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^ Note on Peter Ralston Wisdom The information list is good, but trap is to turn it conceptual, like im at school studying an exam. I am NOT supposed to understand all this instantly, it only comes with practice. Whats no.1 application principle?

The Peter Ralston Paradigm (Summarised with AI) May Trim this further, I have 3 separate paradigm summaries of 3 different talks about him (but tbh, each one seems to expand on my understanding, I might re-read this every morning now). I feel like for decades i have always forced stuff, I've always over-thought stuff, I've always braced, and tensed, and self sabotaged, and got lost in my head, and other things that dont fit the ralston paradigm. Maybe I need a different way of seeing reality. Brute force does work in the right context, even needed sometimes, but it's not a reliable strategy for consistent success and fulfillment, you simply burnout. Expanded Discussion on PR life wisdom : "Life is not strategies → it is perception, choice, commitment" ....

TIER 2 = Possibly great, worth checking out

TIER 1 : = (Here) = Definitely great Information, must rewatch & reapply these

07.01.26 Content Te, Information Te, Reprogramming Te I've complained about "content bastards" in self help or business space who want your money and dont actually help you. But there is genuinely life changing free information and videos on YouTube. Videos or information that, I really felt at the time, but then somehow just forgot. Months just go by and you forget the message, forget to apply it, go back to homeostasis. But the key is that, it's normally a FEW videos, that hold enourmous power. Think about how dense a stone can be. You can pack millions of feathers into boxers, and it still doesnt weigh close to certain stones, and its all messy and it spills out everywhere and you cant contain it .. this is how just "consuming content" felt to me. But there can be like anywhere from 1-3, or 1-10 videos online that are dense stones .. or diamonds I'm gonna reshare them. But, I need to reappreciate what im doing Or ill forget I have to take it very seriously I have to keep relistening to the video if it really matters, drill it in Then take the core notes Then inmediate applicatino and practice. And use Te so that i set application commitments so that its not a 1 off thing but consistenly applied dialy. Core topics : Beliefs, Affirmations, Subconscious mind Work Ethic The Peter Ralston paradigm (my personal attempt to approach life differently and see if it can work in this way, topic discussed with AI will be shared). Some more stuff?

