This seems to be the right answer as far as I can tell. It just doesn't make sense to my finite mind because if what Leo says is true and what I'm experiencing now is all there is, that means that everything that isn't here in this now moment is being excluded for some unknowable reason. Some people would say everything IS here and now but that doesn't seem to be the case in my direct experience. There's a distinction I'm making between something existing in actuality versus something existing in potentiality which Leo would say is imaginary, and I've experienced that distinction break down on psychedelics before, but right now that distinction exists and it seems completely arbitrary why I'm experiencing what I'm experiencing right now instead of something else.