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Well big companies in America will have more power then ever so why wouldnt they be safe?

You raise an important point! Personally I don't think I want to be an enentrepreneur yet. It would put a lot of pressure on my work and would also put me on a survival bind where I have to create things which the audience wants to watch to pay me which would corrupt my work. I also need time to even find what I want to create and share with the world. Plus I dont think I could work on my creative endeavors full time. I need experience in the real world to fuel my ideas so why not with a job. But maybe marketing could be a viable career path to make money to built capital and then I could share my ideas. What was your path? - you seem to speak from experience.

I hope and think so. The question is what you do in the meantime. Yeah thats a good plan, I try to do that. I did a bit of acting, wrote a few theatre monologues/ scenes, I really want to draw a few pictures I have in my mind, ... It's a bit of both probably but I think the depression or semi depression from social problems came first. I also realize that I am a very empathetic individual and not having deep bonds with people who I can help seems to be hurting me. It's not my LP I think but still an important and meaningful part of my life so chicken and egg in one it seems. I also get a lot of grounding in return. The social problems are a giant energy consumer, if I manage them the world will look a lot better I think. It's just that I also highly value very authentic friendships and it's not easy to find those. Maybe I am also overthinking and I dont need them that desperately. I feel like I am a bit in a hedgehog situation if you know the analogy of Schopenhauer. Yes, from what I understand with existential bliss I give myself that. It kept me intact through quite the storms but because it doesn't always solve practical issues its not a solution alone. I go to a adhd self help group regularly atm and there are moments of feeling so accepted and understood that I get nowhere else. Thats the practical direction that helps me more atm. I think everybody has social anxiety to some extend Its better when you are used to socializing regularly. Adhd can cause you to overthink about certain things as you can get a hyperfocus on slight social fuck ups and stuff. Of course I won't take your advice as medical advice or something like this. I think my thread is a bit heavy to approach especially with all the depression elements added on top so I very much appreacitate all the effort.

I have just watched Tom Campbell on the Joe Rogan podcast and he talked a lot about paranormal phenomena. There are two main things this makes me think about: 1) Which role does experiencing these phenomena have in growing mankind's consciousness? It might get us out of our materialistic paradigm but it doesn't open us necessarily to deeper truths. But perhaps it's an important first step. And for non actualizers this might be just the perfect amount. 2) Which of the paranormal phenomena are the most promising in terms of being true and accessible? Remote viewing or telekineses if it is true might be the best as its easily verifiable and when you get even just a toe into it it can break a paradigm.

I see. But wouldnt you say a profound mystical experience tops that?

So if it wouldnt give you comfort and smell good you wouldnt do it? You cant make proper science with just your personal observation. And if wooden cookware would be that terrible that everybody would get sick because of it it wouldnt even get sold as it is easily replaceable. So of course I am talking about a relatively small benefit for health but still a no brainer because there is little to no downside in using stainless steel cookware.

Do you have hypochondria for cleaning your hands after you shit? There are just general rules of hygiene to follow which includes cooking wood utensils regularly if you use them.

Nah bacteria can easily spread on wood utensils they have to be cooked a lot to kills the bacteria. The benefits of non stick pans is that you cant really damage them so stainless steel utensils can be used with them.

I meant it more as a will to power. That other animals act more human is like the ultimate sign of dominance. So more of a selfish love for that. Or do you mean the part where the birds share rings? Well that is just part of survival I would guess.

I like the way the blog has developed in the last months, more text packed with understanding and insight and less distracting videos. But thats my bias.

I wonder if that feeling of wholesomeness is some disguised kick we get from a feeling of human superiority that we can humanize the whole planet. Anyway I share that feeling of wholeness to the extend that I possibly dont fully comprehend the underlying structure which created that positive reaction in the first place. I dont know why I write like a Asperger person right now but I enjoy doing so. I wonder if this discovery has broader application. If animals learned that they get a snack for a ring guaranteed maybe they would built strategies around rings. Thats such an interesting field to study. I thought many times how we could integrate animals into society, would be so cool. I thought about orang utan helping in kitas or some other social places. They seem to be very gentle. Or what if we consistently paid mouses to keep places clean, maybe that could work?

Wow there is so much depth in everything.

How much potential would you still credit "sober spiritual practices" for increasing happiness? It would be very interesting to hear an updated view on all the spiritual practices you talked about before the psychedelics phase as you could see so much maturing in the psychedelics phase, it would be interesting to see a similar matured view on the sober practices now.

Insane fame and success can make you ungrounded in your thinking. We as "normal folks" (I assume) would never comprehend that.

I watched a video series of the Presidents playing video games together. It was so braindead. I wonder what this does to my unconscious as the unconscious doesnt fact check, it just absorbs.

You don't have to be done yet when you are still in the middle of the life purpose. Then again I told myself the same thing and end up wasn't really satisfied with my answer but I did get a lot closer to it from what was possible I think.

The song from the blog is a remix from the songs of the life is strange series. It has many emotional songs in it. That fucking video game played a significant part in moving me into an emotional, deep feeling stage green person when I was like 19. When you get over the appearance that this is some kind of girls game and embrace the emotions of it it can break you. Give it a try when you are men enough!

Emotional-hurt-energy-converter-machine: A cage full of crocodiles and defenseless chickens. The chickens as intended get absolutely brutally slaughtered. A highly emphatic and moral person is forcefully strapped onto a chair to watch it. A highly advanced machine connects to the persons psychic energy. As the person watching the massacre feels empathetic, emotionally hurt and moral outrage this energy is immediately absorbed by the machine and gets converted into electric energy.

haha nice.

@TheGod that was a nice read. I hope I will get there some day as well. Have new passions/ another new sense of purpose opened up to you when you deconstructed many of your old ego fantasies?

@Twentyfirst damn thats super super interesting for reasons I dont fully understand I think. It really makes you aware that human values aren't something absolute they can be used by a predator to lure prey for example. It makes you aware what you as a human are in contrast. Imagine this deterrence keeps people from actually saving real humans. There is a case to be made to shoot these fuckers.

I changed my diet when I was like 17 and felt a huge difference. All sorts of little pains, brain fogs, bloats cleared a lot it was quite magical. Now the difference seems less noticeable. I was always skinny I never gained or lost weight when I had phases when I ate more or less junk.

Yeah but the talk is about relative beauty.

Okay so I think both perspectives are a bit dense here. Leo just jumped right in claiming to have good taste without explaining what he means by that. Taste is often considered as a perfect example of something very or almost completely subjective. So someone claiming their taste is better then the taste of others seems pretty arrogant and forceful. And so I experienced a similar sentiment to what Nilsi expressed though to a lighter extend. I also dont buy much into the idea of there being a strong objective component to great taste. But it's immature and unfair to dismiss all of Leos work so far because of one disagreement.

Well I always experienced psychedelic effects, a different state of mind just contributed to a different experience in the trip. Magic mushrooms are a natural product, maybe there wasn't as much psylocibin in the other ones, I have also made the experience that magic truffles (also contain psylocibin) loose much of their strength over time but it wasn't completely lost. So that contributes maybe. Do you take medication? You could also just try different psychedelics and see how they work for you like LSD.