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Swap to creatine monohydrate, tastes like nothing If you mix it with water.

Looks fine to me. Maybe their Vganics product is the best from a health perspective. Although all their powders seem to be heavy metal tested which is the most important thing. Maybe dive a bit deeper into looking at their testing reports to make sure it all looks good. High heavy metal levels was found to be more common in vegan powders than in non vegan ones. Now, when it comes to vegan powders there are some pros and cons for the different kinds. The best tasting vegan protein is going to be soy isolate. But that's also the unhealthiest kind. Pea & rice or pea, rice & hemp protein combos are as good as soy protein quality wise but never seem to mix as well nor taste as good. So there's a trade off there. However, pea & rice combo proteins seem to be a lot gentler on the stomach than soy or animal based powders(whey being the worst on the stomach).

Talent is overrated

A couple of weeks ago I had a crazy synchronicity that just proved to me once again that life just can't be random and it gave me more motivation to further intensify my investigation of what the heck actually is going on here ... I was at a friends place to meet another friend that has moved to another city to study music and he was back in town for a couple of days to meet up with some friends(me being one of them). We both share a deep passion for music. When the night was nearing its end and we were walking home from our friends place we were doing an ear training exercise together where one person says a specific musical interval(two notes with a difference in pitch between them is called an interval in music theory), and the other person sings the two notes that makes up said interval to see if one is able to recall what the specific interval asked for sounds like by ear. We were saying(and singing) a few different intervals to each other, both of us succeeding at recalling certain intervals as well as failing to recall other ones. The last interval we did before stopping our little game and parting ways was me asking my friend to sing an interval known as a major 6th. He succeeded to do so and I could hear what he sung was correct, not because I really recalled what that interval sounded like myself, but because a song came to mind that I used to play on piano in high school, a jazz song called "Days Of Wine And Roses". That song starts with a major 6th interval and so I recalled how the interval he sung sounded because it sounded like the first notes of the song I used to play. I hadn't thought of that song for many years and figured I should listen to it once I get home. Noteworthy is that I didn't play piano in high school other than a couple of songs(Days Of Wine And Roses being one of them), my main instrument was bass. My friend only plays piano, he studies classical piano but has never played any jazz piano himself. We part ways and I go home to my apartment. When I'm at home at my apartment I am thinking of Days Of Wine And Roses. I'm about to go search for it on Spotify to listen to it. Then I recall, Better Call Sauls final season is out. I had completely forgot about it and was excited to watch the first episode. I close Spotify and open Netflix to start watching episode 1. I see the name of the first episode: "Wine and Roses". That's a funny synchronicity I thought to myself. I press play. Music starts playing, wait a minute... it's Days Of Wine And Roses!! The intro song to the final season is freaking Days Of Wine And Roses!! I had to pause the episode to just take in the absurdity of it all. WTF?! LOL Rewind a couple of weeks earlier, the same friend had just finished watching the TV Series Breaking Bad, which I told him he should watch. He loved it. We were chatting about it back then and I told him he should watch Better Call Saul(The Breaking Bad prequel) next because he in particular loved the character that's the main character of that show. He said he will make sure to do so. I thought this was interesting to bring up, because me and my friend both share the domains of music and the breaking bad universe in our lives. But the blindspots of said shared domains(he has not seen Better Call Saul, has not listened Days Of Wine And Roses or jazz music in general)… seems like a funny coincidence. Thinking about this a couple of weeks later, I'm still speechless, WTF is this? LOL

What do you think of Rupert Spira? He proposed a lot of self-inquiry as "the soultion" as far as I am aware. Does his teachings lead to God-realization?

Thank you for your guidance here, very helpful. Do you know any good books on this topic? Joe Diszpenza? I just had what I believe might be a manifestation today. Nothing huge but I was waiting on a package to be delivered by the postman. The postman always comes by around 12-13 pm here, if he doesn't arrive at this time he basically never arrives that day. He didn't arrive within this time today. And then I sat on my bed and sorts of prayed(I still have no idea how manifestation works, I'm just experimenting myself). I said "Please God make the postman still come today, show me a sign" and repeated this in my head a few times. Then I let go of thoughts and became conscious of my inner body. Then I let thoughts like "I know manifestation is real and this would make me believe it even more", "The postman is still going to come simmer in my mind, feeling excited about how cool it would be if the postman still arrived. I imagined he was here right about now, like it was no big ting and and easy thing to make happen. I was doing this all for about 10 minutes total. Then low and behold, within an hour the postman arrived with my package. This doesn't really prove manifestation I guess since there's still a low probability the postman just arrived here late on randomness. But i can't recall the last time that happened probably once 5-6 months ago or so. So it's enough to make me even more convinced. Can I read about your manifestations somewhere, do you have a thread/post about it? Sounds reasonable. Do you know if manifestation comes with realizing you're God? I have not fully realized this yet.