Tributes to Leos best works : I have intermittently focused on complaining about or disagreeing with leo, it was a mistake .. Everyone knows Leo's biased because everyone's fucking biased. But not enough people fathom how good & practically profound a tiny % of his videos actually are For me it's likely 3-5 videos max But of those 2-5 videos, i may have watched them 20 times, then years later, still only truly realsiing how profound it is. For example, how fear works. I feel like the only person in history who had a true inutitive grasp on the human trickery and pervasiveness of fear was possibly Shakespeare ... and he still had to convolute it into plays and scenes and all this, Leo finally just condensed all that into a direct and logically structured monolouge. It's actually weird that virtually no one in history did this before leo, very strange. If you think about it, it's way less complicated than many things in life people teach, discovered ect.. yet like 10,000 more important and universally relevant. How fear works : The Graceful milf vs the decaying sad woman "I'm so old ah" - Stress leads her to drink and smoke in combination with the anxiety and sense of hopelessness - all ages her body and skin faster - confirming her belief Graceful milf stays alive, sensual and flirtatious, goes to the gym, gets sunlight, walks, stays in shape, laughs lives in the present moment, doesn't drink much because she has nothing to escape from The graceful milf is extremely rare. Obviously fear isn't gender or age specific, but I used this example because its obvious that aging is socially recognized and scrutinized much faster in women (and fertility drops faster also), it is not common to see a graceful milf ... who lives in the present moment, focuses on what she can control, and does not live in the heads of societies social perception, or merely isn't trapped and enmeshed within the fear coarsing through her body 24/7, creating her though loops and feeding back into her habits and body in a daily strange loop incarceration. P.S : Not meaning to sound condescending, I am of no way cured of this or yet commenting from a higher level, it is much easier said than done, I still fear everything, I still haven't conquered it it can feel like it just never fucking ends.. but I commit to the process of it, I wasn't genetically blessed with being fearless, but I commit to it, it doesnt come easy How fear works > Introspection : True creative synergy You cannot reliably plan against conquering fear, you can in a sense because of decisive exposure therapy ... but also you cant, becuase you just get lost in your head anyway. Only introspection is noticing the tension in your body, cutting the though loop, breathing deep and slow, regrounding to the present, then action becomes much more frictionless. Peter Ralston & Martial Arts : Transcendent level skill Very intersting to learn that PR developed transcendent level martial arts. The reality is that virtually almost no human alive could beat PR in an actual 1to1 combat, without gloves rules a cage or referee to rely on, because he literally transcended athleticism. u cant off balance him because theres nothing to off-balance, you cant get him first because he sees your direction before your muscles even contract, no one understands MA like him because he sought to understand it from its first principles. Other MA masters have tried to roll with him and qouted that "it was impossible .. it was like fighting a ghost, you couldn't even touch him, there was nothing to touch, nothing to damage". I'm not passionate about martial arts but wnat to see how I can become like him in my own interests, dating, seduction, charisma, writing, public speaking, using language, and other complex skills and interests I have. Well ... fuck it, let me just try start right now, fuck just saying what sounds cool, i'll try verbalize my intuition and willing to fail at it. Not here to look smart, or validate some intellectual identity, just laying out my dumb ass thoughts on paper. So ... 1st principles. Looking at the first principles. i mean what are the 1st princpiples of the 1st principles? Like what comes before everything? Humans are basically intelligent animals We breathe, we see, we hear, we feel, we sleep, we fear, we brace, we tense We use are voice/throat/chest we are tribal, base thoughts daily of what others think, of betraying the tribe, of fitting in, not fitting in We are drawn to the path of least resistance, we tend to accomodate to whatever environment we are surrounded by ... See how this is fucking difficult Am i waisting my time here? I admit genetic differences exist, I'm not claiming i can just randomly think and then become peter ralston at writing or business because i laid how humans have fucking thoats and are tribal, at least im trying lol. I dunno I will continue this another day and see if it takes me anywhere or I'm just being a useless moron and should go work my boring job and STFU, not here to attach to some polymath identity, just into the creativity thing

05.01.26 Bank account : $1500 Logistics Move - Simply do not have enough reserves, stuck Income stream? > Yes but its an unstable grind, but i can push through to $3K and move, I have to do it Fuel source : Pain No Fap streak X : 7 faps in 2 days Goals by Friday : $2,700 bank account No Fap day 4 Booked and taken a flight, with hotel/hostel booked & room viewings ready work 17 hours a day until I live where I dream of

Here to sell my art and get rich!

Mythology, subconscious mind, Jungian archetypes, reprogramming subconscious mind, music, positive brainwashing, affirmations, installing belief softwares, intentional belief statements. ect.., psychological penetration analogous to penetrating the skin, need a sharp and deep knife that cuts straight through, what is that version, is it psychedelics? or is there a natural method?

