Esilda

@RickyFitts OMG I am so tired right now I am getting up super early this morning 4AM!!!!! Thank you soooo much for your warm comments , they make starting my day so much easier. Pilates and yoga early start combined with a morning rush for early work before we start the day properly because I have paperwork to catch up on! .... ESILDA won't you spare a moment for your self care? I will share more pictures tomorrow @RickyFitts and so looking forward to this weekend in the caves!

@AndylizedAAY Ask any questions you please . I used to have a bit of a crush on Tony so I know allllllll about his work .

IMMEDIATELY thought of this !

Available friends and family?

@KennedyCarter ROFL! That made me laugh so hard!

Waitomo Glowworm Caves next weekend its going to be so lovely! Here in New Zealand!

More scenery, my mood of love

@Tim R

To my future man , Strongheaded, brave, creative, independent, innovative, ambitious and loving man. How do I make myself the object of your affections? To what lengths do I have to go to? What part of my soul do I have to open? Do I game you or am I to be completely pure? How do I get you to truly notice me? How do I get you to want to see into me? To be me? .... Sitting under the moon right now waiting for an answer from the universe. .... Underneath the stars... Won't you tell me your name?

Can't wait! Good luck!

Argentavis magnificens

@Marcel that energy will hurt you eventually be careful! Yeah just happy times here please we can talk about other stuff someplace else! , stay on love in this journal let's stay on love! My bird, my protector. This is a story about a magical bird that protects me. He is strong and warrior like, he has wings that span 20 meters and he is 10 meters tall. He is like an angel that is the protector of Earth and for whatever reason God assigned his duties to me to guide me on my path to higher love. When I am nervous, he calms me down. When I am angry, he stands by me. When I am crying, he lets me lean on me. His name is Cosmic. The bird who can fly around the universe looking for his duty of protection and to guide those he is helping towards a path of love. He helps me understand the energy of the universe, showing me the powers of my own body. No matter what emotion I am experiencing, he is a guide for me to become united with my higher self of love. Let the love he sends to me bring me closer to my calling, let the love I feel from his protective embrace withstand anything life throws at me. This is Cosmic Love The love that surrounds the entire universe, with wings that carry us all to the end of time with the sheer intensity of beauty that makes the universe full of joyful love. Vibrant is my heart , ascend my heart will with the greatest of natures beauty.

@Marcel Are you okay by the way darl? I am sensing like a really super negative energy, maybe I am just projecting or you triggered me because I have a very sensitive nervous system okay so it frightens me a little when I hear some stories like that is all. Be well okay, let's keep things positive

Brightening this place up

@Gabith I really don't think we need to spend too much time trying to see the beauty in dead animals. Just saying.

@Marcel baby love. This journal is on love. Loving the reading but where is the love? My mind is a garden and I want you to fertilise it with your life of love mr!!!!!! Just private mssg me stuff outside of love demon sir!

It really sounds like you've made a lot of progress reflecting on this @Vzdoh wishing you the best love

@Hulk creativity or investing in other peoples ideas?

what is even 'better' here when it comes to the wonders of the present moment? 'Sight' seems higher. .... love... green

how do we tune in better to mother nature, our creator? how do we tune in better to life happening all around us? how do we tune in better to ourselves and what is happening inside of us? how do we tune in better into every living being we come into contact with and what is happening with them outside of ourselves? how do we tune in better to space, immaterial, material, all of life and how do we tune into all the things that are barriers to our attunement? why do we do this? for what courses of action? what future, if any other than the beauty of this moment, are we trying to create if 'trying' is something at all relevant here? Sending love to everyone --- hoping this is okay by the way @Vzdoh wishing the best

@Marcel feel free to add your own pictures as well I will get back to your cmments as soon as I can, loving them!

If communication is a need of yours that is not being met I feel like what else can you do other than make your needs known and see if they're fulfilled or not fulfilled? There's no time for self-blame if you've honoured yourself, there's no time to come up with wonderful strategies that manipulate him into honouring your needs, there's just the simple case of... "I've expressed myself honestly and truly to my deepest needs and they have been able to be met in this way but not this way and this is how I'm/we're moving forward with it now." The thing I notice is that you said "maybe for him it is totally fine", which tells me you're feeling a barrier to even bringing up something as simple as communication with him, like there isn't just that clean runway where if there's something you'd like to talk about you can just bring it up and begin a conversation. That would be like resembling the characteristics to 10/10 communication and then as we decrease from there we're just looking at increasingly more distance and friction. Open hearts breaks closed minds and helps us clear the air and create commitment to another level of communication. I really do feel like there's a deeper level within you that needs to be communicated, it would be up to you all the ways that you decided you were going to have that need fulfilled . I feel like an honest conversation needs to be had on each others needs in the relationship and what you both can do to meet each other in the middle but with communication being low I don't know how low and all the barriers there I'm really feeling for you.

Sending some love to you as you seem a bit stressed reading your other forum starts as well

@Marcel reading evrything here now!