Optimized Life

Uhh, yeahh, uhhh Its late in the morning yeah I wanted to night game but, but im so exhausted and stressed, and logistics and all local avenues are closed, post covid i guess, every business close, I wanna socialize again and find a sexy bitch and make her squirt like a hose Yeah, uhhh Uhh, yeahh Life is bliss and life is magical And if u don't feel it deep within then u need to travel and get the capital Yeah I need more capital And yeah im in pain Grinding out for shallow needs again just to stay sain Empty sex nothing compares to that, to that one that never left my brain Yeah i lied to myself for years i lowered myself thought i wanted dirty sex and sluts until I saw her and realized what it feels like to fall in love, holy shit my head was spinning but she looked quite young, it got to my head then i saw her mum Yeah maybe only ever once or twice i ever fell in love, and it was always at first site, sorry 6s and 7s your just a convivence service while i bid my time. Yeah i only ever wanna see women that are fine, no divinely fine When you're poor and in the dirt sometimes, for every fine wine you see 50 disgusting ass broken vines Uh no make that shit 500, its rough out heere, yeah its rough, everything so tough, had to grind just get basic stuff, fuck, fuck i gotta go fuck, uber i guess good luck Ah no fuck this shit im exhausted and this heatwave and 4 hours sleep wave and oh fuck And i dont even feel that sexual right now i guess my bodys physically burnt and once again i fap too much, once a week more than enough, helps to have that force to go fuck Lack of infrastructure fucking sucks Leverage is a law of the universe, and that lever is like a big bully that decides are fait and luck But u just grind so much and a little lever builds bigger ones and life just becomes "luck" I'm done with this life i only wanna meet rich people, unless its a profoundly beautiful girl who gives me goosebumps Hey rich people, i'm your friend! I'm married to the fucking money,and i will cement this into myslef and brainwash myself and orgasm myself into this, if i took psycheldeics id jsut think about money Money my highest value. Money and success Isle and no stress, freedom and children divinely blessed YEAH BITCH I wanna masssive garden and design all of that shit in its entirety whlie making 100gs a month no stress, every fucking month no i wont stop and i never lose motivation even after a fucking blunt, im fucking relentless and i wont hide myself or run, beauty riches art impact and fun, business and leverage and connections made in the sun, no golf yeah resorts i socialize my way up 1 single big connection can wiegh a ton, to power and wealth and freedom energy and fun, bilingual boy 4 languages im an alien, fuck a fucking alien, I need a mythacil and legendary alias, i need a bullet train through the atlas, to a beautiful bitches matress, immaculate I got immaculate taste but i back authenticity no copy and paste, but humility follow your mentor with grace, best mentors arent just in it for the money they really wanna see their students succed and change, and that deeply matters int heir brain

Success, but no stress Yeah I want success but i don't want more stress Give me some millions, but keep the rest. Give me challenge art expression, let me grow and explore, but leave out the media scrutiny drama the conflict and the debates, leave the frowning and the cigarettes and caffeine man this shit juss just ages my face. Yeah caffiene, yeah leave out the caffiene i'ved had enough, gets exhausting man these days i just wanna smoke some weed and make love to women I see, take a walk with some palm trees. Yeah leave the social media comments and the forums and the opinions yeah give it a rest, put it aside yeah not for me just leave it for the rest No more caffiene man im done its too much let me sleep god just let me rest Work hard yeah but i believe stress is just working hard on things that dont work, like smart work comes first orient myself then i can grind, but grind with fluidity flowing through life, dancing in the process and swimming in success, no frowning or resistance yeah that shit dont even work, be like bad bunny make that shit dwerk.

