this point and that there was no time just illusion of dreaming. There was no difference between my sleeping dream and my waking dream, everything was connected in the presence only , no time. Everything that i did during sleeping dreaming was also connected to this waking dream. - While i was seeing this how god just dreamed up me and my reality in 1 flash, god gripped me with love and powerful energy. God made me yell "this is my awakening" like 10 times. Then he let my body off the grip and i started crying, i thought i died because even the room i was in looked like heaven after death. - My friend sitting next to me was inverted in his mind, and was seeing me in his mind as "it's finally my turn to wake up" , "it's finally my turn to wake up" ,"it's finally my turn to wake up" . -Next day : I drive my car, and i see some kid holding snowball. I imagined that he would throw the snowball at my car, and after 20 sec he did. Realized that i don't predict things since there is no time, i'm just imagining my reality. edit: Also the playlist , the songs, the sudden awakening during the ohm sound. I realized that i created this awakening for myself and nobody else

Yesterday i had my awakening, i got gripped by higher consciousness god or something and than my body kept saying this is my awakening, this is my awakening, while being shown in 1 flash with eyes open how i dreamed up everything until thid point where i was. Than the grip of god let me go and i started crying . It even showed me how my sleeping dreams had a connection with this form of dreaming and that it was basically the same. But none of this is in my memory now, it is also pretty obvious how my body/mindd/ego puts a limit on my consciousness. So your saying about death still doesnt make any sense to me. Why do i keep dreaming a dream of this ego body if i don't want to???? @Leo Gura

not respecting woman = kid and not a man. It's also the way to get with low consciousness woman that are a reflection of yourself

Yeah i get what you're saying based of my experiences, but i just can't come to a realization of this /awake to this. Do you think 5 meo malt or 5 meo dmt can give me this experience or understanding? Im planning to do 5 meo malt very soon

@HolykaelThis is what i got while being in god mode. Maybe this can be an answer for us? The way i get into god mode is by using specific sound from haidakhan babaji meditation he was an avatar on this earth. So i was god again and was being a witness of the world i'm dreaming up it was like a movie, here it was really obvious that life is a "flow", if you try to do something/control it/understand it then it will go wrong. It felt that in this consciousness state that when everything "flows" it feels better when it isnt interrupted. If i tried to take over the "flow" then it would stop. For example all the characters in the semi dream state have their own freewill and act like they're invidual people, freewill in the sense that i'm letting the "flow" state happen. When i tried to interrupt things by thinking for example that i wanted to witness things from their own perspective then the "flow" would stop and it didnt feel good anymore. Because they didnt have freewill anymore , and they couldnt say anything anymore because of this the god mode stopped. I think it stopped, because in the dream i knew that everything is me and that i'm alone so the best option is to never interrupt the "flow". So god has freewill in the dream that is what the "holy spirit" does by spawning symbols in the name of god for example, but god also knows that all the dream characters is = he himself so if god would stop the flow his "game" would stop and it wouldn't feel good to god because he would have a realization that he is alone. The characters in the gods dream have freewill, but freewill in the sense of infinity/randomness.

@Leo GuraOkey let me ask this question differently... But why am i aging and when will it stop, i'm waking up in the dream getting older how far will it go or when will it stop?

Well there is the difference between high and low consciousness breeding, low consciousness people breed with low consciousness people like monkeys and probably the most. I must say though back in the days, when i had lower consciousness i had a way bigger ego. The thing is, the realization that i gained about woman and how they work is because back in the days i was interested in their psychology. Spend like 3-4 years in Vrchat playing in full body, where everyone is being truely themselves. Came to many realizations,did many tests, realized in the bigger picture that woman are like bots being attracted to certain behaviours that display good genetics. Good genetics in the sense of = best behaviour that fits their persona and their subconscious. Got laid alot, with ease while being empathetic with nice masculine love energy. In the end got to love woman even more because of the realization how they actually work subconscious wise and how cute it actually is. Just be a man and love woman, don't try to be super masculine or whatever... They just want a guy that they can connect with and lay their head on his shoulder

Sorry but this is bs, i'm a sperm donor and have had many 1 night stands because i perfectly understand how woman work and their subconscious that basically nobody knows. And i do value woman alot and respect them as a fellow human being, but not in a way an incel or a virgin might do for example. Woman just want you to be yourself/normal in the bigger picture, want to have a good connection a guy with great genetics. Genetics in the whole picture is mostly your behaviour, you can fake personality/behaviour by knowing how females subconscious/biology work but that's too deep to explain. In the bigger picture just be yourself and treat everyone equal, the things that i know about a woman or what i can do is a form of manipulation from higher consciousness and i don't do that anymore. I also don't care about sex anymore, because it is so clear to me how the story goes if i want it. Maybe you're speaking from a similar perspective but i can't tell based off what you've just said

@Leo Gura I know that i'm dreaming death and that i have a date on my head that i'm not aware of. But let's say i'm 80 years old in god's dream and in the dream it's my time to die. How do i lose this body or what happends after? Or is it just like all of a sudden the dream of "jowblob" stopped and i'm being another character that has been dreamed up?

@Leo Gura it never actually happens in a big perspective, but what about a small perspective... How will you lose your body from your ego mind that you are right now. Can you tell us a bit more about this imaginary process, or what it will look like in your opinion?