05.01.26 Stress, logistical issues, money, disrupted sleep & a sudden ankle injury/or tension causing awkward & slow movement I have somewhat devolved into chaos and inertia 7 day no fap streak turned into 6 faps Boredom & depletion and internal slipping of boundaries took me to drinking maybe 8-12 beers in across days i lost count ... and I know how much this acutely disrupts neurotransmitter baseline, ability to focus, willpower ect.. Stress and anxiety is back. feel my money slipping away from me, havent even setup logistics, dont even know if i can afford the lease yet, and im not sure im willing to settle to live with room mates, because I know theyll be normies and a distraction, i need my privacy. Regrounding the journal : No main forum No hate reading or hate watching, no judging others, just doing my thing Take a 5% gold from leo and leave the rest, no sprial dynamics no "burning karma" verbal diareeah group think nonsnese, no consciousness bs. Discipline, boudaries, metrics Introspection, awareness, self honesty Goals targets, metrics, managing time & energy, strategy Its hard to keep going wtih this journal I'm feeling the burnout, almost feels cringe, almost feels try hard. Feel inconsistent, feel like a hypocrite, feel like a failure. I don't want attention, dont want validation I want real results and to be responsible for it I want a life of purpose and passion I want success and I want meaning and I want vitality and health and direction and progress and creativity and relationships and beauty and art and nature and wealth and power and a life fully lived. I want progress and real results and no delusion and to separate myself from the standard man, who's even consistent across 90% of self improvement spaces, because escaping medicority is fucking hard, because humans are wired to least resistance and homeostasis, its war. It's fucking war. Im supposed to be fat im supposed to be lazy im supposed to stare at my phone and screen for 15 hours a day and barely pay rent and date a 5/10 and be alone and lazy and useless and fat and wake up at 40 or 50 and regret my entire fucking life and then just kill myself. Thats the default. That's whats supposed to fucking happen. THat's whats meant to fucking happen. Have to stay serious about this. Have to stay fucking paranoid, psychotic almost.

BTW WHAT IS THAT WHEN u commpare and complaint about how "an average 5/10 on tinder has it easy" DID U NOT LEARN DID U NOT INTROSPECT? DID UNOT LISTEN TO LEO WHEN HE TOLD U TO STOP PROJECTING AND COMPLAINING ABOUT HOW "WOMEN HAVE IT EASY, ITS SO EASY FOR WOMEN" DID U NOT INTROSPECT HOW THAT VERBAL DIAREEAH IS REALLY JUST A THOUGH PATTERN SHAPED BY THE ENVY AND INSECURITY WITHIN YOU, ALSO INTROSPECT HOW IT DOES ABSOLUTELY NO BENEFIT FOR YOURSELF, OR ANY OTHER GUY ON THE FORUM BY TLAKING ABOUT THAT GARBAGE IM NOT FUCKNG HERE TO PLAY AORUND, THATS NOT MY STYLE OF LEADERSHIP IM NOT TOLERATING BULLSHIT ANYMORE U COULD CALL ME A HYPOCRITE, IM SURE I HAD THE SAME THOUGHTS YEARS AGO, BUT THIS IS WHAT I NEEDED TO, I NEED A HARD KICK THE ASS, I NEEDED THE BRUTAL TRUTH TO COME OUT. DO "AVERAGE WOMEN" HAVE IT EASIER??? NO THEY FUCKING DONT, AND ITS ALSO WAY MORE COMPLICATED THAN HOW U THINK IT IS "SEX QUANITTY AND EASE = EASIER LIFE" But Sex is much less about quantity and frequencyfor women, and quanitfy with what type of guys? what quality of interactions? It's a lot more brutal than most guys think, it's not the envious fantasy of ease they project, from my intuition, most peoples lives are fucked, men and women, life is war, life is hell for like 95% of the global population, and a losing battle, so shut the fuck up, and fight Aging is much faster and much more brutal for most women (I personally like milfs but they're socially undervalued, also not the norm since most women dont have the genetics + healthy/stable lifestyle to become milfs, being an older mid or below woman in society is brutal ) Being average and below looks women = in many ways more brutal than an average man because there's nothing they can compensate with Majrority of women do not want to use tinder globally Ideas about dating are extremely biased towards USA based dating Many women can get sex easy but its not satisfying, most men suck at sex ... many men barely even have a sex drive to begin with, most men are out of shape, fat, lazy, they dont even have the work ethic to make a woman cum, let alone hit the gym or quit alcohol or have good style or be an interesting and magnetic person in general) Even most good looking and or rich men are boring, numb, emotionally flat, predictable, dull, and bad at sex. Most women are super insecure about themselves (but i suppose many men are too) Also u gotta imagine what its like to be a mid or below woman and get fucked You're getting used and fucked, then as soon as the guy comes, he feels bored and regretful that he even did it .. This happened to me when I was like 20, and I realized any woman below approx 6.5-7 isn't even worth the effort I had like a 6/10 girl try invite me to come see her to fuck, we almost fucked simply because she approached me and were staying in a same party hostel, i was horny at the time so i though i'll fuck her why not, no effort, but as soon as she requested effort i just couldn't get myself to do it That girl "could get infinite sex on tinder im so jealous" Except she has to deal with either unpassionate short lived sex from a guy whos just horny and isn't even that into her, or needy keen sex from a low level guy she doesnt want. But dumb guys on these dating forums cant see the pov of what its like to be a mid woman,

