Optimized Life

An amalgamation of World Class Ideas from a 130 IQ Brain

Strength of Character is the only way : NO folding to others NO folding to stress No folding to your goals or commitments (Failing on goals or commitments isn't folding if you keep going, dont need to "quit fapping" the first week, need to try, get to day 1, fap, admit its hard, get to 20 days fuck it all up, admit its hard, go back, 4 days, fail again, get back up keep going until you're a no fap warrior) NO anxiety (anxiety comes, but can't fold to it, can't double down on it, you step on it, and keep walking) Perseverance Boldness Its the most important thing Until this is fully maxed out? Whats the fucking point, why would I write on here, why would i comment on anything, why would I even have children, there is no fulfilling life without maxed out strength of character, I admit this here, in a sense i regret ever journalling ever and not just fully maxing out my character first, but alas it is how it is and it seems I am doing both continously To building max strength of character, I dedicate my fucking life to it, i'll still fail often, thats the path, its never an easy ride I say this because im not mentally healthy right now, and whiilst that is not optimal or ideal functionally or spiritually, currently is is what is. It is no use for me to ask for an easy life or easy success, but to only be counterintuive, embrace the pain, almost enjoy it & get off on how much I can do despite being so fucked up and anxious and full of cortisol and betrayal and frustration, there's peace on the other side of success, change is coming, I shouldn't have taken a nicotine gum, something about it has ruined my brain today, but anyway, focus, War is the answer, Just go to war bro, might sound cringe, but its the best reframe for anything, anxiety, procrastination, hesitation, just go to war, but people who didn't mentally/spiritually/emotionally/visually catacpault themselves 3D in their mind and body into the War like i did for a week do not get this, it will go in one ear and out the other, "war" is just a wikipedia list of dry facts to them, it hasn't changed them like it did for me, I never gave a shit about learning facts to sound smart, it was about personal change and depth. Edit 14 hours later .. I'M AWAKEEEEE I'M FUCKING AWAKEea I had multiple awakenings in the last 1.5-2 years, but it all compounded in the last year, i'd say my inner game automatically improved 10*, but also my anger & hatred of society increased about 100*, i've also become more ruthless, haven't even taken mushrooms yet. Awakenings overpower you but they're not easy to deal with, and the older it takes that you reached them the more painful it is, because theres more regret. NO FAP. I can't forget when I hit day 20, that magnetic ENFJ gaze, lightning strike How the fuck did go years without it man? How was i so stupid It's because i was being left brained, leo doesn't even follow his own advice "chimps masturbate a lot therefore no fap is dumb" type of nonsense logic, it's just fucking right brain theres no argument for it, just see the fucking energy and looks you get on day 20 (combined with other factors) & it's insane, it's fucking insane, leo lied, he fucking lied, and I fucking fell for it, 1 of the worst mistakes i've ever made. No fap day 2 complete now, day 90 incoming

AHH FUCK I REMEMBERED THE IDEA ! Folding To Stress - Most Men Fold to Stress, They always fucking Fold to Stress I love this fucking word, "Fold", it jsut works it just clicks, u dont ever fucking fold in life u dont fold thats a second idea connected to just hte idea of not folding and people will make u fold, "make" u fold its often more subtle, rarely by actual force, but the subtlety of it has its own potent "force". (Why you here at this club John? wat u doing here? Where's your friends? (John literally just moved to this city & decided to go out because he doesn't no anyone so how the fuck he gonna know people without going out alone lol), (subtle tone & expression of judgment & condescension of the unconscious gaslighter). 99% of Johns (especially under 25) will fold in this situation because they're just too in their head and their emotions and then the insecurity and self consciousness bubbles up ect.. But what if John just didn't give a shit? in fact that kinda interaction made him get off on being out alone that night and he held his frame and kept going ... no gaurantee but sometimes god rewards that level of persistance, cute girl just randomly shows up at 1am & she actually doesnt care that johns alone, & wants to meet a mysterious foreigner. DId Alexandre Pechersky fold to stress, or sit around and fucking masturabte, when he came to sobidor camp? He inmediately knew it was an iminent death camp, he played all the gaurds like a mastermind and did it without even losing his frame or dignity or socially appeasing them once, he built the plan he executed it lifted everyoine up in the proces,s, what a fucking hero man. Alright, no more ideation, I'm done now, i cant waste my time or got lost in my mind. 1. Psychotic ESTJ Integration & Overcompensation (the wheels to my magic suitcase) 2. Never Fold to Stress 3. Never Fold (To others), in life, EVER Done. No more actualized.org IM READY TO FUCK THE WORLD UP, FUCK SHIT UP SOCIETY IS FUCKED I WONT FOLD

AH FUCK I HAD A GREAT INSIGHT AND I FUCKING FORGOT IT AS MY COMPUTER WAS LOADING BECAUSE THIS SITE LOADS REALLY FUCKING SLOW TO FUCKING LOGIN FUCK I KNOW IT WAS GOOD BECAUSE U KNOW WHEN U GET THAT VIBRATORY WARM FEELING IN YOUR BODY PRACTICCAL INSIGHT THERES ALWAYS (SOMEWHAT DIVERGENT/INDIRECT OR OTHERWISE) AN ELEMENET OF PRAGMATISM AND THAT PARLY WHY IT FEELS "WARM" BECAUSE WHAT THE FUCKING POINT OF JUST "UNDERSTANDING REALITY" FOR ITS OWN SAKE, THAT WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU FAP TOO MUCH, FUCKING FAPPERS FUCK FAPPING IT RUINS YOUR FUCKING LIFE. Continue later : 1. ESTJ Integration - Essential For ENTPs (especially 8w7) >> "Work on your strengths is nonsense, they're already overpowered nothing to work on, but moreso entp strengths like a special suitcase without wheels, great build and weight sexy design and leverage potential, maybe there's a magic geenie in there, but there aint no fucking good wheels to carry them places, and ESTJ integration is the wheels, we need fucking wheels. 2. Fucking forgot Not just Integration - healthy and Obligatory overcompensation, psychotic level of overcompensation of ESTJ Integration necessary. That's the only way u become the rare ENTP who actually practically succeeds and doesn't sit aroudn with a box of wires and supplements and half read books and weird notes on your wall and deleted journals with $333 in your bank account at 40 years old. I'M MOGGING ALL THESE ENTPS WITH MY ESTJ INTEGRATION BITCH Intense discipline, never ever miss a fucking day Jocko Willink NO PORN NO FAPPING EVER, NO FAP. 90% FUEL AND LIFE FORCE DIET WAKE UP EARLY EVERY FUCKING DAY AND JUMP OUT THE BED PUSHUPS, MILITARY, GYM WORK LIKE A FUCKING MAUL EVERY DAY NEVER EVER HAVE UNDER $20K IN THE BANK GOALS METRICS NUMBERS SYSTEMS And then I can fucking dance in the dark after I HATE NOT HAVING POWER IM AN 8W7 IT MAKES ME SICK IT GIVES ME CORTISOL I WAS GETTING POWER BUT I LOST MY POWER GOT CHEATED GOT DISAPPOINTED LOST SOME POWER BACK TO SQUARE ONE GOD GIVE ME POWER GIVE ME FREEDOM GIME FUCK U MONEY FUKC U SOCIETY FUKC U I DO WHAT I WNAT IM AMPED UP ON CORTISOL THIS NOT HEALTHY NEED TO CALM DOWN POWER LETTING GO OHH NOOOO

@UnbornTao Please can I change the title of this journal to "Exploring ideas" Title is too posey and try hard

word "psychedelics" honestly makes me cringe. I will never take or recommend some loose use of "psychedelics" I mean a moderate, intentional light dose of mushrooms for pragmatic & healing purposes. Anything else is just stupid and pathetic to me, entering "hell realms" and shit P.s "Note I do not recommend taking Datura" WHY WOULD U PHRASE THAT SO POLITELY LIKE ITS EVEN A POSSIBLIITY, ITS LITERALLY A POISON,

