Optimized Life

12.12.25 Woke up 7.45AM Snoozed 20 minutes Got up 8.05AM Started day about 9AM Sleep - didn't track > likely 7-9 Hours Goals Today : No Fap day 2 Gym 1 Controlled Caffeine (timing + Quantity) day 2 7+ Sleep day 2 Floss day 9 No sugar day 3 11% BF calories Target hit (1800 -1900 C) Day 3 > 28 Day challenge to 11% BF Sub Tropical Logistics and movement war Strategy & setup > 2+ Hours Make $400 today > Net profit after all expenses List all items online to sell 10 minutes daily Actor level 4-6 Week voice training practice 30-60 Minutes of evening affirmation & reprogramming work - for core goals (money, logistics, Gd remote job by set date, business creativity & making millions eventually) UPDATE > I am adding in 5 Min presence/breathing meditation morning > I will do daily for month & then introspectively see if I feel a difference/gains > Prescence, women ect.. Evening Update (Wins) Net calories 1,650 - 1,750 (11% BF Day 3 Target hit) > Net calories 1965-2095 (Needed some carbs/milk for sleep and it felt unsustainable to relax, also did a hard cut yesterday, solid 300-600 deficit today still though) Gym 1 > Mostly chest, some triceps (skull crushers, bench & DB push thing forgot name) Sleep today 7-9H Caffeine > 180MG 8-10AM, 1 coke zero 12.30AM, Total approx. 210-230MG No sugar day 3* (I did have 1-2 teaspoon of honey once) Floss day 10 Net profit $160 Failed : Affirmations, Voice Training, Logistics work

This Huberman-esque type nerdy anal thought pattern vibe. This matters when you are fixing sleep or shifting circiadium rhythym, but in general it doesn't fucking matter. 1. Just > Know what your limit threshold is that affects sleep (no matter how early u drink) 2. Have a boundary hour range so no late caffeine (even hot chocolate in the evening keeps me wired) 3. Nothing else matters, can drink when u wake up, doesn't really fucking matter Sleep variables for me are : 1. Max Total caffiene 200 - 250MG (and above 220 is pushing it) 2. Have Most (or at least half) of this before 10AM 3. No caffiene after 10-11AM 4. Hard cutoff (not even a coke zero) after 12AM 5. Disciplined Cool down hour** (What i was doing for years is "trying to grind it out until I collapse" mindset that probably a lot of morons like andrew tate push "you're competing with guys who work 18 hours a day (lol who the fuck is that?? an indian factory worker?) Anyway, counter-intutively, i've started being strict with having ZERO STIMULATION within the hour before I want to sleep. And i my intuition on this is very strong that this makes your life far more productive and leads to far more effective total output on a weekly basis (and obviously much better sleep) ,, I believe this disicpline + caffiene management will give me much more consistent energy baseline, i'm excited to see how I develop in the coming weeks. It's counter-intuitive because you're pressure and convinced by hustle gurus like tate and maybe even Hormozi to "always grind out every hour because you're poor and thats a luxury" whatever but I think this is group think nonsense. The last hour of the day is cool down, and maybe this is a universal pattern, like swimmers and cardio types always transition in training, they don't just go from Max 100 to 0 because the mucles and joints cant adapt back. ^ NO self improvement, no journaling no analysing, no regret loops, no anxiety, no future projection, Either i do some simplistic chore, listen to binaural beats, or listen Joe Rogan Note on Joe Rogan* > Its funny how people think he's a self improvement tool lmaoo (he's literally no different to watching netflix, watching a conspiracy documentary, watching the UFC, or playing Shrek 2 on PS2), he is GOOD for falling asleep and not being anxious precisely because listening to him is so profoundly impractical and useless for your life.

