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Actually emptiness itself is equivalent to love. Nothing is something.

You don't realize how deep the self-construction goes... your consciousness has to construct everything in your experience. This includes things like space, time, the external environment, and limitations. There can be no external elements, since it is all one, it all must be ultimately constructed by the same thing. You are not actually seeing a world, you are seeing your own mind. There is nothing behind appearances. Plus, how would your bubble be sovereign without constructing everything? You see, you can't offload any of the construction to some 'other' consciousness, because your consciousness must be constructing everything in order for it to be truly sovereign. The solipsistic realization is that there is only actually the infinite mind appearing as finite, not finite minds co-constructing a reality. Everything you ever experienced has been constructed by your own mind, and it can't come from some outside source outside your consciousness... Because the appearances itself are the thing, nothing comes out from some other place. Plus once you start considering the actual way in which this sort of shared-construction would work, it really makes no sense. How could two people be constructing each other? How could anything be sovereign in that case? The outside world is equivalent to your own consciousness.

Honestly a lot of things, but most of them are related things or different facets of the same truth. Some of the most important ones would be that everything is Love, I am God (alongside everything else), and everything is absolutely one. I consider these three (which are actually the same thing) to be probably the most important insights I have had. There is no oneness without love, and no God without oneness. Most of my other realizations that I have also realized in different ways could actually be derived from this one truth. I could go on and on about different facets like infinity, infinite intelligence, how everything is beautiful, and so on, but I'm going to not going to make a list for now. Another interesting one would be that there is nothing outside of direct experience, and I mean absolutely nothing. Something that I haven't seen much is that consciousness itself is infinite bliss. It is not a neutral thing, but absolutely positive. Just like it is infinitely beautiful, for God, it is also infinitely blissful. A less profound one, but one that is a bit funny, is that you do not really have a head, it is not in your direct experience.

I think it's completely dependent on the people you socialize with, and the content and structure of your conversations. Yes, when you think by yourself all the work is on you and you have to generate everything, but you can always verify what other people are saying, its not like you have to believe them. Personally I talk with only a few people, but we mainly talk about creativity and imagination, god, infinity, all kinds of possibilities, implications of all this, truth, love, and any and all unrelated deep topics. There was actually a period in my life where I talked with nobody at all, and during this time I was still thinking about all the same topics, and my thoughts weren't any more intelligent compared to now that I do some socializing as well. You just have to find the right people. You can still have original thoughts even when socializing.

There are plenty of online Netherlands based stores selling 5-MeO-DMT. It just has to be labelled not for human consumption to be able to be sold.

Nothing is already written, as if decided from the past. It is spontaneously happening in the present moment.

God is playing a very very specific game, and it is definitely not the most engaging game. In a way, engagement is not made to be a very strong quality, so that you will go out and seek very specific things that are engaging to you. If engagement towards anything was too high, you would just stare at that blank wall doing nothing (as you said), since the blank wall would be so engaging. I think God wants to build these very specific stories of being a human, specifically to experience what it is like to be a human. The limitations and struggles don't make this reality any better. It just makes it a certain way, gives it a certain flavor, a certain direction. A reality with different rules, less limitations, could be just as satisfying, if not more, than this one. God wouldn't only limit itself to survival themed dreams, that would be very limiting. There isn't any real absolute reason this is better than any other configuration, like where the one you proposed. Nor is it any worse. It's just a specific type. It's just that God for whatever reason wants to experience this kind of thing. In fact, there are probably myriads of ways you could make a more engaging reality, but that God wanted this kind of reality specifically. Out of all the infinite possibilities God will experience, there is no reason to believe this is the most engaging, most rewarding, nor most satisfying one. If you have nothing else in your frame of reference than this reality, then how are you to know what other possibilities there are, and how good they would be? Assuming this one is the best, because it's your only reference, seems very bizarre to me. This reality is a very specific type of game, and you just either have to find a way to enjoy it or your experience will suck because God doesn't want to do a different kind of game (for now).

Honestly my feeling is that all of them can be very cold or very warm depending on how you surrender to the experience, it is just your ability to get into that expanded state where love is the main thing. Any psychedelic can induce a very cold feeling bad trip, or a very warm loving trip.

Precisely due to that God is free, and there is nothing outside God forcing it to have negative thoughts. As it is it's own source, you cannot blame God as an outside entity outside yourself for your negative thoughts. You are responsible for them, because you are God, and since you are free, you can change them. And it doesn't seem like you're actually awakened to what God is, if you say it is evil, other than holding God as a belief on an intellectual level.

Ah yes, the transcendental 'other' (other being God in this case) that somehow maliciously imposes on you from the outside, it is forcing me to think negatively! I simply cannot change, it is impossible, God is punishing me for this. God's fault! Not mine.