Re-evaluating Arnold Schawrzniger (I'm only on no fap day 2.5 had a relapse, if i was on no fap day 20, this would hit 100* harder, my writing would be better, i'd feel this video even more, my brain would be 3* faster, No Fap is fucking sacred, you're a fucking moronic loser if you disagree and you must be shamed for it, fapping is evil, NO FAP) Re-evaluating Arnold Schawrzniger I've recently been assessing with AI and quantifying the relative rarirty of specific individuals relative to population (highly mathematically speculative but builds an uncosious intuitive radar of what "talent" actually means) Arnold Schwarnigger 1. Phyisque potential and aesthetics (raw genetics) - Top 1 in 100,000 (virtually impossible for 99.9999% of men to get that big and to achieve his physique with any amount of steroids, muscle insertions are genetic, even elite athletes dont necessarily have aesthetics, narrow weist, perfect ratios ect..) 2. Charisma : 1 in 20 (1 in 20 genetically) but 1-100 to 1-1000 overall (He's charasmatic but not that much imo, very confident ambitious and quite funny, which automatically makes him way above average, but that's the cap, elite level charisma imo requires unique flare, if you think of unique actors who have unpredictability, mystery, certain artists and muscians that have that Inimitable aura, thats 1 in 10,000, 1 in 100K 1 in 1 million level charisma. I'd say historical figures like Oscar Schindler would count in this too, not in the cool artist type of way but social intelligence, charisma manipulation was overpowered elite 3. Internal Confidence, Strength of character : 1 in 1000 to 1 in 10,000 4. Creativity, uniqueness, outside the box thinking, mystery ect.. : 1 in 10 to 1 in 15 Creativity is separate to work ethic, thought outside the box enough to move country, succeed which is still rare but thats the cap. He still followed a somewhat predictable structure and path, wasn't that artistic or stylistic 5. Social Intelligence & Manipulation Capacity (Highly developed not necessarily genetic) : 1 in 300 to 1 in 1000 HMMM, I think I rated arnolds charisma WAYY TOO LOW Actually, wayy too low. He's still not 1 in a million because he lacks that unqiue flare of an elite actor like Vincent Cassel, al Pacino But probably more like 1/100 at least - just because his mindset was so overpowerd, it carries him above everything else IM SLIGHT AUTIST I MUST GET THE NUMBERS CORRECT, FUCK! MY CHARISMA POTENTIAL IS WAYYYYY HIGHER THAN ARNOLDS, WAYYYYYY HIGHER. I honestly have no idea what my max potential is because it requires combining no fap, correct environment, state, possibly psychedleics ect... When i talk about GENETICS it's about POTENTIAL and RESPONSE to the right accumulation of months and years of specific inputs, people think "genetics" just means being born and then boom like nononono, theres millions men hiding in their potential who have no idea who they could be, they even appear like average or only slightly above average to their own parents, their parents dont even realize what they're capable of, because many parents care more about the image of you and fitting in to their catholic ideal or whatever right, not about "whats my sons true potential" like 99.9% of fathers never ask that fucking question. All my estimates above are completely my own speculative guess, Apart from 1. (AI rated him top 1 in 100K for physique)

Why Tom Torero was miserable and empty I never knew the guy, not even of the guy until post death And i'm sure , his business cancellation was the ultimate tipping point that ended it for him, since his lifestyle was now over But here's the thing : He was empty and melancholy in the coming years anyway He lived a constant nomadic lifestyle, always travelling around, lone wolf seducer, Jack Reacher type He boned hundreds of women, nearly always ONS I'm sure he revisited differnt places or formed a pattern but, he never stayed anywhere He never moved and settled anywhere, no community, no friendship group, No long term girlfriends He had 1 income source, 1 business model, that was the foundation of his life, logistics, very fragile No large investments or holdings in crypto, stocks, gold, real estate, no homes I doubt he was even that physically healthy, always travelling, probably ate convivence food, he didn't workout or have any muscle mass He didn't show much other interests or pursuits of satisfaction : creative business idea, invention or some competitive hobbies Very easy to see why he was so jaded, it's not "because women don't make you happy bro", way more nuanced Feminine women y do contribute to male happiness significantly But he could've just evolved into .. 3 attractive long term girlfriends, then had fun stranger sex once a month, maybe children? He could've tried psychedelics, he could've learnt new languages and actually tried truly living in 1 of those countries rather than just being a lone tourist There's like a million things he could've done to make his life more sustainable, rewarding, interesting, meaningful and less lonely and empty