@Matthew85 So in some sense I even manifested manifestation itself into my life? I didn't believe in it at first and had thoughts like "manifestation is absolute bullshit" but then started thinking things like "What if it's actually real, I can't really know for sure" as I started becoming more openminded. I then stopped manifesting a reality in which manifestation is absolutely not real. And started manifesting a reality in which there is a possibility of manifestation being real? Then since manifestation is suddenly a possibility, sooner or later synchronicities and manifestations start occurring. When I had experienced it enough times, I started to believe it was real based on my direct experience. Then I started thinking it is for sure is real, and so manifestation being 100% real manifests into my reality?

Very interesting! I think you're onto something... Manifestations are happening all the time and I'm just missing it because as you said, usually things happen so far apart that I don't even remember the fact that I manifested it into existence with my thoughts earlier? How incredible really... I remember a few years ago when I first started looking into spirituality and I read about manifestation and thought it was just some new age bullshit.. I would read someone say life is a dream and think of it as a metaphor, not literally. It's hard to believe that I'm sitting here now a couple of years later contemplating how the heck manifestation etc. actually works, because there's not any doubt in my mind anymore that it's real. I have had a few synchronicities that I'm aware of before, but nothing hit me as hard as this one. I'm going to research this a lot in the near future, it is super interesting to me, a sort of mindfuck of all mindfucks

Yes, the human "Someone here" is very small and fragile. He makes poor judged decisions all the time just like all humans(just like me as Asayake constantly fucks things up and makes mistakes), sin as they call it in Christianity. It's nothing to beat ourselves up over since it is simply put human nature. But our sins can weigh on us like heavy baggage, which causes us suffering. We carry the baggage of our sins with us everywhere we go(just like Jesus carried the cross to his death, Jesus was God in his human form). But in the Now is where you stop being the human "Someone here" and your deeper self is revealed. The baggage of sins we carry with us exists only in our thoughts(past & future). Our sins cause us suffering right now only because we think about the mistakes we made in our past and it feeds into negative emotions of shame, guilt, despair, meaninglessness etc. We are afraid of making mistakes again in the future and so think thoughts about everything that can go wrong in the future. But the future & past doesn't really exist. It's just an illusion created by thought. When you feel your breath and body you are free from your thoughts, freed from your sins by God. Try to notice how there really is no problem when you feel your breath, if you keep returning there it will transform you. You will gain clarity and less and less mistakes will happen because the mistakes that happen in the future is just a repetition of mistakes that you made in the past. In the Now no mistakes are made, thing just are as they are, even if something unfortunate happens it's a part of Gods plan. My bet is, when you looked out over the city you were in the moment, the Now. That's why it was one of the happiest mornings you've had in a long time. A deeper knowing of yourself which transcends thought was felt right then and there while you were watching the city. The moment was pure even if you had feelings of meaninglessness or being small, those feelings are actually healing in the Now, it's just that our mind is scared of them and wants to escape them because feeling those feelings ultimately leads us back to who we truly are and kills the illusion of the ego.

Just a perspective man, feel your breath & inner body. No thoughts about how being a man is doomed there, is there? Keep returning to your breath and feelings of your body, that's the feeling of life, be with those feelings and let go of the thoughts, they don't serve you.

Well put. I agree with everything you wrote completely.

Go deep in a genre you like. Try to learn from it, figure out how to recreate the sound that define that genre. Figure out which plugins people use in that genre and try different ones to find ones you like. Let's say you like deep house. Learn how to create a deep house style kick, how to create a deep house style drum groove. How to build a deep house chord progression and try to put an entire deep house track together. Repeat and make a few deep house tracks. After that you can dive into an other genre, let's say Chicago house. You do the same process, learn how to create those kind of sounds. Then when you try to put a track together, you can start mixing elements from different genres you've explored. How would a Chicago house style chord progression work with a deep house drum groove? The more genres you've experimented with the more you can start mixing & matching different sounds from different influences and create something unique. But if you don't dive deep in any genre your musical language and production skill will suffer. This is a very practical approach, but it will produce results. Then when you know how to create tons of sounds and grooves and got a good sense of melody in different styles, eventually you can let go of thinking so much about it and just start creating stuff until you come upon some idea that you fall in love with(this is also a good way to go about it no matter where you're at, but working on your foundation is never a bad idea either).

