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Definitely ?

Yea typical thank you ,you seem pretty cool and chilll too!!

Thank you. Yea I think I try to find a balance between being honest and assertive but still considerate of others emotions

It is! Also I don’t live in America and most people online seem to be from there so it’s even harder. I don’t know anyone irl that is into what I’m into either. I’m fine with my friends tho because we connect in other ways such as humor, so one can have different people with different connections but I def desire more. that sounds like a great idea I wish you the best on fulfilling that plan! yes a financial situation like that is a long term goal of mine. So as of now I guess I’ll just keep trying and putting myself out there

If I had a boyfriend I wouldn’t chat with random guys online and def not meet up that’s for sure yea I prob wouldn’t feel the need to also if I had more friends I have some friends I keep in contact regularly but it’s less hangouts than I desire and since I didn’t go to uni immediately I just work now it’s hard to meet new people where I work so I attempted at some desperate ways

this is the first time in my life I’ve done something like this. Basically I joined a discord for people looking to meet new people in my city and we started to chat. I don’t think he had romantic intentions no we have both made it clear it’s friendly. you think it’s weird? I get that. I’ve never left like that before. i think since we met at his place it was very drastic from texting to suddenly at his place. also before the meet up, two people close to me had said negative things about my decision so I aldready felt kinda down. ngl through text I was looking forward to the meet up, to make a new friend and have have fun but for some reason when I met him I instantly felt a slight ick and weird about it all. Also I suspect that him being conventionally unattractive and fitting into the negative “nerdy guy” stereotype might have contributed to my slight ick and weird feeling about it all. I always try to be as open minded as possible but societal conditioning can still affect one’s feelings in a way one can’t control so meanwhile I feel bad about writing this I’m just tryna create a clear picture I think it would’ve been different if we met outside, not as drastic and forced. and also it would’ve been different if he was female, would’ve felt less weird. also when you’re at someone’s place it’s like you have to connect well otherwise it feels weird because you’re literally alone in a lil apartment. So you’re right, I’ve learned a lesson. Meet outside first (which is a principle I have with all my dates, this wasn’t a date tho but still should apply) So basically I just felt weird about the situation and didn’t feel it was fun at all. And we were just about to go out and get food because he was hungry so my mind was like “I’m not gonna spend money on something that don’t feel good”. if we weren’t planning on getting food soon I would’ve probably stayed to give it more a chance. I thought maybe I cut it too early but also I thought that it won’t change since we already got to know each other a bit through text so we have overcome that initial awkwardness, might be wrong tho. plus he stated he felt comfortable meanwhile for me it didn’t look like it fully from my pov. But everyone’s different in how they carry themselves and so on. I’m this interaction I was looking for friendship because I wasn’t attracted to him at all

I’ve experienced the same on dates. Instant turn off when I saw the person it’s pretty weird. Once it happened when a guy lied about his height, he said we were same height which I’m okay with but then I see he is obviously shorter than me so it felt awkward But I do think it’s much better to go with your feelings and be honest rather than to stay and try to play it off. well this wasn’t a date. We were supposed to be friends so it wasn’t about attraction. but I still felt weird about it, perhaps because it was so drastic I went to his place first time and thus you have to feel you click very well because you’re at their place and supposed to hangout so it’s kinda forced. he wasn’t very different from text just a bit avoiding eye contact and not as energetic and fun but maybe I just got another image from text. I asked him if he’s uncomfortable and he said no so idk i did think to give it more time to change but I thought that firstly it won’t change because we already got to “know” each other through text so we past that initial stage. Secondly, we were supposed to go out and buy food soon and I felt that I don’t wanna spend money in a situation where I feel weird and not having fun. So I left well that’s why it wasn’t a date!

