
Optimized Life
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Why Tom Torero was miserable and empty I never knew the guy, not even of the guy until post death And i'm sure , his business cancellation was the ultimate tipping point that ended it for him, since his lifestyle was now over But here's the thing : He was empty and melancholy in the coming years anyway He lived a constant nomadic lifestyle, always travelling around, lone wolf seducer, Jack Reacher type He boned hundreds of women, nearly always ONS I'm sure he revisited differnt places or formed a pattern but, he never stayed anywhere He never moved and settled anywhere, no community, no friendship group, No long term girlfriends He had 1 income source, 1 business model, that was the foundation of his life, logistics, very fragile No large investments or holdings in crypto, stocks, gold, real estate, no homes I doubt he was even that physically healthy, always travelling, probably ate convivence food, he didn't workout or have any muscle mass He didn't show much other interests or pursuits of satisfaction : creative business idea, invention or some competitive hobbies Very easy to see why he was so jaded, it's not "because women don't make you happy bro", way more nuanced Feminine women y do contribute to male happiness significantly But he could've just evolved into .. 3 attractive long term girlfriends, then had fun stranger sex once a month, maybe children? He could've tried psychedelics, he could've learnt new languages and actually tried truly living in 1 of those countries rather than just being a lone tourist There's like a million things he could've done to make his life more sustainable, rewarding, interesting, meaningful and less lonely and empty
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An amalgamation of World Class Ideas from a 130 IQ Brain
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I NEVER smoked for so many years, barely a single day without smoking apart from NYE i would smoke literally once a year and i have smoked every day for months, fucking months, chronically I FUCKING ripped up my ciggaretes and thwew themn on the fucking floo r u cannnot quit every fucking habnit at onjce but i fuckijng quite smoking FUCK BECAUSE SMOKING AGES YOU FAST WTFFFF IM A VERY FUCKING PROFUNDLY HANDSOME MAN AND IM SMOKING IT AWAY FUCKKKKK THAT BRO TODAY I GET DRUNK BUT I QUIT SMOKIG I QUIT AT LEAST BEER DOESNT DIRECTLY AGE YOU AND DRY OUT AND FUCKIN KILL THE COLLAGEN PORETIEN FOR YOUR SKIN AND WRINKLE YOUR FUCKING FACE FUYCK THAT
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The War Never Ends I tried to quit caffiene 3.5 days ago I have semi succeeded but I had some cacao drink today, so not completely Probably had 50-60mg caffiene in 3-4 days, and still, I do not feel good at all, how long will this last? I dunno but I'm a cynical guy, not so niave to the idea of fast recovery anymore My skin has literally another 40-80 days just to fully recover from short term smoking Im sure caffiene withdrawal fucks you for anywhere from 10-40 days, it's a final boss many people underestimate Gotta wonder why almost no one literally ever quits caffiene hmmmm? Is it because of all the antioxidants? lmao
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You provided zero annoyance to me at all, hard to infer tone or reaction from written words You are pleasant and polite, and that's appreciated I was just being honest that : I am not benign and the world isn't a nice place, nor is it becoming a nicer place, nor do I even need it to be anymore, I just need to make useful choices, cant much control if the world burns as long as I made mine count
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God forgive all my wasted times God forgive all my dead ends God forgive all my internet brain rots God forgive all my delusional insecurities God forgive all the time I spent online God forgive all the times i dind't approach God especially forgive the times I didn't approach the love at 1st sight type of women, of which have been several God forgive all the wrong people I trusted God forgive all the people I listened to God forgive all the times I didn't think critically God forgive all the times I started and dind't finish something God forgive all my regrets God forgive my bitterness God forgive the times I hated women God forgive me for falling for all the modern traps many times, staring at screens all day, disconnected God forgive me for trying to get validation from women, that's a scam God forgive me for prioritizing money and business so much God forgive me for judging peoples value according to their wealth, or career God forgive me for caring what people thought of me for so long, and god forgive me for deluding myself that I didn't care anymore when technically I still did at the bios level God forgive me for not studying history and how the world really works sooner God forgive me for not developing my own voice and values sooner, always just going along with the "successful" people I knew, like a dog God forgive me for not taking mushrooms sooner God forgive me
