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Yeah glad you noticed...suffering is so great....it allows you to really appreciate life. My appreciation grew ten fold as a result of my suffering. But obviously while you go through the suffering you want it to leave. Also...everyone really try to understand this video. All psychedelics users should watch and deeply integrate the theme of this video. ^^^^This is spirituality. Be okay...with change. Even if it conjures up deep suffering...that suffering will be impermanent. It won't last...but neither will the so called good times. In secret...there is only good times...we literally have to trick ourselves into experiencing what we call bad times. You are not allowed to run from this....the smart thing is to surrender to it. Now with that said...I'm not saying don't take pain medication lol. What I am saying is...you can train your ability to love pain and connect to it more. Do it as exercise, but if you don't think you can handle it at times nothing wrong with avoiding it at times as well. But you can train yourself to create a space where you can hold the pain and experience it at a lower intensity than normal.

This^^^^ You guys are on fire!!! LOL.

This^^^ nice post!!!

Mind helping me with this one? Respectfully of course....I am so lost lol....

This is why I keep telling people to stop trying to avoid pain, and emotional discomfort. Not too be mean....but all this fear...is ego. 1. You cannot desire to be nothing, everything, and then hope to go back to how things were before. 2. You cannot avoid emotional discomfort, when you do these substances they raise awareness and the judging part of you comes to the surface. You become MORE AWARE of your ego. Your ego is the part of you that judges, and emotes....so all emotional discomfort is due to the ego being messed with since it is the part of you that tries to retain HOMEOSTASIS, its the part that allows your reality to feel STABLE. So taking these substances messes with the comfort you feel of feeling like YOU, which is just the normal experience of this baseline. Notice you said you are afraid of damaging your brain...your brain....is imaginary. So notice you are worried about shedding the normal perceptual reality you have...but also...you want to experience something drastically different? You have a fear of going insane....what is insanity? Living from a perceptual reality that is DRASTICALLY DIFFERENT. Notice everything you have shared with us....was attempts to do this work....and remain COMFORTABLE. If you seriously want to go deeper in this work....you have to drop this. Here is a WARNING....insanity...is the inability to accept what is. What would happen....if you woke up and your entire perceptual experience changed drastically, and you couldn't accept it? You would freak out!! Now notice...is the perceptual experience what is insane? Or is it the refusal to accept it and the underlying terror and the expression of that terror what we call insanity? What you don't realize....is if you keep going down this rabbit hole you CAN and WILL ABSOLUTELY CHANGE YOUR PERCEPTION. What you don't even realize... is these come downs yall keep referring to....isn't the drug...its the body. Your body is capable of doing what these chemicals do as these chemicals are only catalysts. I learned this when I tripped for an ENTIRE MONTH and had to CONSCIOUSLY come down through an intention to go back to normal. I learned through that experience....that the only thing that holds you back...is your concept of NORMAL. Your ego has an individualized definition of what is normal, and ANY deviation from that definition which is an INTUITIVE definition, a FELT definition will conjure up FEAR. So you got to ask yourself....how much do you want to FUCK UP YOUR LIFE, because you are going to do that if you continue. Why? Because prolonged use of these substances CHANGES YOUR D.N.A. These changes WILL change permanently your experience of reality. Maybe you are able to hear better, smell better, maybe you feel emotions more intensely, maybe your depth perception changes, maybe you become permanently aware that everything is YOU. Are you prepared for this? If not? QUIT this work and go back to living as a regular human being. Because this work....ABSOLUTELY will include UPS AND DOWNS, and deep emotional pain because it is INNER WORK. I say this with deep compassion but your ego is not going to win this battle of trying to erect a wall of comfort if you continue. It WILL LOSE THIS BATTLE. Some people who do psychedelics.....go insane....and NEVER RECOVER. Why? Because they are too selfish to get their reality fucked with!!! If you are too attached to your life...then don't mess with this stuff.