I NEVER smoked for so many years, barely a single day without smoking apart from NYE i would smoke literally once a year and i have smoked every day for months, fucking months, chronically I FUCKING ripped up my ciggaretes and thwew themn on the fucking floo r u cannnot quit every fucking habnit at onjce but i fuckijng quite smoking FUCK BECAUSE SMOKING AGES YOU FAST WTFFFF IM A VERY FUCKING PROFUNDLY HANDSOME MAN AND IM SMOKING IT AWAY FUCKKKKK THAT BRO TODAY I GET DRUNK BUT I QUIT SMOKIG I QUIT AT LEAST BEER DOESNT DIRECTLY AGE YOU AND DRY OUT AND FUCKIN KILL THE COLLAGEN PORETIEN FOR YOUR SKIN AND WRINKLE YOUR FUCKING FACE FUYCK THAT

The War Never Ends I tried to quit caffiene 3.5 days ago I have semi succeeded but I had some cacao drink today, so not completely Probably had 50-60mg caffiene in 3-4 days, and still, I do not feel good at all, how long will this last? I dunno but I'm a cynical guy, not so niave to the idea of fast recovery anymore My skin has literally another 40-80 days just to fully recover from short term smoking Im sure caffiene withdrawal fucks you for anywhere from 10-40 days, it's a final boss many people underestimate Gotta wonder why almost no one literally ever quits caffiene hmmmm? Is it because of all the antioxidants? lmao

You provided zero annoyance to me at all, hard to infer tone or reaction from written words You are pleasant and polite, and that's appreciated I was just being honest that : I am not benign and the world isn't a nice place, nor is it becoming a nicer place, nor do I even need it to be anymore, I just need to make useful choices, cant much control if the world burns as long as I made mine count

God forgive all my wasted times God forgive all my dead ends God forgive all my internet brain rots God forgive all my delusional insecurities God forgive all the time I spent online God forgive all the times i dind't approach God especially forgive the times I didn't approach the love at 1st sight type of women, of which have been several God forgive all the wrong people I trusted God forgive all the people I listened to God forgive all the times I didn't think critically God forgive all the times I started and dind't finish something God forgive all my regrets God forgive my bitterness God forgive the times I hated women God forgive me for falling for all the modern traps many times, staring at screens all day, disconnected God forgive me for trying to get validation from women, that's a scam God forgive me for prioritizing money and business so much God forgive me for judging peoples value according to their wealth, or career God forgive me for caring what people thought of me for so long, and god forgive me for deluding myself that I didn't care anymore when technically I still did at the bios level God forgive me for not studying history and how the world really works sooner God forgive me for not developing my own voice and values sooner, always just going along with the "successful" people I knew, like a dog God forgive me for not taking mushrooms sooner God forgive me

You're in for a rude awakening then lmao, that was not the purpose of this post I asked for forgiveness of futile, delusional and tragic mistakes, like not approaching, insecurities and wasting time I dind't ask for the world to be a nicer place, or to be benign I'm actually dangerous, just dangerous and human

Not sure if i should advise on "becoming like him" because to me he is more a very close (70-85%) revelation of my true self, I had already been finding and embracing myself for years and I finally found him again Lookwise its how he the embraces and styles himself, long wavey hair, sometimes long stubble, sometimes old money or more exuberant and sensual style, sometimes more bad boy look, it's the flexible mix of slightly adrogenous style but always with a dominant, dark, brooding and intense, sexual charisma behind it, that doesn't apologise or try to fit in or be likeable or tame

