halfknots

Hello friends, this is my first time in the forum. Some history: - 33 year old male, Los Angeles - First used psychedelics (LSD) when I was 16 - Experiences include cannabis, LSD, mescaline, psilocybin, n,n-DMT - Watched my first Actualized video maybe 4 years ago, and have seen every video Leo has put out for the past 2 years, plus many earlier videos - In 2019 I changed my diet, discovered dzogchen, and had many many experiences with n,n-DMT All this is to briefly outline the trajectory which has led to this: my first experience with 5-MeO this coming Wednesday. I am as "prepared" as anyone can be. Prepared to let go, prepared to let it burn, be washed away, blown away, grounded into the earth, however you would like to put it. This is mostly an introduction, but also an AMA if anyone is interested, and I'll come back with a trip report. Glad to be Here.

@ZenSwift @Adamq8 @Sempiternity I didn't emphasize it in my trip report, but there was a sense of deep, deep metaphysical reunion with my dad in this experience. I felt how my character is a interference pattern between my mom's and dad's best qualities. Their coming together "unlocked" the door for me to manifest, and I manifest in order to experience the joy of creation and to remember the truth of our divinity.

I did 5-MeO for the first time last week and did not have even a milliliter of freaked outness. The truth of existence is that it doesn't exist, there is nothing going on except God in it's own completed perfection. You can allow yourself to be like that. The deeper in neutral stillness you can allow yourself to be, the more the trip will go "Oh good, let's keep going" and it just unfolds more, and more, and more. I have some experience with psychedelics and other self actualization modalities, but am by no means even at an intermediate level.

@EmptyVase the psilocybin experience is not unlike the DMT experience, because indeed it is broken down into a form of DMT. Extreme high dose mushrooms can get one very deep indeed, to breakthrough level.

@Federico del pueblo there are similarities; the rapid onset, the hyperbolic folding of the senses into some fractal unity, the rather comfy physical sedation, and the collapse/transcendence of boundary conditions. 5-MeO is much more potent and is less "visually active" as I'm sure you've heard. My experiences on n,n-DMT are atypical, like those that @Leo Gurahas reported, which is to say that I don't generally meet "entities" but rather have my entire sense of self expanded and projected "out" into a kaleidoscope of meaning expressed as impossible geometry and gnosis, in which Awareness recognizes Itself as complete, perfect, and whole. My experiences on 5MeO share that same fundamental message of non-duality, but with the sense of an independent self completely erased, thus allowing the full awesome nature of Self to bloom. With all but the highest doses of n,n there is still a sense of witnessing This. On 5MeO one is being This. I won't go further in this comment. More coming in the trip report.

Haha the collapse of duality includes preparedness/non-preparedness. I'm writing a trip report.

Holy fucking shit.

Convert the freebase into fumarate. Bottoms up.

@SQAAD wherever you are in the world, there are powerful tryptamines available somehow! Hold it gently, and use whatever resources are available safely and ethically.