11.12.25 Sleep 5 hours Caffeine MG : 200 - 230MG No Fap day 1 No Sugar day 2 Floss day 8 Gym 1 (front lateral & rare delts, moderate triceps (rope pulls), back 3 sets (just vertical lat pull machine) Net calories:1,800 (11% bf target range > 1,700 - 1,900, max Low 1.5K to prevent flatness/muscle loss, upper limit 2K ) Net Profit + $44 (Made $120-150 today but expenses) Actor Level Voice deepening 4 - 6 week, 10 minute daily practice : X Quick note on hitting 11% bodyfat ^ People think "11% BF = being an anal neurotic and not enjoying life". This is true to REACH 11% BF and lose the fat + the first 4-6 weeks of your body restabilizing. But once u reach it AND ur body adapts, you can actually eat FAR MORE & stay 11% bodyfat, then u could at 17% bodyfat to stay that weight. It's very counter-intuitive. But there are multiple specific reasons for this. So yeah now I'm eating anywhere from 1.5K - 2K calories with a daily target of 1.7-1.8K, and that sucks a bit because its far below my maintenance baseline & means I cannot just casually have a glass of milk for example unless it's within the plan). However at 11% BF > 4-6 weeks of restabilizing, after this, I can literally go like 600-800 calories over typical maintenance in my eating, and due to a multitude of factors, my body will simply stay at 11% or hover around 11-12%. 1 factor being that this extra leanness automatically creates more NEAT. Ready to be flexing shirtless ice cream pics in a couple months (might have to reveal the cock too & see if mr Guru bans me) Motivation right now : 10/10 I dream of sub tropical logistics I'm not going fucking stop or slow down goodbye

This was another low IQ moment They BOTH matter because caffiene has a massive half life lol 400MG at 8AM is just as bad, possibly worse. It's fine, I simply had way too much and started to try and pretend its normal, its not. Today, even after 5H sleep, i have had about max 200MG caffiene, and that is the maximum I could possibly need, this is bodily introspection. Another thing : Late Caffeine is bad, but very early caffiene is also super bad (espeically if your trying to rebalance your coritsol rhythyms, caffiene at 9-10AM > 6-8AM > 2-3PM On a good sleep day, I probably only need 100-170 MG max I dont know how I got in the habit of 300,400,450MG per day, its simply too much to sleep, it's like jumping off a bridge and then trying to act like gravity doesnt exist and im fine. Whats the solution for caffiene control? ALways knowing the math Also Sleep > saving a few dollars I do not use instant coffee because even though its 100* cheaper, its very hard to quantify, its mentally unsatiating, and has a high risk i end up just buying a coffee any way which takes me into the 300-500MG terriotory = 4-6 Hours sleep at best, not worth saving $3-5 a day. No amount of money is worth losing my health or momentum, especially not $5 Cappucino = 180-200MG in just one drink - thats WAYY too much flat white = 90MG, Decaf approx 5-20MG and again if i get really bored at like 2PM then i just simply have a decaf and hypnotically brainwash myself that it has 400MG in it

11.12.25 I've realized this semi applies to caffiene too. (Although caffiene is directly physically addictive, causes physiological (physical and cognitive) withdrawal symptoms, and true cold turkey is bordeline impossible for anyone who doesnt have a holiday booked ... I can significantly reduce the Actual MG total content consumed daily, without losing, even gaining satisfaction itch scratched/psychological micro comfort/routine ect.. through a mix of hot decaf lattes, 1 coke zero ect.. maybe 1-2 pieces of dark chocolate if its a clean brand. Its the psycholgoy of walking to the caffe, getting a decaf, i can even trick my brain that this simply is a normal coffee & use placebo as well P.s : Pizza is only a 1 day per week max thing for me, high carbs simply does not fit with hitting 11% bodyfat. Max 100-150 per day average currently.