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You're in for a rude awakening then lmao, that was not the purpose of this post I asked for forgiveness of futile, delusional and tragic mistakes, like not approaching, insecurities and wasting time I dind't ask for the world to be a nicer place, or to be benign I'm actually dangerous, just dangerous and human
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Not sure if i should advise on "becoming like him" because to me he is more a very close (70-85%) revelation of my true self, I had already been finding and embracing myself for years and I finally found him again Lookwise its how he the embraces and styles himself, long wavey hair, sometimes long stubble, sometimes old money or more exuberant and sensual style, sometimes more bad boy look, it's the flexible mix of slightly adrogenous style but always with a dominant, dark, brooding and intense, sexual charisma behind it, that doesn't apologise or try to fit in or be likeable or tame
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He's literally the sexiest, cooler mf alive, can't believe i forgot about this guy He's my celebrity soul father Dark, brooding charisma Creative, intellectual but not in a try hard or geeky way European, never conformed or souled his soul to Hollywood Always dating stunners Aristocrat bad boy archetype Very masculine, but not in a square, one dimensional way, full of chaos and sensuality Drinks parties and smokes (something I stopped but I admit that cooler people tend to drink and smoke, doesn't mean it's inherently worth it) IF YOU DON'T AGREE WITH THIS, YO;RE A FUCKING PEASANT BUT MOST WON'T AGREE BECAUSE MOST OF YOU ARE FUCKING PEASANT FUCKS ME AND VINCENT, WE'RE INVINCENTIBLE AND ABOVE YOUS
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HE'S LITERALLY MY FATHER GOAT
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The War Against Presence I'm on day 21 No Fap It's highly worth it But it's only a force multiplier Without presence? > vulnerable scattered energy with no direction Many modern societies are completely degraded, people are numbed to zombies staring at their phones, and this is a huge problem, some countries are impacted less than others, some cultures are more intact, some cultures have stronger family bonds, better relationships, more prescense, but some other countires and cultures are completely ruined beyond repair, especially becuase it's a silent insidious killer, that can't really be dealt with or enforced with force in realistic method I am seeing the limits of no fap, which is that you need presence Do I mediate or is it a waste of time? Just meditating for 5 minutes, even an hour a day to me feels stupid The "mediation" needs to be 24/7, every single second of my life, otherwise what's the point? I look at my phone for no reason "Nope i'm practicing presense", this kind of shit Not holding strong enough eye contact with a girl? there you go, it's presence practice, "Meditation" It must be inescapable, ubiquitous, omnipresent, inevitable, constant and unwavering I still think focused mediation with timer is Probably GOOD at first to kickstart the wiring again, but it needs to become an integrated discipline And of course, taking mushrooms too, a kickstarter, jumpstart with these 2 i gues 1. Mushrooms 2. Mediation with timer 3. Deliberate social Prescnece / eye contact / gaze holding 4. Integrated god mode
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1. I spoke about realizing how little you know 2. But there's also, How Deep do you know it? For years I know society breeds week men and castrates them, schools, parents, offices and culture in the west does this, perhaps to varying degrees per individual country, but across the board, most of the "west" (including USA, western, southern & northern Europe) does this Now I've sort of known this for since about 22, definitely much better than most normies But for years I didn't KNOW IT deeply enough Such that, If I was subtly pressured to a family gathering, I would just eat the pasta and whatever other crap, and I would watch the sports on TV, because a part of me still believed in it as merely a healthy hobby, balance Now becuase I know so deeply if my family dare tempt me with any of those distractions I'll get viscerally angry and agressive at them, no negotiation at all and I'll look at them in disgust, because for trying to tempt me against my will, and disgust at them for being normies I worked a kitchen job, and this woman, who had a proto-typical normie hat wearing "I'm everything that's wrong with society" on her face, fat as fuck, would ALWAYS tempt me into eating the dirty cake. And she wouldn't just do it once, she'd offer it, i'd say i'm ok, she'd say "are you sure??" "i's say im ok" Eventually that bitch would tempt me, her tone, when she'd offer it multiplie times, I hadn't had time to eat, i'd been cleaning the dishes and prepping stupid sandwiches for hours, drained, after weeks I suddenly had a moderate sugar addiction. Now obviously I could've been stronger and learnt how to just say NO and im not denying that, but again it would've been way easier fo rme to say no, and I would've, if I just KNEW more deeply the trap, and KNEW how against that shit I was, not shallow like "sugar is bad" but "ohh this is the thing where society tries to castrate me to be like them, oooh shit watch the fuck out, dont eat that" I have old eyes now for a young man, I've seen too much, i know too much. I know what society is doing to men, and I'm fucking sick of it and I won't fucking stand for it anymore, so I won't hold back any more, I wont be a polite sugar eating masturbating presentable fake neutered bitch anymore with no dawg in me, sitting around watching sports and eating fucking pasta. Fuck society man