I am more of a movie guy so here we go, have not seen much anime yet. Movies: Manchester By The Sea(2016), The Red Shoes(1948), The Grand Budapest Hotel(2014), The Killing(1956), Memento(2000), The Truman Show(1998), Arrival(2016), Lost Highway(1997), Eraserhead(1977), 2001: A Space Odyssey(1968), Amélie(2001), Groundhog Day(1993), Reservoir Dogs(1992), The Prestige(2006) TV Shows: Breaking Bad, Twin Peaks

I had a rough ear infection in my left ear 2 years ago. I would try to avoid headphones if you're not doing that already, I think overuse of headphones(10 + hours per day) was what caused the infection in the first place for me, it caused a very damp climate in my ear. I see dislike in the thread for antibiotics. It might be the case that it comes with risks/downsides. But the risks can be reduced if you only take them for 2 weeks(no shorter, no longer) and that is probably what you will be prescribed if you go to the doctor(they will probably let a nurse look at your ear, she will see swelling in your ear canal, send you to the doctor and he will look at your ear too and then prescribe you antibiotics for 2 weeks, is my guess). You can also take a daily probiotic with your food to counteract the gut flora harming properties of antibiotics a bit. Personally my body didn't seem to react negatively to the antibiotics at all(as far as I can tell) and I took daily probiotics with it but I guess it can vary from person to person(I'm not a doctor). If you decide to go for antibiotics you can also make sure to eat proper amounts of fiber rich foods for a period afterwards to give your gut flora something to eat. I was really hesitant to take antibiotics and tried using garlic cloves(which only burned like hell) but it helped me nothing. But I have not tried garlic extract so I don't know how well that works. But when I started losing my hearing on the ear and liquid was leaking out of my ear at night I decided I had to give it a shot for the fear of permanently losing my hearing on the ear(which would be detrimental for me because I work with audio). I understand if you don't want to do antibiotics, but it might be worth a shot if it doesn't get better soon. However, it is possible you have a viral infection, in which case I don't think antibiotics will help. So it's tricky... It's a bit easier when you have infection on only one ear because then it is more likely to be a bacterial infection.

Really cool & interesting film. Watched this a couple of years back with a few friends. Will have to rewatch :).

Franz Schubert - Piano Sonata no.18 D894 Favourite rendition: Andreas Staier

These are limiting beliefs you need to let go of. Realize they're just thoughts and not some absolute truth, otherwise prove it. Become aware of thoughts like this and realize they don't describe you but limit your potential greatly, your potential is greater than you think it is. Thoughts like this is your ego resisting change to solidify your identity as a black pilled individual. All that has happened is that you've had some negative experiences to confirm these thoughts as true for yourself with. Read Eckhart Tolle, it is powerful as heck. You can use techniques from his books(especially The Power of Now) to become more aware of your limiting beliefs and let them go for good. Then you will not act like they are true, you will go out there in the world again and when you least expect it you'll have a positive experience with a girl that solidifies the absolute fact that those thoughts you had were in fact just limiting beliefs. You remind me of my mother, all her life she told me she was not a creative person, and it made her never even attempt to practice an instrument. People believe they have no talent in something because they didn't get good results yet and so they don't practice. People who are good at things practice a lot to become good. Believing you're not good at something makes you believe practice/even trying at all is not worth it and so you will not become good and then your reality will seem to confirm your thoughts to be true. But they're NOT!

I'm interested in knowing this too. I have not done it, was thinking about doing it but then didn't do it. I would assume domestic flight is less risky and LSD is one of the easiest substances to smuggle. Ideas that comes to mind is placing the tab in a package of band-aids or inside of a book, I highly doubt that would be detectable. But I was still too paranoid about it to do it myself the last time i travelled..

This is just another thought that pops up from time to time when meditating. Realize this thought is just like any other object that appears in meditation, it's just another thought. Just be aware of thoughts when they arise and let go of them when they pass on, like clouds fleeting on a sky(the sky being you, the thoughts come and go but you're always here). I think this is a sign of progress yes. When I first started meditating for example I would feel itchiness or tingling in random places on my body, after a period of meditation, that stopped, and I became aware of some tension in my back for awhile instead. After a while that also stopped and I became aware of some energy in my third eye chakra instead. About one year ago when I meditated on LSD I had fractals appear in my visual field. They came back every time I meditated for a few months afterwards. At first I was worried about this and thought I had done something wrong and I was scared I might have injured myself. But now I realize they were just another appearance in meditation and all appearances move on sooner or later and will all teach you something about yourself that transcends thoughts. All sensations, thoughts, feelings, visions that appear will pass on sooner or later and eventually you will become conscious of a new appearance. You don't need to think too much about it or what it means but you can just let the pulsing sensation be when it appears, be aware of it and eventually it will pass on and some other sensation will arise. You can view it like getting to know a part of yourself you didn't know before, it's on a temporary visit to be accepted by you(which happens just by you being aware of it when it appears) and when it is fully accepted it will dissolve and leave space for something else to appear. For example when something like anxiety or frustration arises, it can be viewed as suppressed emotion in ourselves that we didn't let ourselves feel before because we escaped into our thoughts or distracted ourselves with activies when it wanted to arise. There's no need to think too much about whether you're accepting or resisting, because just being conscious of what is is actually what accepting is.

