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I used to have extreme death anxiety. I would think of non existence have a panic attack and I would have a fight or flight response and I would have to go outside and run. It was a weird mental disorder I was scaring myself into running from something that you cannot run from. After I awaken my fear dissolved and I am able to see the mechanisms that are at play with the mind. The ego is here to put you to sleep. You have a thought you react to it that stores it in your identity , dosent matter if its good or bad if you react to it you store it in a bank of identity. Your mind just constantly goes into the identity bank and says to you do you want to remeber this? if you react to it it will store it in the identity bank if you dont you will put it away in memories. If you react strongly it will send you it more ! You can program your mind into a fear loop that you cannot get out of if you do this unconsciously. You need to just let your mind do its thing and let it do what it wants without reacting and just watching. If you have this about the fear of non existence is like a secret hack to enlightenment as its not something you can overcome its the only thing thats not real and it will become so burdensome you either kill yourself or your third eye collapses in on itself. You are scared cause you are reacting to your thoughts, just stop that just hang out and listen to them, fear can be tamed and only works because you let it. when you think about something you connect it to another neuron so if you constantly link a fear to another neuron you will have links of that fear to every other aspect of your life. like sadhguru says when you fear something you plant a potato and when you keep doing it you are planting another potato. Soon you will have a mind will of these fear every neuron is linked to it and the fear is draining every aspect of your life. If you can overcome the fear of this time you will delete the neuron in your mind and since its linked to every other aspect you can see God, cause its like all the other neurons are dying at the same time.

Im not sure it will help you overcome social anxieties but it might help you be more comfortable with yourself so you become more open in social situations but you still have to go through the motions to become less self concious. It can help you actually look at your mind during these situations and see where your brain is trying to fuck you, and you can reflect and change them later because now you are more comfortable with yourself and are being more conscious about thought patterns.

man cannot be man if its a boy boy cannot be a boy if its a man. mentally a boy in this case as you automatically get a mans body. There is no definition of man beyond the biology so this video makes no sense. Becoming a man happens automatically i fight everyday to not be one, people keep expecting me to be a man. Men suck Im not being one. Be the manchild Yes you have to fight to be an American definition of a strong man because its fucking retarded to do, it goes against every fiber in your being telling you its miserable the entire time. Becoming the American man is like falling into every trap on purpose

Is bliss an emotion or is it something else. Is love an emotion or is it lack of emotion. Maybe we stop love from being experienced cause we would rather feel emotions. It dosent leave we just suffocate it.

God loves you do whatever you want. Throw your goals away love everything or love nothing which is just God hiding. Your family dies they are with God so its good. They still exist with God and you can see them when you die. Goals are for people who beleive in the future. The future does not exist if you want something done do it don't plan on doing it.

I was leaving the house to go pick up mail.As I was leaving I remembered a time when I started a fire in my house cause I forgot I started cooking, and then i was walking to the post office and half way there I realized that I forgot my box key and I had to walk back. Im not sure but I think my brain was telling me that I was forgetting something. I think our brains are trying to communicate with us metaphysically so those two things could be a link to your brain trying to tell you something. Think about a metaphysical meaning.In the case above the metaphysical meaning would be forgetting something. Imagination cannot tell you the thing directly because the thing means nothing so I think it uses special hidden ways of communicating even while in this state, from our direct experience of that thing.

I saw a bunch of comments on reddit saying that Mormons do this too

im going to guess through fear, and then returns through love.

there is nothing madness like less than to be limited. Be careful what you fear, it does not like to get caged. Dont take anything to seriously. Any thought let it flow, but what cause it is telling you something about you.

