Optimized Life

Might sound like bro science But have to understand where this is reasoning is coming from. Balls*Hard work > Hard work Hard work (alone) = janitor at wall mart (or typically any corporate office job) (can hide, obey & avoid discomfort, exposure, and testing yourself) But HARD WORK * BALLS (domain or context options are innumerable) - but the warrior psychology is universal. It doesnt guarantee success immediately (can also be more high variance since balls can correlate with recklessness, can have high bools without wisdom, can get screwed over but the point of high variance games is the attitude that, that unless you go for an awesome goal, nothing in life is worth it, so the high risk downsidejustifies the high upside, because just being a 4-6/10 relaibly isn't worth it ... Balls*Hard work = Being willing to expose yourself, look stupid, fail in public, whatever, test your identity, go against inertia, discomfort, change your envrionment, even change your identity But : BALLS*HARDWORK*PAIN = DAWG ^ Now Pain = GASOLINE Pain = Jump starts the vehicle, Pain = Turbo boost that without it, the vehicle cannot move, because its stuck in mud, it lacks fuel. Without pain, you're just too comfortable, even if you have the personality type that is capable of balls, of dealing with risk, of exposing yourself, it's repressed, its unactivated, becase youre in comfort, its blocked, and humans (regardless of personality) are by default, wired to simply survive and in the most comfortable, efficicent, energy preserving way. *Not just survive physically and financially like that, but our identities, our habits Have to live life in constant rebirth, every day and every week.

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It's a myth that the only the CORE way to make money is hard work. IMO If momentum = mass x velocity Velocity = Hard Work but Mass = Balls And Dawg = Balls*Hard Work. ... Momentum = Balls*Hard Work Dawg > Momentum Dawg = Balls*hard Work*Pain

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I am extremely flexible, but its a very useful personality map. There is distinct personality & value difference between me and peter ralston .. I am still taking gold from his work and applying it to myself, it doesnt get any less "constrained" than that.

I'm not here to become some wanna be Ralston. Ralston is likely INTJ 5W4 Leo is strong INTP 5W4 or INTJ 5W4 I'm a fucking 8W7, I couldn't care less about "ultimate truth" and all this nonsense. But I still see the value in having prescence, and being "highly conscious" just applied to ways that are relevant to me. Not here to awaken mankind or be a monk. I'm taking the gold from ralston and using it for my agendas, sex, power, confidence, presence, charisma ect.. Who said spirituality had to be about "truth and consciousness" ? No, its about getting power.

^ Note on Peter Ralston Wisdom The information list is good, but trap is to turn it conceptual, like im at school studying an exam. I am NOT supposed to understand all this instantly, it only comes with practice. Whats no.1 application principle?

The Peter Ralston Paradigm (Summarised with AI) May Trim this further, I have 3 separate paradigm summaries of 3 different talks about him (but tbh, each one seems to expand on my understanding, I might re-read this every morning now). I feel like for decades i have always forced stuff, I've always over-thought stuff, I've always braced, and tensed, and self sabotaged, and got lost in my head, and other things that dont fit the ralston paradigm. Maybe I need a different way of seeing reality. Brute force does work in the right context, even needed sometimes, but it's not a reliable strategy for consistent success and fulfillment, you simply burnout. Expanded Discussion on PR life wisdom : "Life is not strategies → it is perception, choice, commitment" ....