50-80% of everything everyone says is either wrong, biased or inflated. I've said how "once you master the gym it transfers to everything and everything changes, you get discipline everywhere, you get rich eventually" Honestly I dont know Gym bros are often like the athletic version of broke rockstars, chaotic, obsessive, high energy, not bad, but is it really "disicpline" It's often just Elite genetics + net calories + heavy training Can be mentally ill, can have addicitons, can have depression, can have relationship issues, and look like a greek god. There simply is no correlation, being in a certain net calorie is based on many variables and you might just not like to eat that much Many gym bros do get addicted to steroids and neuro-chemical manipulation this and that yeah .. No one has themselves together, and that's okay I do gym because I love it, but i admit that it doesnt necessarily make me more put together in anyway meaningful way

04.01.26 I am grateful for : I am grateful for cheap modern gyms I am grateful for the internet and online guides & how tos I am grateful for my creative intelligence I am grateful for global infrastructure : airplanes, airports, I am grateful for all the beautiful women in the world, of which there are hundreds of millions I am grateful for my athletic, functioning body, that I can freely walk and move around I am grateful that I can hear, see, speak ... some dont have this I am so grateful that I am not in jail I am grateful I have energy and functional health, Testosterone, a libido God I take nothing for granted

Why study modern pharmacology, neuroscience, bio-chemistry ect..? I want to shame Andrew Huberman for making science look boring Becuase it's not boring We live in a modern world For years I bought into the "just workout, be happy, use your brain bro" blahblah "natural vs unnatural", "natural vs processed" There is no rigid boundary between natural and unnatural (also natural does not automatically = healthy) A lot of drugs simply are just tools .. dosage, timing, context and they can become useful. But nuance, this is why you have to actually study it. For example, an idiot has no nuanced knowledge and awareness of distinctions, so he just "takes a sleeping pill" .. benzo, excellent, valerian excellent, "gaba = relaxed" great. Nuanced knowledge is knowing that melatonin is much safer than valerian, but also a distinct and specific mechanism, specific to resetting circadian rhythm, just another tool Its closed minded to think drugs = unhealthy, or the idea of "there is no free lunch" ... Maybe there normally simply "is no free lunch" .. but perhaps modern pharmacology will change such that new drugs become released that give you a "free lunch", maybe there will be steroids that are actually healthy for you.. how the fuck would you know? the universe is infinite. Also drugs are not inherently bad because it depends on your goal... What if your goal is not longevity? what if your goal is maximum short term benefit, thats not inherently unswise, depends. If i was on a zombie apocalypse, and i had a month to live, I would certainly take a ton drugs and enjoy them Now I do not know 99% of what there is to know about pharmacology, bio-chemistry, neuro-science. This is not about looking like a smart ass or being some debatorcel dork This is about open mindedness and a meta shift I had a phase (and i've seen guys on here, guys in general get too deeply locked into this phase) of "Be natural, keep things simple bro" But this orientation is very sutbly locked into fear, fear of danger, fear of the unknown, and a longing for safety Now this isn't to neglect the other side "Anything goes just experiment" mindsset does screw a lof ot peopl e there are hyper logical, otherwise very intelligent guys, who are now hooked on a ton of steroids, "natty +" drugs, dopamine this, serotonin that, gaba this, sleep that ect.. modulating their pharmocology daily, addicted to control, thinking they can just modulate hormones up and down daily to balance and counteract each other like they're playing bio-chemical DJ .. and thinking there is always a free lunch no matter what. But also .. What's the problem with the naturalist/simplist bro? The problem is he misses out on the potential (both current & upcoming) magic of modern life Naturalist bro goes bold when he coud've not gone bold because minoxodil is a "drug", and he confused his actual deep seeded fear of danger and harm subsconicsouly coarsing his body influencing his thought patterns & restrictve non action with a crisp and decisive intellectual grasp of the DHT mechanism. Naturalist bro doesn't take creatine because it costs $20 a month and he's a cheap bastard, and also because "you dont need creatine", ITS NOT ABOUT WHAT YOU FUCKING "NEEED", ITS ABOUT GOIJG BEYOND THAT, AND EXPERIMENTING