By "Flex" I dont mean literally showing off. I mean that the visual result, and the obvious persistence and discipline speaks for itself, and virtually every mentally healthy person respects that. It's fundamentally just about being human Setting a difficult and uncommon achievement as a goal, then fucking achieving it, and people respect it. That feels GOOD, its fun, there's not much else to fucking say. It's not stage orange or blue or whatever It's simply just human condition. Certain personality types are wired to achieve things and get respect and admiration. And the gym is one of the few things that requires a small amount of resources (but a ton of resourcefulness) that universally elicits respect, admiration and attraction from others, and thank god for that. Imagine if having money was the only thing anyone respected or praised people for, 1 reason for this is with the gym you cannot fake the work ethic, you cannot steal your body, you cannot scam it from others, you cannot (*Well lol a lot of guys do take steroids but : 1. A LOT Of people can differentiate between a steroid vs natty these days and 2. the aura difference is massive, steroid bitch doesnt get the aura benefits from the gym because he knows he cheated himself and is destroying his body on the inside. Steroid also massively increases psychosis risk, and even "mild" PEDs (which everyone online wants to fucking normalise and justify these days) have a cascade risk of weird side effects, but the worse one not being acne or natural T suprresion, but psychosis risk. Why did connor murphy lose his fucking head? PED aftermath + psychedelics. Both on their own are a russian roulette, but combining them, fuck that And a lot of people don't realize how much work actually goes into truly mastering the gym, I mean truly percise maxed out aesthetic physique, no PEDS, cutting to 11% bodyfat, not destroying joints, not bulking or going powerlifter, scheduling it all to fit with work, many people go gym, 99.9% of men do not go all in on it. I genuinely believe the rare people who go in on it virtually ALWAYS get rich eventually after, because 99.9% of peoplle, including on self improvement forums, do not actually have any work ethic, but also that's ok, this is for ambitious people, im not trying to force my personality on others, I actually respect Frame, i respect a fat person if they genuinely wnat to be fat, they just decided they love food, love cake, love beer ect.. and their life, their job, their mid girlfriend is good enough and they're happy, I fully respect that. Honestly I LOVE Food, I fuckig love to eat, i could so easily get fat af, I just happen to love ambition more, its just a rare weird conicndence im like this, evolution didnt even design humans to be ambitious, only to conserve energy and just survive.

10.12.25 Calorie defecit : Approx 1,400 - 14700 (Huge deficit, fat loss jump start day, 1800 - 1900 more sustainable daily) Sleep : 5 Hours No Fap day 2 X > Tried to "Fall alseep" early in bed like 7PM, was just tired & wired in bed, stressed, started edging, it happened, was a trap. Simply go to bed only once I'm completely exhausted. Money : - $, tried set stuff up but I dont know whats going on but no matter what I do currently, I just NEVER make money, its a weird phase im stuck in, my standards & ambition are so much higher than the current reality, and this deeply hurts & annoys me. Gym 0, Just walking Floss day 7 Caffeine : 400MG (2*cappucinos) 7.30-8.30AM, dark chocolate 1*coke zero bottle 12.30AM (34MG) > Total 450MG, mostly morning Added sugar/junk : 0 Logistics prep : 0 Stress and pressure level : 10/10 Desperation 10/10 I care about making money & logistics 10000* more than losing body fat or muscles .. The thing is making money is a real struggle, i've been struggling for about 6 years So the gym & getting ripped just 1 of those achievable and tangible things I can earn & flex, feel proud of. It's momentum, its tangible results, numbers, visuals. I just fucking love mintmaxing, and while im still going to keep fighting for money, I refuse to just slave away with zero rewards for antoher 1-3 years just to make money while having nothing to feel proud or confident about, I'm doing it all at once, because mintmaxing is my passion, and I just need positive momentum, the gym is the lowest hanging fruit for it. Because I'm an extremely ambitious and hard working, charismatic and creative guy, I just simply dont have the resources. There's literally hundreds of millions of rich pigs who were just born in the right place in America, are fat, have no character, but because they have a rolex people bow to them like gods, and kiss their ass. And i need the world to know the truth, people judge on externals and often misread others I MUST be ripped and jacked because it's congruent with who I am, and the financial situations is not accurately reflecting that*YET! : Discipline, persistence, creativity, ambition, vision ect.. It's actually weird when u have everything on the inside but the externals arent matching it, it kind of doesnt make It's like the inverse of some random kid winning too much on crypto Introspection & States : I can feel the desperation in my heart, i can feel the fear the anxiety the dread I need to reprogram myself again, affirmations, psychologically, emotionally, I need to reconnect to vision, to ambition, not to desperation, not to hopelessness, I cant slow down, I cant give up, I have to be flexible, if it was so easy no one would value it, if it was so easy everyone would have it, if I came from extreme family privilege & era luck like Leo i would not truly value success and would be all smug and arrogant about it. I WILL GET FUCKING RICH