TIER 2 = Possibly great, worth checking out

TIER 1 : = (Here) = Definitely great Information, must rewatch & reapply these

07.01.26 Content Te, Information Te, Reprogramming Te I've complained about "content bastards" in self help or business space who want your money and dont actually help you. But there is genuinely life changing free information and videos on YouTube. Videos or information that, I really felt at the time, but then somehow just forgot. Months just go by and you forget the message, forget to apply it, go back to homeostasis. But the key is that, it's normally a FEW videos, that hold enourmous power. Think about how dense a stone can be. You can pack millions of feathers into boxers, and it still doesnt weigh close to certain stones, and its all messy and it spills out everywhere and you cant contain it .. this is how just "consuming content" felt to me. But there can be like anywhere from 1-3, or 1-10 videos online that are dense stones .. or diamonds I'm gonna reshare them. But, I need to reappreciate what im doing Or ill forget I have to take it very seriously I have to keep relistening to the video if it really matters, drill it in Then take the core notes Then inmediate applicatino and practice. And use Te so that i set application commitments so that its not a 1 off thing but consistenly applied dialy. Core topics : Beliefs, Affirmations, Subconscious mind Work Ethic The Peter Ralston paradigm (my personal attempt to approach life differently and see if it can work in this way, topic discussed with AI will be shared). Some more stuff?

Tributes to Leos best works : I have intermittently focused on complaining about or disagreeing with leo, it was a mistake .. Everyone knows Leo's biased because everyone's fucking biased. But not enough people fathom how good & practically profound a tiny % of his videos actually are For me it's likely 3-5 videos max But of those 2-5 videos, i may have watched them 20 times, then years later, still only truly realsiing how profound it is. For example, how fear works. I feel like the only person in history who had a true inutitive grasp on the human trickery and pervasiveness of fear was possibly Shakespeare ... and he still had to convolute it into plays and scenes and all this, Leo finally just condensed all that into a direct and logically structured monolouge. It's actually weird that virtually no one in history did this before leo, very strange. If you think about it, it's way less complicated than many things in life people teach, discovered ect.. yet like 10,000 more important and universally relevant. How fear works : The Graceful milf vs the decaying sad woman "I'm so old ah" - Stress leads her to drink and smoke in combination with the anxiety and sense of hopelessness - all ages her body and skin faster - confirming her belief Graceful milf stays alive, sensual and flirtatious, goes to the gym, gets sunlight, walks, stays in shape, laughs lives in the present moment, doesn't drink much because she has nothing to escape from The graceful milf is extremely rare. Obviously fear isn't gender or age specific, but I used this example because its obvious that aging is socially recognized and scrutinized much faster in women (and fertility drops faster also), it is not common to see a graceful milf ... who lives in the present moment, focuses on what she can control, and does not live in the heads of societies social perception, or merely isn't trapped and enmeshed within the fear coarsing through her body 24/7, creating her though loops and feeding back into her habits and body in a daily strange loop incarceration. P.S : Not meaning to sound condescending, I am of no way cured of this or yet commenting from a higher level, it is much easier said than done, I still fear everything, I still haven't conquered it it can feel like it just never fucking ends.. but I commit to the process of it, I wasn't genetically blessed with being fearless, but I commit to it, it doesnt come easy How fear works > Introspection : True creative synergy You cannot reliably plan against conquering fear, you can in a sense because of decisive exposure therapy ... but also you cant, becuase you just get lost in your head anyway. Only introspection is noticing the tension in your body, cutting the though loop, breathing deep and slow, regrounding to the present, then action becomes much more frictionless. Peter Ralston & Martial Arts : Transcendent level skill Very intersting to learn that PR developed transcendent level martial arts. The reality is that virtually almost no human alive could beat PR in an actual 1to1 combat, without gloves rules a cage or referee to rely on, because he literally transcended athleticism. u cant off balance him because theres nothing to off-balance, you cant get him first because he sees your direction before your muscles even contract, no one understands MA like him because he sought to understand it from its first principles. Other MA masters have tried to roll with him and qouted that "it was impossible .. it was like fighting a ghost, you couldn't even touch him, there was nothing to touch, nothing to damage". I'm not passionate about martial arts but wnat to see how I can become like him in my own interests, dating, seduction, charisma, writing, public speaking, using language, and other complex skills and interests I have. Well ... fuck it, let me just try start right now, fuck just saying what sounds cool, i'll try verbalize my intuition and willing to fail at it. Not here to look smart, or validate some intellectual identity, just laying out my dumb ass thoughts on paper. So ... 1st principles. Looking at the first principles. i mean what are the 1st princpiples of the 1st principles? Like what comes before everything? Humans are basically intelligent animals We breathe, we see, we hear, we feel, we sleep, we fear, we brace, we tense We use are voice/throat/chest we are tribal, base thoughts daily of what others think, of betraying the tribe, of fitting in, not fitting in We are drawn to the path of least resistance, we tend to accomodate to whatever environment we are surrounded by ... See how this is fucking difficult Am i waisting my time here? I admit genetic differences exist, I'm not claiming i can just randomly think and then become peter ralston at writing or business because i laid how humans have fucking thoats and are tribal, at least im trying lol. I dunno I will continue this another day and see if it takes me anywhere or I'm just being a useless moron and should go work my boring job and STFU, not here to attach to some polymath identity, just into the creativity thing

