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On the other hand not struggling with survival creates the possibility of investing a lot of time and effort into for example spiritual endeavors. It’s not an opportunity that is taken by many but it’s still a possibility. And spirituality is a thing that can apply to anyone because we all form an ego (maybe there’s extreme exceptions of enlightened children) and we all have a psychology that forms some attachment so we all can work on it.

I’d need an insight into non duality to understand that. Because in my dual mind, I have a hard time distinguishing between the sense of aliveness and the sense of separation: because sense of separation gives rise to a sense of “something existing”, the opposite would be something like death…

Either you have no self and then there’s no self anywhere or you have self and then you see self everywhere (but with enough openness you could perhaps pick up on someone in a non dual state, but I think you’ll still project some kind of self). I doubt anyone lives in that solipsistic state of their self being the only self consciousness . And I know I say “their self” as in owning a self instead of being one, it’s just language ….

I guess it’s only useful if you plan on seriously studying Sanskrit texts

Do you think you’d have these insights if you’d never stumbled across Leo’s work? If psychedelics can contribute to collapsing duality, why would an insight about a seemingly dual god with “intellect and humor” arise?

At least you’re not fooling yourself into thinking you’re really after truth while you in fact prioritize your well being! That in itself is kinda spiritual, it’s a form of deeper self awareness. But then in your current state maybe your sense of well being is attached to objects, like material gains. So for example detachment practice is about letting go off attachments, so they’re no longer tied to your well being and you might be able to access well being unconditionally. So that’s a gain, because what you’re after on the bottom of it all is well being.

I think you’re over emphasizing the importance of the difference between those two colleges. Even a smaller college has well enough people to be able to socialize a lot. I bet even the most social people have not talked to every single person in their smaller college. Think about it, even being in one single class you could develop an entire social group. Your socialization depends mostly on you then the environment becomes secondary. One person could go to smaller college and socialize way more with more people than someone going to big college. It’s you who has to make that step to take opportunity to socialize when you see people, and it’s gonna be equally hard regardless. Hey, in the smaller college, you might stumble across the same people more often, which breeds similarity, which may make it feel more natural to socialize. Regarding the increased travelling to the larger college making your schedule tighter, you can make up stuff to do on the travel from and to it… like read a book or write… you said you were into writing..

How many ai you have? I mean I study at uni so normal chat gpt feels enough

Thanks

My spontaneous thought is that it might not be best to leave her to decide if she wants to text you because she might not have high initial interest so it might lower the chances of her writing to you. You could write something like “that’s great you’re prioritizing your mental health and staying true to yourself (or “I appreciate the honesty”) .” You could also insert something about yourself if you also have similar struggles. But then I’d tell her like “I’ll get back to you when I have time to meet, then it’s up to you based on how you’re feeling.” I’m a young woman who isn’t the best at socializing either so take with grain of salt but basically I think you should initiate because her initial interest might be low (because she doesn’t know you much , the interest can grow if she gets to know you, but then you must make sure it actually happens)

Am I seriously missing out by not keeping up with this ai thing? I only use chatgpt

I meant that the picture in OPs post is more accurate to the reddit forum

The non duality forum on Reddit is more accurate

It’s a form of socialization although not up to par with real life socialization I am more detached from socialization than most

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But when you are here you have attachments and aversions and don’t feel like you’re god..

Most people who think like that probably do in a dualistic way, like religious people Effortlessness can be paradoxical because I find thinking can be effortless but thinking tends to be tied to ego

Takes more than a mere saying to turn the ego off. Maybe one could turn that saying into a mantra and it might be more effective. Beautiful post nevertheless. I think the hardest ownership is carrying an identity, existing as limited form, maybe because it’s ultimately untrue so it almost never can be fully relaxed and effortless

I feel this is the accurate interpretation of Christianity

I had a nightmare this week. I am a little weird in the way that I can kinda enjoy nightmares: because I find it interesting what my mind is able to imagine. I’m impressed sometimes by the complexity of my dreams. How my mind is able to imagine so vividly and structured without my conscious effort. I also tend to be somewhat aware while I dream that I’m dreaming: contributing to me not being very fearful of nightmares (although I can still be a little freaked out) I don’t remember that much but what stood out about the nightmare was that I imagined that I was about to get “stuck” in a kind of nothingness. Basically I dreamt that I was going to enter a state where my ego was still there, but all my senses were off, so no sight, no smell, no touch, no hearing etc. And I dreamt that I was being stuck in that nothingness and couldn’t escape, couldn’t move or nothing. I wonder how that would be. Would one go absolutely insane from that? Like imagine if all your senses would “turn off” but you still had your ego and was aware of that “nothingness”. Creepy right.

Good to know

Ah simple

But dying I think includes end of self too Its not me pretending I’m here..reality is

Kinda hard to turn my senses off…

I find in my own journey that this has undid layers to the ego but I never got the entire thing