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I struggle from occasional hits of anxiety, depression, and motivation issues. Nothing too crazy but it does impact my quality of life and productivity a lot. So the question is: should I keep trying to just push through it on my own and work on developing basic emotional mastery or should I try microdosing (I have mushroom in mind at the moment) to help myself out? My concern is that I don't want it to become a crutch for me where I will stop being functional without them. Especially since you can't take them every day. I don't want to have a situation where I takse mushrooms and feel great for a day, and then waste the next one.

@player1995 good question. I guess I have thiss ego thing where I always want to achieve everything the hard way. Like in this case, solve all of my mental problems without the help of any substances. So my mind turns it into one vs another basically. Either I am totally dependent on microdosing or I am going at it completely sober. Which is kind of dumb, haha

@Thought Art thanks a lot for sharing. I will try this routine tonight

@Thought Art Why qigong specifically? I've asked similar questions before but what is so special about it?

@Jannes I already have mushrooms so it's the easiest way for me I think. Do you think that if I use microdosing while socializing I will be able to use this reference experience to then act the same way all the time?

That's good to hear. A few mpr questions. How long does it last? If I take it in the morning, will it affect me for the whole day? What dosage do you think I should start with? No No Not always, but I am working on it. Why?

@Flowerfaeiry did having elevated states of consciousness help you in any way to function better in your day to day life? Like be more productive, creative, etc.? @Jannes thank you for advise. It depends on the day, but usually my emotions are not that dramatic so I guess it should be okay. @Thought Art but I am not talking about full trips, just microdosing. Actually, me not being able to do regular full trips anymore is another concern that I haven't raised as those are also really valuable, and ideally I would like to dp both. Maybe getting my hands on some other substance that doesn't have cross tolerance with mushrooms could be a solution. @Thought Art @Jannes but my biggest worry is, as I said, me turning it into a crutch. Where I am a "super productive, creative, charisma machine" when microdosing and then feel helpless when I am sober. Is this a real possibility? I would like to have those gains that I get while microdosing to transfer into my sober state eventually. But I don't know if that's possible.

Also, another question I have is: Will they even help me for the whole day? If a mushroom trip lasts for about 4-5 hours, I assume microdose will also stop working after that time, no?

Thanks, it worked

@The Mystical Man I was about to write the following:

@The Mystical Man oh fuck, I just got it

At some point I thought there was going to be some moral of the story. But no, it's just pure randomness

@The Mystical Man what did I just watch, lol

In this book there are 3 stages of telling the Truth. The first stage is telling facts: basically coming out about your past lies and secrets. However, examples that he uses are basically things that his clients are actually ashamed of and that affect their mental health in a bad way. Like cheating on your spouse for example. Of course a secret like that can potentially rot you out from the inside. But what about secrets and lies about things that are not necessarily bad? For example, when I was going to the Netherlands for studying a few years ago my dad made me promise to him that I won't use any drugs and I said "yes", even though I knew that I will want to experiment psychedelics. A few years passes, and this topic got raised in a casual conversation once again, and I basically said that I didn't try any, even though it was a lie. The thing is: I am not ashamed of using psychedelics. I still use them and plan to use them even more in the future for personal development (which is once again a secret that I am supposed to open up about according to the book). I believe that it's not my problem that he is so close minded about this topic. And I think that I have every right to hide this fact from him because in my opinion he will not be able to handle the truth in a healthy way and because I don't believe that he earned this level of trust from me. But I still feel bad about lying to him. And I have to admit that part of the reason for hiding this is simply because I am afraid and not because of some righteous reason. And a lie is a lie no matter how you look at it. So I don't know, should I come clean about it or not? @Leo Gura, you are the biggest Truth advocate here so any advise, please?

But isn't it much more conditional, and therefore less real, though? For example, I have a hard time believing that my dad would still love me if I turned out to be gay or decided to become trans female.

@Yimpa thank you, I will try it )

Is there a specific meditation practice that you caan do regularly to develop self-love?

Yeah, I agree. But you have to understand that there are different people who are at different levels of development in life. Sure, there are men who only care about looks just like there are women who only care about your height or bank account, or sexual charisma. But that doesn't mean that everyone is like that. Also, the kind of relationship you have with a man matters. If he is only interested in you for casual sex (like I assume is the case for the guy who started this thread), it makes sense that he isn't going to care for anything but your looks that much. The truth is that not all people care or pay attention to their partner's level of consciousness or personal development. This is true both for men and women. You need to be quite developed yourself already to care about those things in a partner. So if you don't want a man to only care about your looks and nothing else, you need to choose the right man and that means that you yourself need to care about something more than just raw attraction towards your partner.

@at_anchor just develop yourself day after day. Leo likes saying that you should have a plan for the next 20 years. But if you asked a 20 year old to predict how his like would look like at 35, he would have no clue. Heck even when he started actualized.org he probably had no idea that he would end up where he is now. And that's how it should be, because when you are doing hardcore personal development you basically become a different person in the process so your thinking, vision, and goals change.

@The Mystical Man haha, well maybe in a few years then

@The Mystical Man in english?

@The Mystical Man but why? Is there anything specific you suggest paying attention to if I decide to reread it?

@The Mystical Man what did you like so much about the harry potter? I read it as a kid, but don't remember much at this point.

@Thought Art thank you

@The Mystical Man wow, thanks a lot for sharing ))