All hatred of what is...is a desire for control. All beliefs that something can somehow be better is a desire for control. All of this is motivated by a lack of LOVE. The only way to understand this is to enter a state of profound LOVE. Then you will discover that you DO NOT HATE ANYTHING but LOVE EVERYTHING ABSOLUTELY. Then you have a come down and get to experience the lack of love for something. You literally cannot have a life, have an opinion from the Absolute because you love everything. Only God is unbiased, as a result it loves everything all the got damn time it's so funny. But the ego...it cannot help but judge as that is it's function. If God didn't create the ego....couldn't know anything....how can you know something...when you all you experience is Love and perfection? You need to experience duality so you can have a LIFE. Ups, Down, struggle, learning, sharing, fighting, crying, etc. You cannot understand the beauty of life without an ABSOLUTE PERSPECTIVE.

Just because YOU haven't experience it....doesn't mean its not possible. Also peace isn't an internal state....Peace IS EXISTENCE!! Existence is ALWAYS at peace. If you haven't become aware of this yet....then you are not yet awake and need further meditation practices. So yes I experienced both, in fact I have done it pretty much my whole life and thought it was normal and as I have meditated, taken edibles in the past this became even more apparent than before. My default state is peace....everything else is a finite, fleeting happening within this peace.

Many on here keep seeking to gain peace and tranquility....that is a trap. Seek to gain TERROR, and to be AT PEACE WITH TERROR. One of the most important Realizations I gained was that I could be experiencing TERROR and be perfectly at peace. So when you do your Spiritual Practices....aim for this, shoot for this. The more you can acclimate to that Peace that is always there....the more you are shedding that veil of denial that prevents you from having peace. This practice will completely change your paradigm...you will realize that no emotional expression can ever bind you, and that you have given into by giving your will to it. So the next time you feel immense fear, anger, etc.....stop....and observe.

This is just your ego reacting, something similar has happened to me before where I was hit with profound paranoia. Anytime you get hit with deep fear, terror, paranoia etc understand it is just your ego. It's not a big deal, just sit with the emotion. So freeze whatever you are doing, sit and allow that emotion expression. If you do this long enough you can become aware that you can actually function just fine while feeling terror, paranoia, etc. You can even investigate that feeling by putting your awareness on it, and then laugh at how you ever let emotions take control of you in the past. It's a cool exercise, if you find this hard you may have to practice creating space between you and your emotions first as a daily practice.

^^^^^ This. Also....the absence of logic ^^^^ All logic is motivated by fear, and a desire to control....so love is the lack of knowing. It is the lack of conditions. Logic=conditional. It is not logical to sacrifice your life from an individual perspective....for a person. Although you can certainly use logic to explain it. Logic is geared towards control and certainty, and proper investment of time and resources. Logic AVOIDS risk, it looks for the least risky option, it looks for consistency, it searches for high yield low risk. Love ignores risk, Love seeks to connect, to protect, to nourish, and ignores the risk and return associated with it. This is why the highest expression of love= DEATH. Love is sacrifice....I noticed Teal Swan did a whole video denying this and I realized why she did that....Teal Swan is too fearful and selfish. Parents sacrifice their lives to raise their children. A soldier on the battlefield sacrifices his life for his countries economic interests. Now this isn't a call to demonize logic, because ironically....selflessness is the highest form of logic because it sees the bigger picture. If your body organs were self-conscious and felt like separate organs....you would die...oh that's right it already exists....it's called CANCER!!! LOL. https://onlinelibrary.wiley.com/doi/full/10.1111/eva.13571#:~:text=In developing from normal somatic,et al.%2C 2020). Cancer is a WINK from God...to explain why selfishness== stupidity. LOL.