What prevents success? : Lack of character & self - leadership Lack of Infrastructure Lack of health or energy Lack of vision, decisiveness and clarity Every other micro reason, stands on the shoulders of this. Mastery of this >> allows the other micro issues to get solved, whether instantly or gradually over time

Yeahh hiding in plain sight Heatwave is exhausting, I'm exhausted another night But that money is still in sight That Dream is alight Yeah the fire burns yeah mmm I'm a star but i got many vice I know whats waiting for me on the other side It was always there just couldnt sustain in financially for enough time I count my blessings and pray to the fucking divine Ancient wisdom yeah its the pharaoh in the sky

Can feel like im nihilistic and depressed But its just the situation and the stress, insomnia and no rest U cant expect me to just perform at my best But maybe this is my best, within this phase of test I know im an arrogant guy with a lot of pride And i know it gives me character and that drive But I know gratitude too and I know its necessary in these times I shit on enough people, but ultimately leos best vidoes stand the test of time Maybe u take it for granted for a year or a few, but you always eventually come back and realize, that videos golden its a prize, hiding in plain sight

I took a fat dose and I took too much My head is spinning my bodys out of touch But i ride this wave and introspect And realize its just an exacerbated manifestation of my anxiety and stress Then i come back to the insights I gained, stupid simple insights Stop resisting, anything, don't resist Every small task is a step to heaven It's always the small things, small steps, small actions, that small action u lose urgency to do, its because you're seeing it as just this action, just a post, just 1 task, just $30, but if u realize its a step, a step on a stairway to heaven, or a block to a pyramid, every block takes u to the top, as the pharaoh

I need better ways for dealing with pressure and stress But i chose this path so I must conquer this test I could've had an easy life and easily just paid rent, With a mediocre and limited life but better in the short term i guess But I chose to invest, have to go back to my purpose and back myself and forget the rest A few more months of this shit and i could easily be blessed Welcome to the real world raw capitalism war and death I wish it was another way every night i blunt away and hold my breath But im not here to complain or beg for sympathy But i wont withold the pain either and pretends its fun, Welcome to the real world brother u cant hide or run, money like air but when u have none, ironically it weighs a ton I can feel the weight in my shoulders and my back, No time for hobbies but breath work yoga a medical hack

Fuckkkk the main forum I dont care! I dont wanna hear your energy I swear! I am not an INTP like u so i dont care! I dont even wanna see or know, I am fine with leos videos I wanna make money and gold and hear it too, I wanna trade gold and sell shit too I choose the simple life the shallow life Being in my mind only made me a miserable guy Jordin Belfort type of guy, suit and a skyscraper in the sky Parties all the time I fukkk ur wife every night Im just joking please dont cry

Yeah i can feel chronic anxiety coming back But i ride this wave, deep breath away and loosen my back I will fight my own mind until I win and no fight persists, just being in the abyss, Yeah I dont want stress and I dont want pain, just ecstasy and bliss Yeah I do want impact I will be real, first i have to get rich And thats some stressful shit So much pain I was down in the ditch Just work with what I got, accept the shit Thats why you have to dream, its 1 of a few means in which you never quit Have to invest daily even if you're never perfect, which u never will be People terrify from petty negatives , but they cant see Men terrify rejection, they reject themselves Its a projection, delusional world collect the appreciating assets every day no matter what And It's about breaking thresholds, within your own mind, u fill the pot Confidence is an accumulation of breaking meaningful personal thresholds Until then u never stop, no matter what Yeah I guess the way im wired, I only ever wanna feel inspired Even when im tired Yeah I guess i always got the fire Yeah my English teacher used to get so frustrated, I was like 16 and I i was always late and my eyes were jaded, and i still got as but i didn't even try and barely finished my assignments, I was in too much pain I just did in one take, a scribble of sloppy notes and i just saw his face, look of disgrace, but looking back its kinda funny in a way And looking back im grateful he saw something in me, and he had charisma too and wasn't a boring guy, even if in his wage he struggles to survive, and in this way I can mature because i realize, not all teachers were sociopathic and tyrannical and evil in the eyes People call rap conformity and I'm not tryna argue or deny But u have to always focus on the gold and keep an open mind Lyricism is an art and the music too And they make beats and have vision and orchestrate to the producers they oversee, And that isnt easyy i call it masteree But business and life in general is my passion music just an extention I'm an interconnected guy there's no severance in my mind, some things irrelevant but most things human connect, i dont need no niche interest about cars I got bigger fish to fry, firstly living a good life and thrive not just survive, only success is on my mind, and hard work is divine, the blocks star heavy then u build a ville an pyramid in no time

