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@Entrepreneur Consciousness is nothing, awareness is field of experience. Without awareness, consciousness is a void of nothing that dosent even know its there. Like if at the beginning of everything there was nothing existing. Then the nothing became aware that it was nothing existing. Consciousness just existed forever but its not always aware that its there existing. Without awareness there is no consciousness (theoretically cause it cant know its there it is still there just not aware that its there) and without consciousness there is no awareness.

We already had this fear and took it to the most extreme levels. We didn't talk about it we explored it in our minds until our minds broke and we saw God. Gods not rational rationality has to do with God's creation. The people that discuss these topics discuss them out of fear. They don't want to feel it so they communicate it. Once you lose all hope and sit there and feel what its like to have no hope God will reveal himself and it has nothing to do with science rationality non beleiving or beleiving. If you picture your dreams its kind of like light flickering behind a black background. When the dream goes away the black background is there until you wake up. When you see God you see that the black background that the dream flickering in front of is happening right now 'irl' with your eyes open. Everything a rationalist or scientist can use to debunk God is using God to debunk it. God is creating your body and mind and logic and rationality. Its creating your entire life story. Yours specifically. The fear will be there until you see God. The fear you have is good as its 'Satan' trying to hide God from you. So feel whatever fear you think you are feeling and go in that direction. There is no hope you will die. Even if you can reincarnate eventually everything in the universe will end and then what? There won't be planets stars galaxies they will all burn out and then what will happen?

@Ramasta9Yes if you are schizophrenic.

Seems hes just using these as a coverup while he focuses on other things.

The mechanics are you think you need people for survival when its actually God giving you the people when you are in need. We are taught to beleive that the people are giving us things and we need them for shelter and other things but GODS DOING IT. When you see that God is doing it you no longer need the people to help you you need to realize that God will take care of you.

How many times you gotta say it.

The second you leave he will beg to have you back. He is pushing you away for some reason. Sounds like he's looking for stuff to get angry about.

Look at the people with the most power they are all ugly as fuck.

You literally said you consider physcologist your enemies and you said you consider beautiful woman your enemies. Even ones you dont know which are random people. The groups are people you dont know, which are random. Could you pick out a psychologist out of a group of random people? No that makes it random people. You are hypocritical. Saying its all an agenda against you is paranoia. You contradict your statements everytime you make one. You contradicted yourself here like 4 times.

I dont like any laptop. Id rather sit there and do nothing.

Imagining before physical birth and trying to remember something you dont remember is the same thing. Try to think about something you dont remember about yesterday. You dont remember the whole day but you do remember something. Thats the same thing as life before birth. You could have been doing something you just dont remember. Theres no difference between the qualia of before birth and the qualia of not remembering something that happened yesterday.

Its right in front of you. Just keep asking why. Asking why is the most powerful too to understand subconcious mind.

@OpulenceNice try satan. He could only scare me for so long.

@Opulence I think i nuked my amygdala.

I take a stress test everyday its permanently relaxed. It hasn't moved past this state since I awakened. Its like the fear in my brain just stopped and isn't turning back on.@Sugarcoat I feel like I'm brain dead. I have had like 6 others use it cause I thought It was broken and every person that has used it is high stress.

Why ask us, if you already did it. And if you dont know or cant hold it then you didn't do it.

Get a job

@EternoHope is a cope. Its actually holding you back.

Before I awaken I was going through the same things but I didnt have any spiritual bullshit ideas like you have gathered. I was athiest so it was probably better. This seems like you have a spiritual ego. Ignore all these ideas of solipsism and everything. All my problems had to do with reality, not metaphysical reality.

Sounds like you are doing good. The path to Spiritual awakening is not fun. You empty your cup of the good emotions then you empty your cup of the negative emotions. Before I awaken I felt impending doom everywhere, I felt demons looking at me from dark shadows. I felt like I was turning into a robot. Then something beautiful happen. Just accept it. Release all hope.

@ZenterusIt relates too all humans. The feeling you had when she was there was being created by your own body. It has nothing to do with the person. You wont grow from this you are giving the emotion away to the woman. You can grow from it by emptying your cup then keep giving all your emotions away to people. You can tell you were being too clingy by what you wrote. 3 dates, upset that it took her hours to respond. Saying I miss you when shes going on vacation with barely knowing the person. It spells C-L-I-N-G-Y. Clingy men are dangerous to woman. You can tell she knew it by this response. 'I'll miss you too, I think?' That means she dosent even know you yet. You are caught in your emotions and the woman is saying she barely knows you.

Live and learn you came off as clingy cause you are deeply lonely. Dont do that you are looking for someone because you dont realize you make your own emotions. You are lying to women you arent telling them you are deeply insecure because you lost a part of your soul. Woman cant give you emotions you cant give yourself. Learn that. Its easy to see when you know.

Woman are just as disgustingly horny as men. It dosent have to based on connection besides I want to fuck you. They might be even more horny. Its like the opposite woman will have sex with attractive man just for sex and then want to be with someone they deem less attractive than them. And me will have casual sex with someone they deem less attractive and want to be with the more attractive one. If a woman is with a man that is attractive or they deem more attractive they will get jealous and lose their mind so they take the lesser attractive one to feel secure that hes too ugly to cheat. The woman needs to feel more beautiful than their counter part or they go insane. Men dont resepect the woman they have casual sex with because they already got it. To a man its like an ego thing can I get this beautiful woman thats how I define my beauty and self worth. A man can be with a woman lesser beauty that him if she makes him fall in love with her. If a man falls in love with a woman she will gain attractiveness out of thin air. She will do this via making him feel important.