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God forgive my arrogance to spirituality It's not what i thought it was Spirituality is real life That mythical gaze an INFJ woman locks onto you, soft but enchanted and haunted, aroused but nurturing, awakened Or that bold electric potent gaze a ENFJ woman locks onto you, within a split second No Fap is spirituality War is spirituality Even power and winning frames is spirituality It's not about being nice or tame Life is war Life is spirituality
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I'm back to day 12 of no fap and I'm feeling my power come back. Feel it in my walk, feel it in my breath, feel it in my will, feel it in my dawg Getting so so much better at getting frames back and winning frames, from people, workers, women (who just want validation and control masquerading as dating) I'm learning to win frames without try hard dominance, without attacking people, without drama, i'm just starting to win frames, im getting real power
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The Double Edged Reticular Activation System : A Phallic defence and defiance against Undesirable energies and beings, and the heroic confrontation and fight against your own evil brain 1. Focus on what I want AND expect to get what I want (With a delusional arrogance of deserving and being intensely capable of having it + a deep humility in my willingness to crawl through sticky hell to get it, if necessary) 2. What I dont want doesn't exist to me, gotta practice the sparring of ignoring and rejecting bad thoughts, the brain, our brains have been bulling us for decades, the default brain is literally a bully!, it just tricks and traps you again and again again and again again and again again and again again and again again and again over and over and over and over and over either you keep numbing yourself or you one day just go WHEN DOES IT FUCKING END, CAN I JUST BEAT THIS MOTHERFUCKER FOR ONCE? Double edged reticular activation system is one perspective i decided to add on beating the brain, in addition to everything else mentioned previoulsy But also, gotta just take mushrooms i think (AND Cold approach MORE Obviously cold approach is a magic skill, unbelievable rare and beautiful skill
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IM REALIZING MORE AND MORE THE POWER OF BELIEFS, LANGUAGE AND NLP AND WHEN I REALIZE IT, IT SNOT THE FUCKING SAME AS SOME AVERAGE ACADEMIC GEEK REALIZING IT I HAVE NO ACADEMIC BACKGROUND, I DONT EVEN STUDY NLP ACADEMICALLY ALL MY GROWING UNDERSTANDING COMES FROM A COMBINATION OF INTUTIVE SYNTHESIS OF LIFE EXPEREINCES AND LOOKING AT SOME HISTORY AND JUST MY OWN HISTORY IT IS UNREAL FOR AN ENTP 8W7 LIKE ME TO REALIZE THE POWER OF THIS, WE US 0.1% BEINGS ARE THE MOST CAPABLE OF GRASPING IT AT EVERY LEVEL AND MASTERING IT
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Another working sloppy half baked writing in progress in a manic stressed tired and cognitively, emotionally overwhelmed, demoralised state, everythiung I write might be dumb af and make no sense and im humble enough to share it anyway "In between vs all in personality" .. im an extrovert but should I lock myself in a room for a week and study myersbriggs/ennegram and look at what it's missing, try extend it? ^^ we have MB .. we hav ennegram, we have instinct stack but i doubt all of those were neatly, linearly ideated in a single session , i bet more was discovered years later with an iteration or insight, like how most scientific ideas extend from previous works What if mb/ennegram/instinct stack needs extending for example le ohas spoinenb about this before - some people more sensitive to sounds ect.. thats a specific thing like "sensisitive" - if u imagine like an "ENTP 3W2 S" = Sensitive vs ENTP 3W2 IS = Insensitive Any what about SUPER RESPONDERS People think there's just gentics but the most mysterious thing is genetic potential Like there's leonel messi the born freaks that get noticed instantly without any trianing but then what about the Super rsponder freaks? The 6/10 that looksmaxes and glows up to a 7.6/10 when 99% of 6/10s cant do it The skinny guy who gains muscle super fast the average brain who turns into a genius with an education boost "Super Responder" also - i connect it ot sensitivity Because some people (myself) are very, very,very sensitive to certain things So i dont mean emotionally sensitive in that "no you hurt me" I mean like If i do No fap, it AFFECTS ME If I here the right NLP Language, written in a certain way that just hits my nervous system, hits my emotional system, it HITS Me, it ENERGISES me If I read about men who did incredible things in the war, It POWERS Me But I smoke the tiniest bit of skunk? I'm fucked for like a month, even the tiniest fucking