Yeah im in pain Excuse me as im, not really looking for synpathy or to be vainn And yeah im perfectly logical and sain But even still I got all this fucking pain I guess i fell back into my ways I guess im not a perfectly consistent guy But like i'll never quit and ill always keep my head high And forget the times when I was mistreated and uneducated and just wondering why And i'll forget ill this shit that ever made me cry Fuck that shit I'm only flying to the sky Call this shit cringe but I dont give a fuck no more Only what i want to take and i'll do it for my own sake, Get that paper cake No scams posturing or claiming credit for something i faked Work like hell and work until im dead asleep in my eyes, on the brink of dying so tired, tired, super energy because im my heart i got the fire Uplift my small team i build around me and we spread the fire, fire of success, only optimism and gold no fire of death Yeah im always tryna find strength, uplift myself i dont need no spot and a bench yeah u gotta let go of resistance, let go of the clench yeah I guess when u resist it persists, no gravity but you feel the weight, you feel the bitterness and the pain and the hate I dunno what to say A million bands ima make Yeah im optimistic but i will never be fake For now this pain seems here to stay And thats okay Ima fucking make it anyway

Yeah im getting in my soul, yeah im hitting on the beat Yeah noo i dont even really wanna sleep Yeah im really handsome But I had people emotionally abuse me they took me for ransom And i'd lose my state of mind losing my ways in a tantrum Forgetting all the good and all the cool people i'd met, losing my ways, falling back down Not seeing opportunities, right in front of me Yeah i was lost in my ways yeah and im trying to forgive Trying to stay positive I smoke a blunt a way but right now i got nothing to give Yeah i smoke a blunt but i try and focus on all the good and the positive I guess im a competitive guy and I dont know why it keeps coming back to power and flexing and frame ANd i know its dirty in a way but this instinct seems to be just here to stay .. Fuck this shit I dunno, music and blunt i blow away But success is the only revenge Sorry i dont know fuck you fuck this i cant be perfect or liked by everyone, and that i accept, but i wont take it like a bitch and like them back, only ignore them get success then flex on everyone back Its the only revenge, i dont give a fuck what you say, This message aint toxic it's a necessary trade That you dont fight or argue with no one avoid the politics and the debate, Avoid the protests and the arguments and the rage Just work your ass off day after day, then flex on everyone with honest value if u must let the ego have its way Its the only compromise dont even brag per se just let the results speak for themselves, nothing more to say

My favourite part of this video should be snipped into a long qoutation something about "when i want to achive something, it has to be a really awesome, huge goal, otherwise im not motivated to do it .." i need to find the exact qoute, he said it so much better I really really resonated with this part, thats why it moved me, and this is specific temperment and personality match thing which is extremely rare, I do not match leo on many other metrics, we could be complete opposites, yet on just this one ambition metric, even though the details of our goals is different, the meta drive is very similar, that desire to be .. other wordly, world class, generational levels of ambition, this is not for everyone, but this really does resonate with me, and i cant ever forget that, but since about 2021 leo has just such profundly good speaking ability now that, hes one of the few who can truly put in the right words, with the right tonality, its not the same when some moronic self help writer just says "hav big goals man" stfu lol

