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@Yimpa one time you said “using contraction as fuel” somewhere if I remember correctly and it has stuck with me ever since, perfect description, because it’s truly how I used to experience this sense of trying to control the body/myself . “Self discipline” it’s called I guess . Don’t know if that’s what you meant tho haha but still

I was specifically questioning this control over one’s own body. And what you said could be applied to it actually now that I’m reading. Totally forgot about other things tho perhaps because I myself have no desire to control anything outside myself so the thought didn’t even cross my mind???but yes absolutely there are many ways of interpreting it!!

What does it even mean to control something, if you observe it very closely? What is the mechanism of it? Can you even say for sure that you have control over this body? Also if this seeming control bothers you. There are many ways to relate to your own body. This sense of control can be experienced in different ways, more or less. The body it is quite good at taking care of itself so one can relinquish some of this seeming control and let it do it’s thing.

I wanna hang out with Sadhguru

The very thoughts asking this is lowkey what is clouding the intuition

I need those masking skills ? inspirational . Maybe I have been right all this time when I’ve felt that hotness is the key to anything in life as a woman . Oh no now I’m spilling my own guts out through text..

In Sweden men get away with rape so you should be fine being a little creepy ??

Didn’t you have anyyyy suspicions at all? Like no sign of weirdness already? That’s surprising then if she could seem normal or you just didn’t notice, didn’t sense properly. Because I’ve been in a situation with a woman who also was crazy like that but she showed signs from the get go, so I’m suprised if it’s possible for such people to seem normal

Being exposed

Thx for encouragement I’ll use you as inspiration ?

That’s another level of personality to be able to openly share ? you’re already there it seems

???????thank u for me personally the more conscious i become the MORE personality I have not less so idk what they doing

The energy we need ????

Yea exactly I think you’re pretty set with this also. Even if someone would find it important for you to have some “interesting life” if it’s not the life you want you’re gonna be unhappy right . Like it makes no sense to have a life to make someone attracted to you that’s like recipe for disaster now you’re not living how you want just how someone else wants Btw that’s cool you’re starting a business I wish u luck there

Hmmm idk . It is interesting to say the least. this is just one of my wild theories. But I wonder if since the night is the only time one has solitude (if you don’t live alone) then if you’re like me and you don’t really connect much w people and need that solitude to “process” then it’s like your body WANTS to be awake during nighttime to experience that solitude and it’s even energized to be awake that time (for me at least). Since we are going through such rapid and deep changes there needs to be a lot of processing going on, even leading to mystical like experiences. It’s like introverts who “process” after social events. After a long day with simulation and people where you have to be alert then during the night you get the change to “process” so the body/brain doesn’t wanna/can’t sleep to be able to do this or something lol just wild theory once again

Same honestly. I feel this tendency to “keep things to oneself” can be a form of wisdom in some way. Instead of just posting every other thing in your mind without letting it “mature” or something.? I feel like I have 1000 things I could say and write about but it all just marinates in my mind and doesn’t get out. But honestly I don’t see the point in posting for the sake of posting I like it to have a purpose. Will I or someone else benefit from this? If not then it’s not necessary I wonder sometimes. People who are just lurking but rarely write, maybe don’t even have an account, some of them would probably have the most profound, interesting things to say. I’m curious, where are they hiding, what are they doing and thinking haha and honestly no need to be intimidated by a lot of these posters. They might not be all that you think ?but I relate I can be too sometimes AND not everyone does psychedelics and that is fine and does not mean per automatic one is “behind” AND yea commenting is a good place to start imo

Wym ego backlash isn’t all the body is trying to do is to be healthy and survive the best, remain in homeostasis

I don’t see the problem. I just woke up from 3 hour ish sleep myself so I get what you mean. Less sleep= more time to do what u want . Good thing. But I agree there might be something else that’s going on that contributes to it don’t know what tho. I feel healthier than ever so can’t be bad. I mean if the body would need more sleep it makes you tired right so if not tired should be fine. Would love to hear if you have some more theories tho

Please tell me more about how lovely it is to sleep ?

wait do you sleep less because your body naturally wakes up or because you deliberately stay awake to do other things?

What are they then?

Your mind is “nauseated from consuming garbage” because it’s engaged in the active process of learning how to “separate the wheat from the chaff” as effectively as humanly possible which is a great ability to have so you should be thankful for all this “garbage” helping you develop in that ability . Essentially developing your own independent “signal” to be strong enough to navigate all the “noise” but not bad suggestion btw

Omg dude I do this all the time? it is truly like that in a way

@Yimpa thanks ❤️

?????bruh