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Nothing changes the default self-attention. I even did this exercise to focus on external world every day and it still doesn’t change it at all to be honest I feel a bit awkward about this post I’ve been considering removing it because I understand how weird my explanation sounds

The doctors would’ve came to such conclusions if it was some dissociation disorder it’s not and they didn’t come to such conclusion

My situation started way before the meds. They haven’t changed anything.

I can’t really argue with you about how my own brain works

Not the first time I write something a bit odd ofc😂

Thanks. Oh I don’t remember mentioning it before but I probably have lol That’s good that you have identified the cause for you and things that helped! For myself I found it happened no matter what I ate so the food wasn’t the cause. im not sure what leaky gut is but I’ve heard it before yes my solution has helped release a lot of tension in upper body and neck in general so it’s more than one benefit

no trauma no

thanks for the replies nonetheless y'all

how would that look practically. because im talking some kind of physical disconnection in the brain thats why exercise which creates a kind of expansion/growth thing builds it back. nothing else does it in my experience not dancing either as you mentioned

how do you know that?

you have an assumption about how self dissolution works. In my experience constant attention on the self facilitates most of it for me. What else would cause a near total loss of 3d depth perception?

no trauma no

how could dissociation cause an almost total loss of 3d depth perception to the enviroment?

how would that help? what I mean by self centered brain is one that has constant attention inward onto itself kind of, that default won't change

what im talking about is the experience of separation being so thin the world looks almost 2d flat. That is severe

im not the only one who speaks of attention on the self, I think ive heard Rupert spira talk about it too. yes it perpetrates the illusion, but it makes you dissolve to *almost* zero like it happened to me. The neurological mechanism of self-attention does that in my direct experience i understand what doesn't fit into an existing paradigm and can be quite confusing but it is based in my direct experience

i didn't mean full dissolution, I meant almost full, and between those is an infinite difference

Thanks for the feedback

My original post

@Schizophonia I don’t know why I wrote it. Felt a little awkward about it wanted to delete. Was it comprehensible tho?

Ok👍🏻

The self centeredness of my brain that is driving this ain’t changing . I’m saying the forced exercising is built into my brains design from birth

I don’t know what you mean by reconnect externally. What I mean is that the exercise builds connectedness inside the brain and makes me more connected to myself for a while. I notice always when I start to disconnect but I don’t feel there is anything I can do about it because it happens in the brain. I can’t experiment with different drugs due to living at my parents house. I do eat chocolate and coffe but it doesn’t make a difference. I do feel the disconnection affects the flow of dopamine that’s my theory so when I’m not as connected to myself the flow of dopamine is not optimal. thanks for your reply anyways . No one really understands what I wrote which is okay.

Because the self is this tension in itself . This anxious activity that is trying to maintain itself kinda I notice some people who claim to be doing good but then they do something like bite their nails which suggest that they have stress they are unaware of. So happiness can be unawareness, with enough awareness there’s almost constant suffering it’s the nature of this ego A woman on insta I follow (@carlabezanson to give cred) she said once “I exist therefore I am anxious “ and I think it sums it up pretty well

Thanks for your suggestion. I will continue with my doctors and we will see what we do, because why not I won’t loose anything. Unfortunately this is due to the self centeredness of my brain that I was born with and not mental illness