Sugarcoat

Randomly came up with the idea to start this journal of some random thoughts I have . Feel free to discuss something if you want. I wanted to name this “random thots” first to be a little funny for those who know the meaning but then figured nah it’s not that funny , or maybe . I’m laughing at it for some reason😂

Loll I have a little bit of life in me

What do you mean, like how can I care about warning point if I’m suicidal

Infinity just cannot stop itself from manifesting as infinite medieval torture chambers and chronic disease im sorry man that’s the cold truth

What is the wheel in summary?

@Schizophonia Your response in healt section was funny. I don’t wanna risk warning point so I reply here

My brain be like: https://vm.tiktok.com/ZNdaQovSE/

To bring us back to topic, self dissolution is in fact very healthy

Yea some fears might be unconscious because we haven’t experienced the situation yet

You’re not non dual enough to be saying that 😡

The belief came after the illness

Lmao what kind of paradigm do you hold

What do you mean doctor Edit : And what the hell do you mean @CARDOZZO😂

Do it scared. You might end up finding the flow within you despite it You might talk about something that peaked your interest

It’s kind of like exposing yourself to the thing you fear because you know it’s what’s gonna lead to freedom from the fear, I felt “I must break through this” because l felt the fear kinda blocked my reality (hard to describe). And when you dissolve fear it’s like accessing a new reality so it’s like I intuited that I must go deeper

Now that you say it yea I agree. I have been all my life in decent situation but I have still had a lot of fear for example social anxiety in my past. This unease almost constantly present I see what you’re saying I find that dissolution of fear happens hand in hand with dissolution of self/mind. I struggled in past of being scared of imagery in my mind of for example possible horrible reincarnations I could go through. Now I don’t fear that in anymore. I have to be in danger directly to feel fear. It’s like my mind doesn’t have the same reality to it anymore. I can’t create fear through thought anymore

That’s a good mindset to have

Never said no self at all just said that my self dissolved to significant degree (not completely). It was much denser in past. I had fears now I have no fears except physical pain. I have a quite subtle self now

It’s dehumanizing yourself you’re turning yourself into robot

Has your awakedness changed the experience of the pain or is it just that you’ve accepted it, meaning it’s the same it’s just your mind is different ? I struggle with that

I can see how pain can be a tool and I agree with your point about meditation.

He glitched

No ofc not My point is just that you can stop resisting right now when you’re in decent life situation. But under the worst circumstances it’s almost impossible for human to not resist So when people talk about acceptance you can’t say you accept something that is only idea in your mind and not your reality

So you’d be okay being crucified lol? I can see that there are degrees to it. One would be as you say removing the psychological fear. So not reacting with fear when thinking about it or seeing others suffering. But then when it happens to you is whole nother ballpark

You can’t accept something in your mind that you’re not experiencing. It’s easy to say “I accept torture” while you’re not undergoing torture. To be in the midst of torture it’s , I would say, near impossible to accept as a human, you’d have to have radical consciousness or some kind of extreme mindfulness ability, or a spontaneous surrender of the ego occurs, like I heard eckhart tolle said someone awakened in the holocaust, but it’s extremely rare. Its easy to feel like there’s no resistance to reality in you when you are in decent situation