He's literally the sexiest, cooler mf alive, can't believe i forgot about this guy He's my celebrity soul father Dark, brooding charisma Creative, intellectual but not in a try hard or geeky way European, never conformed or souled his soul to Hollywood Always dating stunners Aristocrat bad boy archetype Very masculine, but not in a square, one dimensional way, full of chaos and sensuality Drinks parties and smokes (something I stopped but I admit that cooler people tend to drink and smoke, doesn't mean it's inherently worth it) IF YOU DON'T AGREE WITH THIS, YO;RE A FUCKING PEASANT BUT MOST WON'T AGREE BECAUSE MOST OF YOU ARE FUCKING PEASANT FUCKS ME AND VINCENT, WE'RE INVINCENTIBLE AND ABOVE YOUS

HE'S LITERALLY MY FATHER GOAT

The War Against Presence I'm on day 21 No Fap It's highly worth it But it's only a force multiplier Without presence? > vulnerable scattered energy with no direction Many modern societies are completely degraded, people are numbed to zombies staring at their phones, and this is a huge problem, some countries are impacted less than others, some cultures are more intact, some cultures have stronger family bonds, better relationships, more prescense, but some other countires and cultures are completely ruined beyond repair, especially becuase it's a silent insidious killer, that can't really be dealt with or enforced with force in realistic method I am seeing the limits of no fap, which is that you need presence Do I mediate or is it a waste of time? Just meditating for 5 minutes, even an hour a day to me feels stupid The "mediation" needs to be 24/7, every single second of my life, otherwise what's the point? I look at my phone for no reason "Nope i'm practicing presense", this kind of shit Not holding strong enough eye contact with a girl? there you go, it's presence practice, "Meditation" It must be inescapable, ubiquitous, omnipresent, inevitable, constant and unwavering I still think focused mediation with timer is Probably GOOD at first to kickstart the wiring again, but it needs to become an integrated discipline And of course, taking mushrooms too, a kickstarter, jumpstart with these 2 i gues 1. Mushrooms 2. Mediation with timer 3. Deliberate social Prescnece / eye contact / gaze holding 4. Integrated god mode

1. I spoke about realizing how little you know 2. But there's also, How Deep do you know it? For years I know society breeds week men and castrates them, schools, parents, offices and culture in the west does this, perhaps to varying degrees per individual country, but across the board, most of the "west" (including USA, western, southern & northern Europe) does this Now I've sort of known this for since about 22, definitely much better than most normies But for years I didn't KNOW IT deeply enough Such that, If I was subtly pressured to a family gathering, I would just eat the pasta and whatever other crap, and I would watch the sports on TV, because a part of me still believed in it as merely a healthy hobby, balance Now becuase I know so deeply if my family dare tempt me with any of those distractions I'll get viscerally angry and agressive at them, no negotiation at all and I'll look at them in disgust, because for trying to tempt me against my will, and disgust at them for being normies I worked a kitchen job, and this woman, who had a proto-typical normie hat wearing "I'm everything that's wrong with society" on her face, fat as fuck, would ALWAYS tempt me into eating the dirty cake. And she wouldn't just do it once, she'd offer it, i'd say i'm ok, she'd say "are you sure??" "i's say im ok" Eventually that bitch would tempt me, her tone, when she'd offer it multiplie times, I hadn't had time to eat, i'd been cleaning the dishes and prepping stupid sandwiches for hours, drained, after weeks I suddenly had a moderate sugar addiction. Now obviously I could've been stronger and learnt how to just say NO and im not denying that, but again it would've been way easier fo rme to say no, and I would've, if I just KNEW more deeply the trap, and KNEW how against that shit I was, not shallow like "sugar is bad" but "ohh this is the thing where society tries to castrate me to be like them, oooh shit watch the fuck out, dont eat that" I have old eyes now for a young man, I've seen too much, i know too much. I know what society is doing to men, and I'm fucking sick of it and I won't fucking stand for it anymore, so I won't hold back any more, I wont be a polite sugar eating masturbating presentable fake neutered bitch anymore with no dawg in me, sitting around watching sports and eating fucking pasta. Fuck society man

