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I literally gave in, as it was the most logical thing to do. The realization that I was not in control allowed me the space to give in. Sea Monster you are speaking from a place of ignorance which is understandable you can't help what you don't understand. There was a reason the teachings have been esoteric in nature. Also pretty much everything you just mentioned I didn't even say. When did I say you double down on your strengths? Notice how you are erecting story lines that I never uttered. Did you even watch the video? The purpose of the teachings is to allow the seeker a way to understand what is happening to them. If a random person with no knowledge has a full blown kundalini awakening they could freak out and kill themselves. Do you know how many people in the West have been getting awakenings with no support system or anything to rely upon? Go do some research and actually speak from a place of understanding. When people enter into this domain with a lack of knowledge they can do harm to themselves or others. There have been people who have died from taking psychedelics from mixing the wrong chemicals or committing suicide. So yes understanding is important, when people have no clue what they are doing they freak out.

Yep. But not the human you, the screen of awareness that holds whatever you are experiencing the totality of everything within that frame is you.

Yeah I even admitted myself once because I had no clue how intense the contrast is from the normal waking dream to the insane complexity of infinity fully unleashed. Its quite jarring how ridiculous the contrast is. Yeah psychosis is very real for the person experiencing it. I only overcame it myself by realizing that I was creating the story of psychosis!! Basically my fear of instability was the issue, my desire to ground myself within that which has no ground.

Life is a game, a story, and it can take on infinite versions and perspectives.

1. I never said it was always true, you added that which reveals you don't even know what projection is. 2. I don't have a projection against friends, I have tons of friends but I have also heard what people say when nobody is around them. You have no idea how much judgmental thoughts people keep inside about you out of fear of hurting your feelings. This is because you lack experience. Anybody that has enough experience with people KNOW THIS!!! Why do you think humanity has the issues it has? Because they have judgment against others!!! All of humanities issues is with their own personal judgment against themselves being projected onto others which is literally what you are doing right now. 3. Ego= judgment. As long as you have an ego you will judge. So if your friends who more than likely have an ego identity are not telling you their judgments, they are one fit of rage away of spilling their beans on how they feel about you. If you do not know THIS, it just means you lack experience dealing with people. P.S. Here is an even BIGGER POINT!! You have judgment against your self you really think your friends don't have one too? LOL.

Your enemy is more honest than your friend because your friend will often hide the truth to spare your feelings. Based on what you said comfort= truth for you. As long as this is how you find truth, you will live in delusion.

That's the thing all identities are relative. You can say God is Infinity, but the term infinity is itself relative, if it wasn't nothing else would need to be said. But notice terms like love, and truth, and wisdom, and intelligence, etc. etc. So secretly....and paradoxically, every absolute we use....could also be seen as relative. For example at a low enough level of consciousness God wouldn't be aware of any of these things we posted. If these were absolutes....shouldn't they be obvious from all levels? Notice the absolute is only conscious of itself when its no longer limited, but it can also be completely unconscious of itself as well. So even the Absolutes we use....aren't even a ground, but its the best we can do within the limits of language.

You have no problem closing your eyes at night with the recognition you don't control whether you will ever wake up again. So how is that any different than being in a void? I swear yall create reasons to be afraid. How can there be fear if everything is you? That void is YOU so how can you be afraid? How can you even be alone when everything is YOU?? Is your right hand alone when it is with its left hand? You recognize that they are both separate and also one and there is no problem. You create fear by interpretation. Fear is not evident, it is constructed.

Spirituality should only be done for a desire for truth/love of self and all of reality. Why? Because it is the most dangerous path. There is no more dangerous path out there. You are literally tinkering with your sanity. I have realized now why so many get trapped in different aspects of spirituality, it is because they HAVE TOO due to fear. The two biggest obstacles to going deep enough into Spirituality is attachment to self and others, and the fear of insanity. If you are not ready to face these fears....STOP! IMMEDIATELY!!! OTHERWISE you could traumatize yourself. I could say further, but I won't because there are many on this spirituality forum who shouldn't even be on here and I really believe they are on here because they look at it as if it's some cool club not realizing that Spirituality is psychic suicide. You are blowing up your entire identity, not being careful can and will drive you to insanity and not the religious insanity talked about, the kind that has you stuck on drugs yelling at a wall for the rest of your life. And no that last bolded statement is not hyperbole. Let me ask, are you willing to go insane for the truth? Are you willing to lose everything for truth? Are you willing to lose everything you have ever loved and hated for the truth? If any of your answers are no, go back to your regular life.

There is no death. In fact you are dead right now.