She compared...Tate who is a PIMP....to Martin Luther King? Also again....Tate was never truly a Red Pill guy...he's what I call a FAD CHASER. The video that put that movement on the map was a video called your average at Best uploaded by a Youtuber named Kevin Samuels. After Kevin died....Andrew Tate appeared and started going viral primarily by making appearances on the Youtube Channel Fresh and Fit. When I first saw him, I intuited he was some Scam Artist....lol and I ended up being right!! Just like I had earlier intuited that Fresh and Fit were dishonest and reports came out they were pressuring female guests for sex. The problem with the Red Pill Movement is it attracted many narcissistic men of some financial success who used their success to influence less financially successful men into unethical behavior. For the MOST part many of the original channels were not telling men to be unethical, (they were telling them to not trust or love women which has its own problems and they demonized society as well) they were telling men to work on themselves, avoid marriage because of the family court system, and to be okay living and dying without a wife and kids. It was a message counter to what Societies push for since they need each generation to give them about 2.5 kids per couple to keep a consistent population increase. Now is there some sincerity in every Asshole? Sure!! Trump cares a little, so does Tate, but they have more "It's all about me I care for myself , than I care for you" in them. In short words....if it becomes a situation of me or you, they are going to choose themselves 100 out of 100 times. You can learn tidbits from anyone, but never follow a pre-dominantly selfish ideology if you want peace of mind in life. People like Trump and Tate live and die in a constant mental state of fear/paranoia. Selfish people are paranoid by nature. That is a tell tell sign. If you are paranoid....it means you are too selfish.

Denial is a hell of drug. You are consciousness dreaming your a human...which makes you both human and not human. You can't run from this one, though you can pretend it. If you weren't human...you wouldn't even be on here moderating the forums or making videos on Youtube... ya know...HUMAN SHIT to pay the bills.

Can you please...answer your own question for us? How have you applied it?

Everything's true and untrue....hence this entire thread is word games. You could both prove reincarnation to not be true or to be true....depending on how you look at it. For example.....since everything is nothing....nothing ever happened....so no reincarnation. But if you see nothing as something....then reincarnation is always happening.....it's happening right now in every moment. Since every moment...is new. So....depending on how you look at it....something happened, nothing happened....both are true...depending on how you look at it. It's why memory is a thing...without imagining memory....you would never KNOW something happened after it happened. Memory is how we create something...without recollection....nothing ever happened. Memory is how we create TIME. As we imagine a past through memory, and then use memory to predict a future. No memory....no past, no future, only a fleeting present...that is forgotten as soon as it happens.....

Nice.... exactly...the pain part I've done before....we must experiment to discover new possibilities. When I tell you the materialistic paradigm is so limited....they have no clue. Western Science in certain ways is advanced and in some ways...is archaic. I bet you if you played around with that pain exercise long enough....you might discover something that Western Science doesn't even know!!! The funny thing is when you discover it and try to tell people.....they will think you are crazy. The secret is we are all scientists....so explore the limits of your consciousness and the limits of what your body can do....and be amazed at how in the dark humanity is!!

You think you want that.....but you don't. You actually want to experience duality, when you stay in a state of peace long enough....eventually...you will want to experience the fullness of what you are, which includes finitude which includes pain and suffering. The only reason you want peace, is because the pain and suffering is getting to you and you want relief. But once you get relief long enough....you'll want that pain and suffering again. You just aren't conscious enough to know that is the case. Whatever arises, whatever it is, is your own doing and you LOVE IT ABSOLUTELY. But you need to be in particular state to awaken to that fact. Each perspective....is just a state of consciousness. You could switch through every state and go from ABSOLUTELY LOVING SOMETHING, to pure hatred of that thing and then right back to Pure Love for it. This would blow your mind.....and completely scare the shit out of your ego because it would reveal that what you call ME, your EGO, is just a collection of states of consciousness that react to other states of consciousness. With no controller..... the only control you have...is where you direct your consciousness, but how it expresses itself is based on how you have constructed it. You don't control fear, anger, sadness, boredom, fatigue, wakefulness, forgetfulness, etc. You only observe it. Now you can change these expressions....but that takes becoming aware of the beliefs....that trigger these emotional expressions and deconstructing them. You only have Free Will through awareness/observation and action taken from that awareness observation, as long as you believe you are your beliefs and emotions...then you have no Free Will and are a slave. You can only be free of that control through awareness. Now after that....one thing will still bind you....that will be LOVE. But that is a whole other topic....first seek to realize that deconstruction and meditation is the key to claiming back freedom from being controlled by your emotions and constant emotional turbulence.

