Fearless_Bum

@sir meowski complexity is delicious for the one who suffers ?.

@Wijuu the emotional scale allows one to recognize how you go from Love to Fear/Insecurity. I'd google it, or check out @Nahm 's site as there's a section talking about the scale.

@Wijuu Question the beliefs you hold and keep meditating. Questioning the beliefs you hold is not the same thing as asking questions about how to be free or trying to get it if that makes sense. The emotional scale works, I've confirmed it's no hocus pocus, it's real. Ever heard of it?

@mandyjw it's not a bag, it's the Buddha ?.

@Wijuu trying to get it, is to value "knowing" over Love. Love is foolish and senseless, infinite Love does not, and will never make sense. The trick here is to be in touch with feeling sensation and have the humility to stop trying to know.

Big confession here ?. I find it hard to take interest in people or to continue conversation with others. This is something I want to develop for this machine so I can play with other creators. When I speak to people I mostly listen, the moment they stop feeding me the words I shut off and just stand there lol. I'm only really interested in people vastly wiser than me, not out of arrogance, only that the vast difference in experience/knowledge just gives me that dopamine to be like "I need to know more about you!". This makes it difficult for me to hangout with people my age (twenties), I actually freak out around young people lol, because I think I'm not cool enough to be like them ?. Any ideas to help this bum over here? I'm thinking it's all about building the muscle of being interested in people in general and just asking questions.

@Spiral yea let's have fun! ?

Just keep meditating and letting go of beliefs. This solipsism shit disappears eventually, not a single thought about solipsism arises here anymore. Solipsism always implies that there is only one, which implies a belief in separation. Notice you can only hold the belief you're the only one if you still think you're separate from reality. In raw direct experience, there isn't even one being, there's just reality/infinity and that's it, any concerns about how other people are you or about you being the only one are just more thoughts to let go of.

Ego isn't a person really, rather it's a misunderstanding that leads to a feeling of dense-ness. The thing is that everyone's big bag of misunderstandings is different, so you have to see for yourself what your misunderstandings are. When you investigate the Actual real thing that the word ego points to, you'll inevitably find its a contractive dense feeling in the center of reality, perpetuated by the belief that there is a center to reality.

@somegirl who knows why, let's just be fucked up human beings together ??. @Byun Sean I'll start talking about myself, let's do it!

@SamC true, I guess I'm fine then ?.

@SamC hey buddy ?, let's not fall into any deeper thought stories of somehow being given the short end of the stick, we got this! ? I would rather propose the question: is there any way, a "higher" way to love every single being in your presence without the conventional methods of hugs and kisses? Why does one have to talk exchange knowledge with others? Can one be like a dying dried up leaf full of love? I'm contemplating this rn ?.

@SamC @ZenRising thanks for the responses guys ?. So the muscles where it's at huh. Yep, even when I respond to people I come off as sarcastic or that I don't care, it's just that lack of dopamine, I swear I'm not a sociopath ?.

We could've continued making spaghetti jokes, but you guys want war instead ?.

@BenG parmasean cheese works wonders.

@Someone here yes, no one knows actually, don't let anyone fool you. As any near death experience is well...near death...and not actually death. But once the psychological death occurs, there's not much interest in asking about physical decay.

@Someone here when it comes to the physical process, I really don't know. Maybe contemplating whether your body is actually alive or dead right this moment can help bring clarity. When it comes to the psychological you, relaxation and constant humbling by infinity and the world (Spoiler alert: they're the same ?).

@Someone here I actually went to a funeral recently and saw the dead body of a family member, she didn't look very afraid or tense ?. The "how do you know" is asked by the one who is afraid, it wants to make sure it'll be safe, you just gotta jump in. The more you jump into the fundamental fear the more infinity will melt "you" away. For some this has happened instantly and for others (this one right here ?) it's gradual.

@Someone here just to add a little Insight along with what @Raptorsin7 said: Consider that death is the ultimate relaxation and that fear is a response to keep "you" here, hence why you tense up.

@blankisomeone Id say that every ideology whether a the material or spiritual one, is attempting to do the same thing. So if you can investigate for yourself and see that its all the same game, then the whole thing becomes laughable.

If you hate materialists, then what position are you holding which causes this reactiveness? Im assuming youre a spiritualist?

It's just fear ?. It's always been fear,not your parents your country, situation, etc. Just fear. Contemplate: What is fear? How does fear come into existence? How does fear maintain itself?

@BipolarGrowth synchronicity is cool ?.

Hello all, I've been processing this realization for the past 3 days and it's been a hell of a ride. To start off 3 days ago: There was a depression in the body and much sadness, I was contemplating the nature of thought further and began to break ground when I noticed that thought goes in circles yet can never actually be in the circle it creates if that makes sense. Suddenly It was realized that thought is infinity and its a strange loop with no center. No joke, I was borderline manic for 2 hours. Directly realizing infinity (sober btw) was so shocking and empowering I was like "this changes everything!". Infinity is like an orb of nothingness that cannot be touched by the world yet the world is actually what creates the orb of nothingness therefore emptiness and fullness are the same, and there is no orb or world. Infinity is not a quantitative thing, it's just infinite and complete and empty. For the past three days I've just been melting into this infinity. I see the chaotic energy of life, traffic, anger, pain, love, awesomeness and it's all infinity. Also came to the realization completely that there really is no body. Before there was the misunderstanding that there is a static body moving in the world, now there is no body. It is clear that no one goes anywhere, and that movement is an appearance so it's almost like a side scrolling video game where the character stays in the center at all times and doesn't actually go anywhere. This will be difficult to point to but it's like the body is always being manifested of itself right now this precise second, so there is no body as in a static being, it is always being manifested. Hard to point to because saying it's always manifested now still implies time. The quote "Wherever you are, there you are." makes sense now. (Not even sure if that's a quote or if I made it up lol). Just wanted to share ?.

@softlyblossoming it's definitely nice ?. Weird as fuck as really I as in this person hasn't changed at all, rather the truth is just there. @Seraphim please do! Infinity is totally possible to realize sober, just takes some digging.