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I mean just as I can't survive and be happy without food, maybe I'm a social animal and can't be happy without a social circle. When I am by myself and don't share with anyone my day, my thoughts, my emotions, and struggles, I tend to feel lonely, heavy, not cheerful and happy, and excited as I tend to be when I share these things with other people. should I treat the negative emotions that come up as something to face and transcend, as If I will do it enough I will become free of them and then will become happy, excited, and cheerful by myself, without being dependant on other people. or no matter how much I face these emotions, they just reflect basic human needs that I gotta give to myself to be happy and they will stay with me until they are satisfied. I think I'm introverted. I have a twin brother and we were quite dependent on each other as kids but since age 14 I started to become independent and be by myself.

@Lews Therin Onenote newest version works well for me

Wow, what a Journey. I am sorry that you went through all these hard experiences. And I'm happy For the Beautiful awakenings. Sending you lots of love!

What is the name of the game are you playing right now? and on what difficulty? I'm playing "turquoise coaching simulator" (or at least I want to believe I'm doing so ?) on medium difficulty.

@bensenbiz sounds fun @Gesundheit Jesus lower the difficulty a bit Sounds like an MMO with too much grind.

Anyone experienced with it? Basically you sit for an hour in Pitch black room (if you wave your hand in front of your eyes you can't see them), you keep your eyes open, and you don't move. I recommend doing Strong Determination sittings with Do nothing and Darkness. notes: better to do it at night when it's dark outside, and earliest possible after sunset (as the "Freshness" of the darkness play a part in the practice ).

One way to see it - in order to live this human life and experience life to it's fullest, you've got to believe in separateness and others - to believe that you mom and dad exist, that people around you exist. so others existing is a strong survival mechanism. It means you have a strong bias towards other existing. Now when you search for the truth and discover that only you exist, this mechanism activates itself and you feel the terror. But the truth is that you are no longer a child, and this mechanism doesn't serve you anymore, and you can live your life happily without believing others exist. My current solution to the "problem" is to see that It mattes less what truth you discover or what happens to you, it's much more about how you react to it. who I want to be towards the discovery that Only I exist? I replace the Automatic mechanism of Fear, judgment and resistance to curiosity and acceptance. Instead of Identifying with the thoughts "It can't be! oh no! I want others to exist!" I think "wow how it's possible? what does it mean? why it's like that?" and then instead of fear, I feel mystery, awe and amazement.

The Life and coaching philosophy that I believe in is that whatever you have right now in your life is exactly what you want. If you don't agree with that, it's because there are unconscious parts of yourself that you don't know. so the way to to get what you think you want is to discover these parts and heal them. the way to do this is through therapy / Shadow work/ Contemplation / "Being level" coaching.

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https://www.youtube.com/c/JosephRodrigues I really like his stuff, it's mostly about entrepreneurship and business from a spiritual perspective. I'm having trouble mapping him on the spiral. I think he's mostly turquoise. Am I biased?

@Etherial Cat yo Etherial, it's makes me happy that you agree with me, I really dig his stuff. I'm devouring his channel and courses the same I was devouring actualized.org before ?

I Think he is yellow - turquoise@hyruga

I like the idea

Sorry to hear. really awful and unlucky experience In your place, I would do everything to process what happened - Talk to friends, family, therapist, journal about it, go back to the memory and say or do anything that wasn't said and done (maybe shouting at them? ) and also talk to myself, supporting myself. Anything to reduce the Trauma so I won't suffer from it later in my life.

@Thorsten Fuzzi I'm glad I could be of assistance Lot's of blessings in your Journey, Will be happy to hear how the journey is unfolding. A nice supplement to the Life Purpose course that helps me make decisions in my life:

I suddenly had that realization that working for someone else is not really different than the middle ages when farmers worked hard to make money for the rich/noble people. Thoughts about that?

@Mikael89 IMO being a victim is a perspective about life that was probably forced upon with your childhood and trauma, But it's a perspective that can be changed, and as an adult it's your responsibility if you want a good life. a mentaly damaged person is not a victim - he can still enjoy life in many way. victim is a resistance to reality. watch the movie "Miracle in Cell No. 7". how I know it can be changed - If you will practice meditation, and start to live in the now - your past won't be relevant anymore, you can choose each moment to act and respond as you want! also if you will practice meditation you will start to be less and less identified with your thoughts, and you will stop believing them, and you will be free to from the thoughts you don't want. 10% is what happens to you, 90% is how you respond. you have the choice to interpret any situation in a positive, empowering way and thus stop suffering and being a victim. Also it's important to say that what you feel and think is valid. I believe that only after some feel understood, that his pains are understood - only after the emotions were processed, he is able to think, to see how to solve the issue. So if you still strong emotions about it I don't think there is a point to logically debate it.

@Thorsten Fuzzi First thing I want to tell you - WOW, you are truly an amazing and noble person. I cherish your high sense of Morality, Empathy, selflessness, and kindness. Second, it sounds like you did a really good job helping and evolving your girlfriend. Although all of her stage red behaviours are hard to stomach, it seems she is a unique person, and has the desire to evolve and can be in the long term a good partner and parent - is this the way you feel about it or not? Third, My experience is that in almost any situation in life, when we are creative, we can find solutions that are win-win. I think it's probable to assume that you could fulfil your Life Purpose while raising your daughter. Example: if your goal is to mediate, You can still meditate, practice mindfulness while taking care of your daughter - it's a different kind of meditation but it will evolve you on the spiritual path (there are entire schools of spirituality the are devoted solely to mindfulness like the 4th way). Of course, you may have to sacrifce things, and it may take you more time to achieve your LF, but it's about the journey, not the destination And if you realize that your LP can't be achieved while raising your daughter - well - parenthood only last for so long, after maybe 14-18 years you will become relatively free again. So you might have to wait for a little while and start your Life Purpose at age 35-40, Which is still pretty young and you will have a Daughter which is amazing Nevertheless, If your heart is telling you to choose to not take part in the parenting - It is a valid option. You didn't choose it! She chose it, and she is 100% responsible if your daughter grows up without her father. you've manipulated, lied and coerced and you need to love yourself first, to support yourself first, to respect yourself first - because if you don't do it, you couldn't do it to your daughter. If you Do it out of resentment - it will be better for your daughter to be raised without you.

@How to be wise sounds very strange to me that a high enough percentage of the girls are willing to CHEAT on their husbands/boyfriends for a job...

I like your stuff! I'm an INFJ (like you?) and Life coach too. About Being an effective communicator - Did you take Joseph Rodrigues "How To Transform Yourself Into An Effective Communicator For Influence Course?" I think it's an awesome course (and super cheap...)

what are the best courses that you took in your life? (online or offline)

much needed Leo, Thanks.

@susanyzm @susanyzm happy to help great, that's a solid affirmation. For me, as mentioned, it helps to see that the inner abuser is not me. it's subconscious thoughts/beliefs that were planted in me in my childhood. I actually see myself as a child and when I noticed them I change them to self love thoughts to that child.

Joseph Rodrigues Subconscious Mind programming course helps me a lot with limiting beliefs. (or even just his free YT videos)

nice thanks