Razard86

^ You are seeking love/oneness. You will understand when it happens you will be like OHHHH this is what I was seeking the entire time. There are a couple ways you get it, meditation and connect with your higher infinite self, psychedelic version of that, or sadly....dissolution of the form temporarily what we commonly call near death, or complete dissolution/attachment to form what we call death. All these methods reveal the infinite love you are, that you have created a barrier between to experience what it is like to be a limited form.

You can do it, it just takes more exposure. The first time it happened to me it caught me off guard. I was meditating and then started to drift off to sleep and then was awoken from the sleep and started raising off the grand slightly and I felt like I was going to die and got scared, took a breath and it stopped. I was only able to do it yesterday because I remembered, the sea of awareness that was penetrating me...was me. So I was like take me, do what you will. And as it came to me I was slowly drifting away....and then I felt a knowing that no I don't want to become the infinite sea of awareness I still have a finite life I still want to live. But that I have access to the sea at any moment if I set the intention. It just happens if I relax and let it happen. Thanks for the response. And yes we are supposed to connect to it to feel peace and love. For me every time I connect to it, it transcends every great moment of my life. It makes now. You can't try hard to be good, trying doesn't work. You just connect and it flows out. If you are trying to do anything you are doing it wrong, which is okay as we have forgotten how to connect and need to remember. Yeah we are all trying to help ourselves merge. Its quite funny when you think about it. Everyone is truly one, there is no distinction. Really make me annoyed at language I see why some Zen Masters for go speaking. Speaking really helps maintain a duality. Also I've missed you!!! How you been?

There are two paths to infinity. There is the no self path, or the all self path. The belief that there is no self or ego is another illusion. God is the manifestation of infinity selves, infinity selves= no self. So you can reach infinity through either no identification, or identification with all. When you identify with all you experience Universal Love. When you detach from all identification you experience nothingness the No-Self. Both are the same. Most who follow the traditional Buddhist path have a bias against love awakenings.

I agree completely.

Yeah and this guy is my shadow. I actually realize I should have been more compassionate, but when this version of internal dialogue pops up I shut the junk down so the lack of compassion I have shown here is the same lack of compassion I show myself. I'm trying to be more compassionate but victimization mindsets trigger me.

You could have just said this one thing. Everything else is illusion....but this window, the screen, that's you. The screen never disappears, there is always the screen.

It only messes you up if you have a lot of fear/trauma. The more you raise that energy the more purified of fear you need to be.

This is my favorite topic!! 1. I can be too direct with people. The way I relate to others is how I relate to myself. So when people think I'm too harsh, no I just went through a lot of tough times and that tough love is what got me through it. I don't allow victimization to run in my mind and hold my self- accountable. I follow the principle that everything is my fault, so I can see clearly my role in something. This alienates people...its a habit I might need to turn off. 2. Too serious, not as playful as I would like to be. I would like to learn to be a little more comedy-oriented. 3. Can become scatter-brained sometimes and forget little things I need to get done because I'm thinking about something more interesting in my opinion. 4. Haven't been calling my friends as much, as I don't like to call people too much sometimes thinking I might be bothering them which has led them to believe I don't care about them which couldn't be further from the truth. I was raised as a kid with the mantra "kids shut up in the prescience of adults" so I am afraid to bother people or ask for help. So I go out of my way to not be a nuisance. 5. I have a bias in favor of logic, so anything I think it is illogical I lash out against or shake my head in disgust. Something else I need to work on. 6. I have become more emotionally integrate than most men, but I still have a bias in favor of logic over emotion, so sometimes I apply logic to someone in an emotional state KNOWING FULL well its not going to reach them AND I DO IT ANYWAY. So that's my selfishness. 7. I am good at picking up signs of low conscious people and I will still deal with them and treat them like any other person. As a result I have been betrayed a lot. Recently I allowed one of those people in my life only to be betrayed again. Its recently hit me harder than I realized. I hold no resentment towards the person (I've been betrayed so many times in life I don't even get angry at people because I know why they do it) but it has made it harder for me to trust that person. A fear arises in me when that person calls or texts and I don't like fear controlling my life so I'm going to work through that. 8. I can switch back and forth between the lens of the pragmatist and the lens of a loving martyr. My pursuit of truth allows me to see things as they currently are, and my desire to love others allows me to see things as they could be (ultimately will be eventually). Its eerily weird and surreal. I can size someone up and say yeah that person is probably dishonest and still deal with them anyway. I've learned a lot about life from these interactions. But sometimes I give too much, so I need to learn to be a little more selfish.

