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Of course they oppose Trump and Putin. Europe is dependet on the US for survival though.

I "let myself go" a little bit and regularely buy brown lentil soup and baked beans. The ingredients list is minimal. The flavour and convenience is so much better though. Put half the lentil Soup in a glass bowl, smash an egg in it, microwave for 5 minutes and you have a solid meal. Ofc cooking it fresh would be better but I know I wouldnt do it as often then. Is it a big deal? How well regulated are cans nowadays?

That was a surprisingly nice coaching. Got a new technique for getting out of my head while coaching He also offered to give me more frequent coachings when I need it, next coaching will be in about 2 - 3 weeks .. My focus seems to be good (which is interesting), I am not viewing long enough before getting into the interpretation though which is the big thing. And my interpretation also isnt on point.

I just finished the LP course a few days ago. I have been thinking about this moment for quite a while as I started this course more then 2 years ago. Not that I get all the missing answers here but maybe some advice from more experienced folks who are already living their LP. I am 25 now and I live in germany. I have got inattentive adhd which made many things very difficult for me like concentration, dealing with emotions and social problems which indirectly also made other things difficult like finding study partners or getting help with emotional distress difficult. So basically I was always an emotional mess/ overtaxed/ semi depressed while getting nothing done and not understanding what was wrong with me. As a result I had difficulties answering many questions in the life purpose course because I experienced relatively little concrete success so far because I couldnt really take part in life as much. I feel like I have got as close to it as what would be possible with my blockades but I feel like the very thing that is my LP is something I cant see right now. I take meds now and it seems like many things are clearing up rapidly but and I do make quite the transformation. I feel more capable but not necessarily upgraded. The stars become less interesting and I see more immediate tasks ahead. I become a lot more concrete instead of abstract. Thats the best way I can describe it. I seem to manifest myself in reality. I was always very reflected and stuff but was like a wave without its own will it can force onto the world. I develop a sense of self now. It sounds pretty unconscious I know and I made the point myself that adhd (at least the inattentive type that I experience) makes you more conscious. But in taking my meds I can deal with reality at least. If I got emotional support/ grounding maybe I could do it without meds but currently I can only do it this way. So this situation is quite confusing atm. In terms of my career so far: teaching: I am in 10th semester of studying math and philosophy for middle school but only have enough points to complete like 4 semesters (you need 10 semesters in total) because of the emotional distress I was always in. I could probably do better with the meds now so it really isnt hopeless. I decided to study teaching though because I did some internship to see what I like and teaching was okay for a moment and I couldnt deal with the pain of being in a situation of uncertainty so I did the best thing I found at the moment which wasn't the most conscious choice. Also there is a bit of buffer as with this graduation I can do other things as well. Teaching isnt directly my Life Purpose I am pretty sure about that. But I would earn a lot of money per hour, can do it part time, have a lot of holidays and a class in school gives you many direct information to observe which can inspire you. A school class is basically a mirror of society, all the kids are just mini versions of what's to come. So that can help me understand society and psychology more which would deepen whatever I create with my LP. I already thought a little and am also teaching 5 hours per week atm and it's an okay job. So it wouldnt be my LP but it would have a good base to comfortable pursue my real LP. acting: Over the last two years I have been doing a lot of acting as a hobby which is a lot of fun but it took a lot of time and I am also thinking about doing this as a career path. It would give me a relatively unstable base though and it would probably just miss my LP. Learning to act itself is incredible fun but it can also be emotionally challenging which I might not be capable to do. My Life Purpose is generally a bit unclear to me. Being a critical thinker is very much part of my authentic self and I have also got a very creative mind because of my adhd. On their own or even combined they dont really give me a life purpose that I find meaningful. For example I always think critically but I dont see where this practically leads to. And I often come up with new start up ideas because as I love the creative process but when it isnt connected to something meaningful I loose interest in it. The closest I could with these two is working on series like Rick&Morty which comes close to feeling like a LP. But I think there is a last component, a last value that is blocked from my mind. Besides these top two values I also care about empathy, goodness, authenticity, but not enough about any of them to make a LP in combination with the two about them I think. I sometimes look in my past to where the last puzzle piece might be. I developed a very profound even mystical happiness as a kid as I think that I had mystical experiences in kindergarden. I really vibed with Jesus in that time as well. I felt like it would virtually be impossible to break my spirit because I was connected to something unbreakable. I even felt like I needed to go through some real shit, to be lost, to come out of it and from that place be authentically able to help other people. I had a feeling of calling back then. Well I am not quite back to my inner garden of roses yet. I did about 20 trips of psychedelics and never realized a mystical experience because I was in too much shit mentally I think. (interestingly never had a really bad trip either though) I formulated my LP rather vague. I couldnt find any formulation that deeply inspired because as I said I think there is some authentic part of me missing. Taking my reflection about my past and moments of reflection I feel like it has to do with healing, bliss, profound love, existential (healing), spirituality. But I cant completely make out if these things interest me because I feel like I have a lack of them (negative motivation) or if it is authentic. To make my LP more concrete I could reformulate it like this for example (but I am not sure about it): - giving people blissful spiritual experiences to make them more loving and conscious. - finding existential beauty and meaning in fucked up situations to make people more hopeful So with all of this I have no clear direction of where to go and I found out new things about myself/ unblock blockades and this is probably going on for months and years to come. All ways would help me move forwards. If I study to become a teacher that would be an acceptable path which would allow me to do lots of other stuff (LP) I am interested in as well but then I could never study to become a serious actor because I would be too old at this point. I would need to become more clear about myself and my values to see what I value most. A side thought is also to experiment with start ups (for money) as I have lots of ideas for them. Right now I am thinking of continue studying while giving myself time to process and I can on the side apply to acting schools. Chances of getting accepted are pretty low anyways and if I get accepted that would be a sign that I am quite talented. Design ohne Titel.pdf

