Truth

I love this, fighting illusion with illusion, when I try to conceptualize and think about the ''mechanisms'' in my mind, I find when I'm journaling I go meta on the whole process and realize what I'm doing, and I call it out and say something like ''this is more beliefs more illusion" and even going meta on that ''who's telling me that this is more beliefs, more illusion?" And going meta on that and it just becomes this game, this justification game like Leo said, but even going meta on this justification game and started to "see" this cognitive dissonance/self sabotage for what it can be helpful for. Cutting off the thought process. I just keep going meta on the thoughts I have, eventually the ego gives and I get a few moments of no self. I've recently cut myself off social media and distractions to focus on building my reading habit and meditation habit, I'm writing this because I really think this is a turning point to take on enlightenment, the past few days I have felt a little shitty, because I've really noticed that the illusion that the ego/self whatever you want to call it, is the reason for the pain, suffering, and all types of problems, I've listened to Leos enlightenment videos multiple, multiple, multiple times, putting the audios on my phone, trying to get my head around this idea. And yesterday I concluded that this seriously something I should be focusing on. There was a lot of backsliding but I've finally realized the importance of taking on this journey.

So I had an epiphany just hit me, when I hear leo talk about “what the ego is basically saying is ______.”example “How can I create a life so I can avoid pain and get as much pleasure as I can?” I realized that, the shit is just made up, and in truth there’s no one actually saying that, but in reality that’s exactly what is happening in that orientation about my actions, reality becomes labeled by thoughts. When I see the ego as an illusion and when I try to apply mindsets and principles to my life to how I’m taking action and how I’m not taking action (“What my ego is basically saying is ________.”) that in actual reality, this provides a solution to my current orientation of my current lifestyle, and in truth I’m not actually having these thoughts, but these thoughts describe a certain type of egoic thinking that describe a situation in reality. Sometimes I can become completely unconscious to my emotions, thoughts, and my actions they become hard to gain conscious awareness around, we use words to describe things in reality. But on top of that we use words to describe an ego that doesn’t even exist, and the pain we feel emotionally is just a bodily sensation that we attach a label to that doesn’t even exist. The emotions exist, but the label about the emotion has no control over the emotion itself. Leo talks about how we have thousands of emotions, and I see why, because they are just a feeling that we attach a label to. each feeling is unique. I See what leo talks about when he says this thing is just a label maker. just slapping labels on everything. But what I really want to get across is why I start feeling emotions, how it’s hard to identify them, because they just happen. it isn’t until I take conscious awareness that I can see what’s going on. because I’m creating illusions in my head making my mind and body shift and resist trying to get “control” over basically.. air, basically trying to gain control over nothing, the best way I can think of it is like fighting over gravity, trying to fight over control of nature, In that sense I’m basically fighting and complaining that I can’t control gravity. And that blows my mind. People don’t complain about gravity, they don’t try to change gravity, it’s just the nature of life and reality as we know it and we accept it as it is, and that’s what I need to start doing with myself and my thoughts, actions, and emotions. this exactly happened yesterday and the day before that. I remember a lot of subconscious thoughts, and these thoughts aren’t even tangible, they just pop up, I have no control over them, it’s not until I take conscious awareness that I have control, which isn’t even control, it’s just a state of being and accepting what is. it’s only when I watch is when I have control, but of course there is no me having control, it’s just shining a flashlight on the “problem”. Ego is resisting reality, trying to control reality, trying to change reality, trying to fix reality. By being my true self is to flow with life and to be who I truly am, to identify and shine a light on the truth. Not the illusion. Thoughts are a part of nature but I am not illusion, I am the truth, and until I can separate and distinguish these I cannot be my true self, all the while knowing and being aware of the truth right now in this moment.

Find what's really true, the deepest truth (spiritual enlightenment) then you can build upon beliefs and principles to find more truths to "believe'' in.

I'd say insecurities come from a lack of something or feelings of vulnerability, whether that be self esteem or material objects. Food for thought look at the word IN-Securities, how there's an inner world and outer world ---not feeling secure internally, or not feeling secure externally. Common insecurities - Not having this, Not having that, Not being this, not being that, not feeling good enough--- mostly stemming from the self image. There's also over compensating for your insecurities.---> "In order to make himself feel like he’s gotten over that insecurity, he becomes the exact opposite of that thing. So if you are insecure about being too quiet, for example, you would become extremely loud and arrogant because at the end of the day, you’d be able to look at yourself in the mirror and say “No one could accuse me of being too quiet today because I was so loud and so arrogant that they would never have reason to.” Because this kind of compensation is always born out of a desire not to be something – to not be shy, not be easily aggravated, not be weak, not be unattractive – a person experiencing it will simply switch from one extreme to another, rather than finding a healthy balance between them." - Josh pellicer Basically someone who becomes more aggressive is trying to project some kind of power over you, could be a multitude of reasons why. but ultimately they feel powerless so they try to verbally make you feel "powerless", or bring you down to their level or lower.