You will only understand after you exhaust your need for control completely. Then you will start to notice things. But I'll give you some hints. 1. You don't have to control your heart beat it just happens. 2. You don't need to control your thoughts, they just happen. (Hardest one to notice) 3. You don't control your blood flow it just happens. 4. You don't control what words you are gonna say or words you write they just happen. 5. The illusion of control will start to become more and more aware of being an illusion over time. Then one day....it will all make sense.

^ You're creating your suffering. I will have to say this multiple times until my head is blue. Victim mentality is delusion. As a baby if you gave up because it was hard you would never have learned to talk. If you never took school seriously you would have never learned to read and write. I can tell you never played God mode in a video game or mastered something tough utterly and completely. If there wasn't challenge in life there would be nothing to do. If you could predict the future perfectly there would be nothing to look forward too. If you could jump back easily between being God consciousness and human consciousness you strip all meaning away. Go play a hacked a game where at anytime you can just change the rules of the game at whim whenever it gets too hard. What you will find over time...is you will get bored of it and turn it off. If God made suicide painless or too easy, you would quit more often. God wanted a life. You can't have a life if you do those things. Besides the truth is, you are just venting you claim its hard to kill yourself? Its actually quite easy. You are nowhere near the edge because you wouldn't be on the forums writing long paragraphs. You would be constructing strategies to end it all. Stop lying to yourself, you just want things to get a little easier for a short while that's all. You don't have a strong foundation map of reality and that is why you suffer. You only suffer your perception. Stop saying God like its not you. ITS YOU. Like I still can't understand how awakening to the fact that you are God makes you a bigger victim than before? If its you, how are you blaming anyone else? It doesn't even make sense!!!! It's like you commit murder yesterday and say I can't believe the yesterday version of me killed that person. He's so bad he should be better!!! This abdication of responsibility is so delusional at this point you might need to get checked out or something. Its not healthy. You gonna claim you didn't write this paragraph too? God is so bad it wrote this whole thread!! God is so bad it made me walk and brush my teeth. But here is the funny thing!!! If you got what you wanted in life you wouldn't say it was God, you would say it was the human you!!! So when things are bad, God fault, when things are good for me, HUMAN ME!!! You don't even realize how big of a trap you have created. You have created the infinite ditch called victimization that you are constantly digging. You dig low enough you may off yourself. If you are afraid to off yourself then you are lying you want to live and are playing the victim.

There is the Buddha no mind path where you cease thought. There is the love of self where you increase your sense of self to include ALL selves. Both paths lead to the same destination. All identities = to no identity. So it all ends the same way, its just preference.

Oh I apologize I was caught off guard I thought you were saying I disagreed with you because I wasn't I like the point you were making. You don't need to do no Mea Culpa you good man but thanks for that effort it is appreciated. You don't need to go all scorched earth we good man.

^This. That's it. In the words of Porky the Pig That's All Folks!!

Ummmm why are you quoting me? You need to edit your post cause I said nothing of the sort.

^This might be his toughest challenge yet. I dare him to stay under an hour per video from hence forth.

1. There is no difference between a crime boss and Jesus. This post is judgmental. Yes the more God like one can attain as a form the more good they can spread. But from the absolute perspective it is of no consequence. 2. A human life is no more profound than a grain of sand on a beach. In God's eyes an ant, a grain of sand, and a human life are equal. 3. I resonate with the drive to live a higher life....but right now you are creating separation and judging which means you are still seeing divisions. 4. I applaud your personal efforts, but you still have deep seated judgment you need to transcend. There is nothing wrong with Leo Gura socializing, Sadhguru socializes more than anybody on this forum. Socializing isn't evil or something to look down upon. Everything is perfection, to demonize one aspect of reality is to demonize ALL OF IT as it is all ONE.