At a festival I met a guy who had the appearence of a pirate. He would always push himself through the crowd and then do coke in the middle of everyone. Then he would do simple sexual dance moves like moving his hips back and forth. Basically offering coke and dick. It was the most absurd game I have ever seen. But for him in particular I could see how it could work. He had this wild appearence, some girls may like it, it was BDSM built into it. In fact I noticed that he got lots of attention and girls actually made short chit chat if they would want to take the offer. When he left the crowd I wondered if I could pull it off so I made the same sexual dance moves like him and everyone starred at me, so I left fast. You gotta find YOUR niche indeed.

Tomorrow I have another training session with my RV trainer. I dont like him. In the last email he gave me the wrong name. Not sure if that was intended. Complete red flag wtf, if I told that anybody. Well I dont really care how well we get along personally, I just need RV to work and for that the basis is still intact. It becomes increasingly hard to explain to myself that RV is real though. Whats saving me a bit is that it does seem like I am making some progress.

Whoohoo my new Body Doubling Launge actually works which is great.

I think thats hard to answer scientifically because the "pure introverts" will only be a small part of that group. Isolated or empathetic people will strongy correlate with many other unhealthy traits. Friends help immensely with material survival which is important to keep in mind as well. I think even if you are a strong introvert you need some kind of human connection, maybe less but still some of it.

Yeah .. it takes a lot of consciousness though to face the suffering head on and look for its cause. The cause is oftentimes deeply burried. Very easy to numb yourself beforehand. Oh yeah thats true. I think the number one predictor of longevity is actually having a good social life.

I sorta stagnated at this stage of development. I knew that eating healthy was a good thing and I felt great about archieving that. But I had a long way to go, I had tons of social, career and spiritual problems I was afraid of. Because they overwhelmed me so much I rather stuck to what I had success with before and chased the last 10% of health.

Do you have adhd?

Nice disclaimer. Maybe make a disclaimer for the disclaimer, that the disclaimer will be long but is important.

Yeah but its hunderds to thousands little "karmas" compared to a big one.

I want this to be a purely ethical discussion. Even if you are a pro meat eater you are welcome to participate in this discussion. Its not about what you should or shouldnt do, but to arrive at an answer of what would theoretically be more ethical to eat, insects or meat from farm animals. ... The main argument for eating insects over regular livestock is that insects seem to be a lot less sentient. On the other hand you need hundreds or thounsands of them to get the same calories as one livestock animal. There are different methods to kill them. The most humane one seems to be to freeze them, but there are pretty brutal ones from boiling them or roasting them alive. What has to be kept in mind is that insects are so different from humans, we likely have a lot of speciesism towards them, so that bias needs to be made conscious for a truthful discussion.

Partially its habit. You can also make flour or patties out of them. It could be part of the answer. Is animal ethics concerns not something universal, like the expansion of consciousness, in your opinion?

What I find so fascinating is that you cant really compare the sum of many little sentiences with one big one. You cant really compare 1 + 1 + 1 + 1 + 1 + 1 + ... < 830 (lets say a cow) Because all the 1s and the 830 is of a different quality alltogether and adding all the 1s together will not result in a 830, but in 830 1s if that makes sense.

You have to compare the new food pyramid to the USDA "MY PLATE" Version though, not the old Pyramid of the 70s. I feel like no Version really gets it, the 2010s version doesnt focus enough on healthy fats and the carb sources suggested are probably not the best.

Nice!

Survival goes on. Those two free trade zones are about to connect, making them less dependent on the US.

I did a decent amount of psylocibin trips and some they warm, insightful for my personal life but I never really reached mystical experiences. I always wanted to direct my intention to it but emotions and unfocus carried me away, especially because my survival situation isnt perfect. I also have adhd. The story was pretty different at a festival though where I was making out with a girl who gave me psyloibin chocolate. Maybe it was just because of the stimulation, but I was contemplating massively what truth is, how living without truth would feel like and all that wonderful stuff. I am wondering if I just always need a trip sitter, I basically always trip alone. Or if its just that my survival situation seemed handled at that moment so that I could relax into the spiritual domain.

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I once made a chocolate with a ton of coconut oil a couple of times when I was like 18 because I thought cocounut oil was a healthy oil. Maybe the only times in my life when I really felt like my heart health was in danger. That much saturated fat isnt good for you, a 18 year old shouldnt feel like he is close before a heart attack. That was my bodies signal.

Yeah fatty meat can be quite filling. Some carb sources can be as or even more filling though. Cheese and Eggs arent that filling per calorie, Steak is pretty good. There should be more studies on this: https://jarrellweightmanagementspecialists.com/wp-content/uploads/2021/11/Satiety-Index-of-Foods.pdf

It looks like it has 7 portions of veggies and 7 portions of fruit. Thats really solid. If you added more fibre, people would complain that they need to poo 3 times a day.