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@BojackHorseman yea i don’t see screens as bad so I agree there about demonization. It’s more how you use them, what function it serves for you i also have these visions about a more natural life so I can relate there too. It’s wired in us and good to include some of it..could even be simplifying your current life yea it can be hard to make yourself independent of the constant stimulation. The way I see it is that when we constantly consume info - although it has its value and place, once again depends on how you use it - it’s like something else is thinking for us, filling our minds up and it leaves less space for our own brain activity to flourish. So using it less forces your own brain to get accustomed to less stimulation and it can create stimuli for itself (thinking can be very stimulating). But ofc in the beginning it can feel agitating. But if you try to get rid of some stimuli I believe it’s best to replace it with something that genuinely gives you fulfillment I’d say…

Yea it continues like that until awakening ..then it’s rest after awakening there’s remnants left of these layers but it takes care of itself pretty much and burns of quickly naturally it’s very counter intuitive how it works also. So the very idea you’re deceiving yourself might be the next thing to die. Then some next thing…then some next thing. doesn’t have to be that way but was from my experience . Like a dying off of layers. I relate strongly to your description you’re noticing a pattern in you. sometimes you don’t have to make effort as these limiting beliefs /deceptions can break apart by themselves. But it’s understandable it doesn’t feel good. Isn’t really supposed to feel good because it’s unstable by nature, until awakening.

If you could kiss a girl after 20 min I don’t see how sex on second date seems so crazy for you

Yea since she was your ex I’m not surprised

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For some people fantasy doesn’t necessarily have to translate to reality so maybe she never did that

That was a delightful response I’m glad you’re in a better place now

You think you’re one of them?

I don’t mind either but I see it as lack of communication usually if you have to write about someone online perhaps in a lot of cases at least

Oh thanks ?

Imagine being a woman and some man you’re seeing is writing about you like this on a public online forum i can’t ? ??

Weren’t you the sexual transmutation expert..lol wouldn’t that make you less desperate sexually as you’d be content containing that energy inside

Mm I see. Having strong enough desire is a major thing I believe

Yea. The irony of it all is that I believe the best thing we can do for the world is to focus on ourselves. average person does average things can make average impact Great person does great things can make great impact

So yea you’re just reacting to thoughts in your head , what can change is how you relate to those thoughts. I’ve been like this myself in my past, one time I read about this condition that caused the most painful headaches ever so much some people kill themselves and I felt sick to my stomach for like 2 weeks straight, had trouble sleeping because of it. so this is very vague but like if you ground yourself deeper in your body not so much in mental reality then you can’t possibly be disturbed by such thoughts because they’re just hollow images passing by. I bet you have a strong sense of time, that’s also connected to this , when you are living from a dense mind not deep in the body then sense of time can be strong. Can be dissolved tho little by little. When you have those thoughts see if there is like a counter so bringing your attention more to your body for example .. idk . Or if you’re more outwardly then maybe connecting more to your environment and other people to ground yourself . Idk

absolutely. Dissolving the tension in you

Mm I see. Wish you best of luck

Yea a bit, but its ok as long as youre fine doesnt matter what someone else thinks mm thats great you have visions for yourself. I have no clue about video editing id say if you know yourself enough to know you cant finish projects maybe start there ..

i mean i dont know if you have a conrete plan, what skills you have since you barely answered the question, your situation etc but this sounds very fantastical to me, you keep coming on here asking these questions like you have no autonomy yourself. Are you ok? Don´t seem very mentally stable from all your posts ive read, im not being rude im genuinely asking

you start by watching, then you start applying, then its like, wait a second, my intelligence that decided to do all of this , is independent of all of it, so you go directly to it instead, your own inner authority, yourself you could say, your own mind/intuition/awareness whatever, and you go your own way, also realizing your leo gura period was also a part of "your own way"

do you have skills in this area?

self/body awareness

yea I think taking a break if you can from all that stimulation to make space for your own mental activity, (which is already peaking through all the noise to you evident by the post). Also this could make space for repressed emotions, stress and mental stories to become more obvious and rise to the surface so you can deal with them rather than being numbed down by all the stimulation, which can create more mental clarity. Also consider wether this desire is more an self image need so perhaps you wanna feel good about yourself for being someone who creates like some ideal (not bad thing just observation),or if you are actually genuinely passionate about it (both can be the case ofc ).

Id never deal with such people unless I’m forced (for being family for example) if you’re content alone no need to make such compromises

Let’s keep it that way ?