God forgive my arrogance to spirituality It's not what i thought it was Spirituality is real life That mythical gaze an INFJ woman locks onto you, soft but enchanted and haunted, aroused but nurturing, awakened Or that bold electric potent gaze a ENFJ woman locks onto you, within a split second No Fap is spirituality War is spirituality Even power and winning frames is spirituality It's not about being nice or tame Life is war Life is spirituality

I'm back to day 12 of no fap and I'm feeling my power come back. Feel it in my walk, feel it in my breath, feel it in my will, feel it in my dawg Getting so so much better at getting frames back and winning frames, from people, workers, women (who just want validation and control masquerading as dating) I'm learning to win frames without try hard dominance, without attacking people, without drama, i'm just starting to win frames, im getting real power

The Double Edged Reticular Activation System : A Phallic defence and defiance against Undesirable energies and beings, and the heroic confrontation and fight against your own evil brain 1. Focus on what I want AND expect to get what I want (With a delusional arrogance of deserving and being intensely capable of having it + a deep humility in my willingness to crawl through sticky hell to get it, if necessary) 2. What I dont want doesn't exist to me, gotta practice the sparring of ignoring and rejecting bad thoughts, the brain, our brains have been bulling us for decades, the default brain is literally a bully!, it just tricks and traps you again and again again and again again and again again and again again and again again and again over and over and over and over and over either you keep numbing yourself or you one day just go WHEN DOES IT FUCKING END, CAN I JUST BEAT THIS MOTHERFUCKER FOR ONCE? Double edged reticular activation system is one perspective i decided to add on beating the brain, in addition to everything else mentioned previoulsy But also, gotta just take mushrooms i think (AND Cold approach MORE Obviously cold approach is a magic skill, unbelievable rare and beautiful skill

IM REALIZING MORE AND MORE THE POWER OF BELIEFS, LANGUAGE AND NLP AND WHEN I REALIZE IT, IT SNOT THE FUCKING SAME AS SOME AVERAGE ACADEMIC GEEK REALIZING IT I HAVE NO ACADEMIC BACKGROUND, I DONT EVEN STUDY NLP ACADEMICALLY ALL MY GROWING UNDERSTANDING COMES FROM A COMBINATION OF INTUTIVE SYNTHESIS OF LIFE EXPEREINCES AND LOOKING AT SOME HISTORY AND JUST MY OWN HISTORY IT IS UNREAL FOR AN ENTP 8W7 LIKE ME TO REALIZE THE POWER OF THIS, WE US 0.1% BEINGS ARE THE MOST CAPABLE OF GRASPING IT AT EVERY LEVEL AND MASTERING IT

