This is a question for anyone who has directly experienced God / infinity / Infinite Love, outpouring.
There are moments when I almost remember... when I can almost taste the ineffable weight, the unspeakable scale and majesty of the thing, and it takes my breath away. I might be in the middle of some humdrum activity, and then it hits me. The light of God enters, fleetingly, through a fissure in my mind. I feel its incomprehensible vastness. I feel it physically in my heart as a cocktail of dread, awe and revelation. And then it is gone.
So, some questions: Does this sound familiar? How does it progress? Does it become more frequent or less frequent?
Does it get easier?
As I understand it: On the relative level, there is no "free will". Events happen and thoughts occur. It is not about choice. "Embodiment" either happens or does not happen. Granted, in a body/mind vehicle that has had the gift of enlightenment, there is probably more chance that some reasonable degree of embodiment also takes place. But it is not a guarantee.