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Also, watch out for crocodiles they are everywhere!

Your right to your work is a social construct https://www.actualized.org/insights/actualized-quotes-068

By definition they exist inside my consciousness. Don't you see that everything that appears is tied to your consciousness? Think about an outside. Is the outside inside your consciousness right now?

That's a very good explanation. I saw that I'm not inside the body, and I know that in the moment of death I will simply stop identifying with the body but I wonder what the hell will change in perception? Like, will everything melt away into blackness and reemerge as different forms or I'll watch the decay of the body, the funeral etc...? What controls what the next dream will be, total lack of control?

@Leo Gura I have neighbors who practice these kinds of rituals. They dance, chant, and play drums. They kill chicken and goat, and I suspect they killed a horse a while ago… Also, the main guy sometimes gets 'possessed' and start screaming like crazy. I used to fear this kind of thing, but now it doesn't bother me anymore, except for the killing of animals. It's interesting that these beliefs are thought from an early age and by the time they are adults they can actually create being possessed with their minds. The power of beliefs.

Some great movies I watched this last year that stuck in my mind: Poor Things (2023) Parasite (2019) Once Upon a Time in Anatolia (2011) Memories of Murder (2003) Papillon (1973) Le Samouraï (1967)

I miss your own videos on the blog.

@Leo Gura shouldn't this be deleted if it's misinformation?

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Later we'll discover that the coins aren't even made of silver and they produce them in China.

'They'll' all act like they do to keep the play rolling.

@Leo Gura To not be so bound to my insecurities and fears, to not be so weak, to be in a more free state of consciousness. Could this course be the only one among many others that I've used, that really inspires me and switch a lever in my mind, that revolutionize my mind truly?

To me it happened a few times, suddenly stopped breathing and you notice that you're not in the body. Beautiful thing.

And maybe some @Keryoke later.

Gonna grab my cup of @Keryo Koffa now.

AI. Look at the shadows and blood vessels in the eye.

I watched chuky at that age

I really doubt that you can be in a state that you see torture and cruelty as beautiful ways of God no matter what the circumstances. That's something beyond, not just a ligther way of seeing things and bullshitting yourself about it.

So only free in high states and / or dead. And since we can't stay in higher levels, I'll struggle until the day I die.

Sure. But how can I stop rejecting and see beauty in animal suffering? Everytime I see it is like pouring hot water on a exposed wound. You mocked me the other day and said that I won't overcome all my biases. Now you say I can understand that animal suffering is Gods love. Can I ever get past this and truly accept that God is love and good? I wish I could be at peace with what I see in this world.

Just had the desire to make one and enjoy the night and if I had the logs that day I'd have made it. But ended up not making it.

How can I stop rejecting and see beauty in animal suffering? You mocked me the other day and said that won't overcome all my biases.

@Leo Gura Once I was in need of logs to make a bonfire. The next day a neighbor gave me many bags filled with logs. I didn't ask him, he just simply gave it to me out of nowhere... How do you explain that?

That is the only real hard break to suicide. The unknown of what to come next... I guess almost anything is worth bearing through because it could always be worse than what it is right now. But even so, if you get kidnapped and tortured, you could say in that case suicide is really the best option, but that's still a belief because a miracle could happen and you get rescued or something. And if you can maintain an open mind and surrender, all the bad shit will end and you might be better in the future because of what you've endured. @Leo Gura This ties with your ego not having control over what the next dream will be, but when you lose the ego, is it totally out of your hands and form will just simply keep changing and morphing? Is God an infinite ocean of forms moving without control? Here's where shit gets really scary...