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My parents found out about this forum as they’ve asked me and I’ve answered , otherwise I wouldn’t talk about it. Some of my family have a negative view about it, like they have a stereotype of this isolated person disconnected from the world that hangs out on online forums, like a loser or someone who risks getting radicalized. Some of it is close mindedness, like they have a set idea about something in society and views it negatively because of that. Also judging some aspects of spirituality as just being people’s delusions, which could be due to a lack of spiritual experiences themselves. Also a judgment of psychedelics as just feeding into people’s delusions and viewing anything significantly mind altering as “dangerous”. It’s like they have an idea of what’s normal and things that deviate are judged

LMAOOOO

I’m still waiting for the full alive and love part lol

It will all be intellectual if you don’t experience it yourself, regardless of what anyone said. I have had some spiritual experiences which have showed me what’s possible so that’s what I’m going from

Lol the insecurity

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I also thought it’s like “SOS mite aaaah” like someone is warning that there is a mite and is reacting by screaming aaah

It takes a special woman to recognize special men sometimes… Ceo as in Leo? LOL I swear when I was like 16 and started to watch Leo I have fantasized about him. I guess I’ve always been a special woman To not derail the thread….. Leo gura is a cool name because it sounds like guru

I agree! Usually I am doing okay, but in my worse moments I’ve researched methods and I always feel hesitant because I’m afraid of failing and ending up injured. I can’t access fire arm either so it’s not an alternative In my experience deconstructing the mind has helped me suffer less too! For me self love is difficult (and love in general) because I kinda suffer from depersonalization/derealization so my identity and experience of reality isn’t normal Something that has helped me is change my mindset into a more peaceful one. So both deconstruction and building mind can help I don’t have trauma affecting me luckily Thanks, I see your point. Sometimes though, thinking about how others have it worse can help in the way of “if they can survive that, I can survive this” I think my experience of emptiness relates to my kinda depressed state in the way that the psychedelic experience might reflect one’s normal state somehow Also when I tried psychedelics I didn’t dissolve the self completely, so my ego was still there to react to it. If my self was gone 100% maybe the experience would have been more alive like some describe

I try to remind myself that I could be in a much worse situation, what comes after death could be worse than this, so I do consider what you’re saying Did you find that your changed attitude about your suffering (about it being deserved etc) changed your experience of it? Like did it make you suffer less?

I find I can’t make my self “turn off”

How do you know they are imaginary?

It’s quite meta

It’s perfect if you wanna use this forum like a dating app LOL

LMAOOO that’s funny , I also thought there was something sensual about the “ah” like the “aaah” sound😂😂😂

@Natasha Tori Maru You look like you could be 25 in your profile pic

How you come to this knowledge, does openness to reality give you knowledge about how the mind works or can you be enlightened and clueless?

Isn’t the mind produced by the brain though so it has biological basis? Or is the mind like an independent thing ?

That’s cool thanks for sharing. I have recently been looking into legal substances to try because I live with my parents and they once found my drugs so I’m hesitant to try something illegal again so I’m glad when someone shares something like this. Sometimes I get astral projection and when I chose to travel down into the ground I can sometimes end up in this vast black space. I don’t consider it infinity though but I don’t really know what it is, I guess it’s my mind imagining an underground world

Maybe it is possible to get in contact with a being from a spiritual plane , under for example astral projection, and gain information from them about this. Developing psychic abilities may also help

Internal ≠ self created (according to me). We discussed wether it was self created, so it’s a different convo Lol Good for you. I’ll try to see to what extent I’m generating suffering too

Once I heard Eckhart Tolle say you can awaken under deep suffering. He mentioned how there was a man who awoke during the holocaust It seems under deep suffering there can happen an “inevitable surrender” of the ego that drops all resistance and you awaken and the suffering is transcended. The thing is though that this is extremely extremely rare. Maybe 0.0001% chance of this happening. So I invented a method Basically in order to actualize this 0.0001 % chance of this happening to you, what you’re gonna do is put yourself through absolutely extreme suffering Im talking do something like sell yourself to the Mexican cartel, or to sadists on the dark web. Or do something like David Goggins run so hard you break all the bones in your feet and end up with kidney failure, rhabdomyolysis, and pissing blood. Then you just keep putting yourself through this absolute torture over and over and again and hope for the best and sooner or later the “inevitable surrender” of the ego might happen and you actualize the 0.0001 % chance and you awaken and transcend the pain and the suffering is gone . And if it doesn’t work in this lifetime what you do is that when you die and reincarnate you just do it all over again and keep going over lifetimes until you actualize that 0.00001 % of awakening and transcending the pain You’re with me? Aight. That was my method. Enjoy (or not)

I think so too

I feel like it’s my brain doing this “ self sense”. But maybe I’m wrong.

Maybe they mean the regular reality as average human knows it. Reality of separation. Nothingness etc is beyond that