Asayake

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  1. I began taking an electrolyte powder with potassium/magnesium/calcium/sodium today. Hopefully it helps! I'll be back in the thread later with an update
  2. He means goat as in Greatest of All Time
  3. From my past few months researching MBTI it seems to me Te is also about productivty, time efficiency, systematic thinking, productivity hacks like task managment systems, post it note to-do lists etc, as well as using external feedback and brainstorming to come up with ideas and make better progress. an ESTJ for example seems to have a tendency to rush things, sometimes too quickly. Because they want to get things done fast, they're not likely to eat slowly or dwell on what they should do for long periods of time unlike someone with high Fi like an INFP can do. I get that Te and Fi are on an axis and valuing Te highly means devaluing Fi. Because Fi is more about carefully considering each decision, taking things at ones own pace and making sure what's done feels like the right thing to do to oneself. Someone like an ESTJ will want to make things happen, they want to see progress and are very productive, but they risk not being true to themselves or chasing some goal that is not really worth it for them in the end because they're not valuing their Fi as highly(is what they're chasing after with their Te really worth it in the end). While an INFP on the other hand might get stuck in a rut more easily because they can forget they also need to make things happen and make progress or their life will decay. But an INFP doesn't necessarily always like the feeling of progress because progress can create some turbulence in life, They can instead prefer the feeling of things being rather stagnant for awhile until they know what they want to do because then they can feel like they're in control/can predict the future. Can anyone here explain why Te seems to be so closely tied to the things I stated in this post? Productivity, time efficiency etc..? It's interesting to me that Te seems to be such a broad function. Also I think the 8th(demon) function is actually pretty strong for all types. So I'm curious as to how Ti plays into the self deception of an INFP. Who uses Ti more to self decept, an INTP, ENTP, INFP or ENFP? Given that an ENFP seems to have pretty weak Ti, and INTP very strong and an ENTP and INFP strong Ti?
  4. I'm getting 100% RDI of magnesium bur I will try supplementing it. Any idea of which form to take? I see there are many different kinds. Does it happen to you everytime/did it go away at some point? I just googled high potassium foods and picked a few of the ones that popped up and tried eating more of them. As far as electrolyte dosing, do you have any recommendations of good ones? Should I take potassium/magnesium separately or is there some good electrolyte blend/drink/pill that has it all?
  5. Thanks, I will try a 3X/week whole body compound movement only style program like the one you posted and see if things improves! I'm going to check the channel out as well, looks like useful information.
  6. I've been working out since february but it was mostly getting technique down, I was not pushing it or making a lot of progress. It's just recently that I'm feeling confident in e.g. the deadlift and adding on some weight. I also came back recently from a 2 month break because first I injured my hand and then I suffered chest pains that were from heartburn but it freaked me out so I didnt excercise for a while. So I lost some significant gains. Maybe it's the fact that my body is not used to it and I'm pushing it too hard. I will reduce my workload and see if things improve. Atm I'm doing a push pull legs split and working out 5-6 times per week + 2 days running and yoga in the mornings. Maybe I'm just overdoing it lmao.. Maybe I should swap to full body and do it 2 times per week or something til my body adapts. A weird things though is I'm not getting much DOMS/soreness. It's just the spasming & twitching. And occasional fatigue.. weird.
  7. Sing together with me now.. clap your hands! it wasn't the nails that held him to the cross, it was love
  8. Mostly Skype with irl friends. But used MSN a lot for chatting with online friends ..
  9. I was playing electric bass, teaching myself to play slap bass. I wanted to become the next Flea of the Red Hot Chili Peppers or be the next bass player in Jamiroquai lol. I had just discovered my love for funk music and was mindblown about the difference of listening to music with eyes open vs eyes closed. I realized I could watch a concert on YouTube, close my eyes and feel like I was there. I watched a lot of concerts like this and it was like being high on a drug to me. I was playing RuneScape a lot as well. I had a lvl 3 skiller account and was hanging out with some 30+ year old danish people in-game who had a clan and they were kind enough to help me out with quests and stuff that was difficult because of my level. One of them who helped me the most was called 'Bukkebruse' and if you ever see this please contact me u absolute legend! He would come to my location and supply me with items I needed when I was stuck on a quest, he was a good guy. His girlfriend Lotte65 also helped me out, they were the minority of honest people on RuneScape, there were many scammers there. I got scammed many times and learned to not trust anyone. I would also voice chat a lot with some of my childhood friends. I was also hosting a small RuneScape private server and I met a guy I'm still friends with today on that server. I learned some basic java coding there. I was making videos on how to improve and fix your computer and had a YouTube channel. I was also watching A LOT of YouTube. I was also playing a bunch of random flash games online alone and with friends. I also had gaming sessions with my friends 1 on 1 where we would meet at one of our houses and play some game for hours, like Rayman, Ratchet & Clank, Sitting Ducks, Age of Mythology and more. Man those were some good times.