bit, when some other ISTP type can just smoke it away and listen to his bob marley Waking up early, gym ect.. it all AFFECTS Me anbd most people, most brains, even succesful people are so, so pschologically ignorant that alex hormozi or someone will make a video "FUCK YOUR MORNING ROUTINE" because FOR HIM, he doesn't need it, HE can get away with eating ice cream once a day, without any addiction spiral or it fulfills him, thats for HIM.. yet he still has the arrogance to make a video about fuck your morning routine, its such common sense in a way wreally why people dont get this, different shit works for diffrent people and people can be widly different, some people are like 1 in 10,0000 or less So is no fap, or morning routine or gym the KEY to success, generally no, but it might be FOR YOU, it might be the thing that makes YOU become a millionaire or get women, not because no fap or gym literally gets women to approach you, but the momentum of those habits, or just how those things uniquely interact with your nervous system, might be the most realistic propellent that leads you to getting a fuck ton of women as a 3rd order consequence, because everythnigs conneted, also, if you can't approach women maybe you're stuck what you gonna do? keep walking around and not doing it for another 6 months? sometimes to solve a problem you have to walk around it, take a different route and then the path converges to get you there anyway I have no idea what im fucking saying right now, i dont sit around thinking abotu this stuff, this is all written in about 2-3 minutes and i ahve 50 things on my mind, maybe it makes sense, maybe it means nothing ... OHH I forgot, "All in vs in between personalities" Why I'm an ALL IN Personality and i have to be well i dont need to disect it but im realizing more and more that I am Why am I so fucking unbearably arrogant? Because I fucking have to be, until some mushroom rewirinng or something I cannot be moderated or negotiate with humility in my brain .. because then doubt creeps in, then i fluctuate "maybe im not who i thought i was, maybe im just an average guy ect.." And like I said, Im a sensitive super responder, so i MUST go ALL IN on Absolute fucking diabolical arrogance every day, there cannot be any negoatiaon at all, there cannot be any second thought AT ALL Because i know where it leads to Super responders are blessed and cursed, they fall as hard as they blow, and this why extreme arrogance and delusional self belief is necesaary, i literally am rewiring myself to see myself as a god, and it has to become a genuine belief to the level hitler believed his ideology
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Bro takes mushshrooms and watches family guy for 4 hours and expects to absolve himself of all insecurities and have a permanent bios level inner game shift Scientific Targeted Daily Affirmations both actively and passively absorbed daily in a variety of poetic linguistic structures, and NLP idioms/Psychological power words to drilll into the subconious + Visualization every night + even writing by hand sometimes goals, standards, desires, positive (currently delusional) beliefs + right music for u specifically + Trip Intention + perfect setting (specific to ur unique personality type goals) >> Mushrooms and if it requries 50 trips and I have to suck some punjabi cult leaders hairy penis so be it, I need king level inner game with zero stones untruned, zero inconsistency, I'm tired of this fluctuating bullshit now
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Status Signals Bias Like a perfectly cupped pair of big juicy tits, the brain just cannot ignore or evade status signals If a mod comments on my journal, or if I search a particular topic to find an answer, even something as bland and neutral as supplement stacking, I will my eyes will always be pulled into a mods comments because of the green colour and what it symbolises Knowing consciously that the mod could be an idiot or leos nepotistic soft spot, my brain just cannot escape it Hard to by bypass the brain
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Dwayne Johnson's 40 day break Pizza/ice cream binge day : A Tactical Catharsis Protocol Go hardcore for 40 days (or 28 days whatever the psychological number is, for me right now its 28 days, in the furture it may be less (perhaps 14) but im trying to lower body fat and do a harcore holistic glow up; physical financial, psychological, sleep .. Dwayne Johnson would diet and lift for 40 days, then for 1 day, he would binge the shit out of tasty pizza and ice cream, without any restraint or limitation I think this works much better than "having half a cookie every day", so many problems and risks with that strategy imo And it's so beauitufl in it's simplicity My plan for 28 days ahead 1. 28 Days of 100%, pure diet discipline, with no stones unturned ZERO GLUTEN OR GRAINS (Even sourdough bread - close to certain that this gives me brain fog, NO OATMEAL, PASTA RICE) ONLY eat all the foods and drinks that support my mental clarity and mood Take my core supplement stack daily Hydrate - water, electrolytes, milk ZERO sugar > cookies, biscuits, oranges, ice cream Drop down to minimum 12.5% body fat (with the aim being 11%, but I'm aiming for, but may take another month, 12% is still pretty good and your muscles veins and tan really start to pop at this point After 28 days I binge the shit out of pizza and ice cream (possibly not even pizza because I just can't stand gluten) I watch netflix or something But i wont even force this binge day, if I just feel like continiuing on i'll extend it to day 40
