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Ok. The reason I asked was if they had noticed any particular differences between the genders (if they had switched)

That’s cool you’ve been able to make observations from it. Sometimes we underestimate the role biology plays in psychology Maybe this is a sensitive question you don’t have to answer this but are you switching genders is that what the hrt is for?

62: I can’t get over the fact that in The Weeknd’s song timeless he literally sings “if I was you, I’d cut up my wrist” that is such a crazy lyrics to have

What has it helped you see?

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Thanks for your honesty. That makes sense since your responses can be very elaborate, plus I know you’ve studied stuff so that’s where you get some of it from right? Some seem to effortlessly write smart texts. But maybe they have a lot of work behind it like having done a lot of contemplation . I have some people I spontaneously can think of.

😹😹😹😹In February I will switch neuroleptic so I’ll see if it just gives me severe akathisia or if it’s good

61: Sometimes I feel like that crazy scientist who has genuinely discovered something but that everyone just thinks is crazy

I know I still asked

60: Sometimes I feel a little dumb. Like I don’t have proper access to my brain. My thoughts have a very low volume and are quite sparse like there’s a long gap between thoughts. I have a hard time getting into a flow while writing, because of this. Sometimes I wanna delete replies because they don’t sound “smart” enough. Yes I’m guilty, somehow I wanna seem deep and smart, to whom I don’t know, just in general, to myself too. I want my replies to have substance, that’s a good thing in a way, it’s good for the forum to wanna give good responses. I wonder if others think like this or if they just write. I find myself reading people’s responses and wondering how they come up with so much to say, and can compare to mine sometimes. lol guilty.

Is that a good or a bad thing

Caloric deficit feels kinda spiritual too for some reason. Like you feel lighter . Maybe it’s not comparable to fasting though.

Once it happened I spontaneously asked myself, where is the I, and for a moment it was like I couldn’t locate myself. I’m not fully sure what that experience was but it felt kinda cool It only happened once though. Nowadays I have a hard time believing something like contemplation could penetrate this self-structure that seems so strong

Intuition in terms of what direction in life to take tends to be connected to what feels expansive for us. So it feels more true because it’s aligned with our newer higher selves vs the old .

The human self is inflammatory and we are full of tension in our entire system because of it, it’s heavy and takes energy to maintain. When you start dissolving and releasing all that tension you’ll start to see your health and energy levels improve. But it’s too weird to talk about.

The answer is obvious

That’s great you’ve realized that. I haven’t.

Maybe it is so

Yea for now it’s just all words for me

If “I” awoke then there wouldn’t be a me there to “not want” it. So it would be all good

I get all of that conceptually but it doesn’t shake this “sense of self” , I dont recognize it for real

Maybe absolutely, but I don’t recognize that. Another way to put it is that my sense of self (and sense of other and reality) feels extremely weak and subtle, and that the connection to myself feels very weak. My thoughts are very quiet and subtle, like the volume on them is low. Ofc when I say this I’m speaking as myself, from myself, from my own connection to myself, it has to be there for me to say “I”. But all of it feels extremely “weak” that’s my experience. Reason being that I went through a lot of self dissolution (but not complete). You can’t know it unless you experience it

The bliss didn’t last for long, but I remember and it was very blissful. I don’t wanna die all the time, like I’m fine right now. But sometimes I wanna die and am kinda depressed, I’d say I’m always just a little bit depressed. The reasons are quite weird so I don’t tend to write about it. But I can say I feel this severe disconnect from myself, kind of like depersonalization Thanks for asking

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