Yep Luck doesn't even exist. There is no LUCK.

I just think its karma. I was once deeply into online games and I put a whole lot of time and money into them early on in my life. I don't regret it one bit but I can honestly say I burned through that one. I don't even have an urge to play. But its true, you retreat into that world because you want adventure and excitement because your life is lacking that for you. The moment you can see life itself like a video game...well your drive for them will dissipate.

I really feel like you guys are averse to evidence....click the link and be informed.

That's just your kundalini energy raising your awareness of the changes going on inside your body. That means your baseline level of awareness has increased so now you can feel certain processes going on inside your body. Your brain is doing this all the time but spiritual topics will certainly help raise your awareness slightly.

Cough......I don't know about that one. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mental_health_of_Jesus#:~:text=The Gospel of Mark reports,possessed by demons%2C or insane.

Wow you showed me how bad of a listener I am I didn't even catch that.....really nice maybe I should download his poem? hmmmm

They opened my mind to something being off because I couldn't understand at the time how someone could believe they were in the wrong body. My only logical explanation at the time was that reincarnation had to be real for it to make sense. That maybe that person was too attached to a previous life and couldn't adjust to the body of their current life. This led me to looking into the nature of reality and suspending my prior belief structures. Without them I would not have discovered spirituality and still believed in a physical reality.

Reality is a love simulator that is constantly testing your desire to expand into greater awareness. When you want to pursue a life purpose you will need to take on a new identity or identities to embody that purpose. Change takes time because the journey is more important than the destination. Reality is constantly asking you in every moment....ARE YOU SURE? Are you sure you want to change? So there is a man who wants to start a business, but he has no clue how to start one so he decides to buy some books, read some articles, watch some videos to gain a conceptual understanding about business and how it works. He scours every last detail. Each moment when fatigue, headaches and other distractions arise, life is asking him are you sure you want to change? But he pushes further, he becomes an arrow that pushes through all. He is cupid's arrow flying towards what he really loves. He reads enough of the books that he forms a general picture of what type of business he desires to pursue. He wants to be a life coach. He decides to make himself his first client. He trains himself, inspires himself, and cares for himself. All the while with each passing moment to moment life asks are you sure? He backslides at times, but with each step backwards he takes two steps forward. Each time he backslides he is telling life no I don't want to change, and with each step further he tells life I do want to change. This becomes a dance, one step back, two steps forward, two steps back, four steps further, a push and a pull towards his destination. Each fall he shows himself patience, and care, focusing on the present, enjoying the journey. Eventually he has succeeded in becoming his first successful client and through his own success and sharing it with others he brings in others into the fold and his business slowly grows. It starts out slow but at a certain point he hits a critical mass and the growth becomes exponential and explodes. He then realizes why they say a journey of a thousand miles starts with one step, he finally realizes why people say its a leap of faith, he finally understands why they say be your best friend, he finally realizes why they say....chase and pursue what you love. Become an arrow of love towards its destination, like Cupid like Robin Hood always finds their target you can't help but find yours, you always do. And every moment to moment the same question is being asked, "Are you sure you want to change or will you remain the same?"

Unfortunately you can't really develop it. Curiosity is no different than a desire to have sex, or a desire to be a millionaire etc. If you truly wanted to be curious...you would. Its not a trait, its an identity. You think Leo can turn it off? He can't, its who he is...because it is what he loves. The only way he could turn it off...is if he wasn't it. You can only be what you love, love is identity. This is why you see people stuck in suffering, they have BECOME suffering, they love it. So until you love curiosity you can't become it....but you did start the path....because you were curious about curiosity. Did you love asking that question? If you did....you are already becoming curious.