I have come to the conclusion that it is best to constantly reverberate between self help and hollistic development, and domain specific mastery even merely for the purpose of just making big bucks, because both feed into each other, often in unexpected forms, and this isnt needed just to pay the bills, but if you are ultra ambitious and creative, and eventually want to make hundreds of millions or billions especially E.g im into business, sales and marketing But there are people who are ONLY into business sales and marketing, and sure they can get fairly far just from that, because theres concentrated focus, but they might reach a 6.5/10, they wont reach a 9 or 10 But why? Because Business sales and marketing arent some silode hyper technical niche, like quantum physics or molecular biology Business sales and marketing .. its like really just an amalgamtion of being a human being in a human society, standing on the shoulders of many fundamental (and also niche modern) ideas, principles, and aspects of life, that have built up interwoven across millennia So yes, some amazing drama school kid who from a young age learnt to project his voice, and his facial expressions, and learnt to put himself in the perspective of others, form all walks of life, learnt to understand human emotions and patterns, envy, fear, anger, deceit ect.. COULD (if he actually became interested and motivated with business) have an unexpected latent advantage down the line, but this is just one example And WHY am i into business sales and marketing though? people love to fucking project, just because "im the business guy"? Not really, when i thought i had to be the "business guy" it hurt me because it made it seem boring and dry But i genuinely love business, and the main reason for it is that BUSINESS ISNT REALLY JUST A "THING" U wont get what im saying until you actually do it But it is EVERYTHING It is an amalgamation and interconnection of everything, of YOU, WHO YOU ARE, how good you are, at almost everything funamental to being human : communication, verbal skills, listening skills, human psychology, creativity, using infrastructre, its like how can it be boring, its just life, its the real world, even movies can be relevant to business, movies, culture, psychology, travel, business is like the physics version of being a human being (if u remember how the HS Physcis profesor used to love to bang on about how "everythng is physics, its everywhere look ect. Also u can make a business about anything, now their are logistical constraints, and this is phase dependent (thats why for anyone lost about "AH MY PURPOSE" i recommend they just spend literally 5 years mastering business/sales/marketing, and build up capital, because THEN U CAN LITERALLY DO ANYTHING WITH IT, the captial isobvious, but what is even more valuable and super rare, but also harder to quantify, is the eventual knowledge/skills the internal capital accumulation and synaptic Accumulation that enables you to do superhuman things within this planet, now im not taking credit for this as if im there already, not at all, but i am forseeing this meta pattern ahead In the past the billionaires were the autistic coders and software developers I forsee that the next ones will be the hollistic interconnectors, but only if they ALSO have domain specific concentrated mastery, especially in their early phases, e.g a hollistic interconnector who also hammered in and mastered marketing for 3-5 years, or sales, public speaking, networking, social media growth ect.. ideally multiple of these Leo even hinted at it himself "pickup taught me to speak with conviction" E.g you have to master health because then none of your skills even matter if you run out of energy, or become depressed, or have chronic insomnia, which i have struggled with, and energy and health really is the very base layer foundation, a company cant run if the CEO is a tyrant meth addict, no matter how well structured it is But i have been careful to ground this idea in both sides, you do also just need brute force concentrated technical mastery, you cannot just "go to bars and chat up some women and it will make you a billionaire", the interconnection can be seen like a city being build, that city needs strong foundations, strong bridges, a strong climate, strong legal system, to uphold itself, you cant just ram a bunch of Ferraris and money in it, on its own, and they have to be connected correctly, there has to be a seemless flow, that makes sense, that builds on and benefits each other P.s I might stop using CAPITAL letters because it feels cringe and inauthentic, i cant pinpoint exactly why yet, but it simply just does. Or maybe issue is i use it too much, which is annoying, it becomes a bit like an unconsious filler word