This is 1 of those super counter-intuitive mind techniques that feels off and painful at first. And it cannot only work in theory You have to actually DO IT precisely when you feel clear and strong envy for someone else, and precisely when you are specifically going through a rough time, and that guy, is surpassing you now, that's exactly when you do it. Exactly when you're broke but you see that guy achieve the thing you dreamed of, but do not have, because you fucked up, or you got unlucky, or you got used, or whatever, but he has it, you do not. In that precise moment you genuinely say to yourself "good for him, I'm proud of him, im happy for him" and you genuinely try to feel it, you genuinely try to feel that emotion, you refuse to give in to weakness. It's counterintuitve but I tried this and it worked, it took like 5-20 seconds for my body to switch, I went from envying someone, to genuinely feeling happy for them, within 20 seconds.

28.12.25 I've spoken enough about affirmations, goals, purpose, introspection, doing dialy metrics, daily feedback. I know what I have to do, it's just being consistent. Not here to focus on others, not here to judge, not here to spread my opinions or get poliitical, not for the main forum Here for honest metrics and accountability, achieving all my targets, experiencing the most out of life, and goal setting There's nothing else to do in life as a high energy extrovert I dont give a shit about grand theories about reailty I am somewhat cognitively relatable to leo, but my value system always points that cognition towards real world action and pragmatism, that is not SD related, that is hormone and innate personality and drive related, which is permanent from birth until death, and this is my core issue with SD fanaticism on here, it's a fucking farce. Reminder, subtle addictions - i am addicted to thinking itself, my goal isnt to think, but to achieve, for both myself and others, to be useful, for myself and the world, to experience the most out of life and make use of my time. 11% BF + golden tan + aesthetic jacked Perfect sub tropical logistics 200G Protien per day No alcohol, no smoking No late sugar and caffeine Get added sugar to 0-30G per day average - limit sugar sources to honey/fruits if needed (no chocolate, no ultra processed calorically dense hyper addictive saturated fat/sugar bomb scam) No caffeine after 11AM Low cost of living, comfortably paying rent No more financial stress, pay off all debts Only healthy "stress" from challenge and positive pressure, but no stress collapse, no more burnout, no accelerated decay like 90% of the rest of the population by 25-32 Decent remote sales job, not stuck here for life, but keeps me going while I write a book and master marketing My own apartment in subtropics (can start with just a room is fine, work my way up) Approaching women daily, not working all day Creative sessions weekly, write books, use my mind to give value and make money Always believe in myself and the value i have to offer