I don't know about the word miracle, but I have personal experience with multiple different phenomena defying normal laws, logic, physics, and functioning of our reality. However I wouldn't take any of it on belief, I guess the only way for one to be truly convinced is to experience some themselves. Eastern spirituality has the concept of siddhis (also riddhis and iddhis), and if you want to see some examples of them, the book "The Autobiography of a Yogi" details multiple different ones, I think at least bi-location, teleportation, materialization, living without eating, some more unique ones, and so on. However the problem with eastern spirituality when it comes to something esoteric like this is that they are riddled with things like karma, reincarnation, and other limiting beliefs. This kind of phenomena can arise naturally in a higher state of consciousness.

Just look at the things people see in all those DMT realms. Logical impossibilities, 4D objects, completely different laws of functioning, impossible geometry and objects, non-existent colors, and so on. Or just consider dreams - many crazy things are already possible in your dreams. Logic itself is a construct within consciousness. It is not fundamental, and God is not restrained by it, and can perfectly well create a dream where the structure of logic is different from what we are familiar with, which would give rise to scenarios we would deem impossible.

As far as my understanding goes, God has an infinite number of dreams all simultaneously in the eternal present moment. However, these dreams are all solipsistic and are not in a shared universe. I don't mean that the people in your current dream are also having their own solipsistic dreams, but that they are mind constructs inside one of the solipsistic dreams. The infinite other dreams are completely their own dreams, not interfering with the dream you are in at all.

This definitely depends on the user, and the intention of the person taking it. I have had many wonderful insights with 2C-B, and none of my experiences have had visuals as the main focus. It is a pretty nice psychedelic overall.

Understanding truth has been the most positive thing of my life. It has been pleasurable, fun, mindblowing, beautiful, and just overall amazing in every way Just surrender to truth, don't let the ego get in the way of the joy of truth.

This is one of my deepest trips I have experienced so far, and it is actually one of my earlier trips. Substance: 200ug LSD and 100mg MDMA This is actually not that high of a dose for me, I usually take much larger doses, but during this trip I was able to let go very deeply which potentiated the trip massively. Report: As this was years ago, I do not remember the comeup, so I will skip to the peak. The peak is starting to set in, I feel this extremely deep need to let go. I am listening to music. I lie down on a couch and I am about close my eyes, but before I do my awareness suddenly goes out of my POV and I am able to see the surroundings of my environment as if from above. I see beyond walls, and it is as if my POV and perspective is at all places at the same time. I begin to dissolve rapidly. There is a sense that I have done this infinitely many times before. I see people walking outside from a very expanded level consciousness, but not through my eyes. I let go even more, and I think at this point there is no more distinction between having my eyes open or closed, it became a meaningless concept, there was just experience. I begin to experientially dissolve all qualities I am familiar with in my experience: sense of I, being in a location, and much more. Experiential qualities like the temperature, external environment, memory, music, time, and everything you consider to be a part of your human experience are absolutely deconstructed away from my experience. What I mean is that these things ceased to exist in my experience, as I was realizing that it had been me all along who had been constructing these things. They were not outside elements, but all created by my mind. It is as if a huge burden is being lifted off from me, all my limitations are falling away. At this point my consciousness zooms out and encompasses a galaxy. I am filled with indescribable deep physical euphoria, ecstacy, bliss, and love. It felt like an orgasm, except it was thousands of times stronger and everywhere. I was feeling this infinitely deep euphoria and love on the scale of a galaxy, not in a body, because I no longer had a body, I had deconstructed it. I was feeling it everywhere where I was - which currently was a galaxy, or something of that scale. My consciousness was filled with nothing but bliss, and was incredibly vast, I cannot even begin to describe this. It should be noted that at this point I had no separate senses left, the only thing in my existence was this spacious bliss, alongside a visual representation of the form that I had become, but rather than seeing the form, I had become all of it. I keep letting go, and as I do, my awareness starts to encompass a whole universe. I was being it, I became it. The bliss becomes even more intense, I cannot in any way relate to this level of love and bliss in my current state. After this, I let go even more and now I see an infinite number of these universes, and become something akin to a multiverse. At this point I feel like full on God. No longer there is any subject and object, only experience itself. There was total Oneness in so many different dimensions. The intelligence, beauty, bliss, and love are indescribable. All of this transition happened very fast. I then let go even more until my form and experience was nothing but something like an infinite number of godheads. Alex Grey's artwork The Net of Being shows a very crude version of a state like this. What I experienced was infinitely more grand. I was not seeing an internal hallucination with my eyes closed of these godheads, at this point I literally did not have eyes in my experience, and instead of seeing anything I was becoming the space of these places itself. The godheads, that I now was, were indescribably intelligent, and each godhead contained within an infinite number of dimensions and universes inside it. They were perfectly one, yet infinite at the same time, and were in total communication with each other. There was nothing left of my human experience, I was full on God. It should be noted that my usual senses did not exist, nor did memory, time, or language. There was just utter peace, bliss, love, intelligence, beauty, and consciousness. There was infinite self knowing. I was in control of everything, yet I did not have to control anything. This was nirvana. I became completely omniscient, omnipotent, and omnipresent. Everything was an infinite fractal, containing everything else in any point of the experience. This state was completely self-sustained and self-generated, the source being me, which was infinite consciousness. There was a infinite beauty, which was reflective in quality, and conveyed the feeling of total awakening. The love was infinitely deep, there was nothing but love. I was absolutely conscious of everything in existence. I stretched infinitely far in all possible dimensions, not only spatial, but in all experiential dimensions that were possible. The creative potential was so vast I could have created trillions fully fledged out dimensions and it wouldn't even come close to the full capacity of this state, but I felt no desire to do anything. I could do anything, and I mean anything at all. Nothing was impossible. The bliss and love at this point are infinite in magnitude, and were I be still in a physical body, the body would literally die from the amount of love and bliss I was experiencing. This state was the source of all creation and my true nature. This unmanifest realm was where I would go when I died. This was what I was before I was born. All of this felt very deeply healing, as if every state I ever experienced as a human was utterly unsatisfactory compared to this, nothing ever came even close to this. I then proceeded to rest in this state for an infinitely long time. For comparison, all of my life up until this point was experientially not even a fraction as long as I was here. A million years would not even come close to how long I was in this blissful state. After I felt like I had become completely and utterly satisfied, I decided I wanted to become a human again. This only happened once I was completely satisfied after spending an infinitely long time in this state. I began to construct a human experience again. I started with making the physical universe, then I started localizing myself into it. I started reconstructing the music, clock time, the physical body, personal memory and other things like this. I consciously went through the process of creating my memories, my life situation, my environment, and could have chosen any form I wanted for myself, but I specifically wanted to be me. I completely desired to be me, and this was the sole reason I constructed myself as I was. I begin to come back, and at this point I once again have a physical human form, but I am still feeling the love and euphoria, though now it is localized to be felt all over my body. I continue to lower my level of consciousness so that I can experience what it is like to be a human, because as long as I am a body it cannot keep this level of consciousness or it would physically disintegrate, so I had to use my intelligence to put limitations on myself. The rest of the trip was then spent enjoying the music, and being in awe of the fact that I was God. This trip permamently changed all of my understanding regarding reality, life, myself, and so much more. It should also be noted that when I say that something was infinite in scale here, it truly was at that scale, and I am not exaggerating one bit regarding the level of love, bliss, and consciousness that I experienced.

