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Do it scared. You might end up finding the flow within you despite it You might talk about something that peaked your interest

It’s kind of like exposing yourself to the thing you fear because you know it’s what’s gonna lead to freedom from the fear, I felt “I must break through this” because l felt the fear kinda blocked my reality (hard to describe). And when you dissolve fear it’s like accessing a new reality so it’s like I intuited that I must go deeper

Now that you say it yea I agree. I have been all my life in decent situation but I have still had a lot of fear for example social anxiety in my past. This unease almost constantly present I see what you’re saying I find that dissolution of fear happens hand in hand with dissolution of self/mind. I struggled in past of being scared of imagery in my mind of for example possible horrible reincarnations I could go through. Now I don’t fear that in anymore. I have to be in danger directly to feel fear. It’s like my mind doesn’t have the same reality to it anymore. I can’t create fear through thought anymore

That’s a good mindset to have

Never said no self at all just said that my self dissolved to significant degree (not completely). It was much denser in past. I had fears now I have no fears except physical pain. I have a quite subtle self now

It’s dehumanizing yourself you’re turning yourself into robot

Has your awakedness changed the experience of the pain or is it just that you’ve accepted it, meaning it’s the same it’s just your mind is different ? I struggle with that

I can see how pain can be a tool and I agree with your point about meditation.

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No ofc not My point is just that you can stop resisting right now when you’re in decent life situation. But under the worst circumstances it’s almost impossible for human to not resist So when people talk about acceptance you can’t say you accept something that is only idea in your mind and not your reality

So you’d be okay being crucified lol? I can see that there are degrees to it. One would be as you say removing the psychological fear. So not reacting with fear when thinking about it or seeing others suffering. But then when it happens to you is whole nother ballpark

You can’t accept something in your mind that you’re not experiencing. It’s easy to say “I accept torture” while you’re not undergoing torture. To be in the midst of torture it’s , I would say, near impossible to accept as a human, you’d have to have radical consciousness or some kind of extreme mindfulness ability, or a spontaneous surrender of the ego occurs, like I heard eckhart tolle said someone awakened in the holocaust, but it’s extremely rare. Its easy to feel like there’s no resistance to reality in you when you are in decent situation

This. There might be a biological basis to what we find beautiful, for example symmetry, reasonable proportions (like a very big nose might be out of proportion) etc So if you don’t have those things, trying to love your looks can be like trying to go against biology. Then on top of that we have societal conditioning, so unless you undo that, loving your looks can be like going against all your minds conditioning. So yea first step is to be accepting of your looks. You can even think/recognize you’re “ugly” but being okay with it at the same time , because you don’t put value in it, you separate your self esteem from it.

Ok and a chair is a concept I think but my thoughts aren’t me

I’ve intuited this “People are interested in profit. Profit could be better feeling, absence of suffering”. But aren’t you after openness because it makes you feel better? (Not as in an emotion but you get what I mean). If openness was purely negative (maybe it’s scary sometimes but it seems like a net positive overall) you wouldn’t pursue it right?

There’s really small YouTube channels talking about non duality I feel they’re authentic but I’m not sure

Thanks Isn’t it the same just with a quiet mind lol. In the gap between my thoughts is the same as when I think or am I wrong?

Did you get any side effects?

I feel you lowkey have one of the greatest minds in all of human history

From my experience 5 meo dmt dissolves the self, so I mean, how could an experience be 100 times stronger? If a high dose of 5 Meo dmt leads to 100% ego dissolution, meaning 0 percent ego left. How could an experience be stronger than that? I mean there can’t be negative self dissolution beyond zero. Either it’s gone or there’s some ego left, can’t go further right ? Like how is there MORE or LESS infinity lmao either it’s infinite or limited Or am I wrong here?

I can temporarily stop my mind chatter if I place my attention on a sense perception (for example by focusing on object in front of me) Maybe I’m still thinking when I do that but I just don’t notice hmmm But I don’t know how to prolong that silence. And I don’t know what would be achieved if I prolonged that silence, because I don’t find my mind disruptive

This is a very deep topic to me In this response I’m going to focus on physical health. Because when you talk about the value of mental health you have a different dilemma at hand. Because there can be things that are not the healthiest for the physical body but are healthy for your mind (let’s say for example a medication for depression with side effects, or allowing yourself some unhealthy food from time to time). So if you prioritize both optimal mental and physical health, they can collide and you’ll have to weigh them against each other (for example someone might chose not to consume medication for their mental health because of side effects) Back to physical health. I am lucky to have great physical health. I don’t have any physical health issues, my energy is stable all the time, i have never seriously injured myself etc. Ever since i was a kid I’ve had a vivid imagination. Sometimes i would imagine going through horrible reincarnations and feeling scared. Or I’d look up some really painful disease and feel disturbed (like trigeminal neuralgia) I read about people going through all sorts of severe physical health issues and I sympathize with how much the quality of their life worsens. I don’t think you can live optimal life without optimal physical health. A life with chronic pain, chronic fatigue, brain fog, nausea will automatically be of worse quality Maybe someone will say “but some pain is bareable”. I don’t know if I agree. Pain is something you don’t wanna feel, so any pain is at least an annoyance in life and brings the quality down, even if it’s mild There is immense peace in having great physical health. Not having to worry about pain, not having to worry about having the energy to do things. No amount of, let’s say money, would I trade for my physical health. That’s how much I value it. I think it’s a good idea for your wellbeing, to strive for optimal health, maybe even crucial. (Don’t have to be like Bryan Johnson, but I mean like pain free and stable energy). And how to do that, there are different ways. One important factor is your own body awareness. When your body sends you a signal that something is wrong you have to be connected enough to your body to feel it properly, to be able to do something about it. That is a foundation. Then comes your lifestyle. If you have naturally optimal health, you don’t necessarily need to have optimal lifestyle to have optimal health, like if you’re young and healthy. But if you know your body to be more sensitive, like some people can be born with different conditions and sensitivities, or with old age comes more sensitivity, then you might need to take additional steps to ensure optimal health. So I think optimal physical health is non negotiable for well being and should be prioritized, but you only have to “work on it” so much to the degree that is needed for your particular body. And in some cases when something benefits your mental health more (let’s make hypothetical scenario that there is a psychedelic that will give you awakening but will give you headache after) then it might be worth the temporary sacrifice of optimal physical health. But nonetheless your health is prioritized.

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Do you think some people have more dense minds/selves while some others can be “softer”, because here it sounds like there’s degrees. I think there is, in my own experience, like my mind/self used to be denser in the past. You don’t have to answer my questions btw but you seem very expressive here and have interesting view so that’s why I ask

Do you believe there are some non dualists who are open to their nature all the time ?