TheOneReborn

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  1. Leo had admitted he is a very conceptual person and his videos reflect this. I think many would benefit from a video that helps us ground our awakenings and spirituality in the body. Possible points of discussion might be: What is God's relationship to your body? The egos relationship to the body? The role of the nervous system in fear responses? How to overcome grief and trauma stored in the body? The fascia system What are chakras actually? What is kundalini? How can one develop their own internal awareness of their body?
  2. This would be a major undertaking similar to the spiral dynamics series but I think would be really beneficial.
  3. @Razard86 on the one hand yes, there is love and truth to be had in being with others. But do you not realize that there are also social power dynamics and unconciousnes that is imposed through socialization? Do you not realize that "hanging out with friends" is a lot more than just "hanging out with friends"? Leo is engaging in more delusion, yes because he is speaking and thinking. Worse than speaking and thinking to yourself is doing so with others. Delusion is unavoidable but that doesn't mean that in the world of delusion there are not delusions which allow you to be closer to truth.
  4. I like this new video. Anytime you engage in language you are distancing yourself from the Godhead. The joint venture we humans are engaged in with regards to common meaning making is the substrate against which the ego construct is born.
  5. We need an episode on dealing with your childhood. It's the biggest barrier many of us face.
  6. I have this little assumption in my head that people who pray to God are scared little theists. I want to overcome that and cultivate an oral or linguistic relationship with God at least for my ego. Am I talking to myself here? Am I talking to my higher self? Am I talked to a separate being? Perhaps share how you pray to God in your own way?
  7. Well said. I'm quitting weed right now (3 weeks clean) and so many old emotions are coming back, mainly anger. I've been handling off the handle for every little thing but yesterday when someone took up two parking spots for their little Toyota, I told myself "wait, I did that? I parked that Toyota in a stupid way...why did I do that?" I automatically gave the guy the benefit of the doubt and assumes the best subjective intention on him/her. It allows me to jump over my initial angry reaction since I realized that the person parking didn't do anything inconsiderate to me...I did that to myself.
  8. That episode where he went ham on everyone shows it was all a show. He's been a good little boy bottling up all emotions his whole life.
  9. I'm a seeker. I have slight OCD. I'm dealing with Kundalini. I'm also a corporate lawyer. I work about 60 hours per week. When the weekends come I decompress and everything seems zen and amazing. But when the weekday comes in a stressed out maniac with anger issues and sever neck pain. I've dissociated from my OCD with the help of weed but that has only let me run away from my feelings of anxiety and anger. I have trouble finding a balance between lazy as fuck and super organized maniac. I've quit weed 2 months ago and all my negative emotions are coming back for better and for worse. I'm starting to feel the anxiety again though around my work. I need to become more organized for the sake of my career, mental health, and my spiritual work. I know that as long as my work life is devoid of conciousness, I'm going to suffer endlessly there. Is there any resources or advice anyone has on getting organized in a balanced way? I'm doing Chakra meditation on my solar plexus to help ground myself and my willpower but I'm thinking something more practical? Steps I've take so far: Gym 5 times a week to help ground myself and release the tension in my body. Work on hiring an assistant Otherwise I'm still a mess when it comes to scheduling, organizing my day, etc.
  10. I run the firm and have one student assistant. Otherwise I have nobody to answer too. I treat him with lots of respect. He of course respects me as his superior. This is really the cause of my own stress. The million emails and calls that come in every day and mess with my pre planned schedule. Everything comes back to me. My assistant helps but they are only a summer student so they are not fully integrated into my practice. I think once I have a full time assistant things will be better but I still have to deal with my OCD, perfectionism at work, and inability to deal with all the little bullshit that pops up in messes with whatever plan I had for the day. I lack a sense of flow or willful action in my work.
  11. Astral Doorway is really cool! That video series is legendary
  12. I'll say this my friend. If you are in non dual awareness, do not try and write it down and explain it. Feel it. Chew the cud of Satori. What you wrote only makes absolute sense to you. You have not touched the truth with your words. I know you aren't trying to, but this serves nothing. I say this from personal experience.