I am going to stay positive for at least another 3 months and assume everything is going to improve I do not have an issue with money, being broke, approaching ect.. Reason being all of those things are literally within my control The issue with health stuff is it really fucks with your mind because there is that looming sense that it could, or is both permanent and there's nothing you can do, leo is a great example of this, this is something im terrified of, i dont mind getting it at 70 but not in my 20s and 30s, that is intolerable. Nevertheless, i am going to assume it will massively improve in the next 3 months, not next "day" because that adds pressure, but 3 months, i will brainwash myself that this will get better, and also iterate every possible thing i can think of, if i truly tried everything and nothing changes in 3-6 months then i will consider ending it But i will still keep up the grind within these 3-6 months also because money increases my chances to exercize requisite variety and of iterating every possible solution as quickly as possible, so i will still work hard, within what i can do, but i probably cannot expect to be full beast mode right away as too much pressure can just deepen the problem, i have to be more patient here and just work smarter until i get everything back

I got 7+ hours for 2 days and its back again I am stuck awake until 4-4.30AM again and i am sleeping 4-6 hours again I am very concerned this is never going to end U can cheat diet, u can smoke, drink abit ect.. consequences are marginal or gradual U cannot cheat sleep over the long term, and the damage shows up fast too I am losing my looks, my skin, my vitality, the glow in my eyes, i will lose my hair, i am losing ahtletic function, i will have mood disorders and anger problems if this continues long enough, i will not be able to compete in business against people who are in good health, i may barely even be able to pay my bills Gym recovery is far slower, i will lose muscle, and who knows if i'll even be able to exercise anymore as this will become my last depserate priority I will lose everything if i dont solve this And given what my baseline is, and given i am pretty young still (not 60) This is hard to tolerate I will lose my productivity I dont even get to be awake during the day .. Trust me i have tried everything for months If this doesnt get solved i am going to kill myself I cannot be anyone im not I cannot be tired, i cannot live with it, i cannot be unproductive, i cannot just lose my looks like this This is tragic, like i said the only one thing u must never lose in life is sleep, continous sleep is the number one lever that decays your entire body I have a couple months to find a solution or im going to kill myself. I will not quit yet but after a certain point when ive tried everything what am i supposed to do? ... just suffer and accept it like some bitch? No i have a standard that i have for myself across everything based on the strong genetics i was given and i am not dropping below that standard, i cannot live with it, i was blessed with so much talent in virtually everywhere area imaginable, intellectual, athletic, physical appearance, personality, charisma, energy, and now its just being taken away from me like this? u expect me to just live with that fuck you Maybe i need much stronger but also higher quality weed, i dunno i cant resort to addictive and toxic benzodiazpine or sleeping pills, maybe the last resort for me is ultra sedating, high quality, high potency indica weed and maybe a lot of CBD added in, if i can even find it, if only i lived in California then i could just source that inmediately, it is also expensive but nothing is more expensive than health decay I have to use Te i guess, i have to consider every variable I currently drink tea and these teabags contain microplastics - for example that is one variable But my caffiene consumption is low, intentionally low and it doesnt help, i used to abuse caffiene and still sleep enough, now i have 1-2 teas max by about 12pm, it is very unlikely this is causing it, im even extra tired because there is still residue caffiene withdrawal I just have to use a sheet tracker simple and track the variables, every day, exhausting and sloppy to do it in my head Maybe i should buy an aura ring, but again so expensive, but again maybe just goodbye to all my capital again, maybe i have to sell everythign and throw everything at this before i kill myself There are so many variables, this is not simple I can only use Te and iteration There has to be Te and tracking and iteration, or i will feel like a victim and not know whats going on Maybe i have to quit finasteride maybe i am in the 5% of people who experience side effects, although DHT sepression it wouldnt be expected to influence sleep as it isnt related to the same system imo, but again, "What do i really know about anything" If i come out of this healthy and recovered though i will count it a blessing, but only if i solve it Either i die or i come out of this a lot more grateful for my body and my life Probably i will never have any fear or anxiety about anything trivial again, i will never be desperate for money or pussy again, i will just be eternally grateful for being alive and healthy, i will probably be a much stronger person, i will probably be impossible to manipulate, i will probably have a profound work ethic, energy and motivation, if i can just solve this, i will never take anything for granted again, its like going to jail and being released and seeing your freedom like air, but the health version of this. I am a strange person and most people would not benefit from this, most people just want to work a lame job and watch TV and reproduce with any random woman fit in and avoid all their fears and be safe lol, but i am not wired like most people