The truth is there is no point to anything, any point is merely a construction that's what it means to be a self. A self constructs a point of view, a meaning, and a purpose. Once a self does this, they will inevitably be at odds with others selves and their constructions. This is the fate of all selves to forever be locked in conflict. Self= Conflict, division, separation, prejudice, bias, discrimination, nepotism, philosophy, purpose, mission, etc. To dissolve the self is to give all that up. Models are adequate to a certain level, once a situation arises that the model didn't foresee it becomes inadequate which all models eventually do. All models also contradict each other, because every self is the same entity in disguise an attempt to control one self is an attempt to control all selves which goes against the design of reality that nothing is in control. Thus all models ultimately fall short of their entire premise which is to create some type of control. This is a very elaborate illusion which can only be seen through once all philosophical and ideological thought is ran through and realized it is foolish. The only solution to all problems is a raise in consciousness. All logic is biased towards survival and thus any models with appeals to logic and emotion of low conscious selves will always crumble. This is very obvious to anybody who is either in a high conscious state or who has been in one. If every human walking on the planet was in a high conscious state continually there wouldn't be conflict.

If you are only open to criticism from someone you trust, then you will only listen to those who agree with you. This will stunt your growth, trap you in an echo chamber, and you will become biased and preferential. True growth is scary, painful, and it is why nobody wants to do it. People would much rather someone else do it, and then blame them for not being perfect which we often do to those in leadership positions. To find the truth you have to disregard the messenger, and focus on the message. The message is not defined by the messenger, you can find the truth in dog shit if you are open-minded enough.

If you have lived long enough you have entered the "flow" some more than others but it is a state of consciousness that puts you at an ability level that transcends your normal aptitude. Here is a video of a guy who has researched it for many years, who knows maybe it can help you along your journey through life.

^^You certainly do want to fuck them huh? LOL go have an infinite orgasm.

I’m lost in this maze called life, what is happening, Got a new gig, new opportunity but I can’t keep up with the changes Triggering I keep feeling this constantly, thinking something is wrong with me Fighting right and left hoping that from this I can be free Looking up to the sky, feeling small in comparison I can’t lie, Wanting to make the best of my time here before I die But I second-guess constantly struggling with the unknown I cannot deny, Trying to control this self-image I made and to my principle I won’t defy Waking up everyday watching my love go from juicy slowly to dry, I’m like a rogue wave from the ocean, I rise high then fall violently, I disappear into the ocean as if I never happened, I arose and crashed down purely for my own satisfaction, I’m a rebel without a cause, A beat without its drummer, I drift from thought to feelings, and back just to avoid feeling number, This struggle maybe imaginary, but its where I stake my claim, I’ll leave my mark where I want, oblivious of any kind of fame, I dared to be different, weird, to have others drown in ignorance of my ways Cause I know my heart is joyful when its true, being me will always be constant okays. I’m the lone wolf, howling at the moon behind my eyes call it my sanctuary, This is how I feed my desire for self-love and cultivate my stability, Reality is chaotic, with the illusion of stability, so my sanctuary is my rest, When I leave my sanctuary its always some bullshit test, Sometimes I view my situations with others as a pest, Then I remember some don’t have a sanctuary so they never have rest, And I remember that to have a sanctuary is to have the highest bless. Then I awaken and remember, rest is peace, nirvana, ecstasy, So I rest in my sanctuary with the knowledge there is only me.

Lol I have no regrets, you could take me now!!!

The path is a cycle. First you unattach, then you reattach but you don't attach in a neurotic or absolute sense. You attach relatively, you delete all absolute identities and turn them into relative identities. This allows you to be a shape shifter which is what your true nature is. The point of spirituality is to get rid of your absolute identities so you aren't always getting stuck demonizing your opposite, getting full of fear and judgment and suffering. The truth is it isn't attachment that causes suffering, its absolute attachment that causes suffering. Completely unattaching is actually itself a judgment lol. Relative attachment is impermanence, complete detachment is avoidance which is itself a sneaky form of fear.

I'm seeing a lot of these type of responses becoming more rampant. People are really pushing for more love. All the money and fame in the world...and still they cry out for love.

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This video would be a step by step process on how to deconstruct your identity and drop the limited identity of Me and Other and replace it with a Universal Identity.

I Love This Channel. I haven't watched it for awhile but finally got back interested in it recently. You should check them out. They are a psychological/philosophy Youtube Channel and have some interesting insights! https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC7IcJI8PUf5Z3zKxnZvTBog/community?lb=UgkxDFK8xtLYAIIgh-Nuw7H3WC_O6-A2Dxqj This also pairs well with Leo's video series on ego development and survival so check that out as well.

I'm happy for you!! What you can also do is record yourself honestly talking about the things you are grateful for. When you feel in a dark place you can go over and play it to yourself to remind yourself how you felt when you were in a state of gratefulness. I'm happy for you and I can only wish for others to follow your example!! Way to go!!!!

Olivia gives some good advice here for men who are stuck in "One Itis."

^^^ This. You are in a void, with no form, that void is your mind. It is holographic, extends infinitely in all directions and can express itself in infinite expressions, you project onto that infinite void everything you are currently experiencing. The self is just a feeling, a sensation, that feeling/sensation can be expressed an infinite number of ways.