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So I was coming home with my phone on silent because it's like that for school and then my Mom was shouting at me to get my attention because I didn't know that she called me. She then almost cusses me out for not listening to her plans because apparently, the food is too hot for her to carry by herself. I then listened to her but at home, I have a habit of putting cold food in the fridge. She then gets mad at me and I try to explain that I have this bad habit and she insists on explaining what I did wrong even though I already know it and as if her explanation will solve my bad habit. I then ask or say that I don't see the church helping her become a better person and she thinks that I am trying to "become Jesus" and that I am judgemental of her. She also sees my mistakes as signs that I don't care. She also thinks that I don't care because other people would have carry the food they order regardless of the temperature and says that no one does that (apparently). Is there any way that I can fix this or should I just ignore this?

@Kksd74628 I'm back.

@Moksha Why does the Bible give visual descriptions of heaven if it is unconditional love but also say that the Kingdom of Heaven is within? How does the duality of literal and metaphorical collapse? I wish that the church talks about all of this, but it doesn't. It just talks about why pray, how to, Jesus died for our sins, etc. Being mechanical in singing is also not a form of worship because it's the opposite of being conscious and yet I have to go to church.

@Kksd74628 Neither do I.

@Kksd74628 Could I do my spiritual work faster once it becomes legal in Russia for me to get a job without a college degree? I am almost done with school but me having to go to church without phychadelics (within reason and with caution) is slowing me down. I could then get a card that can pay for more than just things offline in Russian currency but it's the Russian Ukrainian war that does not let me. My Dad says it's currently impossible to go beyond this limit. How could I convince him why I would want an ultimate common place book so that he can pay for it? Sorry guys, I won't respond in a while because I have to go to church.

@Kksd74628 Some people including Leo do believe in the stories of Jesus, do you?

@Kksd74628 How do I know if the stories in any religion are true or false? What makes archaeology valid? The questions I ask on the forum are the questions that I will also contemplate.

Maybe @Leo Gura Can share the posts that he finds meaningful or anything that was said to him or that he did in his life for the 10 year anniversary of Actualized.org.

@Moksha Is the Kingdom of Heaven the same with the absolute and that they are both within? What makes heaven? Awakening? What would be the Kingdom of Hell?

@Kksd74628 By the way, according to Christianity, the Holy Spirit is supposed to make her feel guilty for what she did because she is a Christian. That didn't happen and I also wouldn't want her apology out of guilt even if she did apoligized. I'm not holding a grudge, there were just new responses on the forum. Christians would say that true goodness could not be otherwise because people are sinners but this does not make sense based on what I said. It's not like I hate Christianity, but it just doesn't seem to work.

@Enlightement I thought not in the spiritual sense right? What is physicality? It's something worth contemplating about at least for me.

@enzyme I predict that future generations of parents would stop assume that I play video games or do homework online. I predict that there would be less of this kind of black and white thinking in the future and improve the quality of homework and how it is done. However, because this assumption would probably go away, I can be grateful of the freedom I have now within reason of course since I can be responsible enough to create my own restrictions.

@Moksha @Enlightement Also, I have a big problem that could get me in trouble. Whenever I receive a technical difficulty escpecially while doing it, it feels like some "force" is trying to block me in some way so I get angry and curse God for it. This needs to stop. How do I stop blaming God for things that "make no sense"? If that actually means to stop thinking of God dualistically as a person with some agenda, how do I unlearn that idea about that is still at the back of my mind whenever I get triggered? Also, Leo said in his post about pragmatism post that he tries to reach God. How is this possible if God is infinite? By realizing that God is non-dualistic? Why would Leo say that non-duality is not Awakening if it implies that you are God? Why is this considered blastphemy? Why would this be interpreted as trying to compete against God like Satan? Christians fancy their faith in the idea that God came down to our level through Jesus Christ who died for our sins even though I find common ground more important among religions. I would say that I do believe in the resurrection except I don't know where Jesus ascended to afterwards and that he resurrected because he was deeply conscious of the nature of death. It could still just be a higher dimension. Christians try to give all of the counter arguments they could think of against the arguments of other people that would support the resurrection of Jesus. Even if that did happen, it would be a Christian bias to say that this is the ultimate miracle because the ultimate miracle is existance itself. I don't see the resurrection of Jesus as any more miraculous than Muhammed splitting the moon for example.

@Enlightement I don't see where you said this except from someone quoting this.

I might come up with responses later.

@corvusxHow come you can take psychedelics in high school?

@Leo GuraWhy not?

@Leo GuraCould awakening be harder without the mind course or handling more basic things?

@supremeyingyang

Hello, I have spent to long reading something that needs to be summararized and an essay that needs to get typed up that I'm not even close with completing which are due today. I currently typing this at 2:30 in the morning. Honestly, I really wish there was a better way to get to know what people are going through and it doesn't really need to be about me. I should have skipped play practice and have spent too much time packing for my trip and now I am screwed. I wouldn't want my job to be like this and my resume probably sucks or doesn't exist. The life purpose course isn't helping me with these problems. I also notice that I cannot find anything about how an active membership is different from a paid membership which can have my gaming data be on the cloud permanently and my Dad's cards don't work even with VPN or outside of Russia. I think that I would want to be a material scientist for engineering purposes but that will probably be wrong. It feels like I will lose valuable things forever from financial problems in the future and am not excited for graduating. I use to be when I was younger, but not anymore. Should I be posting this on other forums designed for these problems? How helpful is this forum really? Leo said that he is not so concerned about basic things like this but I don't think you know enough about me anyways right? I would still like your feedback, thank you.

@withinUverse Honestly, I have to go to church and the process of chaos to clarity is very slow after coming home thoughout the day since I forget about meditation. There is a lot to explain about it especially to a typical person in my life. What would your suggestion to me based on what I said and your knowledge about chaos to clarity?

@supremeyingyang Sorry, I haven't read your response in a while because of the play (How to Survive Being In a Shakespeare Play). How do i convince myself to let go of traumatic failures in general and specifically for martial arts? This is probably because of my autism, but I get discouraged of trying to do martial arts if I see everyone else succeeding at it except for me. How do I stop comparing myself to others even if other people's performances get presented to me? Did you say that I should do it on the weekends? It would feel like a distraction from my homework even though I could theoretically limit my time for martial arts. Btw, what do you think about this post?

@Leo GuraSo profound!

@withinUverse

@Leo GuraWhy do you answer people's questions if it avoids contemplation? I see how important it is but how do your words help them do that or anything else (doesn't necessarily have to practical)?