Optimized Life

Alright I literally have insomnia now zero way i will sleep. I can deal with it but I also have responsibilities and being slep deprived will not help with those at all I do not think cold turkey is a logical choice for hard addictions (Unless you have Zero responsabilities and can deal with days of insomnia and dysfunction) 1 per night now (cant even cos i ripped up the pack lmao

This is literally quite brutal lmao wtf

Withdrawals are hitting me and I can't sleep, I wouldn't say it's super dramatic like I'm not in ... well its pretty nasty actually but again I'm not a bitch like it's FINE but the issue is i have a fucking career to build so i dont want to have 4 hours sleep and a dysfunctional brain I'm fine with the withdrawals but it may even help my career to have 1 beer and 1 little cigar just 1 Because who's to say cold turkey is often the most optimal anyway? Ah i do not want to fold and I am strong enough to not fold, the issue isn't weakness It's that the stress of thinkng about it and being in withdrawal and then not sleeping might cause more problems (and possibly a harder rebound when i get so pissed and realize my business is just not going anywhere) so im trying to weigh the trade offs & 2/3rd order consequneces intituively and im thinking 1 smoke, small drink per night might be ok to taper off then on weekend I can go full sobreity and just deal with it Or maybe I need a middle ground, maybe 1 beer and No smoke per night, or 1 smoke and no beer And I can confirm that masturbation or sex does nothing to ease the pain of nicotine withdrawal, it is literally as addictive as heroin, it's a visceral physical addiction, both physiological and psychosomatic.

Probably exactly 24H since I have last smoked I managed to distract myself being busy all day, did like a 3 hour workout this evening just to forget about it and it worked But I get back, 24H are over now, I'm home, I see some stars outside, I see a chair inclined towards the stars, and I see myself smoking, looking at the stars, thinking, brain and bloodstream sped up from the nicotine, creative ideas flowing to me, and a nice way to cope and feel a little sorry for myself for 5 minutes as I regret the majority of my life. The craving is quite brutal, and it makes sense that the brutal cravings tend to be 24 - 72H or something I really want to fucking smoke (especially smoke and drink one together) I'm very very tempted (You've been busy all day, just have 1 beer and 1 mini cigar now, it's just one it's fine) 1 beer and 1 cigar doesn't ruin your life, but committing to something, then backtracking and breaking my own self trust, that's why I can't do it. Just the fact that I decided I wouldn't, and I know it will probably end up as more than 1 anyway

AI and Chat GPT : Trillion $ Value Force Multiplier Only as a Force Multiplier, it becomes a trillion $ value asset, it's invaluable If only chat GPT 4 arised 10 years earlier, I do think all of my problems would've been jumped through Because of my curious and insatiable ambitious but also pragmatically/Comprehension oriented innate curiosity and processing combination, AI or chat GPT is worth Trillion $ of value - because I will experience something, observe it, recall it in full detail, then question it to chat GPT, or suggest my personal understanding of it, then often chat GPT will give me the answer that I need or didn't realize I needed, immediately It's a cheap, on - demand life coach, educator and VA in virtually every subject in the world. The value i'm pointing at isn't what normies think of - No, chat GPT will not make me rich and on its own its not that inherently valuble .. it only becomes so valuable when you have a certain type of intention, personality, ambition and curiosity, and still ... It took me 1.5 - 2 years to finally understand the value & get any value from GPT, to really build a dynamic flow with it, 99% of people will never get much value from it, will still be the same mediocre people they are in 10 years time.

Ok that articulation was rather drawn out and sloppy So what is the core compression Idea ? CHANGE : 1. Initial Catalyst = Vivid negative emotion/fear/regret ect.. 2. > Positive Transformation Visualization + Lasting Emotional excitement towards the benefits or fruits E.g : 1. Deep pain anger and anxiety of being single and alone, and fear of turning 45 tomorrow and realizing you never experienced it all, and at that point you're in so much regret that you just jump off a bridge 2. Excitement towards sex, fun experiences or deep relationships with sexy women, and a lingering appreciation and love for hot women, waking up excited for it, moving towards it

I quickly introspected and realized this post was lacking a key detail. It was both positive and negative motivation, but within the initial moment of realization, it most definitely was fear/anxiety/regret/negative projection that ultimately got me to say "hmm this I need to stop" to even look into the positive benefits of change and glowing up, and for example the fear of glowing down even further from where I am, dropping to a 6/10 then a 5.5 ect.. So yeah ... Use both but the negative is often the initial mental catalyst, perhaps always so.

