The Caretaker

Thanks for sharing. I use GPT for an initial translation draft and correct everything that feels off. But I haven't paid much attention to these lines. If not today, soon, people will raise their pitchforks even for "—"

The most I ever did was a few 3-day solo retreats, and I think they helped a lot. And Idk, it can cut both ways, making you less susestable to human suffering in general. Yo, somehow I missed this episode. Maybe I just forgot because it was not relevant when I watched it. I corrupt, therefore I am.

Idk, just got tricked into it by being promised a better life Now I want to know more out of curiosity and just feeling more "free", if it makes sense.

I refer to this post: https://www.actualized.org/insights/actualized-quotes-183 I meditated for 20 minutes and contemplated this topic for 20 minutes, and found the following: 1) I don't feel any guilt or remorse for the corruption I create without actually seeing how negatively it impacts the other side. A simple example would be meat consumption. Until I see a cow crying, I don't actually care how I get my sausages. And tbh, with humans it's not much different. Unless I feel like I directly made somebody suffer, I don't care. 2) I felt disappointed in myself. I knew that I was not a saint, and I had made bad decisions in the past, but I felt numb even when contemplating the worst things I had done to another person. Every corrupt decision I ever made makes "complete sense" in retrospect. But I least I hoped that I would care a little more. 3) You are still punished for evil by the evil itself. I don't believe you can't outsmart yourself. To give a few examples of what I mean: If you are a guy who manipulates women for sex, you cut yourself off from the privilege of getting into a healthy relationship. If you try to manipulate people for your own benefit, you get trust issues. If you do some shady moves like stalking, you might be punished by your own anger when the person you stalk is doing much better than you would hope. If you steal, you create a paranoia that somebody else could steal from you unpunished. And so on. You got the idea. My only sticking point is the idea that - if you are not self-aware of any of that, do you even feel bad? How well is somebody like Trump actually sleeping? I mean, corruption helps you survive much better, but how much can you thrive by being corrupt? And if the corruption is "so good", why do we rise to higher consciousness with every generation? So, in the end, I am a little disappointed in how little I care about the suffering I don't see, even if I cause it. A little hopeful for all the times that I go against my bad judgment and choose the right thing. Sadly, I am not aware if my "spirit" is speaking right now or if I am that good at mental gymnastics.

It might be because of overthinking. From what I've noticed, I have the most mental clarity either after a hard training, or when I meditate for at least 20m, in silence or with some music like this. Just try to give yourself some time before every session. The mind needs space to focus. Also, this simple concept helped me tremendously in the days when I didn't "feel like it". Just do the second-best thing. And if you can't, the third best thing, and so on. A lot of times, you don't need motivation, but momentum.

I still watch once in a while videos that covers some intresting entries, even tho the tooic hyped a very long time ago.

I don't find long working hours a problem but poor rest or bad priorities. Creative problem solving takes a lot of mental energy, and cobsidering IT is very heavy for the mind, maybe you could reschedule your day to start with your thesis. Also, I haven't noticed you mentiong much about sleep and fitness. I know it's a broken record, but I swear that good health improves everything x3. And you can't even start to comprehend how it affects you before you move back and forward on this area a few times.

Idk if this fits your topic, but "who controls your thinking/can you stop your thinking" give some folks a brain lag

Oh, it actually reminded me that I've learned english trought video games and youtube. A time sink with purpose 😆 Early SCP Foundation might be one of my favorite works of ficion. Is somewhat related to creppy pasta, but in my opinion had much more substance behind

Did you know google maps has a subscription system like any other social media? I’ve been active for the past four years or so because I like both learning something new and sharing it. I've given as many fair reviews as I could, and without even trying, I’ve gained over 300 followers and 4,000,000 views. I can’t really use these for anything, but it’s funny how consistently giving people what they need is still a formula that works, even in today’s modern social landscape. I’m still learning how to apply the same approach to my actually important channels, but it’s amusing that my main reference for social media success is maps Do you have anything similar in mind?

Infini It has a very weird aura that I can't describe. It does not look like a good game, but I can't get it out of my mind. Also To The Moon series, but it is not weird per se, but has a lot of dream/memory/identity-driven narrative. And if you want reaaaaaaaly weird and experimental games, google the most popular titles for the RPG Maker game engine. You will be shocked at how wild the imagination can go.

Yes, but not on a big scale. I have a few visual assets packs for video games, from which I have only one that sells quite a few copies a month. And a video game on Steam that is very niche and was mostly my learning project. From everything I've tried, I really, really like YouTube and an ok with Reddit for promotion. YouTube for storytelling potential, and Reddit for how engaging and brutal the community is. So right now I am on a journey of developing my next game and promoting it through my own YouTube + streams, discord servers, and so on. Again, can't say that I am very experienced with that, but 2 big things I've noticed are that it is almost impossible for me to care about low low-effort platform like Twitter/YT Shorts, even tho some game developers made an entire fortune through it. And it reaaaaaly hard to promote a shitty product. The visual asset pack I am talking about had 0 promotion outside the organic traffic from the platform, but has sales to this day.

@Michael569 Peak addiction to have

He is Russian, so it makes sense 😹. But for the general public, I think Alok is a better role model. Leo's path can be very extreme for most folks.

If you condense storytelling to YouTube only, sure. But I can't imagine great teaching or art without a story. Even asking a question or socializing becomes 10x more engaging within a good frame.