Very interesting thread. This is something I became acutely aware of last summer when I was stuck in a perspective of meaninglessness and slight depression. Everything appeared as meaningless and pale to me and I had thought my way to the conclusion that it was the truth and that it was ultimately a curse that can't be unrealized. From my point of view any pleasure/fun activity or any achievement was absolutely pointless and not worth to pursue because it wouldn't last forever. And when the fun at last goes away what's left is despair and suffering, the loss of pleasure, an at first seemingly unescapable and horrible duality. That's how I believed the world to be and so the world became. Also the world became very "intrusive" feeling, like everything was hostile towards me. If I would order food to my apartment the delivery guy always looked like he was in a super bad mood or angry at me for no apparent reason at all. Every human I met looked like they were suffering chronic depression and were on the brink of suicide from my perspective and it sucked the soul out of me. I was also becoming aware of insane aspects of a close friend to me, thinking everyone might just be delusional after all(he is completely normal by most peoples standards), not realizing that's just a dimension of who he is, who everyone is, but not the full picture. I took up meditation daily to try to increase my concentration to stop doing pleasurable things like masturbation because I believed they were pleasurable and hence would cause me unnecessary suffering, which they then ended up doing. I suffered after masturbating. I couldn't quit smoking weed because I believed quitting weed was difficult and that i would suffer and so I did. etc. etc. Then after about 1 month of meditation(and also some LSD microdosing) a shift in reality started to happen. I did not gain that much concentration or any of the benefits I first expected to gain from meditation, but I stopped judging reality and started to let it present itself how it wanted to be and was becoming more accepting of what is. Now when I ordered food to my apartment, all of a sudden the food delivery guy was looking like the most wholesome dude on the planet. Because meditation helped me stop experiencing reality through my depressing perspective of meaninglessness. I no longer had thoughts like "I hope the delivery guy won't be in a bad mood again and make me feel bad", thoughts like this would give me anxiety to even go out to pickup food. But I just accepted him as he was, and for a while every single food delivery guy was in a good mood all of a sudden and that was rubbing off on me, a complete 180 degree shift from my previous experience a couple of weeks earlier. That's when something clicked in me and I realized reality is not as I thought it was. I finally popped out of the perspective of meaninglessness and became conscious of the fact that it was not any truth at all but just one perspective of many and that no single perspective is absolutely true. And that is of course just another perspective .. The rabbit hole goes deep... The biggest shift for me personally was recently when I read The Power of Now. I started to be able to let go of thoughts whenever I want by focusing my awareness on my breath and sensations of my body and in that way I could let go of a lot of limiting beliefs and negative perspectives a lot more easily than I could before. For example I could suddenly quit my weed smoking habit without any withdrawal because I could just let go of craving thoughts. Turns out quitting weed is not as difficult as I first believed it to be. Quitting weed being difficult is just another way reality appears to be that is not absolutely true, just like the food delivery guy wasn't really angry at me after all, it was just that I made it that way without yet being conscious of it.

LSD has way less mindfuck for me than mushrooms. Although, there's still some mindfuckery for sure . You can't remove the mindfuck component completely without removing the essence of what makes psychedelics useful. The deep confusion about what's actually going on drives you to realize your true nature.

@RickyFitts That's well put indeed. His playing grabs my attention fully, it certainly has something magical about it, he's got a lot of soul and it spills over to the listener. Beautiful song, I had not heard it before even though I think I've seen the Time performance from the same concert. I will have to watch the whole concert..

Thank you for reminding me, I had forgotten about this masterpiece. My sister and I used to play it as kids. That game really came alive with the fantasy I had back then

@Akashic YES! It's very difficult to pick my favorite song of all time.. but Time might be it for me too. I listened to The Dark Side Of The Moon for the first time ever on LSD 2 years ago. I can't believe I had not listened to it before then because music is a big part of my life and I've listened to a lot of music in a lot of genres but somehow Pink Floyd had managed to fly under my radar, even though I knew they had a lot of hype. That was until I took LSD one day and randomly got the idea I should see what all the fuss is about. Mind BLOWN!!! When the guitar solo of Time kicked in I could not believe what was happening, it was like the music was purifying my soul. I had no expectations of what that album would be like at all and had no idea there would even be a guitar solo in it at all and didn't see it coming at all until it happened. I had a musical/spiritual/emotional/life climax right then and there. It was so beautiful I thought to myself life can never be better than it was right then and there. I often listen to the dark side of the moon when tripping still. It just goes deeper and deeper and shows new dimensions of itself every time, it's like a religious experience for me that I keep coming back to. MASTERPIECE! But since you already posted it I'm going with this(even though it's an album and not a song but in my opinion it's like one long song since the parts go together in one piece, and just posting one of the songs from this album would not do it justice since it's best heard in its full context): This is another one that is like a religious experience for me.