Razard86

Exactly!!! You get it!! Its hard to accept but this is how it all works. The Ego hates this though lol.

I don't think you all understand what it means by everything is one and that everything is infinite. Let me ask you something. Is infinity one? If everything is One, then how can there be a relationship? If everything is One, then how can you experience duality. If everything is one, there would be no distinction. You all thinking to limited. You need to expand your mind around the fact that reality is infinite. It is a paradox, whatever you say it is.....it isn't And whatever you say it isn't it is. Reality is nothing, and it is also everything. Reality is one, it is also infinite. If reality was ONLY one then you couldn't exist right now as a human. You are placing a limitation on reality when you say it is only one. Reality is a shape shifter, not just in form but in concept. It has no limits, it can be ANYTHING. So anytime you describe reality you are describing it from a particular perspective. Now when it comes to this particular dream, this dream has rules. These rules were created by an infinite intelligence. A single ego would not be allowed to disrupt all of this. Why? Because everything is interconnected. It would be like your kidneys wanting to do something different than it was designed to and thus your human body dying from kidneys not filtering like they were designed to do. Your ego does nothing, the only power your ego has is how it chooses to interpret experience, and the choice of what it wants to focus on. Your higher self is the one that is in control. The whole point of spiritual awakening is to discover your ego (your sense of self as a human) is not in control of anything and is merely in the passenger seat.

You are correct Irina, as you continue to grow and evolve...you will change. All change is death and rebirth. Our entire life follows this cycle. Its okay to mourn the loss of who you once were. Just don't forget to celebrate who you are now. I'm learning myself everyday to release control. Once we release control...is when we gain it. So funny how counter intuitive life is. Many blessings!!

This. There are rules to this dream. You didn't manifest anything, this is the trap. Let me ask you....do you make your heart beat? Make your heart stop beating right now. What you need to understand is there are rules to this dream. You aren't Neo and this isn't the Matrix. You are a Co-Creator. Emphasis on Co. Only when you release your attachment from this dream do you regain your true self. Right now you are dealing with the Ego. The key to finding out when you are being egoic is this. The ego always desires control. But the source of your ability is the opposite. Releasing control. Please notice this. Your ego is currently judging reality as not sufficient and is desiring to have Administrator privileges in this dream. Let me ask you....why do you think you are here? Do you believe you are here to live a life of constant attainment of things? If so, explain to me what does that serve? Is your true nature a consumer? Or is it a creator?

Pretty women have an abundance mentality, (unless they were picked on as a kid and are a late bloomer) think of women as a rich man or celebrity. You have to do something to stand out. Otherwise you are just some guy they danced with and had fun with. Unless that is a girl who isn't social, you won't believe how often that woman has talked to an interesting guy and had a fun outing. Most women in the dating market have had more dates and social interactions. This means they have more experience. So to stand out, you have to figure out for you what you can do to not seem like every other guy. If you are like every other guy, it won't go anywhere after the outing. Truthfully though I hope you are just looking for something short-term because the advice I am giving you is how women who are looking for fun and short-term operate. Different women are looking for different things. Usually (but not always) women who are in the clubs are just trying to have a good time and as they call it "vibe." These women see new experiences like a drug, and are just trying to get their fix. It's funny I remember in movies growing up the man use to call the woman for a booty call, now the roles are reversed and the women are doing it lol.

I think Leo would appreciate you not spying on him vaping. Let the man vape in peace.

I had found a lesser known Narcissism psychologist researcher who said she had success as well. I just like Sam because he was diagnosed as one. Many of the terminologies used he coined. For example he coined the term "flying monkeys."

I've done extensive study on narcissists, are they a lost cause? No, there is recent breakthrough therapy systems in place RIGHT NOW that have produced results. Sam Vaknim is a narcissism researcher who was diagnosed with Narcissism Personality Disorder and is one of the foremost experts on it. He was able to overcome his issues while also coming up with a therapy to help Narcissists become normal. Narcissists have an underdeveloped ego. Because of this their ability to connect meaningful with anyone is hampered. Dr. Vaknim believes it is a kind of PTSD. He refers to it being a PTCT or a form of complex trauma. Narcissists are created and it happens in the formative years. You should really lose your hatred for narcissism. Narcissists suffer, they are full of shame, guilt, and walk around with a feeling of emptiness within. Narcissists in some ways are closer to God realization hilariously. Because they see everyone as an extension of themselves, which is why they have poor boundaries. In fact Dr. Vaknim says Narcissism is a kind of religion as well. His theory is a little confusing for me, I might need to study it further to really get it down. But as a diagnosed Narcissist it is nice to be able to hear how they view reality. They view it completely different. Narcissists cannot help but be the way they are, but Dr. Vaknim believes he can SHOCK them back into the proper development they were supposed to go through. According to him they are stuck in arrested development, and he claims his therapy method called "Cold Therapy" can shock them back into a proper psychological development. According to him, when it comes to ego development they are behind toddlers.