05.01.26 Bank account : $1500 Logistics Move - Simply do not have enough reserves, stuck Income stream? > Yes but its an unstable grind, but i can push through to $3K and move, I have to do it Fuel source : Pain No Fap streak X : 7 faps in 2 days Goals by Friday : $2,700 bank account No Fap day 4 Booked and taken a flight, with hotel/hostel booked & room viewings ready work 17 hours a day until I live where I dream of

Here to sell my art and get rich!

Mythology, subconscious mind, Jungian archetypes, reprogramming subconscious mind, music, positive brainwashing, affirmations, installing belief softwares, intentional belief statements. ect.., psychological penetration analogous to penetrating the skin, need a sharp and deep knife that cuts straight through, what is that version, is it psychedelics? or is there a natural method?

05.01.26 Stress, logistical issues, money, disrupted sleep & a sudden ankle injury/or tension causing awkward & slow movement I have somewhat devolved into chaos and inertia 7 day no fap streak turned into 6 faps Boredom & depletion and internal slipping of boundaries took me to drinking maybe 8-12 beers in across days i lost count ... and I know how much this acutely disrupts neurotransmitter baseline, ability to focus, willpower ect.. Stress and anxiety is back. feel my money slipping away from me, havent even setup logistics, dont even know if i can afford the lease yet, and im not sure im willing to settle to live with room mates, because I know theyll be normies and a distraction, i need my privacy. Regrounding the journal : No main forum No hate reading or hate watching, no judging others, just doing my thing Take a 5% gold from leo and leave the rest, no sprial dynamics no "burning karma" verbal diareeah group think nonsnese, no consciousness bs. Discipline, boudaries, metrics Introspection, awareness, self honesty Goals targets, metrics, managing time & energy, strategy Its hard to keep going wtih this journal I'm feeling the burnout, almost feels cringe, almost feels try hard. Feel inconsistent, feel like a hypocrite, feel like a failure. I don't want attention, dont want validation I want real results and to be responsible for it I want a life of purpose and passion I want success and I want meaning and I want vitality and health and direction and progress and creativity and relationships and beauty and art and nature and wealth and power and a life fully lived. I want progress and real results and no delusion and to separate myself from the standard man, who's even consistent across 90% of self improvement spaces, because escaping medicority is fucking hard, because humans are wired to least resistance and homeostasis, its war. It's fucking war. Im supposed to be fat im supposed to be lazy im supposed to stare at my phone and screen for 15 hours a day and barely pay rent and date a 5/10 and be alone and lazy and useless and fat and wake up at 40 or 50 and regret my entire fucking life and then just kill myself. Thats the default. That's whats supposed to fucking happen. THat's whats meant to fucking happen. Have to stay serious about this. Have to stay fucking paranoid, psychotic almost.