Inattentive - tend to daydream and easily zones out distant obsessive - can obsess over a mental image of somebody inconsistent / unpredictable introverted/shy - can be negative sometimes

So yes as the title says. Me and a close person to me tried edibles we bought from a Snapchat dealer face to face. They gave an effect but very mild for both of us despite us taking an supposedly large dose. We were kinda disappointed so I posted on Reddit in a forum about weed about it and the reasons why we didn’t feel much. some random dude on Reddit dms me about me being able to order them online from some telegram express link or something he called “phelmiss buy” (?) that can send to where I’m at (it’s illegal here) prepare yourself for stupidity My dumbass got carried away and texted the person on telegram he gave me. “Dn source” He was supposedly working for? He wanted me to use bitcoin so I bought it (no previous experience) and sent him the sum. Accidentally sent him a little less because the conversion to euros wasn’t correct or something (I noticed it myself ) Now he asking for way more to “make up for wallet requirements” my dumbass sends him more. now he starts talking about shipping fees because I live outside the city. i send him that. He says it didn’t arrive, I send him again . okay fast forward it all ends up with me spending in total almost 1k dollars in total. Some of it due to him saying he needs more because he needs to have 800 in his wallet to refund me or something. Yes what have I done to myself a huuuge amount for a simple minimum wage young worker like me Fast forward the delivery guy is on his way (not really tho) and he is “stopped” (what a coincidence) the guy from Reddit and the “dealer “ (probably the same guy as they write similar and both use a specific way of spelling a certain word) want me to help with money so they can pay the police . At this point I’m realizing it’s a scam and I’m not sending more. They’re getting a bit rude and pushy. I’ve not sent more since then. I still have their contacts but I’m just kind of dealing with the fact that I’ve lost almost 1 k dollars that I’ll never get back. I can’t believe how I let it go so far. Wow . I got so carried away. So incredibly reckless behavior . Lesson learned definitely. They gave such precise and eloquent reasons (from my perspective of having barely any knowledge about this) for all the transactions I kinda thought it was legit although suspicions did arise but my desperation took over. Damn I used to watch this channel hell of a lot so I felt like sharing in this forum about this. Hope it’s okay to share this topic here. I’ve lost hope now I’ve lost my money. Well, life lesson learned. Keep in mind I’m very young (not excuse per say but still) and inexperienced with this. Also I’ve chatted with several chill cool people on Reddit so I thought he was one of those lol NEVER AGAIN NEVER NEVER. I just wanted to vent a bit , feel free to roast or whatever or hit me up whatever if you have any help or anything to say.

Well I’ve bought weed through someone on Snapchat and it worked. But he doesn’t seem to be the dealer himself but was connected to a dealer because he gave us a number to some other guy and even offered to be the one to give it to us next time because the guy was a bit late Me and my cousin bought the cheap edibles from some other guy on snap, it was only 5 dollars each and we only bought two because he said they contained 65mg each. We didn’t mind if it was a scam because it was so cheap. I mean they did give an effect but pretty darn weak lol we just wanna get high of some nice edibles how hard can it be Hahaha wym contagious

Thanks for the info. sounds reasonable. with the little knowledge I have about the dark web it’ll take a while before I even proceed with something like that. Lol this happening taught me something about caution

Wow you sound exactly like me. Same here desperation can take over sometimes. It’s weird because I’m usually the type of person that does careful research. If I’m gonna buy for example a skincare product I can spend hours researching , looking at reviews , looking at facts about certain ingredients etc. it’s like a part of my personality to be very calculated but damn we all slip up sometimes it’s frustrating when you’re into this kind of stuff but you struggle finding means to obtain them. Welp gotta go to the forest then and pick some up myself maybe die from poisoning lol maybe that’s my destiny true that! I def learned something from this so it’s not ONLY negative

That was very lovely written thank you! im glad you shared your story too! Yes I do take accountability and responsibility for my actions as I made the choice myself to proceed. Trying to not be hard on myself because we all make mistakes big or small but definitely making sure I learn something from this and change. im sorry you went through that but the positive is that we learn something from it. hahah me too I’ve said some angry things to the scammer too just because . I have nothing to lose now it’s too late there have been a few funny moments he even said “you’re high” becuase I said I lost 1k lol One doesn’t think one will ever be “one of those “ who gets scammed. But here we are. Shows how even if you see yourself as being cautious we all can mess things up from time to time. Especially when young and perhaps naive.

Thanks for the tips! Might try it out sometime in the future but with great great caution . im really clueless about this all I got are some Snapchat dealers lol

I swear. This is what gets some of us in a trap? desperation and desire got to me and clouded my logic look at me now. But lesson learned.

Lol very true. So I can obtain pure weed buying face to face I’ve done that I have contacts in there. But my cousin and I wanted to try edibles specifically and they were much harder to find, and it’s hard to make ourselves as we live with our parents and worry about smell. My plan wasn’t to buy online but I was completely and utterly fooled by this guy on Reddit with his fancy technical language and eloquent explanations. I thought he was just trying to be nice and helping me out. it’s weird because I’m usually very careful. Now looking back it’s very obvious from the start how sus it was, wow how I didn’t see it then. First and last time I did something like that MAJOR lesson learned I will NEVER do this again.