Landscaping, Plants, Gardening & decorative art This will be new passion hobbie of mine Requires money, space, land, time and energy once i can buy a spacious house and garden i will start doing this I will learn a lot about nature, natural science, chemistry, technology, art ect.. Not merely gardening, but all forms of design and decoration, lighting, painting ect.. This will be cool af I also like the ocean and want to own jet ski or motor boat But this landscaping thing works for both intro and extorverts, and is a pro social hobby Imagine you bring your new girlfirend and she sess this shit, not merely that you're some rich guy like the other 800 thousand rich dudes in miami or wherever, but your place has substance, art, nature, beauty, decoration, women love to feel, and relying on your personality and charisma is only one means to make her feel something, on its own it has its limits, ideally she is just entrenched within an environment pure art, nature and beauty that leaves her feeling so alive no matter what stupid and boring shit u get up to, but YOU get to feel more alive every day too, its that forest effect, that feeling uget when u find a beautiful forest, or just a beautiful city u visit, its that awe factor It's also an honest signal, because no amount of money can truly create that type of awe factor from great design, i mean well it can to an extent, but only if you're MEGA rich, merely being a millionaire isn't what people think it is, if you dont have the skills and vision to do it yourslef, it could cost a single million just to mimic that awe factor from getting a big garden done, and even then, you'd need some vision and udnerstanding to direct them on what to do, and still, if it isnt your own, you wont really dig it, it something will be missing, i honestly dont think this is something u can fully buy your way out of

My tolerance to THC has become so high its now a futile compulsive activity No pleasure, not even noticeable sedation or relaxation anymore It is just money and energy burning ritual at this point Has just become a meaningless, pleasureless autopilot habit And how boring would it be if i pulled a cool liberal chick or met some new friends who wanted to smoke up, in like some fucking tropical forest and i just didnt feel anything in that moment ... Everything has its time and place, smoking alone constantly is super lame and i knew this but tbh it was just a desperate response to chronic insomnia Still i completely forgot about and underestimated how powerful tolerance is with weed, and tolerance like this makes it extremely expensive because i'd have to reload 3-5x/week and still not get much out of it, then i'd also have to smoke a lot of carinogen just to get a fraction of the effect too so its unhealthy i will leave it for a month so i can enjoy it ritualistically again

Another night, Smoked another blunt to numb the stress and the pain Another night but no more i feel the same Insomnia down but still sleep late Te, structure, goals, waking up early I think insomnia going now i have nothing to blame I think i need Te again Clarity, note book & pen, schedulling on sundays Meaningful big goals but specifics, measured, Deadline Move x y date z in bank Also input based goals/standards, aided by sunday time schedule Output goals for the energy, motivation and dreaming LOA & deadlines, pressure make diamond Input goals for grounding to reality, ensuring consistency, clear cause & effect progression, trackable self honest daily momentum and using the principle of minimum standards (not, "I would like to do x 3 hours per day but, doing x y amount per day is a hygiene standard, with no days off) Time structure that frames every day, organized and mechanistic machine ENTP Ofc daily checklist/review for input goals, especially simple task box icon checklist Lets do this, build leverage i turn the crank Yeah I wanna brake the bank Insomnia going down getting back into professionalism I need a tailored old money suit to wear Introspective me is over for now, I am now mechanistic old money suit wearing money machine psychopath. Marketing sales leverage skills learning communication human psychology charisma energy mood vocal projection professionalism room setup technology superfast wifi capital engineering Transcripts reviews, SRS repetition mastery drills 14H work days SMT goals deadlines visualization mediation Optimizing immersion studying practicing applications networking content personal brand 8-12H sleep recovery, Juicing celery juice quality meat 30K months 8s 9s and 10s focus vibrancy energy success

