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Yo there is the side of "Satan" if you will now in the comments - or in other words the left hand or reason has emerged - with an opposing point that sex should be satisfied, or I'll become more depressed. I already feel the depressed rage and I continue practising hobbies and making money and what not, but still I could fucking blow up. Which is it guys, society is fucked, or I'm fucked?

@r0ckyreed Dude you tapped into some mysterical conciousness to talk about bees as this is a reoccuring theme in my experience of the Universe - Thank you for your wise words, like many of the other responses there is wisdom shared and worthy for contemplation, and your response for example has definitely further eased my heart. You're right about the culture being toxic, too, and another response said we're still sort of medieval in a technologically adancing society, and someone else was talking about how people are unable to really connect due to continual needing to survive. So I will continue developing my best self and as Jesus says "Worry not about tomorrow" so this will be my practise too, and maybe changing me the world will change too.

Thanks everyone for all your responses, (Many of the responses were real insightful and appreciated) as I've read them and contemplated them often these past few days for intergration ...

@Salvijus Thanks man - I appreciate these alternative perspectives, my own mind while alone stresses different possibiliies but I like what you might be saying about this - I gotta chill a bit more I suppose lol gheeze

@numbersinarow Some people out there like that; may the divine have mercy on their sufferings

@integral Okay, thanks for your response - This is interesting news to consider - Appreciated

If suicidal is a solution then it may end this inner torment - nor do I want to go to therapy - Like my inner world is a raging bull sometimes in a labrynth of complex conceptializing idk if thanks to Acid for example - But if suicide ends this horror film, that might be a solution, right? Seriously, I want an answer to this, and Leo you're the most enlightened intellectual I can reach out to for an answer, as youtube is limited, or even your subsribers too, thanks. Like why don't I just end it, this rage sometimes could do it if with the right means Like once a week I call suicide hotline almost regularly to get it off my chest otherwise I could maybe go mad dude

God you are hot

@at_anchor Reading your words has caused most of us brain damage

@RMQualtrough Hahahaha, his life was way away from any potential to heal I'm personally sitting here wondering how good it must be to no longer exist, I am done, at this moment I would love it all to go away and I simply fade into the background until I no longer exist - For the most part I geniuinely hate life and I cringe at the obstacles I am forced to face

I'm thinking to soon candy flip both ACID and MDMA - Done MDMA in the past and found it quite addictive and dissapointing I'm unable to attain that divine high in mundane daily life - Done plenty of acid, and two days ago micro-dosed which was a fantastic joyous and even life changing experience, had an absolute appreciative blast Just MDMA I'd like permission slips - If I take 3 days in isolation, I should be fine ? Thoughts please - I know people who take it often and they're rarely depleted Like Terrance Mckenna, I take druhs specifically for spiritual evolvement - I avoid alcohol for example due its detremental nature

@JuliusCaesar I have been declining multiple times to a particular person offering this drug - I usually walk away feeling somewhat like I'm missing out, while he's high and actually comes off just as happy as myself having avoided MDMA - Perhaps the comedown exists for select few, although he's taking these drugs often, yet seems just as aware and well as myself who declines

@Jannes No, I don't attend parties or clubs, otherwise social apps nope - I was homeschooled - I've practise LOA since 2015 or 2017, so hopefully eventually life circumstances will turn around so long as I avoid arguing for my limitations

@Ima Freeman I'm quite alike - The first few hours are almost heaven on Earth, then ensues the comedown - Which life feels almost void, empty, hollow - Once these chemicles fall into my lap, I have a difficult time tossing them in the bin and ignoring the potential to feel ecstasy; a sensation I rarely experience out of life as it is mostly boring, work-based, paying bills, fretting over finances, and being a virgin at 25 with a past of immense loneliness I have a friend who is a drug addict, and he wants to eventually excperience heroin - I'm sort of stuck with this best friend who goes all out on drugs; his habits worsen as the years go by - Unsure why Law of Attraction would put myself with this sort of friend, and I wonder if I will make it out in peace

I hate life, especially Law of Attraction - The amount of BS I attract and are unable to change because I'm a subconciously orriented and pre-programmed nhilist and existentialist since before I learned about LOA is detrimental, and my life continue erroding even though I meditate as often as possible and nap as Abraham Hicks suggest - I've watched her videos on repeat since 2015 and this year is 2022 and my life continues going down hill with a side dishe of personal absolute hate If I could choose to abort myself before birth, I would have done - Never would I have consented to this twisted life I am now in the midst of and unable to escape - Absolute boredom, anxiety, dissappointment, sorrow, trauma, and eventual old age, pain, death with hardly any extscy

@Space Yes, you will be replaced and you have likely wasted years - All for what? Years spent with the sweats and deliberate deisre to achieve what? I've studied these topics for myself, and I guarantee you will be replaced - All your artwork will dwindle in comparison to myself typing in a few words to desribe a piece of art I then receive instantaniously Now I will also point out, that your desire to make art is to impress people like myself - I mean, so long as you enjoy this experience of creating your own masterpieces in the quiet sector of your organism living ebnvironment - Does it matter if you die, with the likeliness of people like myself who may never come across your art? So long as you're in the moment EXPERIENCING this expression of art, which AI yet is unaware about, then the time you spend arting has a blessing of infinite and mysterious value - Unless you need to feel validated with likes, followers, fame, success, and so forth before your death or the rise of AI; well you're distracted, therefore wasting your time instead of being a real experiencing human enjoying the evolution of creating art - Perhaps you get the point I'm attempting to expand upon,

