Anton Rogachevski

If you only tried smoking, and it didn't work well. Try eating it. Amazing difference. Almost no dry mouth, very subtle awareness and joy increase, it takes about 30 minutes to start, and then the liver metabolises it into a more potent substance, it can now easily cross the blood to brain barrier. It lasts longer and more subtly, good for emotional work, and a little awareness work. Better in the evening, it may make you drowsy on the comedown. So it will be good right before bed.

@ajasatya What could one person do, without the help of others? Do you not want to help? Then why are you here?

@ajasatya Saying it's impossible is the easiest.

@ajasatya Let's be realistic.

@Truth Addict Thank you for your input dear fellow! @now is forever It was never about a self. Perhaps the true self.

@theking00 Unconditional self-compassion, high self esteem, authentic, independence from results or thoughts of others. Just value your opinion of yourself above all else - That is confidence. A flexible mask you can change easily to fit any situation. It protects you without effort, it's transparent and it's bulletproof. True authenticity is pure infinite flexibility of endless potential.

Hello dear seeker, I go to great length about the nature of thought here: https://antonsjournal.home.blog/2019/01/01/existence-explained/ Hope it helps, Cheers.

The purpose is to have qualified teachers around the world.

Amazing level of description, I almost had a shift just from reading it. The crazy thoughts part sounded quite horrible, how could you withstand it? Is this happening to every tripper? Thank you for sharing dear fellow! Cheers.

There would be deep metaphisical questions one would need to answer thoroughly, like "What's Void?" Or "What's Ego?"

Ignoring the obvious.

Reminded me of this poem. Let the love flow freely, and any place it's stuck, focus on it until it untangles. Try chanting and stretching a lot to release energy. Don't hold on to it one bit.

Hello, and welcome dear fellow, First of all there's nothing wrong with being unconscious. It is, as it is. Secondly, what you describe is a very conscious happy life. So you are lucky to be born in a healthy environment , with a brain hardware capable of high levels of consciousness. You were an egg, and now you are chicken. You're previous form was happy with unknowing, as you developed, you realized that there's more to life. An egg has no anxiety, but it can't really experience much can it? In a sense, anxiety is the first stage of awakening. It was like that for me. That's a signal that an old bubble of reality bursted, and now there's a new one to explore. Also don't believe "authority" figures of sorts, as to what you should or shouldn't do, develop self-honesty, and intuition, and decide what's right for you. (No one else can tell you that.) Also good luck on your journey! Cheers.

Thank you very much for sharing. The most selfless person I've heard. So deeply integrated, so pure. He's an inspiration! This is an awesome lecture: Omg, does Ken Wilber have a lost brother?

Weed may cause paranoia, especially to THC sensitive types. I know cause I'm also that way. One puff and I can go for a 2 hour worst nightmare paranoia vision. Try to go clean for a couple of months, expect demons to rise, deal with them in silence and grow.

@Joseph Maynor I believe you didn't get my non dual humour. Hahaha

Really, this is the most profound topic on all this forum. I think any serious seeker should first visit here, and see how foolish all his "spiritual" beliefs are.

I tried that, but found nothing.

This sounds more like an alter ego. Believe it or not, but there can be multiple sneaky copies of the ego hidden out of sight. "Ego is the you that has preferences of reality." Very intresting and uniqe way to put it. Thank you for sharing! Cheers

@Joseph Maynor In the intellectual sense, it does seem right, except I guess my query was a trick question, because in direct experience there is no mind, nor ego. So how can one idea be an agent of another? The way I see it, the ego is an attachment (along with a nice little back story) of the mind to a body. Its an action and not a concrete thing, and so saying it has agents is as ridiculous as saying it exists.

I'm sorry dear fellow, I've lost you there. What is mind and ego in direct experience?

To try and kill the mind, is like a cucumber that wants to kill the garden. Except without a garden there wouldn't be a cucumber.

Totally! Nothing like a walk in the mountains alone. Taking in nature and even doing some chanting or singing.

@AlphaAbundance It wakes up through you. That's your purpose: being a vassel for god to know himself. Othewise he wouldn't be able to do so.

@Joseph Maynor Intresting way to put it. Do you actually experience the two? In other words, how is it manifesting in your direct experience?