I want so much money it overflows it frightening Weatherman make it rain but all this capital i make lightning Corporate charm but i know im a warrior im a Viking Core tennet of game is marry the game dont chase the fame, Notice the bad luck and pray but only find yourself to blame, Same time elevate and dont fall to shame, guilt is a cancer that shit only inflame I keep vaping is it heavy metals that going to my brain Can I even feel the stress in my veins? same shit another night i smoked a blunt to heal the pain But im still logical and sain, i should quits the carcinogens and just mediate away

Yeahh, stress from my feet through my head Its medical, not recreational as I lift this blunt on my bed These are the rawest flows dont call me ted, talk no more Only chalk, chalk and flows that I draw I don't promote drugs only greatness, im not a role model but im chosen to be somebody dont mistake this Not just another dude, an ordinary guy with some regular shoes Pleasant and safe, home insurance but no gold in the safe, married a 6 at 30, alimony at 40, Met her through work never learnt to be flirty Never took a risk Always did what his parents think Cosey home and that wine he drinks, with his bored wife who emotionally cheats And denies sex 6 times a week That could never be me That shit make me freeze Only 4 9s, and a dozen palm trees And a 4 by 4 in the cana isles, in fall 30 degrees Only abundance im relentless Even when my family look in my eyes and tell me i cant and i know that they meant it And they know that money I spent it But I know i had to invest it Insomnia life and stress got me restless

Yeah lord im crying for success In public i dont shed a drop But when im alone its starts with a raindrop Always at night Especially after a blunt But in every raindrop is a fire, a fire is lit Yeah a fire is lit noo i wont ever quit Am i waffling or are these bars that I spit I need a dentist i guess i let myself go a bit Yeah a fire is lit noo i wont ever quit Got a family to feed i squeeze the clip (JC) Yeahh a fire is lit have to let go of a bitch Excuse my language but don't misintpret Writing loses its touch when u watter the message, that shit sloppy and wetted Its diluted, feeling polluted I pray for success and i pray for beauty Nonono no more misery One choice no decision tree Find the light no matter how far u have to go, sail the seas if u need because the end result is dope

People who never faced any adversity or something seem to think u can speed run to caring about "consciousness" and spiritual development lol .. You think raw masculinity is a luxury, or even a performance Really its non negotiable We tried being nice, we tried being interesting and open minded and getting into philosophy It doesn't pay the bills It doesn't get pussy And if no one pays the bills and gets good pussy the human race dies off, or only the ugly kids live on

Time to stop talking about women I just have to be professional for a while Build up some true value Time to rest properly and work properly Conservative mind u could call it that Cant full into misery cant fall to copes Depression is slippery its a slope Only work ethic value can carry me its a tote Inputs and delayed gratification yeah i know Have to forgive have to let go Find the gold and the beauty never lose hope Would I feel worse without all these words that I spoke? For the young gold is glitter I suppose Trapped into systemic scams then they lose hope I want a million bands like the pope

Mastery always elevates me a little, Reminds me i dont have to stay little I know im worthy i know got, i know i got immense value dont u belittle Devine source of energy yeah its a skittle

I accidentally quit caffiene and its brutal I had already reduced my intake by 1.5-2X and i still had insomnia (5h) But i just accidentally quit caffiene almost entirely, maybe 0-50mg atm And its accientally brutal I have enough brutality though so its not as noticeable, maybe im just hardened now I feel tension in my knees sort of like an achey, itchy feeling and no im not crying out for sympathy Its not a heroin addiciton lmao But it is dead right unpleasant for a week or maybe more But that im ready for And i've quit the main forum again too There may be some insight but I just know that it will be muddled & mired in shit and weird negativity and bullshit and bias So fuck off all of u Yesterday I slept like 10-12 hours but i have so much debt to reclaim Sleep has become such base maslows need for me rn that id smoke a blunt over any temptation for caffeine even in the day, I need 12 hours a day for 12 days, its debt that god made me pay