People make fun of "looksmaxing" because they conjure an image of a (homoerotic), vain, annoying effeminate Zoolander pretty boy, and this is understandable. Thing is, "Looksmaxing" actually doesn't take that much effort, once you know what to do it becomes like brushing your teeth. If you're ugly I'd say just compensate in other ways and aura max. But if you're genetic base (or lets say base when u just barely try and live like a normie, low quality food ect..) If it is a 6 - 6.75, (so assuming good eyes bone structure ect..) then once you remove the toxicity AND add the self care stuff AND add the aura stuff, you can literally go from like a 6.4 to a 8.3 in a couple months .. then if you add the gym body, overall could go from like a 6.5 to a 8.5-9 literally in months. There's millions of men who are walking around as 6-6.75 rating and they could be an 8 Another thing people often don't mention is that there is an inseparable merging of looks and aura/vibe When you have passion, purpose, intensity, drive, hunger, sexual intensity ect.. it shows in your face, it literally makes your face more visually striking, So when you look at how many factors there are, its remarkable how much men can glow up or down in life, because even without considering looks you can already glow up like 1000% with wealth, lifestyle, education, confidence, experience, status, competence ect.. Then there's diet style clothing grooming haircut skin care gym physique, tan, then there's mood purpose passion intensity, even education could be a glow up because with a larger vocabulary you have faster wit in conversation with women, or if you increase your pattern recognition ability or observation ability, or merely remove all the underlying negative emotions that to block your natural intelligence and charm arises Final points about Motivation and Change 1. Have to find your WHY 2. "It's only about negative motivation and maximum PAIN Bro" ^^ Of course pain and fear are powerful motivators and catalysts but like positive motivation is also extremely powerful, positive motivation alone can be enough Just picturing how much I can glow up in 2 months has caused me to quit smoking and drinking and junk food, after 3 months of continuous degradation Of course leverage everyting - leverage it all cook it all in a soup and merge it together, merger positive motivation fear paranoia ego affirmations Faith glow up vision merge it all cook it all up bitch.

The reality is most people do inituively understand all this and don't have a 75 IQ, like it's normally trauma, insecurity, stress, regret ect.. that is the underlying cause of the symptoms of smoking, smoking is a "lesser evil" way to cope with real pain, because at least it's not heroin, Still it is useful to find your why and zoom into the vivid effects & consequences, for me at least, maybe not if you got severe trauma, need a more root solution, i mean stress cuased me to get into it, but my stress coping is outweighed by my vanity, and im self aware enought o acknlowedge that it only increases stress anyway, at least in the mid-long term

And I didn't even mention the glowdown from alcohol and smoking on physique, and the sensory glowdown from smelling like burnt wood, having dry af hands, and also the phyqisue takes a hit and if you dont have elite physqiue genetics then you're really capping yourself with gym, may not even be motivated to go train anymore And then the impact it all has on your teeth, and your brain from the worse sleep Then all the time you dont spend learning that language (or any meaningful cognitively demanding hobby), and because you didn't learn that language you now have less confidence and pride approaching those sexy exotic girls you wanted, because you were drunk or hungover or wokeup too late and couldn't study

The negative compounding is actually higher if you think about it because If you don't smoke/drink, then you're now free to get into the self care paradigm - from this you can genuinely go from a 7.2 to a 8, then add physique maxing and aura maxing / dominant eye contact ect.. you're literally at a 8-9/10 overall So it's also the opportunity cost of not maxing yourself Like every time you gamble you're not only losing money you're not spending time building a business that compounds, it's a double edged cost, this why "small actions" like throwing the pack of mini cigars away can have such a profound impact The only reassuring thing about smoking is that according to AI, it has a very neglible (0.2 points) effect on looks if very short term, like if smoked moderate amount this week but you're not a smoker normally, but over months it has significant looks loss of 1-1.5 points Alcohol however has a stronger inmediate glow down of the face, such that if you attended a wedding and drunk that week despite being otherwise healthy specimen long term, you would instantly have a 0.5-1 point reduction in looks So Alcohol I'm going to permanently avoid, with excpetion of maybe a seductive glass of wine obviously this "inmediate glow down" from alcohol is unlikely if it's literally 1-2 glass of wine this week, obviously, but how most people even with their shit together drink their essentially 0.5 points at least less sexy than they could be automatically

Must find your why, have to find your why According to AI, If lets say your facial attractiveness is a 7.2 baseline (without skincare, good haircut, grooming ect..) just in its lazy state Then (Within literally 1 week!) alochol and smoking will drop your face from 7.2 to 6.5-6.75 within 1-6 months, it will drop your face to 5.25 - 5.75 Thats a huge fucking difference If you dont care about your looks I respect that peace but personally I don't like acknowledging that I'm doing this to myself And that's just purely factoring the effect form the alcohol/smoking, not even considering if you're doing that then it cascades into way more junk food, inflamation in general, possibly you'll get fat, at this point you could be a 4-5/10 within a year, thats a massive glow down This vain angle has really motivated me to quit thanks AI