I'm honestly embarassed. This is humility. Drilling in to my brain that : IN the evening, binging sugar and chocolate and even having some more coffee does NOT work, it does not lead to me doing more work and grinding it out, it just double downs on my burnout, and then I have to drink liquour to counteract the tension and cope, it decreases sleep latency and quality, yet no work gets done in those hours, it also increases guilt, shame (especially high sugar/fat junk like chocolate) and regret, which fries and already fried nervous system. It's also shitting on my 11% bf challenge and feel like my own homeostatic body has created a boomerang sended me back where I was, i know i did this to myself, but sometimes when you try achieve something and the bounce back feels uncannily symmetrical and unconscious it almost feels like I didn't even do it to myself but some unconscious force... again why clarity of mind, drilling your goal and purpose every day and being psychotica about it, to the point where hitler was ideological about nazisim, but applied to your own positive goals instead, yeas for a typoe like me this is necessary, maybe not for many, but some people just need to go to war and beat themselves like with a stick until it clicks. I need constant audio affirmations in my bluetooth as background noise reminding me of my goals every day, I have to have calorie defecit targets and track every day. I also have to hav ethe goal to begin with. People really misinterpret the function of hitting 11% BF, they think its some bodybuilder nonsense .. its not if uou'er wise enough to see that, the way the world is headed is that people rarely just stay at a casual no stress 13-16% kinda healthy bf and kinda have the cookie now and then .. its never fucking like that, humans are not like that most of th etime, and I am certainly not, my body only works decisively, Either i am trying to look like connor muprhy at his best, or I have to be a fat alcoholic, there is no inbetween, its makes no sense for me, my body doesnt understand that. So 11% bf, tanned, fitness model look is what I'm going for again, I also find the challenge of it so fulfilling, its very counterintuitive to "get energy from not eating the donut every day" ... then again, theres fucking much better pleasures in life, sex, art, exercise ... hell even cocaine doesn't make you fat. All these words are coming from me not the internet, chat gpt or some forum ... as they should. Asking google doesnt teach you the lesson I am embarassed because I already have known intellectually that late sugar and caffiene does not work for like 5 years but its functional wisdom on acelluar level and also, just lack of introspection can take over That leo and longevity guy was t nerdy health guru online, until his divorce and he became a full blown alcoholic ... and he was geninely very smart and valuable to the info space and contributed, but still, he struggled with embodiment when shit hit the fan, he also spent so much of his life in his head, that despite being a smart and valuable contribution (and he genuinely did add individual contributions and insights to knowledge about biohacking, supplements, neurochemstiry, PEDS, he challenged views, he added critical thinking, he was intellectually honest in many ways, he was a systemic thinker) but ultimately .. his body was ruined by divorce, because its like a separate system, being smart like him is impressive but its still ultimately a separate system, guys like that just become alcoholics all the time, or end up in jail or something.

27.12.25 No fap day 1 Added sugar today > anywhere from 150 - 300 Grams Chocolate today > 3-4 Fruit juice 3-4 litres Late coffee yes, coffe at 5 and 7/8PM Why all this? Desperate, scrambling, trying to brute force is it wise, not really, im just desperate as hell Need to change evnironment Need to scaramble and get as much money together as i can and also find a room in a new place The path im on its feeling like i'm struggling to every have more than $1-2K in my bank account, and even thats a luxury at the moment because I have to pay rent, deposit, food, gym membership, hair loss stack, ect.. It is how it is Nothing to complain about Nothing happens easily Just keep going And at least I'm not fucking bold. God that keeps me going God Homeostasis hits hard. Im so FUCKING angry about this shit. I got into such a good rhythym I was cutting for over a week, I was getting in incredible shape, like headin towards prime Connor murphy tier, I was cutting caffiene at 11AM Homeostasis that BITCH They say wrath is a deadly sin I say fuck what they say thats dogma the deadly sin is sloth I use wrath to move mountains. Im fuckign angry af and im using it

27.12.25 OBSESSION, PERSISTNCE, DREAM, NO EVNY, NO LOOKING BACK, WORK ETHIC, PASSION, ENERGY, POWER, SPIRITUAL POWER, BECOMING A KING, NO FAP, WORK 17 HOURS A DAY, FUCK BITCHES 2026 INFINTE LIMITELESS GOD How does no one intuitvely grasp the POWER of language. I feel like It took me a solid, 25-26 years to do it.. and thats fucking embarassing. Yet most people never arrive. Thats why i became interested in affirmations, even in a meta sense. It was the concept of "power words" that really did it for me, and somewhat owen cooks marketing material, but really it was a random soup of inputs And its ironic but its hard for me to truly articulate what I mean here, this sense of the power of language, its not something you can quanitfy or easily describe, its like feeling based. Obviously actually being good at using words can be more technical .. but the technicality of language use can only be a force multiplier, especially spoken language, theres tonality and all that but most of that comes from within, tonality mostly reflects the state and depth within.