Yes it can limit you. You'll never master anything dabbling in all of your passions. It's best to find one thing you love and maybe combine passions, so at least you have SOME direction in life. Make a choice asap, because if you don't make a choice at all, you'll continue to be lost and have no direction at all, even if its wrong right now, you'll at least find out its wrong later. This topic goes way deep though, I recommend you read some books, YouTube videos, or even take Leo's life purpose course. It goes deep into Vision, finding yourself, Mastery, Discipline. Making the choice is step one, most people fail right here, it takes drive, passion, courage, hard work and simply believing you can pursue your dream.

1. Full Responsibility/Growth/Truth 2. Purpose 3. Passion 4. Courage 5. Humor 6. Knowledge/Wisdom/Consciousness 7. Creativity 8. Intimacy 9. Uniqueness 10. Focus These will be changing soon though as I gain more wisdom and more consciousness.

- Meditation - Mindfulness+journaling - Pushing my comfort zone in social interactions every time. - becoming the Ultimate Mental Masturbater and stuck in a state of analysis paralysis. (Not the best thing to do but it changed my whole perspective on life.)

Haha honestly I when I saw the title I was like Sean Penn? the actor?

MINDFULNESS This is very key. When you can sit and watch the emotions in the heat of the moment, look at them very objectively, detach from them, learn from them, just by watching them alone can be enough to stop the emotions and negative feelings.

This should get your mind more around this.

Well, you create your own purpose, so for me not to be giving back to others would be missing out on the greatest fulfillment in life. It's not just helping the world, it's you loving creating these gifts for yourself AND for others, like Leo says, "it starts to become this tree that never stops bearing fruit."

I've been there, and still go there sometimes, over time it's lessened. The more awareness I gain (meditating, mindfulness,) the easier it is to be mindful of what's going on with me, journaling really helped me a lot in the beginning it's a very good habit to have in place. Just know the truth that it's all in your head. And in reality, ACTUAL REALITY, everything is neutral, everything is chill, it's just your ego reacting, Just do your best to be mindful and try your best not to let these emotions and thoughts drag you into the rabbit hole. Journal! ask yourself what is up with me? What is my deal? and come up with an answer, find some information and work with it, these feelings and thoughts aren't coming from the external environment, they are coming from you. Here's a good quote by Robert Fritz in The Path Of Least Resistance that I think might help ya. "To attempt a psychological solution to what is really a structural phenomenon does nothing to change the underlying structure." -- are you doing the same things over and over again expecting different results? whether that be internally or externally take a good look at your life and the things you are doing. Expect a lot of backsliding if this is the case.

So, ever since about 4 days ago, I’ve been messing around with this idea of, what is the foundation from which i can build upon to do my personal development, to gain success. I even posted a forum post, but no one answered, probably cause it sounded a little out there. But, I’ve been having this in the back of my mind, like… what is a fundamental TRUTH, that I can lay down for this foundation, because I’ve been in such a state of skepticism, and it’s been hard to believe anything.I seem to be asking myself a lot “is this really the truth?” which has helped me come across what I’ll get to in a moment. But like what is it that I can truly ground myself with if you can say, what can I take on as a belief (knowing it’s a belief) but still do work and personal development from, and I think I’ve found it. and it lies in the law of attraction. earlier this morning it just hit me, “hmmm maybe I should watch the secret” something in me said watch the secret again, something about it hits this mark and has some truth to it, and I couldn’t shake the thought, and honestly the secret before I watched it---I tried watching it before only got like 40 min in because I've seen it before a long time ago, I was kind of ready to explain some aspects of it away because I remembered it had confusing moments for me, and it did have those moments, mostly about the airfaireyness they put on it, but me I saw past that when I watched it again, I saw it for what it truly is, Just a thought, and an image in the mind. How it’s gonna take discipline and hard work to make those things come about. which is what I’m getting to. after that I watched leos video on “the secret” I knew he had a video on it to help me better jump away from all the air fairy confusions and such and he did that very well, but he got down to it and said what his secret is, and it’s “Discipline, discipline your mind. That’s the real secret to success and happiness to your life.” But I don’t discount the power of law of attraction. I know discipline has been the secret now thinking about it. So I’m gonna dive into his concepts about using the law of attraction because I think this is very foundational to be mindful of when creating success in my life. It’s really to me the Center point of good and bad, like the image of these good and bad emotions, to me it's the middle way of my mind or the ego or the emotions. “Nothing is good or bad, but thinking makes it so.” This is the middle ground for me. this is where my mind should be at. so I don’t tip into ego and get lost into good or bad emotions. So this is it. a core truth that I will build upon. of course along with other truths I find but I really think this idea has a lot of truth and power in it. I just finished watching his law of attraction video and it was powerful. “When you do try it, you have to try it with faith and confidence and consistency. What you’re going to find is that it really works. The way it works is, again, not through some metaphysical mumbo-jumbo, but simply because you become confident. You have faith in your actions, you’re not insecure anymore. You’re excited about what you’re doing because you have these positive images of what you’re going to create. You start to impose your reality onto the world rather than the world’s reality mesmerizing you. When that happens, you start to feel really good. You’re able to go out there and work on your goals, to take action on your goals. You’re not procrastinating anymore. Through that whole process, your thoughts shape your actions and your actions attract whatever it is you want in life. That’s basically the law of attraction. Think about the things you want, not about the things you don’t want. Now, as simple as that sounds, you’re not going to do it. It’s really hard to recondition yourself. You have to be very persistent with it. But if you do, and you undertake this initiative, say, “You know what? I think there’s something to this law of attraction. I think it’s about time I try something new. Because I’m frustrated with the lack of results I’ve been getting.” If you really buy into it and you give it a go, give it a go for a month or two. Constantly concentrate on the things you want to create in your life.” and that’s how I really feel, this covers everything I’ve been trying to learn. It’s the buying into these ideas, taking action, having faith in them and just going with it. its probably been a limiting belief I’ve been having, if there’s an answer to why I’m not taking action. It’s my own thinking. and I think this law of attraction can really set the foundation for me to create success in my life.

