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Fuck it. Might delete later You won’t see me smile in photos 😹

Who exists? Existence exists? But if existence is everything with no border then it is also nothing simultaneously so it’s like it doesn’t exist, to exist means to stick out, if nothing sticks out then nothing exists. So how can you be trapped in infinity if infinity is nothing? Will you be conscious forever? What does it mean to be conscious ? It means there is a self that is conscious, but that self won’t feel like it exists forever it will eventually die. Are you consciousness? But if consciousness is nothing then it’s like nothing exists. Tricky.

Even if your small talk skills were to be bad it’s a chance to practice them and then you could potentially ask for feedback if you get rejected to learn from the experience

Ok that was what I was thinking

No problem you go relax no ill be at home

I don’t really think it’s like getting drunk. While we’re on that topic , I might drink some tonight What is a wafer? Lol my telepathic powers aren’t so strong Ok understood. It’s like Roblox where each one has their character. You’d have to create a character to play Sweden is good we don’t need to pillage🤓 I don’t know how long the game is

That’s a good idea. But I kinda like the “dampening” effect on the psyche that the anti psychotics have. So they’re special in that manner. ”it is at the level of a hard drug” I don’t mind 🤓🤓🤓 I was joking that I saw you in the astral realm with the machine gun . I’ve dreamt about you but I don’t remember much what it was about. I googled mmorpg and yea it’s like many people online at once playing their character as a horse rider . What is “coop” here in Sweden that’s a grocery store 😹but yea I can show you sometime if you want. yea I googled and it’s a Swedish game . That’s cool. The text is in Swedish No the game starts at “moorland”

Problematic objectification of women is a thing that happens, doesn’t mean that all male sexuality or viewing a woman sexually falls under that category. That’s not what I mean at all. You can view a woman in a sexual manner and have sexual desires towards her without dehumanizing her and objectifying her or lacking respect towards her. But these instincts can be shaped or conditioned by the culture we live in, the hypersexual culture, porn etc. So a healthy sexuality can turn unhealthy and toxic due to outside influence. So the instincts can become problematic. But then yea I’d agree with you, you don’t have to act on every impulse . Many men probably have way more sexual urges than they act upon and that can be a healthy restriction. As with other forms of pleasure, we’re not supposed to act on every impulse. The sexual urges might be more “loud” than the need for connection making it seem like they’re more prominent maybe idk im not a man… I just illustrated some examples I don’t mean that’s the only way to look at it. It’s very easy for this topic to become gendered because there is a certain dynamic between men and women, our sexualities can express itself differently I’m not sure if there’s a trend of a certain attitude people who have a lot of casual sex have, it’s probably that they don’t view sex that seriously, but I don’t know if that would spill out into other areas such as the feelings of others.

I’m thankful for all suggestions I’ve seen you there I swear 😳 I’ve been playing it maybe a week or so , so I’m still very much a beginner The tasks vary, but in the beginning they’re very simple, and everything is tied to the storyline of the area, it could be like a horse got lost from its owner so it needs help back, or you need to collect something that they’re gonna use to build something, or you need to ruin some stones that block the way so you can unlock a new area, it really varies but it’s all tasks connected to the storyline. As a beginner I haven’t unlocked all the areas so I can only move around in some parts but as you progress you unlock more areas

I feel the type of person to engage in a lot of casual sex has to have a certain mindset from the get go. Which could be for example like a man with an objectifying view on women, dehumanizing them and viewing them as objects for sexual pleasure. It could be a woman with low self esteem looking for validation wanting to feel desirable through being viewed as fuckable. So these are examples of two types of dysfunction from the get go. Then the large amount of casual sex acts like other forms of hedonism and pleasure seeking, frying the dopamine circuits and making them view sex as less special and becoming potentially desensitized towards it, getting an overly sexualized view of the other sex, or of themselves, or both. I can’t say if a large amount of causal sex is only bad, but there are some potential cons to it. One has to be very self aware and honest with oneself to recognize the damage it could do, or the destructive mindsets one might have from the get go or develop along the way, to prevent it I notice I didn’t answer your question. But to answer it I’d say yes maybe it could decrease your empathy if you develop a more objectifying and sexualized view of the other sex. It could even affect yourself and be like a form of self harm or self humiliation. But I think that could have more to do with cultural influence from our hyper sexualized culture, like for example how guys can become into violent sex from watching porn. So it’s a mindset someone has from the get go.

You were already from the get go in a stressed ungrounded state which led up to the situation. You need to deal with your problems to prevent these kind of things from happening again. Key is to be grounded in yourself and calm as a baseline state allowing you to think clearly. Be like that dealing with this from now on, in court etc, walk in it from a calm and collected state as much as you can, from that stems better decision making and talking.

Ok There is a large area that you play on, and as you evolve in the game you unlock more of the area. You do these tasks that people give you to evolve in the game, simple tasks that get progressively harder. The game has a story line that you get to follow when you listen to people and do their tasks. So you get to know the story behind the area and what’s going on as the game progresses. If that makes sense. So you use your horse to go around in the area and do the tasks. You can also do competitions with your horse like running and jumping etc. This is the map of the area .

Soft boy is a compliment 👽 lol I didn’t know it wasn’t very effective most of the time. Abilify was horrible it gave me bad akathisia like a constant need to move and feeling uncomfortable so if someone gets that I understand they don’t wanna take it. I can feel how it blocks the dopamine in the brain My libido during day time is gone but for some reason when I sleep and in the mornings when I’m half sleeping I can feel a bit sexual and have sexual dreams so that’s nice. I don’t know how much the medication affects that

Soft boy valentin Good I will continue the prozac yes Im unique in all ways you see ... Why people dont like being on neuroleptic if they help their psychotic symptoms? calm the mind etc , increase breast size (most important detail ofc) I will keep you updated Wtf i didnt know, so you mean you tame those animals so they support you? thats cool thanks Wizard 101 means ? haha Mobs as in horses or the people? lol they can look a bit funny yea. Its a very calm game

You’re sweet too. You know I’m open to try whatever. Yea I won’t bore you with my problems Yes in march I try risperidon , I wonder how that will feel. I’ve probably said this before but I like the calming effect olanzipine has and would like to have that on that med, and not wild akathisia . I die a lot in the caves so I understand you😹Yeah it can be quite repetitive and frustrating when one constantly dies so I’ve been switching it up by playing some Starstable too which is this calm horse game.

No problem I like Minecraft survival I’ve been challenging myself by going into caves and progressing a lot but thanks for the suggestions

lol It’s not fun to have no emotion

Okay cool

I don’t mind at all. I like having you as a contact in general. I don’t really react to it much (I’m very neutral ) I’m very stone face lol

It’s okay here in your journal it won’t derail threads

That’s very creative of you

Are you gonna try something with a shaman?

It seems a lot of influencers live in Bali, it’s like a hot spot for them. Maybe you’ll become one of them 😹like an epidemic

I missed this reply i feel I used to be like that. I used to have a rich imagination that would give me a lot of pleasure thats good you don’t go into depressive episodes

What do you mean by this