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I'M TAKING MUSHROOMS TO BECOME KING Leo takes psychs to become god I take them to become king And i'm setting that as my intention I'm going peak afterglow walking around city hilltop panoramic serotin pumped feeling the wave of energy coarse my body as I look at the city as mine I'm taking it to increase my ego, to cement my self belief, absolve myself of any and all insecurity, and realize myself as king. In pragmatic grounded terms, what do I actually want? Capacity to sustainably approach, get rejected, with maximum possible inner game and state (not just "on the day that i pumped myself by warming up" NO, a permanent, Bios level inner game change, basically "rock solid inner game", more valuable than conditional bravado or a contextual picup line, going meta
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A working, developing insight in progress ... This writing here will be (intentionally) rapidly written, badly articulated, sloppy, messy, as my goal is to just ot lose the things that may be simmering in my subconscious There also perhaps may not even be any insight at all, and it turns out I'm about to glamorize some basic common sense, I'll see .. Quantification, Precision, Metrics, The Power Of Precision, Targets, Tracking, Goals, Weighing, Measuring, Modern Science, Supplementation, Life is a game of inches? The whole is bigger than the sum of its parts, Unpredictable Multiplicative Effect of Combinatory Synergism (especially with disparate elements), A business or product designed solely to tackle decision fatigue and decrease inconvenience for overwhelmed ambitious types who want more time, less stress and more efficiency (Billion $ industry?) Ok this is actually potentially many more insgihts than i first ancticpated 30 seconds ago, but i am not trying to be profound here i am just laying thoughts out with no agenda yet ... work in process 1. Power of Precision & Specificty > the main one here writter above than has somewhat been simmering inmy mind for months because it connects highly to myself, as an immature "ENTP" (possibly making a psycholgoical error by labelling myself too often, maybe i should this label) i would I just do things, learn things, learn a million things but only go 20-40% of the way & never finish, never track, never time, never ... People and the brain changes and is malleable, not only am i picking up on the importance of specificity recently, but starting to develop a love for it, I'm litterally excited to track my food calories with a scale! Not everything in life should be quantified or numerical obviously, but most people in my opnion dont quantify enough, not too much And it connects to losing body fat, gaining muscle, timing, schedules ect.. Need to mention to Power of Precise Knowledge (connecting theme to leos distinctions topic?) "Eggs are healthy, just eat 10 of them raw bro every day"! Or ... Eggs and raw eggs are generally pretty healthy yes but .. Is there any issues with too many raw eggs? And what is an issue with Biotin deficiency? Potential Acceleration of Hair Loss and MPB So are raw eggs bad? Not necessarily they just need to be moderated and I will now mostly boil them, perhaps 1 raw egg per day But the precise*precise of this would be to have some sort of technical gadget or AI that could literally track my biotin levels in real time with real time feedback in response to my raw egg use vs biotin supplement and quantifiably measure it on a screen
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And the list just goes on ..... Took me this long to realize you're not meant to fucking chug water! (or any fluid) You're meant to sip it slowly, gradually, or you may just flush it all out and process it too fast
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Have to know yourself "Burnout" and stress is highly individual and personal The only main factors are 1. Sleep (and no fap) 2. Mental stuff Once sleep is recovering its all mental And thats why its 90% individual ou "Resetting for 3-5 days and just doing nothing" is absolute hell for my unique personality type, it causes extreme distress *I'm not talking about an intentional rest where u like take mushrooms with an intention for inner growth, thats purposeful, thats useful, thats a creative way to build inner game for example and im open to that, not what im on about though "Watch netflix and eat comfort food and dont do any travel or commuting (to cold approach) because it introduces "micro stress" Yeah it's micro stress but what introduces MACRO fucking stress? Not cold approaching, not making money, not doing my chores, not strategizing, not reprogramming my mind further, not building my inner game, not planning my escape to move city, fucking endless pain and distress Massively fucking depedns on your personal