  10. A year ago I worked on the audio for an indie film project directed by a friend of one of my childhood friends. We met through a party and he was very socially skilled irl and managed to convince me to work on his project for free(they had a very low budget and didn't make any money, the project was pretty much just for experience). At the end of the work period he became very intrusive and stressed me out big time. He was calling me 10-20 times and wanting to meet up irl all the time while I was trying to isolate myself to get into creative mode and do my job which was to do the audio for the film. In the middle of me pouring my soul out to do the job well he threatened to end our collaberation, after me having put down 100+ hours into the movie and saving the movie from being absolute trash, as the audio was poorly recorded and I had to do a lot of audio recovery and tiresome editing to save its face. I also made a lot of creative impact on the movie which practically pieced the movie together from being an absolute mess. A month after the project was finally over I swore to myself I will not work with this guy again but one day I had to meet with him again because I was going to meet up with my childhood friend and eat dinner and he brought the director guy along. The guy got me into a situation where I was 1 on 1 with him and he tried to pursue me to work for him again and make a soundtrack for his movie for free because he had music that was copyrighted in his movie and now he wanted to release his movie which he could not do and he did not have the budget to pay for copyrights to the music he had used. I refused because I recalled that I had sworn to myself not to work with him again, he had caused me a lot of anxiety, stress, and even made me self concious is a bad way and a bit paranoid. For example one time he and his friends turned up to my place at 3 Am in the middle of the night without messaging me or calling me or anything and they basically invited themselves over to my place. I was lying half asleep when my door bell was ringing and not only once, but literally spam ringing. I almost panicked because I thought it was the police or something because I was a heavy weed user at the time and it's not legal in my country. But no, it was the director guy and his friends wanting to hang out. Spontaneous things like this stressed me out when working with him and made me feel like I didn't have a safe space or privacy to be with myself. He constantly wanted to hangout and we hung out almost everyday of the week while I was doing the hard labour and carrying him on my back. Anyways, I refused to do the soundtrack for hte movie and he insulted me and called me lazy. I told him that's bullshit and reminded him I did a lot of work for him for free and I also have other obligations to meet in my life. We didn't talk since then, until this week. Now he has contacted me again. Calling me 10-15 times and typing "hahaha have u blocked me?". I got a bit paranoid because I don't feel comfortable with this guy. He uses others for his own gain and he has little to contribute with himself. In my mind he is downright abusive. I called him back once so far and told him I didn't block him. He wanted my feedback on a job application he had made for a game studio. I gave him some quick feedback and now he wants to meet for dinner. Frankly I really don't want to meet him for dinner but at the same time I'm stuck in an annoying position because he's friends with my childhood friend and his other friends and I like those people and want to remain in contact with them. Do you have any tips on how I can deal with this situation properly? It is giving me a lot of anxiety and stressing me out for no reason, while I'm otherwise in a good place in my life and loving almost every day.
  11. I think I would describe the taste like old lab grown blueberries, 6/10 rating. But they look very cool, they have that kiwi flair going on on the inside.
  12. Have you tried kiwi berries? 1. Mango 2. Cantaloupe melon 3. Cherries 4. Kiwi 5. Strawberries
  13. Interesting, I didn't know that. Luckily I've never used it for long periods of time in a row or regularly at all. I wonder how Steve-O is doing considering that he did copious amounts of nitrous for extended periods of time.. hopefully he is alright. Thanks for the info!
  14. Nitrous Oxide alone won't be very useful in my experience, but you could try it just a couple of times just to get a feeling for what it does by itself, You could get a very short ego death but to get it consistently you'd really have to push it dose-wise to go deep and that would potentially be very dangerous(asphyxiation). But when you combine it with any psychedelic, even weed, it potentiates it to an extreme degree. To this day nitrous oxide + weed is one of the deepest trip experiences I've had. If you want a taste of it you could do 1 balloon of nitrous oxide while being mildly high on weed or on a very low dose of LSD. If you want to go really deep you could do it on a normal LSD dose or do 1-2 balloons while being really high on weed. I think it's worth mentioning it can be very intense, but it comes on very fast, like getting punched in the face by Mike Tyson. As for breathing technique I've seen some different people using some different techniques. At first I did breathe in & out of balloon repeatedly like many people seem to do but after some research it seems like that isn't actually the safest way to do it. The safest I've found so far seems to be to breathe in and out a couple of deep breaths of air fiirst and then to inhale the entire balloon in one big breath and hold it in for about 30 seconds or so and then release and let breathing return to normal. If you want to go deeper you can breath in another balloon after having a couple of breaths of air inbetween. Breathing in and out of the balloon repeatedly appearently doesn't make you higher on nitrous oxide like a lot of people seem to think but rather it just gets you more oxygen deprivated. Too many balloons could be dangerous. And there seems to be risks associated with inhaling it directly from dispenser, like freezing the lips or throat/lungs. Another thing worth mentioning is it depletes vitamin B12 so taking vitamin B12 the following days could be a good idea.
  15. Really appreciated this video, helpful stuff!
  16. Carl-Richard vs Thisintegrated is the David vs Goliath of our time
  17. Anyone else watched this movie? Recently watched it and found it to be a very beautiful movie. Very poetic and beautiful film that I'd highly recommend! Honorable mentions: Unbreakable (2000), also a really awesome movie
  18. @Tyler Robinson @The Mystical Man @UpperMaster Thank you all for your responses it was just the perspectives I needed. For now I'm going to avoid meeting up with him and I'm going to cut any online conversations with him as short as I can. I'm going to ignore his calls. He has already wronged me too many times for me to tolerate him if he doesn't straight up apologize. I don't want to block him just yet, because I believe people can change. However, I recently found out he's been getting on the bad side of my childhood friend as of lately as well. So it seems the universe might be taking care of my childhood friend situation since it seems like they're not hanging out so much anymore. It seems it's not only me having trouble with this guy.
  19. SUCH a good book!!! Awesome cover! Mine is not as cool, I'll have to get a cooler edition at some point lol
  20. He seems controlling, and or paranoid, and or manipulative, and or a psychopath. Be careful.
  21. I think this is very interesting. I have experienced how on multiple occasions in my own life my own development was accelerated shortly after experiencing an intense event such as having a conflict with my parents and crying, or during some death anxiety that surfaced during my recent problems with chest pain. Thinking back on traumatic events years later can be insightful but the fresher the experience is, the easier it seems to be to access insight that translates into life transformation, wether that is by making progress in the material realm or by changing the outlook on life itself, or both.