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One issue of prolific writing and continuous presence is it kills the mystery and people take you for granted If I just showed up once a fortnight with my best expressed most authentic insight, it would hit 100* harder Also the Pareto principle since if you write every day naturally 80% of it will be trash anyway it disgusts me when artists have fill the large albums but everyone knows there's only like 3-4 good songs on there .. why not just remove the other songs? I'm not here to impress others though and dont really give a shit if no one read this or "take me for granted" lmao, but it's useful to acknowledge trhis principle in general. like if you just flower your GF with attention every day endlessly she'll take you for granted, may even begin to hate your guts. Maybe if I write too much or think too much I'll take my own brain for granted?

My life is exhausting and I'm exhausted. I feel to just leave some stuff up to interpretation, and not explain any further, in a sense I'm leveraging my own burn out and creating a new way of writing.

Stargazing at night, a rare gift in this polluted place. Off the ball, it's how you move off the ball, that's what really counts

Power move requires a constant honesty and awareness of wha tis and isn't a power move. Writing on here or sounding cool is not a power move, my life is exact same. Although, in a sense it is a power move because now I feel a sunk cost fallacy and parasocial accountability such that if I dont fuck off and go do power moves for a week then I know I'm a fucking fraud mentally masturabting ideas to strangers.

Affirmations, Visualization and subconscious reprogramming, is the number one overlooked, mistunderstood, underused "woo - woo" practice within the self help community that actually fucking works, and it really fucking works. But the thing people forget is that actually takes work, it's like another fucking part time job, that also requires consistency, correct delivery, in a basically scientific and specific way, so literally 99.9% of people never actually do it and then they say it's stupid.

The heroes Emotion and the Power Move (I'm going to stop writing at this one and do a power move) Stuck in a rut? Checking my bank account realizing how fast I spend, can't stop 1. "Heroes Emotion" (must be genuine and felt throughout the body on a spiritual level, can't be fake, must come from within regardless of the external trigger but music can help with this) It's that bold radiation of self love that arises, but it's honest and humble , you know there's weakness wihtin you, addiction and frustration and habits you just cant seem to break, and you just wanna fucking scream in agony and vent in a loop But the heroes emotion works because the energy field literally bullies every other emotion and urge and competing part within yourself, that wants laziness and wants to fucking fap or complain, the heros emotion is like that big strong older brother who comes in to scare the bullies away, and it must be summoned 2. A Power Move (Shouldn't really articulate or explain this because We all know what it is at any given moment) It's the thing I'm scared to do, or too lazy or "tired" to do, or there's "no point doing becuase it's late now" There is no greater feeling in life than post power move, one of my goals is to acucmulate as many of these moments in my life until i'm old, power is intoxicating with such a sweet, succulent aftertaste, and I'm chasing that shit every day.

Calling myself 130 IQ (and genuinely believing it) instantly raises my IQ, (at least in in my productive & pragmatic capacity to generate results within the real world) ... even if my real IQ is 105 or whatever the fuck (feels painful even considering this thought - the beauty (and also genocidal danger) of affirmations is they become almost addictive like crack, once you get in the habit of mentally jerking yourself it feels discussing to even consider the possibility of actually having a 105 IQ) The Power of Belief, the placebo effect, is the 8th wonder of the world.

Oskar Schindler So tempted to write about this guy A flawed man, but a hero in the end

Studying the great war late at night , feel like I found something lost within me Men used to go to war The poles & slavs were genocidally oppressed Yet never lost the will, never lost their might Men used to go to war, people used to fight Had to remind myself, of that will to fight Studying the entire war in all its pain and glory every night For many the battle for survival, could not be won But that last fight for pride and glory weighed a ton Warsaw uprising, they knew on sheer logistics they would die But they went down swinging anyway, in the spirit of their peoples pride Alexander Pechersky, the biggest hero in my eyes Against all the odds, he outmanoeuvred the guards and liberated 50 lives

A geek studies history without end, fleeing into a fictional portal to evade the real, present world he inhabits. A strong man takes inspiration and draws lessons from it (by perhaps zooming into the impressive traits and skills of a specific individual) ... and draws a line and comes back to reality, and his goals.

History is the ultimate meta subject encompassing all other subjects, as interwoven components that interact and reveal themselves naturally within a grounded reality