Yes I will never ever repeat my mistake. First and last time I did. see what happens when you stop watching your videos as much? Maybe if I watched your video about avoiding being scammed etc this wouldn’t happen lol. Gonna watch it later. Taking notes thank you

thank you for the tips and kind words. I’ve learned a great lesson from this and will never do it again. It’s very unusual of me too, I’m usually very careful. But this time I got carried away. That’s a pretty realistic view, I did the opposite I expected the best. I even walked outside thinking the delivery guy was actually on his way damn lol. I had suspicions from the start but somehow they got clouded by my desire and hope and how deceived I was. but with reviews? Can’t they be faked, how do you know the reviews are legit?

@Realms of Wonder @Realms of Wonder thansk for your reply it’s nice hearing about others experiencing similar things, makes you feel less weird. well the situation was weird overall. Now when I look back I can’t believe my eyes how reckless I was with my money. I’m usually careful but this one time I got carried away i learnt that from now on, with no exceptions, be more careful. I always gotta know for sure that someone is legit before attempting to buy. Also let no degree of desire cloud my logic like it did here. Also don’t fall for fancy language and eloquent explanations.

I relate very very very deeply to your post. From a young age I’ve sensed how there is a sense of self involved in pretty much anything I do, and in order for myself to keep being interested in let’s say a subject, I have to be interested in the self image it can help me attain. it’s as if one senses how there is an agenda behind anything one does. It’s not bad, just pure noticing. This “self awareness “ is not by force, it comes naturally. I think everyone is fundamentally the same psychologically. The difference is some of us seem to be more sensitive to the mechanism of the identity and are more detached from it and aware of it. what we all want deep down is detachment I believe. As any identity I’ve noticed requires a certain mental effort to maintain. It’s exhausting, and different people seem to be sensitive to this to different degrees. the identity is sneaky, it hides in everything. It’s involved in everything.

When I was around 12 years old I experienced sleep paralysis for the first time. That time it was scary. Then the second time it happened was around 2 years ago, around half a year into my daily meditation practice. (i dont meditate anymore, me stopping meditation has nothing to do with this though) But this time not really scary, and it was coupled with a strong feeling of vibration or sort of like an electric current especially in my upper body, especially in my back, going up my back to my head. Then after that it happened more and more often, sometimes several times in one night. Note that i didn´t have a particularly bad sleep schedule. It was okay. It happened regularly up until about this spring, about 40 times in total, I counted on my phone many of them, then it stopped happening for some reason. Then two days ago it happend again. Then last night again. I´m wondering why it suddenly came back, I have not changed anything in my life in particular. It does not bother me as it´s not scary. To describe it more. It can last shortly, a minute or so, or longer episodes. It can vary in intensity, it was most intense in the middle of the night probably becuase I was closer to deeper sleep or something. I say sleep paralysis becuase I can´t move when it happens. Some hallucinations have occured, but I find that they reflect the emotional state, I´m calm when it happens so I almost never se anything scary. There can be a sense of presence but I guess that´s just good old regular rem sleep activity. There is always this strong vibrational feeling in the body as I described, sometimes it tickles me so I want to move but ofc I can´t, especially tickling my back. I can make the vibrations more intense if I breathe deeply it seems, its like they go in waves, its sort of relaxing. The vibrations can also seem more intense if I focus on a specific area in my body, its like they focus on that area then My state during them is like rem-sleep but awake, dreamlike but aware. Once I managed to astral project I think, I floated up through the roof and out in my neighborhood, but i dont really care that was just some lucid dreaming maybe. Also I can sense when its about to come and if i move i can prevent it, but sometimes simply by deeply relaxing my body in my bed, (usually after waking up or in the middle of the night) it would happen, or spontaneously. So does anyone have any explanation? I´m curios. Maybe its nothing special but its still fun to investigate.

Nice post. I sense genuineness , something about the energy of it. I agree tho, I just go to the forum for fun nowadays, used to be serious about it, freeing to not be anymore

I don´t feel particularly stressed at all

My sleep is quite good and regular 7/8/9 hours per night, barely ever tired, not stressed much at all . hehe

not at all