27.12.25 Introspection Te I feel lost, I feel hopeless, I feel angry and frustrated. I feel like I will never get out this hole, I feel like the burnout of doing business and the wrong business and getting nothing from it will never leave me I feel like i was born in the wrong place, that money just isn't meant for me, that god doesn't want me to have money I almost want to pretend money doesnt exist so I dont have to deal with the pain of thinking about it But this is just a feeling, and I know the mind loves to torture itself I cant just do affirmations right now because it feels too cringe I cant do motivational videos Just need to get better quality sleep ... but can I even do that anymore? People really underestimate what burnout, or some other psychological thing can do to someone Some guy can get a divorce and out of nowhere he cant sleep properly for 15 years For me the trigger was not making the money I expected, and feeling stuck 1 microsopic thing at a time But also, I can ground myself in positive realism. I can start with an online job Will it make me rich? of course not But because its online, I gain some logistical leverage From that leverage, lower cost of living + consistent weather > which means better looks, health, tan, more excercise, warmth, glow, better body, lower bodyfat, less junk food > these all open doors, what doors? who the fuck knows btu more doors, also logistics for more/better sex = dopamine & serotonin boost, another leverage point, more T, more energy I just have move the levers within my control, shit can happen I could even forget about the concept of "money", causes so much dam envy, suffering and insecurity, so fuck money. Money doesnt exist, only steps do

26.12.25 Regrounding myself & my journal. No overthking Just brute repetition. Same shit, every day Honest metrics, goals, honest feedback, nothing else. No going on main forum, no judging others, no envying others, no instagram. Just targets, goals, intentions, metrics, feeback, and brutal self honesty and accountability. No Fap Top 10%-20% Actor voice training 11% BF, lean & Jacked & tanned Cold approach, be social, daily sex Write a book Weekly ENTP 8w7 sx/so Business Creativity brainstorming sessions & requisite variety sessions Build more stable online career $5,000 saved Logistics change, put down the deposit, pay the pills Pay off my debts Regaining my sleep quality & waking up on time Max 200-250MG caffiene & no late caffeine after 12PM Notice and remove high priority "subtle addictions" Excavate fear & anxiety within my body on a deep cellular level maybe 5-10 other things No perfectionsim, no guilt, no multi-tasking Remember i cannot do the entire list at once, its an ongoing process, just do the top 1-3 Maintain spirituality, gratitude, faith in god, never forget my potential, I am a chosen one

I'm going to repeat this one, because it's priceless. The amount of internal suffering that's caused by envy, would be insanely impossible to actually quantify, but a sobering number. People only look at gross statistics like murder rates. Obviously its simply impossible to quantify this but Most people only concern themselves with the obvious. because life is somewhat chaotic and never completely fair, so the mind jumps to "if only i was born into his situation ect.." envy sucks, it just doesnt feel very nice. And people are terrible at noticing psychological pain, and taking it seriously, unless it's severe and hospitalizing

CALL ME A HYPOCRITE, BUT I JUST COULDN'T RESIST THE PEDS IM BOLD NOW, AND I CAN REALLY FUCKING RELATE TO LEO GURU BUT IT ALSO MADE MY COCK MASSIVE MERRY CHRISTMAST BITCHES