libido, ennegram, myers briggs, instinct stack and probably multiple other factors too like testosterone levels and maybe multiple other specific factors psychologists haven't discovered and revealed yet, so no I will not sit and rest, I'm going back to war and for me personally, that removes all my stress! because im fucking me, and thats how im wired. Doing a visualization exercize right now Caveat is that there are limits, not saying I need to "Go and do 4 hours int the gym and not sleep and work 19 hour days" obviously fucking not ... and yes burn out and recovery still is a thing, even for me, so there is a graduation process, but just switching off completely? even for an hour? Hell The perfect "recovery" for me is to do useful things, but perhaps less cognitively demanding, or less physical, or just easier stuff, and maybe I do all these things for a couple days, but they're useful, they're still moving me forward, and that acknowledgement REDUCES FUCKING STRESS Just wasting a few hours has made me FUCKING ANGRY AS FUCK FUCK THAT NO The positive is that this is proof that I'm fully deepening into my integrated self now The average man cannot even resist eating junk food and sitting around wasting time For me it's hell even when it was "prescribed to me due to burnout" I know who I am If I'm burnt out then I fucking sleep or nap, end of story. Then I wake up and go back to war, immediately
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I'm probably at 30 days and I've definitely "won" the smoking battle ... i'm not smoking anymore. Whether i'm still impacted by symptoms hard to say because other confounding variables right now I am going through severe nervous system burnout due to overworking the last 2 weeks, combined with distress, pressure, trying to do too much and not recovering my nervous system properly as i had to tasx my body last week .. thought i could just pick it up after 2 days woo cold approach work woo everything no i cant GPT helped me understand this, nervous system recovery means you have to destimulate, leave all the pressure put it all away for 3-5 days, long naps, remove chores tasks and form of "micro stress" that would normally be a healthy part of an active life, remove the gym remove it all. I'm intentionally eating a satiating comfort burger and fries, taking long naps and watching a documentary for hours, and i'm going to have to possibly do this for another 3-4 days and emotionally too i need to detach from everything somehow, all my goals fears regrets desires needs tasks chores it's all disappearing, i have completely taxed my body and brain recently and i just need to fucking stop, no more writing no more thinking, just naps documentaries comfort food and and sleep. with my personality type this is the hardest thing I can ever do, might sound just easy and nice to sit around in comfort but to me it's hell, its another few days of not getting closer to who I want to be become, * It FEELS that way but actually it's just necessary for me to recharge No fap is non negotiable, I fapped and killed my 10 day streak last night and it did not help No fap is the no.1 habit among everything and leos biggest blindspot, it's the one aspect in which i wish i was never influenced by this forum, no fap is non negotiable, i will watch a documentary and eat my satiating burger today, i will try rest my mind, try let go, but the no fap will rebuild, and I'm going for 30 days this time, i might even make a separate journal (like this one) on just my no fap rejourny (i used to do it years ago but I lacked other qualities to enable it as a force multiplier, now I'm bringing it back and its completing me, the magnetism, the stares from women, it doesn't fucking lie! I'm not a supermodel, im decent looking but not standout hot, even at 15-16% bodyfat i get stares from 6.5 + women at day 10, not claiming I get constant stares from 10s, but getting stares from 6.5-7s is no small thing because women date up and are very selective, 99% of men dont get stares from even 6s, and its not solely the no fap its also good style and posture and subsconious work but the no fap is the force multiplier that powers everything, it's the electricity transversing the grid Edit ** I tried eating the "comfort food" and it did nothing for me, it did not rest me I tried starting a documentary and the regret, stress, frustration just piles up again and agian and again HOw the fuck does anyone do this? how the fuck does this "Rest" the nervous system? WHy cant i just keep working? Its anxiety abut not moving forward that stresses me, not action AHHH Chat gpt has to be wrong sometimes I've learn another deeper lesson about myself, inaction especially before like 7-8PM, is mental suicide to me, even if i'm technically burnt out, i literally had like a 1-2 hour nap and GPT convicned me to not create "micro stress", what the fuck is this? I have chores to do, i have goals, i have a city to move to, i need to make money, save money, invest money, approach women ... what the fuck man what the fuck this just makes me sooo much more fucking stessed and anxious, just sitting around "recouperating" i'm literally in my 20s not 95 years old? why do this shit absolute hell for my ennegram soul of a being