This entire thread is word games.....

R- Mode is IMAGINARY their is no R-MODE get rid of the filter!!!! All filters are LOGIC!!! I'm not talking about ANY MODE I am talking about the absence of everything...I'm talking about NOTHING. Realize you are NOTHING so you can experience EVERYTHING. There is no R-MODE or L-MODE! Listen to yourself you sound like a robot!! What you gonna tell me....Beep Beep Beep must activate R-Mode now!!! You see what I mean? Drop this logical B.S. all that is for survival. Imaginary is NOT just some arbitrary word for existence....if you close your mind....and focus...you can become aware that there is NO DIFFERENCE between dreaming in what you call sleep...and what you call real life. I can tell by your posts you truly do not get it....there is MUCH FEAR IN YOU. But you are pretending that is not the case. Until you get rid of your fear of insanity....you just playing around. Nothing wrong with that....but what's the point? You can't discover anything truly meaningful doing what you are doing. For example...I recently became aware.....I can hear with my eyes!! MY EYES!!! If you stay within the materialistic paradigm....that is what you will experience. But if you go where nobody has gone before, be an actual trailblazer....you get to see the mystical aspect of life and discover....it doesn't actually make ANY SENSE!!!! Logic is DELUSION!!!! Reality IS NOT LOGICAL it only APPEARS that way....but it is not bound by it and so it doesn't have to abide by it.

Interesting Video. https://archive.org/details/PsychedSubstance/1+Hour+Long+DMT+Trip_+UNBELIEVABLE+Story.mp4

Great trip report and great questions. Such genuine seeking. Keep going! Look forward to your next report.

Microdosing can be an alternative as well. Drugs are only a stimulant, a catalyst, in truth....you could trip without the drug....that's one of the secrets. I've stated in the past that I once took weed as an edible and tripped for over a month....that let me know....your body is the REAL DRUG, drugs just open your awareness to what your body is capable of.....truly amazing when you realize this.

You are too logical for deeper trips. You are analyzing your trip like a spreadsheet. You are not going to discover reality as being pure imagination unless you eventually drop your attachment to being able to understand what is happening. Logic is imaginary, in truth logic is delusion. We play with this delusion called logic because it helps maintain this construction we call life. But if you want to truly awaken to the true nature of reality you need to realize that entire analysis you gave...is just imaginary.

I see it too, but there is truth in inauthenticity also....truth is twisty and paradoxical like that. But yeah I see it, but that vibe can come from lack of preparation, nervousness, etc. It doesn't necessarily mean she doesn't believe in what she teaches, it could just mean she hasn't mastered learning how to present in a masterful way. Could just be slight performance anxiety. There are two types of inauthenticity, lack of confidence/conviction, or malicious intent. I'm not picking up any malicious intent, outside of wanting to get views/attention which is normal for uploading.

The part I bolded...I would say was you coming to God. I have had moments of despair when I cried out that caused a mechanism for the Absolute to reveal a glimpse to me in the past. So I would say the crying was the authentic reaching out, that brought you to God. But hey its all perspective at the end of the day.

There is only one being....you have only ever experienced your imagination and you will only ever experience your imagination. Your imagination is ABSOLUTE. There is ONLY imagination. This imagination is nothing....and that is what you are. Sounds like Solipsism to me. A Solipsistic Imagination that has the ability to create imaginary barriers to create a subject object relationship. Since those barriers are nothing....they can dissolve. When all barriers dissolve...all you have is NOTHING. That NOTHING is singular....because it is all that is. That singular is INFINITE in EXPRESSION, but all EXPRESSIONS are imaginary. This is why it has been said....nothing ever happened. The past present and future are held together by the imaginary chain called story. Deconstruct the story, dissolve the barriers...and you have a SINGULAR NOTHING....That's it!!! Questioning this means....you either are in denial or you haven't awoken to this yet.