10.12.25 1. Sleep : Too much late caffeine & late gym Took L theonine + Valerian combo to fall asleep at about 1-1.30AM (worked shockingly well) Woke up approx 6-6.30AM So about 5 hours sleep Do not feel bad about it .. Why? I am waking up earlier = needed in my grind phase now + shifting circadium rhyhtym Before i was sleeping 2-3AM, this is an improvement 2. Improving sleep : Non Negotiable No LATE Caffiene Caffeine Timing > Caffeine consumption 400MG at 7-9AM > 200MG at 3PM Heavy, even upper moderate caffeine in late afternoon RUINS adenosine cycle, THIS is why timing is much more important to control Caffiene today : 1. 400MG (2*cappucino) 7.30-830AM 2. 1*Dark chocolate bar 12AM > **Quit because these brands are causing stomach upset & mild nausea 3. 1*Coke Zero 12.30AM NO MORE Caffeine today I will get back to 7+ Hours sleep Only need 2 variables controlled 1. Early wakeup/movement/sunlight (Circ rhyhytm) 2. Early Caffeine timing, Not even dark chocolate or chocolate in the late afternoon 2. Hitting 11% Bodyfat in 28 Days I thought I was 16% body fat, but I am likely right now, 13.5-14.5% and the visual bloating was merely stress + water retention & sugar binge aftermath ... all the work i did from 6 months has got me to a leaner base already. SO ... I genuinely can get to 11% bodyfat in 28 days ... it wont be easy, but "willpower" alone will not do it either, only a mathematical, AI built plan that I follow rigorously, this is simply mathematics. 11% bodyfat (with a full tan) will make all the muscle and definition i've built absolutely pop, I will look like a movie star literally in 28 days if I do this I have firmly decided I am doing this, and I am writing down the attainment date I have created a tailored chat GPT supermarket/meal plan > NO NEED TO COUNT CALORIES or burn energy > JUST FOLLOW THE PLAN, direct all mental energy to making money & logistics Thats fucking it ... Lol, lets go. 3. Money in bank Account & remote career > Apply same SMT goals /numerical strategy like with BF% Inmediate Goals 1. $6K/M Remote Income (minimum $3K/M start - Within 1-2 months max) 2. Subtropical Logistics 3. 7.5 H Sleep + No Fap + No Sugar/alcohol

08.12.25 No fap day 1 (1 fap in 8 days) Added sugar - 20 - 25 Gram (Sweet Coffee can) Exercise > Total estimated calories burnt 1200 - 1400 ( Treadmill : 552 Calories Walking : 150-350 Calories NEAT (Guess) : 300 - 600 Calories Total 1000 - 1500 Add more since theres many more hours left Estimated 1400 calories brunt Now : How easily could I undo all this work? 5 Minutes from an emotional or unconcious state. Thats ALL. 1 tub of ice cream, a pack of chocolate, literally 5 minutes to consume 2,000 calories. So no, I will NOT have any snacks today. This isn't about "not enjoying life", i'm very big on enjoying life, I just dont get fulfillment from mouth taste AND I get 100* more fulfillment from the challenge of getting ripped (and other forms of pleasure). 4. Vocal Training 10 minutes > will do in evening - set timer & schedulle in 5. Money > This is fucked but I'm going to have to pull through hustle today, I also need to get an online job because what I'm doing is unsustainable anyway. I'm ambitious and never wanted to stop at just a job but, I need to start somewhere, I can do a job and creative business simultaneously, also with sales there are jobs that can pay pretty well, and if its remote thats still powerful. I made this journal to be as authentic and honest as possible. I'm very confident guy and know how high my potential is, but I also no the logistical realities of the world and how tricky it can feel to overcome them. There's literally handsome geniuses stuck in east Africa. No Sugar & Hitting 11% BF Strategy Update : If i need to "grind it out" or need energy > Just 1-2 Tsp honey ^ WAY Less calories + WAY harder to binge my way to 1,000 - 2,000 calories And saves money, much faster Being Decisive : I am using clear targets, goals & decisions now. 1. "Hit/Get/have X by y date, no exceptions" 2. Clear precise pre determined plan/structure/schedule to get there 3. Follow it ruthlessly with 0 slips Applying this to money, bodyfat, logistics ect.. THis cuts through any decision fatigue, hesitation, rationalizations. Challenge 1 : 11% bodyfat in 28 days I have the plan set out, God mode incoming Challenge 2 : Specific Logistics move within 28 days (May have to sacrifice some sleep over this : HARD) Challenge 3 : $7K in my bank account within 14 days