  13. Well said brother. The ego as a mental construct is a miracle from God. Let it be, no need to get caught up in it
  14. I did this too after my kundalini awakening. I would imagine I was the car and would feel the speed and every bump on the road. I would imagine I was the tree and feel the branches swaying. My favorite, when going to sleep I would imagine I was the entire bed, and would feel sooooo warm and cozy. The way I put it at the time: "I must become the subject for whom I am it's perfect object". This is the basis of flow and mastery I believe.
  15. I often think that the whole "finding yourself in Asia" is one of the most Western spiritual ego things people do. You're already going and that's great, don't want to be negative in that regard. I would just say follow your heart and keep an open mind as opposed to doing what you think you "should" be doing to make the most out of it
  16. Not sure if it's just me but whenever I am deep in non-dual awareness, language feels very weird. I'm wondering how it feels for you? Remember when you were a kid and you keep repeating a word over and over till it loses its "meaning" - it feels something like that but not to the extent where I can't engage in language easily. Words come out of my mouth but it feels like someone else is speaking. I am speaking from pure intuition. When I hear others I feel their tone of voice and emotion so much more. The symbolic meaning of the word fades away and the emotion of the delivery takes center stage. Even reading words on text, the emotion and relative placement of the word has a feeling or "vibe" associates with it. I notice I read much slower when in non dual states as well. It becomes clear to me that language is a totally closed system and that as important as what IS said, is that is not being said. Silence implies all that is not being said. language as a construction of concious beings clearly shows itself to be a derivation of thought and object-subject duality. I feel like language is something that sort of "happens" and I more experience it rather than actively engage in it. That though is probably due to the "dissociation" that happens when Awakened where you sort of just submit to the universe and are in total flow. But I wonder if language is "concious" or has a subjectivity to it. The main thing is that every word I hear pulses with emotionality, tonality, and depth. The truth of language is not in what is said, but rather THAT the thing was said. Does you experience language differently when in non dual states?
  17. The ego is scared as hell of the depth of conciousness!
  18. Yea I totally agree. And that also becomes clear when awakened. Language is an internal phenomenon which relies on the assumed meaning that others place on the same words. Language has an intelligence to it. Sometimes I wonder whether communication is metaphysical and fundamental to conciousness.
  19. I'm struggling with this right now. How can we know anything at all? Even "knowing" itself seems like a false concept. Moment to moment there is only "conciousness of" the world and self (which are evidently one). If someone were to ask me is the moon real? I feel like saying "well in typical relative sense, sure I guess" "But in an absolute sense....uhhhh I....uhhh don't even know what you're really asking"
  20. Incredible! I wish I had your strength to surrender to the experience. I've been building up the courage to have another solid awakening for months now. It's now time for you to "chew the cud of satori" and just get an intuitive sense of what you're feeling. Last awakening I tried to conceptualize and capture it. Big mistake for me
  21. We seek to feel "good" in order to get to absolute good aka god. It's all a constant chasing of god all the time. "Survival" as some are talking about here I think is within this higher constant. We survive so that we can seek good. Pleasure itself is not survival. It's what we seek once we've survived. I started to think this was the case more as I uncovered my food addiction. I just had this strong association in my mind between God and food. It was hard to logically describe but everytime I thought about food, I thought about god. And if I thought about god long enough, I wanted to go eat! Edit: regarding survival, I think the ego does seek pleasure as a matter survival sure, but you are in every instant not the ego, the deeper constant overlaying the constant of survival is this self-seeking, and seeking of the "Good". Again, love/god/conciousness is the motive force of all being as I'm sure many would agree, we only do anything because we seek love/god/conciousness and self realization which is why when awakened there is always a deep sense like every thing that has ever happened has led perfectly to this moment
  22. I want to become mkre I want to become more concious of language as a social phenomenon. I want to get a sense of its limitations.
  23. Does anyone have any book recommendations on the topic of how language is inherently dualistic? Or any writing on language and non-dualism? Why is language fundamentally unable to grasp God? Is it because the utterance of the language is itself part of being?
  24. Be careful with third eye and kundalini. It will act as a force present in your life which is itself Absolute Truth. It can FUCK you up physically.