The specifics of experience change, but not the fact that everything that happens is always experience. Experience itself does not pass away, only the specific experiences inside the experience. It is still the same experience.

4-AcO-DMT is very similar to mushrooms, it is definitely not as strong as 5-MeO-DMT. There are 5-MeO-DiPT, 5-MeO-MiPT, 5-MeO-DALT, and 5-MeO-MALT, but I don't know how strong they are as I have not tried these. I think at least MALT is strong.

Experience is consciousness, consciousness is absolute truth, so anything you experience is absolute truth. There is no paradox.

Metaphysical truth: Consciousness = God = Love = Truth = Absolute Infinity = Everything and nothing = You

Nice trip report, I think one of the greatest aspects of consciousness is its' fractal nature in infinitely many dimensions.

God is so vast it doesn't need an other, so infinite, it is absolutely in love with itself, there is no way for God to be lonely in such deep love. Furthermore you wouldn't be able to connect with a "true other", because all connection is actually just self-identity, something shared and mutual, which means there is no real difference between the self and the other, because if there was an "other" there would be nothing in common (if there was they would already be you), thus no way of communicating or connecting. And how could God be lonely with infinite interconnectivity and infinite self-communication? You are just unaware of this, but it does not mean it does not exist. You are confusing a very small subset of God's possible forms (in this case the human) for all the infinite number of different forms and states that God experiences. Even when incarnated as a human God can still connect to a wide array of things, its just that this ability is very limited. But just because the ability to connect in this form is limited, does not mean one should not do it. Maybe focus on the love instead of the suffering.

Well it's true, there isn't anything for God to know, but there is a lot for God to experience and love. I would also not call it artificial, because the raw sensations are as real as it gets, its just that the stories attached to them aren't real. God doesn't fit in either artificial or natural.

I don't think this will happen, because God knows it did not "die", so self set rules for ending the dream are not met, and it is questionable whether you would have absolutely no more attachments left to this realm at all, because even the tiniest desire to be here would pull you back in.

I took MDMA when I was starting to feel the effects of the LSD. There wasn't any fear, MDMA easily takes away any potential fear from trips.