The difference between a 10/10 and 8/10 is actually large. To put it in perspective. A 10/10 is the classic rolls out of bed, hair dishelved, and could walk into a photo shoot looking like that. A 9/10 rolls out of bed and is still cute. A 8/10 or lower wakes up and looks like most girls in the face, but once she applies a little make up she looks like the 9/10 - 10/10. Makeup is extremely powerful in its ability to alter appearance. Example: https://siachenstudios.com/list/16-cardi-b-without-makeup-pics/ What you guys don't realize....is the makeup industry does magic lol. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t_x9yeN3uDQ So when you go out...understand most women are adjustables in appearance. Makeup has the ability to transform, along with all the other accessories as well. You can take a 4/10 to a 6-7/10 with the right makeup and clothing.

Exactly. Everything is our mirror. The cool thing is this concept REALLY wakes you up. It is the key to being honest with yourself and the key to developing yourself both spiritually and psychologically. Its the key to doing shadow work.

Interesting, I notice you love that term ego backlash. Did you coin that term? And cool yeah the colors can be awe inspiring. This is true, but my consciousness has been returned to baseline at the moment so I don't see the mystical stuff as clearly. This makes a lot of sense. The sad thing is I couldn't test this for myself on me I would have to find some low conscious person and watch them take psychedelics to find out lol.

So I came across a video on Youtube that can showcase a little Non-Duality for those who maybe a little skeptical. Video: Also to go along with the video....when you finish it.....read this comment left by one of the viewers. "myself and 5 of my friends experienced hardcore telepathic communications on LSD , it was so intense that IT SCARED TF out of the SOBER people in the room. Some of the sober people began to ask if they were dosed, what was going on, to stop, how tf are we doing this, it was NUTS!!! we asked each other questions telepathically, but first we told the sober people by writing the question on a piece of paper in a different room. then the person questioned telepathically would say the Answer out loud to the questions asked, EVERYONE freaked. we repeated it a few times before people started feeling really freaked out hope that wasn't too confusing, but it blew everyone tf away, the sober people there are the only reason i believe this wasn't some shared delusional psychosis experience. they also said it FELT like they were on drugs WITH us when this was all going on, almost as if the vibe in the room made them trip during this experience, after they left, they felt light and floaty but sober again, base line in 5 minutes and NOBODY dosed them, or accidental exposure was IMPOSSIBLE." Thoughts anyone?

You'll learn one day. You can only be deceived if you are not honest with yourself. Conartist= Confident artist. They play on your desire, and gain your trust. You can only be deceived with your permission. For example....you could block me, or I block you. Or just ignore me. You can only be deceived if you allow someone in your mental space.

What you don't understand....is I am aware right now that you are doing that. That is why I said, you cannot convince me or anyone against their will. You have ultimate authority of your mind. There is nobody to blame when you fall for the deceit of others. Consciousness cures all. Right now at this very moment we are engaged in an egoic game for power. Right now we are moralizing and demonizing each other. I am completely aware right now this is happening. So please explain how you can convince someone....who is aware of what is going on? I can just choose to not care and walk away, and you can choose to do the same. Right now at this moment we are both just arguing with ourselves and projecting onto each other. So again... explain how what you claim can happen. You can only trick those who refuse to be honest. Right now I am being petty, right now I admit that fully. Right now I am being sensitive. I own my crap, I leave nothing in the shadow. That is what it means to love yourself, to accept everything even the flaws. As long as you can be radically honest and own your crap, nobody can deceive you. Again one day you will learn this. Deception only happens when you are not honest with yourself. As long as you are honest with yourself and don't fragment who you are by ignoring your flaws...you can't be deceived. You get deceived when you first deceive yourself.

Lol no you couldn't nobody can convince you without your permission. This is not even up for debate. It wouldn't matter how much Will you have. The one thing somebody cannot take from you is your perspective. If you really think you can convince someone against their will, then you have much to learn. Sure there are things like hypnotism, and suggestive avenues, but again that person has to submit to those things. So no, there isn't enough will in the world or charisma in the world to convince someone if they choose to tune you out. Charisma is all about attraction....I'm pretty sure....there isn't any attraction going on here. I'm also conscious of all the psychological power games that go on and all you have to do to overcome them all is to literally not care about your status among others. Because every game is an appeal to others and their perception basically its politics. At that point if what you are saying the group likes more, in that arena you are correct even if you are spouting b.s. so no....it wouldn't work. For others sure....but not me.