09.12.25 Either was hacked, or data leak or something but lost had like $300 stolen from me and my accounts and entire day wasted Arh fuck man Legit business niche side hustles Its all fucked someones always there to take your money either hacker, or your best friend or your business partner what do i do man I cant work a shitty job again fuck Need to reprogram myself hard Feel like im destined to stay poor and money is impossible i dont dont know how to start winning consistently with this It's so fucked WHAT DO I DO ]AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHI GOD HELP ME MAKE FUCKING MOENY MAN HAHIAHASDFKJFHSDKKDFFHO;IADSOJIPASH;;OWDAFHIPOHIQD;AGHFWGGFFVDFVBEFRBOVFEEVN

In the wild : Hesitation and indecision gets u killed and eaten. Hyenas target the Zebra who looks back, who feints aggression & retreats, a half hearted kick. If a Zebra is committed and has momentum to run, or will kick with full force, the hyenas back off. In the modern world in many places u can be a combination of timid, hesitant, indecisive and still have a job, just about survive, have some friends, and 99% of men in these situations aren't even aware of the meta idea that leading yourself and being full hearted even matters, modern conditioning is insane, might sound so simple and obvious "leadership" ect.. but its not even many mens fault in a sense, can go 20 or 25 years without realizing what leadership is and that it's relevant, no father figure, just a world of alcohol and TV

The power of combinatory synergism / Synergistic multiplication (Especially with unexpected variables) I'm not going to go in depth on this one. There is no scientific formulaic newtonian type of shit im getting at Just that, in the past few years, this intuition has always stuck with me I dont know where it will take me, how it will benefit me, or if it will just remain a cool sound idea, which could even sound basic on the surface. My intuition tells me this is the best intuition i've ever had ; ((and that it will have many tangible ramifications) In fact, maybe i'm already benefiting from it unconsciously. But I'm going to start from this intuition statement, and see where it takes me, within practical domains and areas of interest

08.12.25 No Fap day 8 > Trigger, late caffeine, wired and in bed awake at 2AM, had thick bread which lowered my self control and caused discomfort, it was simply a physiological trap (Quick fap release once after 7-10 days is NOT really a "moment of weakness" but more poor strategy, and most of the gains remain in tact, unless you repeat it & spiral, back to day 30 now, no edging, no bread/pasta, no caffeine after 11AM) No sugar day X (70G from chocolate + Honey) Net Profit $360 Gym - Treadmill + moderate weight shoulder & bicep supersets Logistics setup X Floss - day 6 Voice Training 10 minutes - X Health & Routines : Candy sugar 70G Caffiene > High untracked total dose Last caffiene > 4.40 - 5PM Awake until 2-2.20AM Slept Max 6 Hours Awake 8-8.30AM Ate thick bread for comfort 1-2AM ^^ I've said that buying Italian pizza (thin sliced) in the day/early evening is a worthwhile treat However, Thick bread (just like pasta) is the ultimate worst food I can possibly eat, especially at night, 10* worse than any chocolate Chocolate = Tooth decay & weight gain (if long term use) & a slight crash Thick or high quantity bread / Pasta = Immediate brain fog, indigestion, bad sleep, worse cognition, confusion ect.. I dont need no studies to know this, my experience confirmed it 10000 times. But sometimes I forget, hard rule against thick bread or pasta, not allowed at all, if i ever get the urge for it I'm better off just getting sugar Inmediate Goals 1. $6K/M Remote Income (minimum $3K/M start - Within 1-2 months max) 2. Subtropical Logistics 3. 7.5 H Sleep + No Fap + No Sugar/alcohol

