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One time I meditate and my brain started feeling weird and then every single light in my house started turning on and off. I stopped and got up and walked around and they stopped. Then I did it again after 2 hours and the same thing happened. Every light in my house started flickering on and off at different timings. I just kept going and I feel that something scary was going to happen so I stopped and got up and the lights stopped. I think its possible once you go further you will start to see demons and shit. It felt like I was entering a poltergeist dream.

I don't think its toxic masculinity I think its just masculinity, what you want. You want feminine energy Shakti. If you want feminine energy you need to be still, assholish, non reactive. If you want Shakti you need the Shakti to energize you. If you are a nice guy you are stimulating the energy and the energy dosent want to be stimulated it wants to stimulate you. The misdirection comes when ego says I want this but this isn't working I need to be nice. I need to stimulate this Shakti cause its not reacting. Now you are the Shakti baby bitch lol. Now the woman has to take the masculine energy. Now you finish last cause you became what you wanted and forced a duality. If you embrace the masculine your presence can become like a black hole that woman can not, not react too. All you have to do is sit there very seriously. If Shakti engages stay still. If you dont react the energy will be sent back and the Shakti will have to hold it again and send it back again. Like someone blaming themselves the conversation is not going well. Never holding that is the masculine energy. Its hard to do when you put what you want above you so you would need to stop putting sex on a pedestal because that is holding the Shakti and you will end up holding it by arguing with yourself about what you desire. If this Shakti was real pretend its being passed around like a ball between people all day non stop in every interaction every glance every second. Never hold it you will become a black hole of stillness that all the Shakti will be trying to move.

@Princess Arabia Then you are like data in a harddrive.

@Princess Arabia Are you experiencing a qualia of being inside of a human body?

@Princess Arabia if that were true you wouldn't be able to use the concepts the body is using and your field of view would mush together into one thing and you couldn't identify with anything. You would probably go to another dimension.

@Princess Arabia No enlightenment is merging with the field of light in front of you. You cannot be in the body and be enlightened. If reality outside of you is a 2D surface enlightenment is the feeling of your head dissapears and you merge with a 2 dimensional surface. If you do this you will gain access to all the information in the 2d field of light in front of you. If you can merge with the 2d light field you enter a trance state and are in meditation.

I just had a weird dream with sleep paralysis at the then. I was in a world and someone gave me 8000 to build a house. I was waiting for the house to be built and went to check on it. The house was massive 2 floors and the rooms were massive. I was looking around and then the contractor of the house was upstairs. I heard him say he was looking for the lord of the house and I said he must be looking for me. I went to him and he asked me how I liked it I said I cant beleive 8000 dollars buys this, is it going to be carpeted or floored and he said some of it. Then I stopped talking to him and went back down stairs and there was a restaurant I was like how is there a restaurant in my house. The contractor came and sat next to me and said there is a kitchen go look. I looked in the kitchen and it was nice and then I looked out the window of the kitchen and I saw my TV and my legs and I said what is that. I looked out the window more and it was my TV from this reality and I saw a man in my periphery and was entering sleep paralysis and couldn't move. I didnt get scared but kept ushering myself slowly back to this conciousness. Moral of the story no one is supposed to do or be anything. You do what you do till you stop dreaming. Leo is not there you are dreaming. Nothing will make sense until you stop. Me questioning my dream made it end. The reality dissolved because I question . Its the trap of questioning everything . Dreams dont make sense on purpose. This is a dream. The ego is trying to make sense of a dream and you react to it keeping you trapped.

@PurpleTree They are living in some middle eastern country where her family gives her to rapists. Now they think rapists are everywhere and the police don't care about the women to stop it. Thats definition of a shit hole country.

@Someone here i wasnt upset I was happy. I am buying a device to specifically become more brain dead. It is important to he empathetic tho without that God has nothing and no help ever. Life will turn into hell without empathy. Imagine a planet with no empathy and imagine you are born into as a angel you will curl into a ball and die and go to actual hell.

@Someone here Because when you need empathy you want it and it feels good to have. If you ever go to sleep again you need it or you get stuck in an infinite spiral of terror. Only empathy from other versions of yourself can save you. So be what you want to have to you when you go to sleep again.

@PurpleTree i am being empathetic.

I ordered a meditation brain wave device to show you how brain dead I am. I am sorry you were raped in your shit hole country that devalues women and they have no help. I would he paranoid too that shits fked up.

This could be the one case where putting your comments into chat gpt and asking it to rewrite it is a good thing.

You speak like that user sabth.

@Behind20 i don't live in your country. I don't know who you are and have never been in your house.

@Behind20 So someone you dont know is inside your house and you set up a camera outside your room and they put it towards your bedroom. If they are your roommates I would do the same thing. if they don't live in your house then call the police. If you are renting a room you dont get to put cameras outside your door thats an invasion of privacy to the other people.

@Behind20 i would call the police and document it if someone is following me everywhere. If you haven't seen them then how do you know your friends are pranking you.

If you dont know who they is then you dont know their intentions.

@ExploringReality Embrace your inner child not inner baby. When you die you will be in your highest state with 0 hp. Thats how death is God. I have anecdotal evidence of this. You have no experience besides rehashed text you read. If you interpret what I said as making no sense maybe you got hit in the face too many times cause its very clear wording.

I'd say yes. It must but it has free will to not have to. It being infinite will just do it for fun.

@Ima Freeman Cause I saw that God is real. God is your highest conciousness state. When you die you see God.

@Joshe Does that mean that expecting anyone to react in a way you want is selfish? Who is selfish in this situation, timmy is playing video games Timmy says come watch me play grandma says no. According to that they are both selfish. If grandma does watch timmy is selfish, if grandma watches for 10 minutes and leaves they are both selfish. With this theory the only way to not be selfish is to bow down to whatever anyone asks you to do your whole life. Up to and including sucking on the maggot infested wound of a homeless man for no reason besides he asks you.

You could counter this and reverse it and it works the opposite way. Selfishness is wanting someone to disengage their center to fit yours. Ie grandmas being selfish that I should care about her knitting when I don't.

The highest and lowest degree of conciousness is brain dead retarded. When I see the void from an nde I saw the brain dead retarded state and couldn't not look at it for what it felt was 3 months and couldn't move. When I saw God the second time it felt like I quantum leaped to the highest point and saw they were the exact same state. Then I made the connection that that is what God is. My brain was pointing me to God being the brain dead state of death, and deep sleep and that that deep sleep state is happening right now right in front of us. We are the brain dead deep sleep pretending to be a human you dont have eyeballs its just a thing that isn't, anything dreaming infinetly. Your eyelids closing are a feature reality used to seperate itself from itself.your eye lids are not blocking light they are deleting all of the light in the universe and then reconstructing it when you open them. There's no seperation of inside and outside reality. It will take any state of conciousness and it always still be at its highest state. When your body collapses and you have 0 health you be going to your highest state.

Don't worry literally everyone is a narcissist and schizophrenic these are made up terms to degrees on an infinite rotation. The people making anti narcissist and hateful shit toward narcissist are the higher level narcissist. You will especially hear women attack narcissits more often its projection. You have to be to survive until you find God and see all these brain types are acceptable and just survival mechanism. You get to pick and choose what you want at any given moment and you become a true narcissits. Being a narcissits is an evolution tactic you felt you needed. These therapy definitions are just ways to label people into categorys other people don't like and by definition of the mind, the things they don't like are what they are the most. Projections of their mind against themselves.