Razard every time i read your posts recently,always the same thoughts arise not on behalf of myself that you're manic

You can't awake of that because otherwise you would be in control at all times, and its not possible when consciousness=nothingness

Consciousness is the building block of the reality that doesnt really exist, the reality is you, you're creating your reality on the go out of nothing. Which came first? The chicken or the egg? Both. Which came first? Nothingness or consciousness? It's both. You're just experiencing an illusion of something, behind the scenes there is really nothing. In the world of dualities we think nothing is actually non existence but it doesnt work like that

You both are wrong, "nothingness" and "You are Consciousness" are both the same at the highest level. I made a paint. Consciousness = nothingness , that is why there is no one in control ever and never will be.

I answered these questions here while being god.

Yes 100% , ones i reached a certain level of awareness i 100% started experiencing instant karma because i did things that werent a correct way in handling the situation and i was aware of this even when the wrongdoing was done by someone else who waa very low conscious like a thief for example.

It's not, true selflessness is when you do and say things in behalf of everything. Every action you do can't be more perfect because you are unity itself. The worm is just part of other form of consciousness that does a particular function that it chose to do, so it doesnt need to be saved. If a fly gets trapped in a lamp, why does it chose to die after some hours? It doesn't choose, consciousness itself sees that it can't execute a particular function so it just lets it die. The further away consciousness splits itself from the real 'self' the less conscious it becomes and the deeper it digs for what it is.

The real selfless state in human form , you won't really comprehend what it is. It is god operating through you. So don't even try. If you would have high enough consciousness you would see glimpses of that in your daily life. This is where miracles come from, from the level of your own consciousness

There is no free will, i have experienced this. And have seen how it works, it's a layer on top of a layer. The only glimpse of free will i have seen is when you have no ego and god is doing his work through you. But here is the joke it's just an illusion. There is no free will because god is literally only one but you don't understand this while being here. I have 100% experienced not having free will and have seen how thoughts are just like pixels, me sending a particular pixel from a higher level which is just a thought and giving a command to another person in real life. I have experienced this with a friend with whom i have a very good connection. So no you don't have free will it's just a gods dream

You're missing a very important point, there are layers to everything. So if he teaches something or says something he is speaking from a particular layer of consciousness that he experienced and thinks he understands. If we haven't experienced those layers that he did we can just be open minded and take it in. The problem with Leo teachings though on the forum, is that it's very simplistic... He just writes a sentence without explanation most of the time and that's it. If he takes the role of a "teacher" atleast explain what you're saying to lower levels. Here is an example of consciousness layers: 1. I can't live without millions of dollars. 2. Money is very important. 3. Money doesn't matter, but it's good to have it. 4. I can live with little money, i don't place importance on money. 5. Money doesn't matter to me, i just want to be free. 6. I'm not materialistic and don't place any importance on money and so on

So i was god again and was being a witness of the world i'm dreaming up it was like a movie, here it was really obvious that life is a "flow", if you try to do something/control it/understand it then it will go wrong. It felt that in this consciousness state that when everything "flows" it feels better when it isnt interrupted. If i tried to take over the "flow" then it would stop. For example all the characters in the semi dream state have their own freewill and act like they're invidual people, freewill in the sense that i'm letting the "flow" state happen. When i tried to interrupt things by thinking for example that i wanted to witness things from their own perspective then the "flow" would stop and it didnt feel good anymore. Because they didnt have freewill anymore , and they couldnt say anything anymore because of this the god mode stopped. I think it stopped, because in the dream i knew that everything is me and that i'm alone so the best option is to never interrupt the "flow".

So i get in god mode during sleep and get into dream state using specific frequencies/sounds. Which means the lessons/insights are from highest knowledge layers. I'll be writing all the insights i got while being in the god mode here.

Never had this as far as i can remember, it's also really hard to get into the god states. I found recently frequencies/sounds that increase the % a bit. Thanks, queen of personal journals

This, remember my awakening story when i became a spermdonor and had to go through a psychologist. The first vibes that i got from her was that she was narcissistic , and knew it all. Psychologists love to play mind games and act like they know everything about psychology etc, they also fake alot of things for example by obviously looking at your hands etc. acting as a "psychologist" not being truth to themselves. Basically they're playing a character and most of the time they're not being them selves which is a red flag always. The further you go away from your real "self" the lower your consciousness. But anyway, i did things to her that she was flabbergasted just by my behaviour without saying anything that she even moaned. (also created some miracles just by the mere knowledge i had about female unconsciousness etc. I can tell you she was just above average in consciousness nothing more and nothing less. The problem is, that you aren't conscious enough and thats why you went /needed a psychologist, she actually made you realize that the people you're looking up to (psychologist/therapists) can even have a lower consciousness than yourself. So she did a great job in helping you not being dependent on other people for help. Remember God (self) is the only lonely being in existence , you don't need help from anyone because you're alone.

There was a boy and a mother in the dreamstate, the boy was crying because his mother had aids and that she was dying. Me as god/consciousness in the dreamstate was interested seeing them both not being aware that they couldn't die. I had a realization that the sickness i created for the mother (aids) so that they could talk and think about me (god) During these extreme suffering moments they wake up temporarily in the dream while i'm dreaming them up, during these sort of important moments i'm getting to know myself as (god/consciousness) because then it's all about me (god).