Well... Or you could use it as a motivator. If you create fear out of the time you have left then that's what you'll get. If you create a positive mindset instead, then that's what you'll get. I personally find the math very helpful, very very helpful. I already know I'm going to die eventually. That game is lost in the end, so to be paining myself over this inevitability, is pointless, it assumes I have control over my death which I don't.

I'd say social anxiety comes from fear of being criticized, judged or being insecure, there's a need to be accepted. So if you remove that need, taking responsibility for your insecurities, and stop caring what people think of you, you stop needing to be accepted, instead you become grounded and unmoved by this social situation, there's no more emotional struggle because there's no need to be accepted anymore and you move past it. If there's still that pain in the moment when you think you feel you've moved passed it, then you haven't actually grown, only "masked" it. As for fitness, do you do it because you value it? Or because your trying to fix a problem,(painful looking in the mirror, getting a girl, to be accepted) there's a good quote by Robert Fitz that says "what drives the action is the intensity of the problem. Once the intensity of the problem is lessend, people have less motivation to act. Thus problem solving as a way of life, becomes self-defeating, problem solving mostly leads to less and less action, as the actions work to solve the problem." There's a profound difference in valuing and loving to do something, than taking action to make something go away. Its the difference between positive motivation and negative motivation (running away from pain or potential hazards or simply working to create to see a nice body come into being. ) huge difference. Make it more than just getting things, value it. Something like "I could do this for the rest of my life, I want to be healthy and fit because I value being healthy. I want to feel good in my body, I want to live as long as I can" it becomes more than just, "I want to look like that guy"or, "my friends work out so I should too", or "girls like guys who are fit". See the difference? Which mindset is likely to go the distance? Friends stop going.. Motivation is lessened, you get a girl or still can't, motivation is lessened, you see the struggles it takes and hard work to get that guys bod, motivation is lessened.

Keep your eyes open, this helps, and also for me to keep me up and awake, I force myself to think about stuff (girls, goals, plans, contemplation, self inquiry.), whatever I want and just watch it. This is only when I'm exhausted and I feel it's gonna be a tough meditation.

Oooh. I love meditating in the morning, I'd say comfort is key here for me whatever makes me more comfortable, I shut everything off and sit down, it's a great feeling, it's like waking up with the sun and everyones still asleep this is around 6-7 am for me.

Yeah I was being nonchalant haha.

I think understanding yourself on a deep level is key here. but there are some really good books. - 5 love languages by Gary Chapman (how to love others and what people do that make you feel loved.) sadly most of the things I know are for guys and the topics are deep. I recommend you find a system, how to be a women, gender roles, biggest mistakes, breaking up, all that good stuff. Start googling

Honestly, my goal is just as long as I meditate every day, I don't care when I do it. Some days I do it when I'm tired (worst meditation sessions) and sometimes when I just feel I should and can. but I never miss a day. I think that's where your mind should really be.

paradoxes, how do they work?

Sounds like an excuse to lie to yourself that it's okay.

From what I understand so far, I mean i haven't really thought about this topic deeply yet but I wanted to get it out there. I think about the conscious mind, and how it plays such a big part, but yet, such a little part in my daily life, I also think about how my subconscious mind, and how all these things that are going on outside of my awareness. (maybe I don't have enough information on awareness) How does my conscious mind Actually WORK? Creating concepts, ideas, visions, what is it that I can exploit about my consciousness, what is it's job outside of ego and self. (staying alive) maybe I'm diving into "true self" or "the authentic self" I know awareness is key here, but, consciously, what is this consciousness mechanism? Maybe someone can recommend some books? Give me a little insight here? thanks. (If leo doesn't make the video or maybe already has a video that I don't know about.)

I've grown so much over the last year. I need help getting out of this rut. I'm not scared to face the resistance/pain I might feel. (slowly having way better progress with this) being productive and on top of building my habits as a distraction to not do my priorities out of fear. -----All big fat lies, feels good getting these out haha.

Ahhh, this takes me back to my first days meditating. I was very inconsistent in the beginning, but me I set a month goal because of habits and how they work. Don't give up after a week (even though you most likely will), do your best to stay on track with it. Meditation is a long term gains type of thing, keep going! You have no idea yet to how this practice is gonna benefit you.