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@An young being yes just stop caring about oabout reaction. Turn it into a dream. You don't have to think we have no free will. We can be at peace with the movie or struggle.

When I was in a bad spot in my life after a big change I could see I was in the wrong place and I could see God was trying to get me to move back home. Have you considered a change of life do you feel a pull in any direction that you are trying to not go too? Maybe back home or away from home? I was trying to get away from home so hard in my life and I failed and had to return home 4 seperate times across the country and I left again and had to come back again as a failure. The last time I went back I surrender to life awaken and stay at home and life has gotten way better. I do not believe killing yourself is a good reason for not having sex for like 15 years. You did not want or even think about sex pre pubescent and probably werent that interested until awhile in so its not like you have been wanting for your entire 27 years of life its been like 10. You have lost faith in the future and tommorow and you are super stuck in yesterday and not fucking a woman yesterday. This causes tension with women and is a self fulfilling prophecy you are almost creating your past and therefore creating your future with these thoughts. Feel good today and have faith for tommorow and anything can happen. Stop thinking about fucking women you know, make up women. Thinking about fucking women you know messes with your head when you interact with them in real life it mixes them together. you might interact with these porno fantasy more than you actually interact with them. Stop thinking about talking to women and controlling conversations be yourself . Your awareness should be on you when you bring other people in it causes you to argue with yourself and suffering will happen.

try talking to a hat for a week and pretend it has human perceptions bring it with you and talk to it about the things you are seeing, and make up its answers . A human body is like a hat that makes sounds back. God is the seperation between the hat and the background. Whenever you seperate something from the background of reality you are giving is characteristics in neurons. If you see something you have never seen before you wouldnt know what to feel. God is your entire field and it uses its intelligence to form false outlines around things and the background. Everything is the background. Every outline is a perception you have pre built in your body thought experience. Bodies do not pick up the same sensations therefore a senstation of a thing is not the truth of the thing its just made up by you and your body. The second picture is the awareness of the entire screen with no context. It is awareness There are no people in the second image there are no objects its just one thing the awareness of being there no perception and it takes place on one dimension. 3rd image is you continueing on past reality you can see the red outline does not stop at the image it keeps going and you can zoom out from the light further and further till there is nothing there and you are a void of nothing and God is there which is just the red outline. You are making up perceptions because you are dreaming they are there. perceptions exist cause you are making them up. You have to look at your awareness like its a computer because your body is a computer.

You in a machine. What you are talking about is Akin to sitting in your car watching things happen if someone comes up to your window of your car and react if not you let it pass.

Also I dont think its just not being indoctrinated I also think they had their metaphysical reality taken from them by being lied to about Santa. Santa is depicted as God your parents gaslight you into a scenario where you are using purely imagination then they tell you its not real and you never will believe something without seeing it ever again as you feel like a fool and sometimes very crushed by this gaslight. Santa has the same characteristics as God so you question that and cannot be made a fool of again thats just a made up story too.

@gambler Yes I was going to say I have that exact problem as a compulsion. I had extreme death anxiety for 25 years and I would think of sex before I sleep in order to not have a panic attack as its a very primal emotion and good to think about. As a result my mind became sexual and I jerk off alot and have watch alot of pornography. Developed guilt around it and fell deeper. I notice that when I am in bed I will think of sex beofre sleep and I was automatically touch my penis. I have programmed my mind by doing an activity so much that I have attached the thought of sex to the emotion of feeling horny and I have developed touching my penis with thinking about sex as well. To reverse this takes time and all these sexual feelings are not even generate by wanting sex I did it because I was too scared to go to sleep at night because its the same thing as dying. Now that I surrender I can stop these attachments but you need to see them first. You have to un demonize reality by loving what you do then you can detach.

@gamblerGod loves satan and you

@gambler Yes its ego too only one is saying i love God the other one is saying I hate God

@gambler Ego is satan literally. You fall from heaven via ego

@gambler I wouldnt describe pain as an emotion maybe the very base emotion it seems to be a direct cause of physical reality. Sex is different it requires you to want to do something which is ego. I say hunger is pain. Gender dysphoria is ego. I think gender dysphoria is ego out of control so much you want to maim yourself. I think schizophrenia is ego out of control too. I think they are the same thing. I dont think trans is schizophrenia I think trans is just very feminine men and masculine women so much so they want their own label and they created it. But I do think gender dysphoria is. Gender dysphoria says I hate God I want to permanently changed how I view God. And alot of time it dosent work because its a mental issue. Changing physical reality doesnt not solve mental issue. It can give you peace of mind to solve the mental issue but then after you have peace you see the problem was the dysphoria you had and you just fucked up big time. You see the problem was the mental struggle not physical reality. The soul has no gender. Ego has gender