Another working sloppy half baked writing in progress in a manic stressed tired and cognitively, emotionally overwhelmed, demoralised state, everythiung I write might be dumb af and make no sense and im humble enough to share it anyway "In between vs all in personality" .. im an extrovert but should I lock myself in a room for a week and study myersbriggs/ennegram and look at what it's missing, try extend it? ^^ we have MB .. we hav ennegram, we have instinct stack but i doubt all of those were neatly, linearly ideated in a single session , i bet more was discovered years later with an iteration or insight, like how most scientific ideas extend from previous works What if mb/ennegram/instinct stack needs extending for example le ohas spoinenb about this before - some people more sensitive to sounds ect.. thats a specific thing like "sensisitive" - if u imagine like an "ENTP 3W2 S" = Sensitive vs ENTP 3W2 IS = Insensitive Any what about SUPER RESPONDERS People think there's just gentics but the most mysterious thing is genetic potential Like there's leonel messi the born freaks that get noticed instantly without any trianing but then what about the Super rsponder freaks? The 6/10 that looksmaxes and glows up to a 7.6/10 when 99% of 6/10s cant do it The skinny guy who gains muscle super fast the average brain who turns into a genius with an education boost "Super Responder" also - i connect it ot sensitivity Because some people (myself) are very, very,very sensitive to certain things So i dont mean emotionally sensitive in that "no you hurt me" I mean like If i do No fap, it AFFECTS ME If I here the right NLP Language, written in a certain way that just hits my nervous system, hits my emotional system, it HITS Me, it ENERGISES me If I read about men who did incredible things in the war, It POWERS Me But I smoke the tiniest bit of skunk? I'm fucked for like a month, even the tiniest fucking bit, when some other ISTP type can just smoke it away and listen to his bob marley Waking up early, gym ect.. it all AFFECTS Me anbd most people, most brains, even succesful people are so, so pschologically ignorant that alex hormozi or someone will make a video "FUCK YOUR MORNING ROUTINE" because FOR HIM, he doesn't need it, HE can get away with eating ice cream once a day, without any addiction spiral or it fulfills him, thats for HIM.. yet he still has the arrogance to make a video about fuck your morning routine, its such common sense in a way wreally why people dont get this, different shit works for diffrent people and people can be widly different, some people are like 1 in 10,0000 or less So is no fap, or morning routine or gym the KEY to success, generally no, but it might be FOR YOU, it might be the thing that makes YOU become a millionaire or get women, not because no fap or gym literally gets women to approach you, but the momentum of those habits, or just how those things uniquely interact with your nervous system, might be the most realistic propellent that leads you to getting a fuck ton of women as a 3rd order consequence, because everythnigs conneted, also, if you can't approach women maybe you're stuck what you gonna do? keep walking around and not doing it for another 6 months? sometimes to solve a problem you have to walk around it, take a different route and then the path converges to get you there anyway I have no idea what im fucking saying right now, i dont sit around thinking abotu this stuff, this is all written in about 2-3 minutes and i ahve 50 things on my mind, maybe it makes sense, maybe it means nothing ... OHH I forgot, "All in vs in between personalities" Why I'm an ALL IN Personality and i have to be well i dont need to disect it but im realizing more and more that I am Why am I so fucking unbearably arrogant? Because I fucking have to be, until some mushroom rewirinng or something I cannot be moderated or negotiate with humility in my brain .. because then doubt creeps in, then i fluctuate "maybe im not who i thought i was, maybe im just an average guy ect.." And like I said, Im a sensitive super responder, so i MUST go ALL IN on Absolute fucking diabolical arrogance every day, there cannot be any negoatiaon at all, there cannot be any second thought AT ALL Because i know where it leads to Super responders are blessed and cursed, they fall as hard as they blow, and this why extreme arrogance and delusional self belief is necesaary, i literally am rewiring myself to see myself as a god, and it has to become a genuine belief to the level hitler believed his ideology

Bro takes mushshrooms and watches family guy for 4 hours and expects to absolve himself of all insecurities and have a permanent bios level inner game shift Scientific Targeted Daily Affirmations both actively and passively absorbed daily in a variety of poetic linguistic structures, and NLP idioms/Psychological power words to drilll into the subconious + Visualization every night + even writing by hand sometimes goals, standards, desires, positive (currently delusional) beliefs + right music for u specifically + Trip Intention + perfect setting (specific to ur unique personality type goals) >> Mushrooms and if it requries 50 trips and I have to suck some punjabi cult leaders hairy penis so be it, I need king level inner game with zero stones untruned, zero inconsistency, I'm tired of this fluctuating bullshit now

Status Signals Bias Like a perfectly cupped pair of big juicy tits, the brain just cannot ignore or evade status signals If a mod comments on my journal, or if I search a particular topic to find an answer, even something as bland and neutral as supplement stacking, I will my eyes will always be pulled into a mods comments because of the green colour and what it symbolises Knowing consciously that the mod could be an idiot or leos nepotistic soft spot, my brain just cannot escape it Hard to by bypass the brain