Nilsi

Yeah, right. Im just gaslighting yall to get a kick out of it.

It doesnt get more clear than what has been said here. Im not going to fill your head with more fantasies.

Thats what Im trying to give you.

I

How often do you need it spelled out? There is no such difference.

There is no experience without an I.

How about you use it to pursue what you enjoy?

You are making this up.

@axiom You are talking about ego-death, which of course you experience, otherwise there would be no such thing.

Your sense of self completely depends on the context in which it arises. No it is not. You also exist as and within thought and form.

There is no such "substance."

And who exactly has this realization?

No its not. The notion of water can only arise in relationship to the notions of ice and steam. There is no formlessness without form and neither is more "real." Dont be so righteous, you obviously dont understand what you are talking about.

To me Nietzsche is the beginning of green emerging. He also seems more like an INTP.

https://civilizationemerging.com/what-i-learned-about-being-a-man-from-my-dad/ @Carl-Richard shared this yesterday. I found it pretty sweet and inspiring.

This is a nice little tool to help you diffentiate and become more aware of your emotions

I feel more and more strongly about general systems theory as the best way to approximate existential dynamics in a relatively precise way. At a certain level this framework will break of course but I think it's the best we've got in terms of language. Knowledge is an emergent property of being, just as say behavior is an emergent property of an organism. Is that behavior the organism? No. Is it in service of it? Yes. Can you ever know the organism through its behavior? No, you can know how it behaves in a certain situation in which you happen to look at it. Is there different degrees of quality to behavior? Yes, I can inspire millions of people by delivering a great speech to them or I can sit on my couch on government support and watch reality tv while i smoke pack after pack of cigarettes. In short, when you are being, there will still emerge knowledge from you once your being emanates a certain threshold of subtleness. Obligatory "I don't know this" but it produces a rather clear dynamic model in my mind which really is the best we can do in communication anyway. You have to experience deep states of being that are beyond knowing and you will see this emergence happening as you come back into the more gross realms of existence.

You being a character is infinite Love just as much as you being the Godhead or whatever you imagine this eternity to be. Takes some time and probably some deep mystical peak experiences for that to sink in but it is of course the case as is implied by infinite. You should be more worried about growing your character than about losing it really.

I would recommend you watch some YouTube clips of him in his prime. He really embodies his philosophy well and it might help to drive it home for you.

Also, if you truly care about people and your relationships you should try to cultivate a healthy relationship to yourself regardless. Without overly spiritualizing this topic, there really is no difference between the internal and the external. For me, being social and kind is part of my epistemology. If Im not able to come into proper relationship with my roommates say or dont attend to the need of my plants, thats really no different than being sloppy with my thought process. If you really want to be a good friend, partner, citizen or whatever, you have to clean up your inner world and understand how your own mind works, so that when you show up in the world you can do and be what is needed of you. Ken Wilbers "wake up, grow up, clean up, show up" is really spot on.

You might enjoy this then. The whole album fucking bangs, the production on it is just next level.

Im a big introvert so for me it has always been extremely easy to spend days and even weeks in isolation, but as Im going through the process of really opening myself up to being more social and communal I realise how much joy there is in that. Look at it as a growing process. Its gonna take some time and momentum to get this ball rolling but there is so much growth in stepping outside ones usual mode of being, that its definitely worth the investment.

Beautiful, what a great man.

Lol, no. Where can I read that?

What do you enjoy doing? I also recently moved and i found some friends that I do yoga with and started a bookclub with some others. Its pretty easy to make friends and bond when you have some things in common and do shit together that you all enjoy.