And this thought > is exactly where a long irreversible decline starts Classic "when i have the money I'll get healthy and discipline". No. I am being decisive now. I am not reatreating I am continuing with all my goals and tracking simultaneously I may not solve it today or tomorrow, but I will not give up trying and taking accountability, I will not wait, i will not wait unitl i have money to follow my principles, I will not be like everyone else.

07.12.25 (Still 4-6 hours of grinding left may update) No Fap day 7 Gym 1 - Triceps, shoulders, cardio Net Profit : $175 Floss day 5 No sugar day X - 50 grams (decided i needed to "grind it out" once again) Logistics Setup & strategy X : 0 hours List & sell all my items X 10 Minutes Vocal Training X

UFC 196 (& UFC 202) Pre note : This has nothing to do with MMA, macho posturing, glamorising violence, joe rogan ect.. so dont give me that shit Im not a fighter and im not tough like that or saying people need to fight literally. But these Fights, who the fuck doesn't remember these fights? I dont really watch sports mindlessly like a fan but, I can never forget these. It's just like symbolic for men The will to fight Because a lot of MMA bouts are one sided, like one guys way too tall or manipulated the weigh in, whatver But this was a real fight U can say what u want about connor, and Im not saying hes a role modal or im a wannabe connor But I really respected him (and nate) in these moments Theres just some sort of spiritual energy of these fights that I feel like men are just missing these days, they cant summon it "Like ohh I cba to make money or approach" like Logic doesnt really work for this, u sometimes just need that masculine force to just will yourself through things, to not quit, to keep going. also remembering that, it doesnt matter what hjappens in life, only that u truly gave it everything, and thats actually very rare, because connor gave everything he could fighting a guy who was naturally 20 pounds bigger, wider, bigger lungs, insane cardio and a jiu jitsu master, with a granite chin.

07.12.25 Day 7 of No Fap complete - Almost pure streak with very little (5+) days of no edging, no fantasy loops at all, and no instagram scrolling, just eye contact & interactions with real women, gym girls I feel really gd "oh no but chimps fapped" "oh but studies show "no fap is dumb" blaha but I FEEEL FUCKING GOOD. I automatically feel 30-50% better, no fucking lie, even with money issues, even if i relapse on sugar, even with rough sleep, i automatically feel 30-50% better, thats fucking anecdotal shit bitch, cant call this stupid, its fucking real. I automatically feel 30-60% more persistent, more charged. This is real,

07.12.25 : Goals Today No Fap day 7 10 Minutes vocal training Floss day 4 Gym*1 Logistics & strategy : 2H Deep work Net Profit $400 No Caffeine after 10AM No Added sugar day 1 Immediate Goals 1. $6K/M Remote Income (minimum $3K/M start - Within 1-2 months max) 2. Subtropical Logistics 3. 7.5 H Sleep + No Fap + No Sugar/alcohol Note to self (Avoiding sugary Junk)

07.12.25 : Seduction Te Sent a vocal recording to AI for voice feedback "Top 35-45% of male population" ect.. 1. Basically my voice passes the attraction threshold and isn't high pitched, its relatively deep and masculine, but not actor level. 2. With intentional Training > I could get my voice into the "Top 20% range" - Which is what male actors have basically. My voice is good enough already but this will give me a boost into more magnetism. I have the genetic capacity to reach this with training, I have to maximise myself in every way NEW PROTOCOL > Te JOURNAL 10 MINUTES OF DAILY VOCAL TRAINING PRACTICE, TRACKED WITH SHEETS, 4-6 WEEKS TO PERMANTENTLY UPGRADE MY VOICE TO TOP 20% LEVEL WTF ...

