Jannes

It hit a little weaker then the first time I heard it.

This whole accidently flirting thing had a bit of this dynamic: I was emotionally at unease and because of my poor impulse controll I looked for emotional support around me. Some people, some girls gave it to me but also got emotionally attatched from it. I never made the conscious choice that I want something from them and felt inner conflict for taking love and not giving something in return. Luckily this ciycle is kind of broken..

On my way on reading through the journal from the very start. This strikes me as worthed to highlight: