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@ChristianGundtoft I know right, Leo seems to be slowing down. He said that he deleted the solipsism video to prevent spoiling "the dream" too much and maybe that is why he is producing content less or something. He is probably having some crucial insight or something He explained why he deleted the solipsism video on his blog but the video there disappeared TWICE, very strange!

@Someone here Leo said that he received a message on the forum from someone who also watched the same video who wanted to go back to her old ways, how come you are different? How come you can stomach the truth and what can I do now to be ready for it?

The first podcast that comes to mind is the Charlie and Ben Podcast.

What topics are worth reading on the forum? What is your favorite topic on the forum? How useful is the forum to you?

@Yarco Also, Leo said that anything that happens is how it must be. I didn't get to see the solipsism video and that is how it must be because it could mean that I am not ready for awakening. Therefore, it gives me another reason to take a break. After my break, I will try to read more books because my reading may not have been enough if I am being a spiritual devil through misinterpretation. NOW is the time for my break.

I think I mean Actualized.org as guidance for the spiritual practices. So you say that I am overthinking way too much as a spiritual devil and that I should go back to normal life. I have 2 problems with that: 1st, I have an objection about me overthinking the maze of life. There was this solipsism video that Leo deleted. What does this have to do with the maze of life? Well, I subscribed to Actualized.org and I still didn't see the solipsism video that could have awakened me even though I could have sworn I check my subscriptions regularly. Life would no longer be a maze if I can just watch some solipsism video to awaken and THAT is the intelligence of the maze since I didn't get to see it. There is at least one problem with this idea that supports you in your favor with me overthinking this: Other people watched the solipsism video and awakened while it was still available. This is not an objection to me having to take a break but to me overthinking since it's the explanation I have with making the video practical. Also, lacking a routine can be part of the maze because I am so lost. It could be because of lack of concentration due to heavy metals which are almost impossible to avoid and I think I am noticing symptoms of it. I can come up with more examples I have noticed but I want to move on to your next point: I agree that I need to forget everything spiritual, I need to forget that Leo lives a happier life and the solipsism video he deleted. There is at least one problem with this: How do I forget about spirituality if my life feels empty? This emptiness is simply preventing me from living life how it normally was. That's probably how I started using Actualized.org in the first place. I think that the emptiness came before Actualized.org which means it is not the cause for emptiness or maybe it is causing more of it. I can't really fully explain it to you, but something happened even before me using Actualized.org if I remember correctly that caused emptiness to occur and I simply don't know how to forget about spirituality.

Maybe this paradox is supposed to happen, but if that bubble only exists then how can anyone clarify if you are right? Your bubble does not seem that way from my POV but that difference between you and me is something I am imagining. Also, I think that Leo said this too many times so that should be more than enough "confirmation". Also, maybe I am turning these teachings into an ideology through the forum, should I just stop using it?

Also, how do I make Actualized.org fresh without starting over on my journey? Is my phycology just messed up somehow?

How did you get the insight if you said that you have no access to the video or phychadelics? It really seems like thinking is all I know how to do even though Leo made a list of things that I could do (although none of that will probably awaken me).

@Inliytened1 Also, to say that I am God out of Oneness just seems like pantheism, how is this above religion? Also, Leo made a list of what will NOT awaken me to God-realization on his blog and I am becoming impatient with knowing will WILL awaken me. Maybe I will regret awakening so maybe I "shouldn't" be so impatient just like with that person asking Leo how to go back to the illusion of life.

If there is no structure or hierarchy on the forum then should I just stop using it? Also, do you feel like you are helping people through the forum or is it just lost and spewed all over the place? Maybe I should just read more books which are more organized. I'm just stuck with the physical book(s) and PDFs that I have. I just want my own credit card without restrictions against what is beneficial (I wish I was taught this earlier but I guess I have to learn this myself in the meantime). I basically lost motivation to read books because of this limitation, what do I do? You have posted a lot on the forum, what is your favorite conversation? Also, how do I let go of wanting to see the video?

@Ananta I think that what you are saying is compatible with states of consciousness. Playing video games is a state of consciousness, working is a state of conscious and so is self-actualizing, organizing, prioritizing, etc. I think that this is the key here since sleeping is also an activity and a state of consciousness. I get it, you're giving me more basic advice, am I just being too abstract or am I actually on to something with making it practical?

@Inliytened1 Sorry, am I being too negative?

Also, I can't help but notice that I am being open-minded to awakening. Why is that? Someone else can be close minded for some other reason but that is not MY reason. Could this be one of the reasons for why free will does not exist?

@Inliytened1 If this is the crux of the teachings, then either I didn't read the conversation carefully enough or I should just take a break from Actualized.org. Leo has said many times that I am God and the difference with this deleted solipsism video is just unexplainable according to @Someone here. Honestly, I have lost concentration on contemplation, reading books, etc. Those things will not awaken me but I can't even do those things. Does that mean I am not ready to awaken?

I mean, if I don't get to have access to this video, should I just take a break from Actualized.org? Hearing all of these positive reports just makes me become more miserable.

@Someone here Well ,@machiavelli didn't get to see the video, and I feel sorry for him but at least I'm not alone and that Leo probably had good reasons from his blog even though I don't remember them right now. I thought that it was not possible to awaken just from one video so why would Leo make an entire course on awakening in the future? Is it possible for awakening to be too easy? Leo said that he does not want people to stumble on the video even if it's behind a paywall.

@Someone hereLeo said that this kind of consciousness work could take decades but this deleted solipsism video seems to be a major shortcut according to the reports, seems a bit far fetched. It seems like you are also parroting what Leo would usually say, how is this deleted video any different? Also, are you summarizing the video? I'm glad that I also found someone from this conversation who also didn't get to see the deleted video but even still, you are rubbing in that you saw if you are not summarizing even unintentionally.

@Ananta I think that time management is ultimately determined by my state of consciousness, what do you think? That does not mean I am avoiding responsibility but this could be an aspect of life being a maze or something. I could be overthinking this, but I think I am just applying what Leo said.

That should be possible but Leo talks about general and specific omniscience as if we cannot have both. Maybe I misinterpreted what he said, but enlightened people can be wrong about minor details.

So true, I was wondering the name of Leo's channel and I suddenly got one of his videos in my YouTube channel and now the direction of my life has changed ever since. Thank you for the reminder. Are you suggesting that predeterminism is true? I think of free will and pre-determinism as projections of my own mind depending on how you look at time and if desires are groundless or not. This is a big topic, I doubt I can explain all of this.

Where are the references to your channel? Obviously, you're not banned but I thought that you posted it based on people mentioning you a lot on this topic. I was guessing why you are not banned if your quotations and your channel could be seriously damaging spreading actualized.org (although I don't just blindly follow Leo like people normally would if this were a cult nor am I trying to defend him).

@Thought Art Who is Rob and why are you specifically asking him? You know, there was this conversation on the forum about someone seeing Andy which is my name. There are many Andys out there but although I don't remember the description of this person, it seems to fit me. I bring this up because Rob might be someone important to the conversation that I am missing out on.

@AdeptusPsychonautica Are you the one who posted the article against Leo? I'm not attacking you, just confirming. If you have, then are you not banned because Leo claims that there will be articles a lot worse against him?

Sorry, I don't want my post to be a distraction, do you think it's a distraction or is it relevant to the conversation? Is it being ignored?