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Back when I was into that monotone non dual talk I liked Lisa Cairns also, so that’s another suggestion . And Nargis Alegria. They both have very calming feminine voices too which is nice There was this young woman too Ariana Reflects her channel was called but it all disappeared suddenly which was sad since I liked here more loud and lively a bit provocative personality very entertaining at times

I’ve been contemplating cringe too lately it’s quite a mystery what it is exactly but for me i feel it’s related to contracted identification something like that so I felt I needed to expand my sense of self

I’m attracted to everything ?

Your posts always hit so deep

You are right, I’ve thought about it too to write some thanks but it has seemed a bit cheesy to me . but it is truly an amazing place!! exactly. What we are attracted to reveals us something about ourselves, it does something to us that we feel drawn to experience . This forum is more to me than just the content and the words. It’s like these energies interacting and I can feel movement within myself too. I guess it depends on one’s sensitivity what one is able to sense. Also if you are independent and autonomous enough it doesn’t really matter that much what others are doing or saying you’re able to extract the benefits for yourself and interact in your own way that aligns with you. At least how I see it

Sounds to me like you’re trying to ground your sense of reality in your mind it’s very unstable method trust me I did for many years the same

Well it’s because it’s literally just a thought . You’re just reacting to your own mind. No way, and no need to accept or deal with something that isn’t even happening. All you’re dealing with is your own mind.

This type of awakened person you’re describing probably wouldn’t write such a post so I don’t see the point of this on who’s behalf are you even speaking on

I bet there are quicker more effective ways of ending things if you want to avoid that ?

I thought about it actually the first split second but I thought it was just my own mind being dirty but guess not gotta trust those first instincts more ??

Ummm this to me sounds like your “agenda” isn’t authentic to you. If it is it should start permeating everything in your life and everything about you to the point it’s no longer even an agenda, which sounds like something hiding in the shadows. And people you connect with will be part of your “agenda”, connecting to it as it’s so intimate with all that you are, don’t see it as a hindrance

Idk what’s better honestly , feeling like something’s a bit off near constantly or oscillating between being very happy then unhappy

Faith could be seen as having trust in that some intelligence beyond you will move things in ways that will be in your favor ultimately . It might be experienced as letting something else take over but it’s just that this intelligence hasn’t been integrated into your sense of self yet. Ultimately it is an aspect of you operating

Idk but I feel if live feels comfortable it’s because one might not be aware of the subtleties inside telling you something ain’t right which later will catch up to you in the form of something more intense and suddenly it gets very hard

I've been trying to find it for few years now haha. Now that you say that you reminded me of this quote what you seek is seeking you — Rumi one of my favorites perhaps I just helped you with your search ???

Well why don’t you contribute with something profound and mind blowing yourself then to shake things up

You just haven’t found one profound enough ?

For me it was weed edibles. It’s a pretty ridiculous story I still laugh at it today . I don’t understand how I fell for it so hard?I lost around 850€ too through f*cking bitcoin now don’t ask me how it got to that amount ???? NEVER again Life lesson for sure

That is interesting. Recently in particular my body awareness has deepened and I’ve had some energetic shifts which seem to me connected to the chakras and also the nervous system so it does ring a bell for me what you’re saying. This human vessel seems quite holistic so everything is connected. And it is mysterious indeed so idk either what all of this is about. But I agree there a major component is how this visualizations affects your state in amazing ways.

e- mooji?

I can imagine. I tried labeling a short while and it was the least grounding technique ???didn’t get me deep into relaxation at all. just mind moving around

That’s great I noticed. I also have some of that so I can understand wish u best regarding working w it

Mm I agree there that’s definitely something that’s great about it. It doesn’t even have to be a specific set time, I see meditation as always accessible in a way you can just take some deep breaths here and there and just feel into your body wherever you are Now I don’t follow any specific practices like a set routine it’s very intuitive and spontaneous, like you said yourself how you started to meditate spontaneously, but for example for some reason I have this impulse to visualize so that I’ve done a lot especially recently which has affected my default state positively. And I tend to contemplate quite a bit but that too is usually very spontaneous . now that I read your post again it reminded me of myself if I’m not wrong here. I also had this period of maybe 2 year daily meditation and I also didn’t really experience much progress and it seemed like the force of my thoughts were just too strong for me to stay in that wakefulness for long. It was more a temporary effect it seemed. The way I see it is that this loud mind isn’t just neurotic nonsense it reflects things like problems you have and desires , the state of health of your system etc. Essentially the mind isn’t purely this detached thing it reflects something deeper. So for me during the time I had a bit of this social anxiety that felt like my biggest problem. So that was contributing to this strong noisy mind, and yes meditation can help with that. But for me it was like it didn’t feel like the most ~direct~ method. So I stopped the practices and focused more directly on what I felt was my problems in life, and took action there and contemplated that etc and kept doing that. Always sensing in myself , what is my main problem/desire now, and giving it my all. Some people call it “burning through karma” or maybe “exhausting lower desires “ etc but for me I don’t really see it like that. Because it sounds like it is detached from the spiritual process like first you do the ~lower~ stuff then you get to the deeper but for me that is all part of the spiritual process and my mind has just gotten more and more clear and meditative since then, and my life more spiritual, consciousness “higher” even more than when I used to meditate. This last thing is a bit of speculation but I also see it as if you have a loud mind, depending on the content, it can be a sign that your mind is still connected to the world and need things from the world to maybe fulfill desires or resolve problems . So this meditation is trying to shut this mind in isolation but it can be almost like suppression. Instead I worked very intimately with my mind. Like a person screaming at you to do something, and they won’t shut up until you do. Kind of, so seeing your mind as your friend as it reflects something in you, so the end result is the same, higher consciousness more stillness of mind but it’s different approaches. Ok this got kinda long I got a bit carried away but I hope you gain something from it somehow

Ok I see My journey unfolded very differently and meditation stopped being a part of it several years ago that’s why I said it just in case to open other possibilities but if it seems right for u then that’s great??

Yea I see your point I mean more if it doesn’t work for you then maybe you don’t have to continue at all with it instead of trying to improve it because I feel some people get stuck in beliefs that they neeeeed to do certain spiritual practices to get somewhere because it’s preached everywhere