BTW WHAT IS THAT WHEN u commpare and complaint about how "an average 5/10 on tinder has it easy" DID U NOT LEARN DID U NOT INTROSPECT? DID UNOT LISTEN TO LEO WHEN HE TOLD U TO STOP PROJECTING AND COMPLAINING ABOUT HOW "WOMEN HAVE IT EASY, ITS SO EASY FOR WOMEN" DID U NOT INTROSPECT HOW THAT VERBAL DIAREEAH IS REALLY JUST A THOUGH PATTERN SHAPED BY THE ENVY AND INSECURITY WITHIN YOU, ALSO INTROSPECT HOW IT DOES ABSOLUTELY NO BENEFIT FOR YOURSELF, OR ANY OTHER GUY ON THE FORUM BY TLAKING ABOUT THAT GARBAGE IM NOT FUCKNG HERE TO PLAY AORUND, THATS NOT MY STYLE OF LEADERSHIP IM NOT TOLERATING BULLSHIT ANYMORE U COULD CALL ME A HYPOCRITE, IM SURE I HAD THE SAME THOUGHTS YEARS AGO, BUT THIS IS WHAT I NEEDED TO, I NEED A HARD KICK THE ASS, I NEEDED THE BRUTAL TRUTH TO COME OUT. DO "AVERAGE WOMEN" HAVE IT EASIER??? NO THEY FUCKING DONT, AND ITS ALSO WAY MORE COMPLICATED THAN HOW U THINK IT IS "SEX QUANITTY AND EASE = EASIER LIFE" But Sex is much less about quantity and frequencyfor women, and quanitfy with what type of guys? what quality of interactions? It's a lot more brutal than most guys think, it's not the envious fantasy of ease they project, from my intuition, most peoples lives are fucked, men and women, life is war, life is hell for like 95% of the global population, and a losing battle, so shut the fuck up, and fight Aging is much faster and much more brutal for most women (I personally like milfs but they're socially undervalued, also not the norm since most women dont have the genetics + healthy/stable lifestyle to become milfs, being an older mid or below woman in society is brutal ) Being average and below looks women = in many ways more brutal than an average man because there's nothing they can compensate with Majrority of women do not want to use tinder globally Ideas about dating are extremely biased towards USA based dating Many women can get sex easy but its not satisfying, most men suck at sex ... many men barely even have a sex drive to begin with, most men are out of shape, fat, lazy, they dont even have the work ethic to make a woman cum, let alone hit the gym or quit alcohol or have good style or be an interesting and magnetic person in general) Even most good looking and or rich men are boring, numb, emotionally flat, predictable, dull, and bad at sex. Most women are super insecure about themselves (but i suppose many men are too) Also u gotta imagine what its like to be a mid or below woman and get fucked You're getting used and fucked, then as soon as the guy comes, he feels bored and regretful that he even did it .. This happened to me when I was like 20, and I realized any woman below approx 6.5-7 isn't even worth the effort I had like a 6/10 girl try invite me to come see her to fuck, we almost fucked simply because she approached me and were staying in a same party hostel, i was horny at the time so i though i'll fuck her why not, no effort, but as soon as she requested effort i just couldn't get myself to do it That girl "could get infinite sex on tinder im so jealous" Except she has to deal with either unpassionate short lived sex from a guy whos just horny and isn't even that into her, or needy keen sex from a low level guy she doesnt want. But dumb guys on these dating forums cant see the pov of what its like to be a mid woman,

50-80% of everything everyone says is either wrong, biased or inflated. I've said how "once you master the gym it transfers to everything and everything changes, you get discipline everywhere, you get rich eventually" Honestly I dont know Gym bros are often like the athletic version of broke rockstars, chaotic, obsessive, high energy, not bad, but is it really "disicpline" It's often just Elite genetics + net calories + heavy training Can be mentally ill, can have addicitons, can have depression, can have relationship issues, and look like a greek god. There simply is no correlation, being in a certain net calorie is based on many variables and you might just not like to eat that much Many gym bros do get addicted to steroids and neuro-chemical manipulation this and that yeah .. No one has themselves together, and that's okay I do gym because I love it, but i admit that it doesnt necessarily make me more put together in anyway meaningful way

04.01.26 I am grateful for : I am grateful for cheap modern gyms I am grateful for the internet and online guides & how tos I am grateful for my creative intelligence I am grateful for global infrastructure : airplanes, airports, I am grateful for all the beautiful women in the world, of which there are hundreds of millions I am grateful for my athletic, functioning body, that I can freely walk and move around I am grateful that I can hear, see, speak ... some dont have this I am so grateful that I am not in jail I am grateful I have energy and functional health, Testosterone, a libido God I take nothing for granted