06.12.25 No sugar Day X : 2,241 Calories, 235 Grams of Sugar Net Profit - $ Logistics Strategy Deep work X No Fap Day 6 : Complete Gym 1 : Back day, cardio/walking Floss Day 3 No fap day 6 gains : I can feel more power in my balls, posture and aura improving, stronger looks from women again. Day 100 LFG A note on Collective Te & Psychological momentum & morale People often say "do 1 thing at once, only do 1 thing, focus" WRONG. 1. U SHOULD have a core priority mission (for me its changing logistics for lifestyle) 2. When it comes to discipline & habits / learning/growth ect.. Imo much better to stuck multiple Why? Because if i was ONLY evading sugar & ONLY journalling that .. what happens on a failed day? that just sucks, thats bad momentum. But today i ate 50G sugar .. OK, but I also did good back workout at gym, I also did leg day, and I also burnt about 400 calories from cardio, I also flossed today ect.. Power = Holistic Momentum, that "winner" feeling from the other stacked habits is whats preventing me from spiralling into subconsiou guilt, loser energy, or eating even more sugar. And still, I know I will fully quit sugar, i know its coming, Positive momentum always tends to expand itself into other areas, momentum doesnt stop. Update, worked hard all day and then lost like $200 I worked for due to a mistake & i need this money Got demoralised, fell into a trance of frustration ate like 200 Grams of sugar at once Regret giving in, but In the moment I completely forgot that I can just fucking let it go, let go the annoyance This is the issue, easy to realize u can just let go after I am at least able to mentally let go after now & not guilt myself about the relapse, and I'm still continuing with my tasks and planning my life, but still would be better if I didn't have to poison myself first, at least I didn't go out and drink beer, sugar is terrible for you but still, there isn't really a true hangover from it, u can definitely function and recover, alcohol, even "moderate" amounts like just no. no guilt, no shame, no anxiety. its about weeks and months pattern not tonight. 1* Frustration moment caused me to do this in 5 minutes ^ No wonder people are obese af. If you eat without any self improvement motive, you could easily eat 5 of these in 1 day. Sometimes I see extremely fat people and always wondered "that cant just be genetics or eating lots of food, HOW does that even possibly occur?, wtff" And here's your answer. It's honestly fucking insane how easy it is to just casually eat anywhere from 2,000 to 10,0000 extra calories with these types of "foods". People can get a bit fat from even normal food, maybe 20-40 pounds over weight. But when you see people who are 80, 120, 150, 200, pounds overweight ... this is why loooool. It's not exactly a complicated equation, it's just u have to binge and then introspect and then look at the calories and then look at how easily and quickly u did it to truly understand very fat people. To make it even creepier the CEO's of coca-cola, milky way, Nestlé ect.. are NOT even consuming any of their own products, they just drink a coffee, go to a board meeting strategizing how to poison half the global population, then go back to their private gyms and yoga spas with their kids (who arent even allowed to consume these products).

Why I'm so interested in Introspection now (Especially Introspection + Te Power Combo) I was tunnel focused on money for years thinking I could just bulldoze my way to money and then once I had the money finally work on myself in other ways. Foolish idea ^ 1. II got extremely burnt out and didn't get rich anyway (also got manipulated a lot and took many wrong routes and even scammed a few times) 2. My lack of roundedness in other areas held me back from making money 3. Money alone isn't enough for true "success" in life and 4. Its foolish to assume most rich guys automatically (and easily) just "fill in the gaps" and once they're rich they suddenly lose weight, become healthy, present, good with women ect.. (WRONG ASSUMPTION), many rich guys arent well rounded, and sometimes just completely 1 directionally addicted to wealth chasing and have terrible health, posture, social skills or whatever True Hollistic success requires introspection ... and even if you're only current priority is to chase money then introspection still increases your chances, and likely compresses the timeline for which u get rich or at least financially stable. Introspection is a skill with exponential gains capacity + It's becoming increasingly more important in the modern world 10s to 100s of Harmful addictions Phone addiction - Tiktok, utube shorts, wasting ur life away watching content (Hasanabi, News shows, political drama ect..) Getting lost in emotional states - cost u so much time Staying aware of what your prioritees are - (Te and goal setting/tracking extremely synergistic for this too) - And cosntantly re-anchoring yourself to your mission and values/goals so you can stay on track (and not fucking have to look back at 60 and think "what the fuck happened") Improving aura / presence / body language / posture / vibe (so benefical for women especially) Noticing stuff in general (such an endless list here) Money management & budgeting (such a huge one these days when everyone uses phone to just buy shit, e banks, impulse buying ect..) There's honestly probably 10-20 other super practical things I forgot to mention : Hmm - Noticing & observing other people and their character traits, patterns, moods, intentions, reading people better, reading the room ect.. Frame management & catching yourself about to lose frame or get emotionally manipulated (so subtle but underated) OR u get manipulated / lose frame - after u acknowledge it, drop your ego and see what happened so you can learn & not fall for that trap An introspective man is automatically more mysterious, deep and rare to feminine women too .. Not saying on its own it will get you sex lool, but it's definitely useful for relationships (and better quality sex, more present focused sex with stronger connection ect..)

