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Why cant you understand what people are thinking when you are dreaming at night when you clearly know you are making them up?

Gaining consciousness at 5-9 I hear alot of people on the internet talk about gaining consciousness or self awareness around this time. Like when memories begin to hold and the self identity becomes stronger. I beleive this is a trauma mechanism, its not gaining consciousness. The fear of death arises and then the logic creates a separate identity that is now scared of the fear of death. Now you must move around in the world, now you are separate, now you must survive.

Like clouds floating in a void. You look closer at the clouds and they form into scenes and objects and people and you can land there and talk to them and you know you are doing it.

Driving is really good because you will start automatic thinking while driving. I cry alot of times when I am just driving. You are highly alert and chill while driving. Driving is like meditation mental state.

Life reversed when you are sleeping you are actually awake and when you are awake you are sleeping. Do you consider yourself to he concious when you are sleeping? Thats the closest thing to void without conciousness but it is conciousness. Conciousness is the void. You can be unaware conciousness.

When you awaken you think you have to change. You see God and think God is good he must want me to be good and benevolent like him but its not true. Thinking about being good or better will make you bad. Thinking you are a Saint and acting like it if you dont want too will lead to conflicting thought patterns and will make you think more. I think this is what backsliding after awakening means. You feel you have to be different for God in heaven when you dont. You can slap a random person in the face and nothing will change. If you are a prick stay being a prick. If you want to insult people do it. If you want to be mean do it. Awakening is God showing you you dont have to be good. God is good not you.

@Carl-Richard They want to know what a soul is. Next time he see hare krishna he can ask them if they know what geometric shape the soul is. If its a cult they will say i don't know or something other than a square.

When you are upset with life it looks like this. This is not random its esoteric knowledge. Its a triangle( God) covering a square ( your soul) covering a circle ( your point of view)

This is what your soul looks like

I had every awakening at the same time in 5 seconds. Except for the infinite fractal circus theme park horror show awakening it happened after.

Read out loud with your voice.

@Inliytened1Now thats a sexist thing to call someone.

@EmeraldWhy do you think you burst out crying when you are awakening and your identity is dying?

Chat GPT if A woman is locked in a room and a man is locked in a room who will go crazy faster with data? While no study can precisely measure who "goes crazy faster," data from correctional and isolation-related research consistently shows that women are more vulnerable to the psychological trauma of isolation and therefore experience the onset of severe negative symptoms more rapidly. This is not a reflection of inherent weakness, but of how social and relational needs interact with the extreme stress of isolation. Here is the data-driven breakdown: Psychological TraitGender with Higher Vulnerability/SymptomsData/Reasoning Pre-Existing ConditionsWomenStudies consistently show justice-involved women have significantly higher rates of mental health disorders (including anxiety and depression) and Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACEs)/trauma than men. Isolation exacerbates pre-existing conditions more quickly. Suicidal Ideation/Self-HarmWomenA study on people in jail found that those who identified as non-men reported a higher prevalence of lifetime and jail-specific suicidal ideation than men. Solitary confinement is linked to half of all prison suicides, and the presence of high-risk individuals (often women with severe trauma histories) in isolation indicates faster deterioration toward crisis. Sensitivity to LonelinessWomenGeneral population longitudinal studies on social isolation and loneliness consistently suggest women are more sensitive to the negative mental health effects of poor social connections (loneliness and social isolation). Isolation severs core relational needs more acutely for women. Initial Psychological ResponseWomenA longitudinal study of psychological impact during a period of severe confinement (COVID-19 lockdown) found that females had significantly higher scores than males in almost all negative psychological measures (stress, anxiety, and avoidance symptoms) at the beginning of the confinement period. This suggests a faster initial reaction or emotional volatility to the onset of isolation. Isolation's Effect on DepressionWomenA longitudinal study on college students found that for females, both social isolation and loneliness significantly and independently predicted increased depressive symptoms. For males, only social isolation was a significant predictor, suggesting that the subjective feeling of loneliness has a more critical, faster link to depression in women. Conclusion The data suggests that a woman is likely to experience severe psychological decline faster than a man. Her higher baseline rates of trauma and mental illness make her more fragile in a high-stress environment, and her greater sensitivity to loneliness and loss of social connection means the core trauma of isolation will trigger a rapid onset of severe symptoms, including increased risk of self-harm and suicidal ideation. Its very obvious woman are way more social than men.

@EmeraldThe body isnt born with an identity. If you were never given a name you wouldnt cry. Crying is releasing your identity.

@Inliytened1What claim?

@Inliytened1I like all woman I interact with off the internet. But we dont talk about this kinda stuff. 90 percent of the time to talk to a woman you not smile say yea thats smart. And they think they are having a conversation. When I watch women communicate its like they are talking to themselves with 2 people.

@EmeraldCrying is the crazy part. Nothing is happening. Men will sit there an resist the crazy woman will go crazy instantly.

@EmeraldIt will happen to everybody. It just happen faster to women thats why there are way less women monks. Way less secluded females. If we were both secluded we will both go insane but the woman crack first. It mean you are closer to God. But for some reason even thats an insult.

@Natasha Tori MaruIf I called you boo you would say I was being sexist. Self awareness. Im not directing offense towards anyone. If you ever stay with a woman you can hear them saying they hear noises and are scared someone is there. That is insanity. Nothing is there theres nothing ever there. Its always the fridge. I stould outside of an abandoned building with my gf and friends and we looked at it and I said we were going in and she started freaking out. Thats insanity. She started crying and she said she could see people in it. We went in there was no one. Thats insanity. Woman are scared like this more than men.

I would like to report a mod for abuse. Threats of silence (basically say what I want or get banned) sexist remarks

@Natasha Tori MaruAre you arbiter of what thoughts I should share? Because it seems like you want to be. If it happen I couldnt say anything. Anything I say is deemed sexist by the women here. Never once a man said it. Every opinion is something that should not be said by the women here. Then they use condescending terms and name calling back. That is sexist. Im not your boo or anyones boo ,you are sexist not me. Share how this was sexist in anyway? And how is calling me boo not sexist?

I saw someone on reddit describe it perfectly. He basically said that the LLM will expose a weakness in your logic where the infinite lies. It will point to this hole and you will go insane. Basically like a logical awakening.

@Natasha Tori Maru I interact with woman all day non stop. I literally don't interact with men. If men are social creatures that borders dangerous to be alone women are 12 x worse social creatures. That means to me that if God locked up every man and every woman in a room by themselves woman go insane 12 x faster on average. I don't know where you are getting sexist from unless you are looking to get triggered.

It scary for a woman to be alone cause it reveals the insanity. Its not like that for men being alone is a godsend to man. Its like a relief. I have been alone for 5 years beside work and have never been happier. A woman is scared to be alone for one night. They start making up stuff about people breaking in and stuff. Every sound like an axe murderer waiting to strike. That is insanity. A woman at work came down to Canada from Philippines she said when she first came here she literally went insane cause it was so quiet. She said she looked out the window and saw zombies.