I've always thought the Journals was just people sharing some of their random or deep thoughts. Maybe make it that people can't post in the journals outside of the person who started it unless they give permission? It could solve that problem. But yeah if someone is coming inside your journal starting crap blocking them makes sense.

Lol you couldn't convince me of anything, more projection. I said all that because your responses didn't make sense and the conversation was going no where. All I did is repeat back to you that apparently everything I said was nonsense...even though it is literally supported by all of human history. If you took the time to actually try to understand what I was saying instead of reacting you would have understood. You don't have to agree with someone to understand them. I've noticed a lot of people on this forum are reactionary, they don't even try to understand what the person is saying. I'm not perfect in that regard as well but its to the point they'll claim your speaking b.s. and can't even articulate what part is b.s. Also here is a secret. If you really believe that someone is not walking around carrying around some fear or insecurity...that just means you are not conversing with them deep enough. Even the most stable person has some insecurity or fear. For example, even if they are secure in themselves they may worry about others in their circle who are less capable. But hey...what do I know? I'm just some guy on the internet.

First I got to say, you have a gift for writing. That was very well written and articulated I enjoyed every minute of it! Many of your realization reactions were the same as mine. For me I started to feel like a looney tune character lol. But I am glad you realized your true nature. I am curious how this will impact you moving forward. For me personally it made life seem even more alive if that makes sense, it brought some of the child-like wonder I had as a kid back.

Yeah I know that much. I was just wondering, psychedelics really do bring forth what is within. So I guess if that person is not on the path...they are not going to experience ego death. They say it shows you what you most need to see. So I guess for some people....they need to see colors and shapes lol.

Lol Leo...every journey starts with a question....

I just watched a video where a guy said some people no matter how high a dose or how many trips they go on psychedelics some never experience ego death. They just see colors and stuff. Does anyone know if this is really true? I know psychedelics only reveal what's in your mind. So I wonder....if a person is low consciousness enough would it have little effect? I truly wonder.

Well the thing is the truth cannot be spoken. Whenever we have these discussions we are just using words that are just signposts pointing at something. The word human is a word, a concept, a symbol used to describe a human. But is that word human? No. If you learned what the word human mean and what its definition was....would it get you closer to understanding what a human is? No. Now you could study humans for years and have an idea what humans are but you would never truly understand it without direct experience. This is why Spirituality wants you to use direct experience. In your life the ego feels very real, so does pain, etc. etc. The only reason we say the ego is imaginary is to use that concept as a guide to find your true self. God creates through imagination, all of God's creations are created from Love. Love is knowledge, knowledge is truth. So whatever God imagines to be real...is real. So if you are God whatever you imagine to be true....is true. This is why the ego is real. So how would God realize itself? God would have to realize that as source...it is above all creation. Since its the source...nothing in comparison to it...is more true. This is why it is said God is absolute truth, because from God all truth is created. So in comparison to God....all is illusionary, but since God the Absolute Truth deems it to be true...it will be true as long as God imagines it to be. If you notice....this is a loop. An infinite loop, it is also a relationship.

What you do not realize when it comes to Non Duality.....what is illusionary and what is real is the same. So the ego is real, it is also illusionary. Non-Duality means everything is one. If everything is one then false and true is the same. There is no distinction. Do you know what everythingg is made up of? Nothing. Everything is nothing. So any distinction that is created is illusionary. Why? Because everything is made up of the same thing. So if the ego is false, it is also true. You say the ego is false yet you live your life through the ego. Without the ego you have no backstory, without the ego you would not see distinction. Without the ego you couldn't live as a human. So the ego is both real and false at the same time. Reality is an infinity loop. This means everything always turns inward. This means there is no separation of anything, and that everything is a relationship, a relationship of one. If you do not even realize that the ego is both real and false....then I don't know what to tell you. Again, if the ego was false you couldn't live as a human or even speak to me right now.

All of reality is an infinite mirror. So yes this statement is true. All of life is just a self-love simulator, self love dream, a self love trip, simply a play or movie in which you learn to love yourself fully. You can call it the Universal Story of Internal Self Love. This story we get to see through the eyes of our human bodies.

How do I find that video?