@KH2 my room is essentially clean @JoeVolcano idk dude, I doubt reading another self help book will create an ego death which will break the chains of being alive - I genuinely do not look forward to another bs day making zero dollars in this bs world where eventually I will die - Imagine being a farmer when atom bomb dropped, your entire blood line of hard work eliminated - I know you won't give a way a out, nor will the book you recommended, nor will a google search which I've done thousands of times througout the many many years - Instead all there is to do is scroll mindlessly on the internet waiting for the moment I face death, whether a tragedy, self inflicted, a vibrational match to it or old age - I genuinely am incredible bored and zero interest in anything except one thing which is something I won't mention - Other than that I'd go out like Kurt Cobain

How do you know he is missing a gf? Get out of here dude, what are you even talking about? You are literally wasting our time and your time weaving invisible nareatives that have zero evidenxe what so ever, ledgit are you a NPC who's unable to properly articulate a reasonable response? Are you 12? Jesus, go to a different thread about cheezy pick up lines and how many hoes you can conquer every weekend at a night club with drunk gurls who hand out their smelly genitals to any bloke that gives them a moments notice

@Blackhawk excellent response, though another comment quote you received about there being the bad side in irder for there to be happiness I highly disagree - It is like people who say money will not make you happy, but I GUARANTEE being homeless and broke DOES NOT make you any happier than if you were rich, its bs - Same bs applies with needing negatives in order to know hapoiness, because people who say these things first of all HAVE NEVER lived a life of pure happiness without the bad stuff, so what are you talking and teaching about without first hand expeirence, I CALL MASSIVE BS @JoeVolcano idk dude, I doubt reading another self help book will create an ego death which will break the chains of being alive - I genuinely do not look forward to another bs day making zero dollars in this bs world where eventually I will die - Imagine being a farmer when atom bomb dropped, your entire blood line of hard work eliminated - I know you won't give a way a out, nor will the book you recommended, nor will a google search which I've done thousands of times througout the many many years - Instead all there is to do is scroll mindlessly on the internet waiting for the moment I face death, whether a tragedy, self inflicted, a vibrational match to it or old age - I genuinely am incredible bored and zero interest in anything except one thing which is something I won't mention - Other than that I'd go out like Kurt Cobain

@Loba You sound so romantic how you speak of your suicide fantasies

@Carl-Richard no one will help except for themselves, @JoeVolcano idk dude, I doubt reading another self help book will create an ego death which will break the chains of being alive - I genuinely do not look forward to another bs day making zero dollars in this bs world where eventually I will die - Imagine being a farmer when atom bomb dropped, your entire blood line of hard work eliminated - I know you won't give a way a out, nor will the book you recommended, nor will a google search which I've done thousands of times througout the many many years - Instead all there is to do is scroll mindlessly on the internet waiting for the moment I face death, whether a tragedy, self inflicted, a vibrational match to it or old age - I genuinely am incredible bored and zero interest in anything except one thing which is something I won't mention - Other than that I'd go out like Kurt Cobain

@JoeVolcano i hate where I live, I hate people, I hate working my job, I hate being sober, I hate hunger, I hate the weather, I hate emotions, I hate not living up to my expectations, i hate self help, i hate philosophy, i hate dating and women in general, i hate my mother and my family, i hate my country, i hate animals, i hate physics, i hate it all, boring and an absplute waste of struggle, only to eventuay die which is far more easier than the struggle to maintain a roof over my head, prevent pain or injuries or accidents or old age and decay, to struggle maintaining boring relationships, to mainain money, to maintain a healthy diet, to provide food - And it all continuously disappears, and I sit here with my annoying thoughts and emotions which are not creatvie - All absolute bs and I am forced to remain alive and endure this bs scary annoying ugly world of fat useless people with their competitive bs egos @JoeVolcano idk dude, I doubt reading another self help book will create an ego death which will break the chains of being alive - I genuinely do not look forward to another bs day making zero dollars in this bs world where eventually I will die - Imagine being a farmer when atom bomb dropped, your entire blood line of hard work eliminated - I know you won't give a way a out, nor will the book you recommended, nor will a google search which I've done thousands of times througout the many many years - Instead all there is to do is scroll mindlessly on the internet waiting for the moment I face death, whether a tragedy, self inflicted, a vibrational match to it or old age - I genuinely am incredible bored and zero interest in anything except one thing which is something I won't mention - Other than that I'd go out like Kurt Cobain

@JoeVolcano idk dude, I doubt reading another self help book will create an ego death which will break the chains of being alive - I genuinely do not look forward to another bs day making zero dollars in this bs world where eventually I will die - Imagine being a farmer when atom bomb dropped, your entire blood line of hard work eliminated - I know you won't give a way a out, nor will the book you recommended, nor will a google search which I've done thousands of times througout the many many years - Instead all there is to do is scroll mindlessly on the internet waiting for the moment I face death, whether a tragedy, self inflicted, a vibrational match to it or old age - I genuinely am incredible bored and zero interest in anything except one thing which is something I won't mention - Other than that I'd go out like Kurt Cobain