@witpo44 it is the most interesting thing in the universe

God falls asleep because it is literally a mind in a black void. Think about what it would be like to be concious in a dream and the dream just turned off but you remain concious what is there? Its a void of nothing. It has to fall asleep for anything to be experienced. Sort of like if your dream stopped and you were just in a black void you would have to start dreaming again for anything to happen. God wakes up sees its a void of nothing it is complete it can dream of anything it wants but it has to go to sleep to dream and in the dream it can tell itself about itself that is what your life is. God telling itself about its current state if being. Like how your dreams can hold trinkets about this life

just buy a vegetable and eat it raw. Chew food longer

Its all real bro. Keep in mind the map is not the territory this is not done with logic its just aspects of conciousness

I thought thats what the post meant do not lower yourself mentally because you feel a woman rejected you cause she isnt. the rejection is something you can control and she is saying it appears as rejection because you are projecting rejection but its not happening is what the post says. It appears as rejection because you are in a state of self victimization the ego wants you to feel unworthy

after my awakening my identity was gone and I said I could jerk it to gay porn and I did and then I said I could do it to everything and then I did and then I just stopped watching. do this and you can conquer pornography. How to conquer pornography is to cum to gay porn your brain knows this and its doing it by itself you just became open to this keep being open and you conquer the whole thing. Keep it up man good work ! Now shit and piss your pants

I think humans have more than 5 senses. I think science has put them into physical categories but I feel we have way more metaphysical senses that we just assume to be mind. Like we have a sense of self isnt that another metaphysical sense we have. We also have connection to God another sense. We probably have 1000 senses, we can probably sense evil and good. We can sense past and future

You are there you are just staring at the back of your eyelids. Your eyes don't turn off you enter meditation state but you forget you are there because you are not conscious to see that you are just meditating. You just forget you exist and enter no thinking. When you don't think you are there you literally are not there until the next time you think you are there. The trick is to stop thinking you are there ever again.

Try it out maybe its a hidden desire you need to fulfill behind the ego

Everytime I trip on shrooms my vision goes alien and then I fall into my mind and I see that everything is just dust desperately trying to find meaning. I look through my mind and I see mounds of dust sitting there another failed attempt at trying to find meaning within myself. Something that cannot be done cause its all ethereal dust. I see the pyramids and I see it was an effort of God to make itself the biggest mound of dust so that it might give it meaning but ultimately another failed attempt. I see Jesus just another attempt to find meaning in the dust that only exists. I see myself realizing this and there is nothing I can do to find meaning and all lives lived are just desperation to get out of what only exists a void of nothing. I lay in my bed setting up my final resting mound for this life and I cry under my blanket because meaning cannot be found all that exists are existential puppets of a sleeping God.

@Breakingthewall thank you I will try to go further

maybe it was your dance moves

If we are in our bodies and our bodies are machines we should always be conscious about what this machine is doing and why its doing it. I have been practising consciously thinking about what I am doing with my body at all times and notice I keep forgetting to keep track what I am doing with my body by being in life. Like say I walk to the grocery store and then I say to myself I am walking I am walking I am walking, I am opening the door to the grocery store I am walking I am looking at juice I am picking juice out I am putting juice in my basket' then someone I know walks around the corner I stop saying I am and I am thinking about interacting with them unconsciously, I am talking to them and listening to them but I am am not saying I am thinking I am thinking of a response I am deciding response I am responding. Should I sit there and wait for a response to appear or should I be using a different part of me to summon an answer like just talking without filter? Is this all ego game? I keep trying to do this, I am washing a dish I am putting a dish in the rinse sink I am washing a dish, I am washing a dish I am putting it into the rinse sink. I am taking the dish out and drying it. then 10 minutes later I am remembering that I entered a thought process and forgot to narrate my life and then start doing it again. Is narrating your life like this normal and do I have a mental illness by drifting in and out of consciousness like this?

everytime you say the word leo you are blaspheming Christ, Jesus told you this when you were 6, you must recognize the original source. You life is a dream it is telling you something Jesus is the creator of this

@Loveeee Satan gives meaning he is your friend

@Loveeee imagine the release you will feel once you have Satan on your shoulder for infinite time and you live the life you were so scared of and realize it wasn't that bad because God is real and it saves you and loves you after !