24.12.25 This week has fallen off and I feel like a hypocrite Is it just homeostasis? Is it rationalisation? But what has happened. The pursuit of money and setting myself up - became a rationalisation point : Abusing Caffeine, sugar, chocolate, late caffeine, masturbating It's irrational because none of these things help me make money and just leave me slow and drained. The fapping is the most disappointing part too (sleep>positive thoughts/beliefs>protein>no fap>diet) No fap is top 4 self improvement priority, pretty dam high. I have a google sheets page of all my faps since october. I wa averaging a relapse or a 2 day relapse every 7-14 days, so pretty decent average But this week I've fapped like .. i dunno 15 times and daily. I am restarting my streak. No Late caffiene, 11% bodyfat challenge, tracking macros, I REALLY built a good rhythym with this, JUST started to get a rhythym, then that BITCH called hemostasis brought me back to the mediocracy of normie life. Fuck this bitch is stubborn. Its time to fix this. THis journal regrounded again, ONLY metrics & accountability, clear, honest, daily, no days off. Recommitting : Daily cut (towards 11% BF) with Macro tracking + 200G Protein No sugar No Caffeine after 11am Max 200-300MG caffeine Hit key tasks from early morning Sub Tropical paradise logistics setup daily $6,000 ready in bank asap EVERY GUY WANTS TO BE RIPPED & SHREEDED, BUT 99% OF MEN DONT HAVE THE WORK ETHIC TO GET THERE WITHOUT STEROIDS. THAT'S WHY IT'S A FUCKING FLEX. AND THAT'S WHY SPIRAL DYNAMICS IS ACUTALLY POISON IN THIS PLACE, BECAUSE WHAT SD HAS DONE, IS ITS MADE INEXPERIENCED MEDICORE PEOPLE SEE THE WORLD THROUGH A DRUNK LENS, U DID NOT EARN YOUR STUPID SD PERSPECTIVE, LEO, YOUR DADDY! FED IT IN YOUR MOUTH! YUMYUMYUM.. AND NOW U GET TO SAY! HE'S JUST STAGE ORANGE, HES BELOW ME HAHAHAHAHA, AS U SIT THERE, FAT AF, WATCHING FAMILY GUY, WHATS MORE PURE, AT IT'S SOURCE, IS NOT SAYING "OH TAKING CARE OF HIS LOOKS AND BODY, SO STAGE ORANGE" INSTEAD JUST "DISCIPLINE, WORK ETHIC, AMBITION, SELF CARE, DELAYED GRATIFICATION, PATIENCE, PERSITENCE, HES GOING AGAINST CULTURE" .. BECAUSE FUNCTIONALLY, THAT FUCKING IS WHAT IT IS AND ITS VERY HELPFUL TO SEE THE WORLD IN THIS POSITIVELY PURE, FUNCTIONAL WAY, THERE DOES NOT NEED TO BE A FUCKING "STAGE OF CONSCIOUSNESS" ASSIGNED TO EVERY HABIT, HOBBIE, BEHVAIOR, ITS FUCKING AUTISTIC AND U NEED TO STFU.

To be FAIR to Connor That guy is FUNNY AF Post spiritual connor muprhy is genuinely, the funniest guy in the planet, you cant make this shit up, jesus fucking christ that guy cracks me up now ANd i dont mean laugh at him in a mean way like the NPC youtube commenters He's genuinely funny in an often very subtly clever way lmao, he literally beats every stand up comedian combined, no one comes close. He also clearly doesn't give a total shit what anyone thinks now, like I can feel that in his body, his psychedelic use literally dissolved his ego to the point where there is no more underlying social or status based inhibition in his body. ^ I'm impressed by the end result of this but not really the method by which he got there ... Just because when you artificially speed-run a massive growth or benefit it comes with other costs, but still ... he did arrive there. Honestly ... I'm not sure why everyone's overlooking how funny Connor murphy is. This guy is world class level funny. He's world class level because he does it both spontaneously and prolifically Stand up comedians are lame, thinking they can commoditize humour and turn it into a script.