@Javfly33 We have feelings and then we make up an explanation on why we are feeling the thing but its not correlated except for the fact that we have trained our mind to think that words and emotions go together. So we can use this as a pavlovs dog to feel an emotion but thought and emotion are not correlated. you created yourself to feel certain ways about words and scenarios but you can feel anyway about any scenario if you detach from these constructions. It was a survival mechanism to be loved. Now that you have Gods love you can undo that if you have Gods love. Try to feel the emotion of raw fucking a woman while brushing your teeth without thinking about raw fucking a woman just feel the emotion it has nothing to do with raw fucking a woman thats what you assigned the emotion to. Think about raw fucking a woman see the feeling where is it located focus on where its located and try to stop thinking about fucking a woman and then just focus on that emotion and try to make it bigger.

Its just the easy way out. You don't have to think about scary things when you just say God is real im done thinking about it. Others don't because they can't beleive something they don't see hear feel. Logic is a tool we use to trick ourselves into a beleif system. If the logic dosent fit people can't beleive it.

@gambler Yes

Making up ideas about feelings is ego. Making up that you used a woman is ego its just feelings being empty is good ego is scared to gain control it says I used this person i must feel bad.

too busy sitting in the same place everyday on my computer expanding my awareness. This is a very rare short time where we have internet use it. Expand knowledge non stop. If you are awakened it does not matter we are gathering information for God.

https://www.medicalnewstoday.com/articles/meth-face-sores https://oxfordtreatment.com/substance-abuse/crystal-meth/induced-hallucinations/ https://www.pinnaclepeakrecovery.com/drugs-cause-skin-picking/ https://asanarecovery.com/list-of-drugs-that-cause-skin-picking/ I dont have a research paper I have just seen it said alot

It gets deteriorated because they stay up for days scratching their skin off and biting it off. Constantly grinding their teeth. All those wounds you see on them are self inflicted when they are binging on the drug. They start thinking bugs are under their skin and the fbi is following them because they spend days hyper thinking and making shit up and believing it while high.

the true matter appears when there is no matter and we dont like it. Spirituality is coming to terms with the biggest matter God has and thats matter dosent matter.

You are God flying into random things and experiencing them. You found a human a human can look at things and experience what they are without going into them. go around searching for the feeling you are feeling and find where its at your brain is a radar. Pretend God flew into a flower it dosent know what a flower is it goes inside of it and is surrounded by colour and smells and feelings the flower is creating it is experiencing life as what a flower feels. Now it flew into a human which is just an intelligent flower. What you feel is what this intelligent flower is experiencing. Unlike a flower This flower can do many things with the field of reality. It can label whats around it it can sense at long distance it can see very far away and understand that there are other things out there.Its just a matter of fucking around with what you feel like.

@DreamScape Im not seeking anything I know its true because God means everything is true and real and possible. Im keeping my mind open I am not trying to obtain anything. I never have I just wont say they are lying for no reason because reality is cooler than we can imagine.

@DreamScape Ive also seen many people claim they can scan their bodies and other peoples bodies and seeing with eyes open in darkness.

@DreamScape From hindu it says you can get boons from Gods. You cant prove it cause the powers are invisible to reality.

According to Sadhguru I think he is saying he can leave his body at will. I have heard him say that when he first did he could clap his hands and then make a fruit fall I can only assume he means he is leaving his body and making the fruit fall. He also said that someone can come into a building and he can know what kind of soul the person is around a corner and behind walls. Im assuming hes saying he can fly around a certain range of his body. He has also said he can see enlightened people possibly by scanning the bodies in soul mode within his awareness bubble. He say when he see the enlightened person they both recognized eachother

You either awaken or kill yourself during the process. Its not fun to do but the pay off is like holding in an ejaculated for decades and then finally releasing it.

@What Am I it could be you could also have it happen to you and have not idea what the fuck just happened and get no answers. I could have also accidentally stumbled on leo on a rare chance as when I saw God I instantly knew it was God even tho I was an athiest and not seeking anything. then the next day after I calmed down mildly I look up the term God realization and leos video was the first thing I saw. His video was the first spiritual video I ever watched i didn't even know what it was so it was probably just a fluke or good intuition or good use of the internet.