06.12.25 Sleep wtf My sleep the last few days has been so dam confusing that i cba to even track it right now, like sleeping 4 hours, then waking up at 1AM ... whatever Thing that sucks about sleep is u have very little control over it People act like "just sleep 8 hours bro simple rhythym" But so many factors impact sleep Same thing with stress U expect me to just suddenly meditate my way out of stress like its that simple? I need good sleep or im fucked but i dont know when this apparent luxury will be here for me, I'll have to fight for it, fight for a less stressful life, more money, better logistics, more peace, but until then i may not be granted enough sleep, i'll try and keep tracking it though, Must know the math because without clarity and nunbers u are lost, human brain cannot keep track of it, Te. A note on Te + Introspection (Leo) "best people in life FEEL into stuff, introspection can't really be quantified ect... this is a subtle thing ect.." ^^ I kind of agree with im of course you cant quantify introspection literally in the moment BUT - u can (and should imo) journal introspection where possible, and have a Te structure around it What do i mean? Well even though u cant literally quantify emotions ect.. U can journal that u "got into lazy states an average of 3 times per day this week, and this cost you roughly 10 hours" I'm not saying u should autistically try and be exact with it I just mean you're using journalling/external organization & written clarity to just see what your introspective trend is "I tend to get angry and lose ability to focus on my tasks .. this happened an average of once every 2 days, so about 3-4* per week" "I am not sleeping enough - 1 reason is likely too much caffiene - why do i drink caffiene too late? > Because of my sense of desperation to try and crunch the day ect..." - "I know this is a hard habit to break .. let me just journal my last caffiene consumption daily and try reduce it by 30 minutes each day" ect.. Introspection & Quantification do in fact synergise very well i thin 06.12.25 - Goals Today Complete No fap day 5 No added sugar (= No candy/chocolate/cake/fruit juice/Pastries), difficult to get it to literally 0G overall ..) Make $400 Net profit List & sell all my items Floss Day 3 Afternoon Gym * 1 2 Hour Deep work > Towards Logistics strategy & setup Immediate Goals 1. $6K/M Remote Income (minimum $3K/M start - Within 1-2 months max) 2. Subtropical Logistics 3. 7.5 H Sleep + No Fap + No Sugar/alcohol

Fully backed up by research that humans need 7-9 Hours sleep You can also just intuitvely sense this if you haven't been living in a cave youre entire life and interact with humans. You're the average deluded spiritual ego user on here, not me

The Power of deconstructing / Breaking down Words into their components(Idea was popularized by Alex Hormozi) "You're a Pussy!" But WHAT DOES THAT ACTUALLY MEAN? If someone just calls you a pussy, you might become upset/offended and then retreat and assume that "you just are a pussy", as if it's some unchangeable aspect of your flawed nature. But actually, a pussy can be broken down into like 10 different behavioural and mindset components, which are all fixable. Then its like ohhh I just need to change these components, and I know exactly what they are with full clarity = fast progress to not being a pussy

Either you're a liar or you're an insane genetic outlier. NO normal person feels best on 4 hours.