The Caretaker

@Vynce No. Just liked the vibe of his album when I made the profile.

Maybe. The potential is something that we can't measure with that much accuracy. @Leo Gura You know, I wanted to make an argument about money and reflection not being a valid obstacle, but if not for the huge amount of suffering + the privilege of not worrying about food or shelter, I would have been exactly the same. No doubt about it. Now I am curious how many started this work out of passion/good education vs just because of pain.

@Leo Gura On that note, tho, why do so many people have trouble finding what they want to master? At least for me, it's almost comically easy to choose a field I want to develop, or at least to try out something new until I have a better grasp of how well it fits my personality.

I've tried many playlists and songs over the years to focus on my work, and this is what's working for me. I usually choose depending on the tasks I have ahead. Sometimes I need to be creative, others I want to contemplate, and some I just need to get shit done.

You can read "The War of Art" by Steven Pressfield. I was expecting a book about creative blockages, but got a personal manifesto against "resistance". Maybe at least you will find some value in his work. The book is ~120 pages, but most of them are 2/3 empty.

I use Reddit mostly for technical or vibe feedback. If it can pass their tolerance test, then it's ready for a softer audience 😹. But yeah, even this forum can be harsh at times, so it's expected that less conscious forums will be much worse.

I find him entertaining, but I don't take him seriously even inside the fitness industry, let alone outside.

Sketchers easy fit (not from this place, just an example) - https://www.skechers.com/technologies/comfort-technologies/slip-ins/?srsltid=AfmBOor4HdzyWpkRUTxkiC64LnwpYVPPTMQOLDTjJ-i1eLk-rbpDpPdp I swear, if you find a comfortable pair, you will not be able to return to regular shoes. I have 2 and wear them 95% of the time.

Thanks for sharing. I use GPT for an initial translation draft and correct everything that feels off. But I haven't paid much attention to these lines. If not today, soon, people will raise their pitchforks even for "—"

The most I ever did was a few 3-day solo retreats, and I think they helped a lot. And Idk, it can cut both ways, making you less susestable to human suffering in general. Yo, somehow I missed this episode. Maybe I just forgot because it was not relevant when I watched it. I corrupt, therefore I am.

Idk, just got tricked into it by being promised a better life Now I want to know more out of curiosity and just feeling more "free", if it makes sense.

I refer to this post: https://www.actualized.org/insights/actualized-quotes-183 I meditated for 20 minutes and contemplated this topic for 20 minutes, and found the following: 1) I don't feel any guilt or remorse for the corruption I create without actually seeing how negatively it impacts the other side. A simple example would be meat consumption. Until I see a cow crying, I don't actually care how I get my sausages. And tbh, with humans it's not much different. Unless I feel like I directly made somebody suffer, I don't care. 2) I felt disappointed in myself. I knew that I was not a saint, and I had made bad decisions in the past, but I felt numb even when contemplating the worst things I had done to another person. Every corrupt decision I ever made makes "complete sense" in retrospect. But I least I hoped that I would care a little more. 3) You are still punished for evil by the evil itself. I don't believe you can't outsmart yourself. To give a few examples of what I mean: If you are a guy who manipulates women for sex, you cut yourself off from the privilege of getting into a healthy relationship. If you try to manipulate people for your own benefit, you get trust issues. If you do some shady moves like stalking, you might be punished by your own anger when the person you stalk is doing much better than you would hope. If you steal, you create a paranoia that somebody else could steal from you unpunished. And so on. You got the idea. My only sticking point is the idea that - if you are not self-aware of any of that, do you even feel bad? How well is somebody like Trump actually sleeping? I mean, corruption helps you survive much better, but how much can you thrive by being corrupt? And if the corruption is "so good", why do we rise to higher consciousness with every generation? So, in the end, I am a little disappointed in how little I care about the suffering I don't see, even if I cause it. A little hopeful for all the times that I go against my bad judgment and choose the right thing. Sadly, I am not aware if my "spirit" is speaking right now or if I am that good at mental gymnastics.

It might be because of overthinking. From what I've noticed, I have the most mental clarity either after a hard training, or when I meditate for at least 20m, in silence or with some music like this. Just try to give yourself some time before every session. The mind needs space to focus. Also, this simple concept helped me tremendously in the days when I didn't "feel like it". Just do the second-best thing. And if you can't, the third best thing, and so on. A lot of times, you don't need motivation, but momentum.

I still watch once in a while videos that covers some intresting entries, even tho the tooic hyped a very long time ago.

I don't find long working hours a problem but poor rest or bad priorities. Creative problem solving takes a lot of mental energy, and cobsidering IT is very heavy for the mind, maybe you could reschedule your day to start with your thesis. Also, I haven't noticed you mentiong much about sleep and fitness. I know it's a broken record, but I swear that good health improves everything x3. And you can't even start to comprehend how it affects you before you move back and forward on this area a few times.